Days come and go in a hurry.

Suddenly, ten days have passed since the last time I went to find Meng Yuanhao late at night.

On Saturday evening, when Mo Zebei had just returned home and was about to wash his hands for dinner, he received a call from Meng Yuanhao.

"These days, I have been trying hard to communicate well with her, but the results have been minimal, and she still repels these topics and repels me," Meng Yuanhao frowned and sighed slightly discouraged. "Now , She has been in a cold war with me for two days."

Mo Zebei got up and walked upstairs, just to meet Mu Hanxi who was up and downstairs, she silently took this person's hand back to the bedroom: "Yuanhao, you mean you want me to go over and talk to her?"

"Well, this kind of private matter is not good for me to tell the elders in my family." Meng Yuanhao squeezed the beer can in his hand firmly. "In addition, she has always admired you. I thought, what you say she Maybe you can hear it."

Mo Zebei looked down and thought for a while, and finally responded, "Then you tell Li Rong, I will come to your house for dinner tomorrow afternoon."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Meng Yuanhao got up and went to the entrance of the study. He knocked the door gently twice.

Li Rong was inside, but probably because he didn't want to pay attention to him, he didn't answer for a long time.

Meng Yuanhao took a slow breath, then pushed the door directly in.

Li Rong's body was straight and beautiful, and he was sitting quietly reading a classic book.

Meng Yuanhao cleared his throat, walked to her, palms facing up, and pointed at the table.

Li Rong looked away from the book and glanced at him.

"Zebei will come to our house for dinner tomorrow night, remember to prepare."

Meng Yuanhao didn't miss the brilliance that flashed in this person's eyes, and an unspeakable astringency burst into his chest. After biting his molars, he swallowed the extra words into his stomach and left lonely. I am very lonely.

After two o'clock in the morning, Meng Yuanhao hadn't rested yet. Because the lights were not turned on, the dark night filled the room. He sat leaning against the wall, looking haggard, with a cigarette in the corner of his mouth, and taking a sip from time to time to relieve the depression and melancholy in his heart. The burning sporadic fire light was his only comfort in the dark night.

On the second day, Mo Zebei arrived as promised.

Without a smile on his face, Meng Yuanhao sat there straight, staring at the rich dishes on the dinner table in a daze.

Mo Zebei lightly touched his elbow when he saw the situation, and whispered aside: "Move the chopsticks, what are you doing stupidly."

"This is my house, you don't need to let me..." Meng Yuanhao held back his sour nasal cavity forcefully, and gave a dry smile.

After pulling half a bowl of rice indiscriminately, Meng Yuanhao put down his chopsticks. He deliberately put on a relaxed posture: "There is still something to be done in the store. I'll take a look. You two will continue to eat."

"Yuan Hao..." Mo Zebei realized that his expression was not right, and called him aloud.

Meng Yuanhao turned his head and tried to squeeze out a few smiles: "I'll come over when I'm done, and we'll talk about it again when I'm done."

He turned it off when he left the door, did not take the car key, endured tears and ran through the crowded and flickering streets.

He just wanted to have a warm little home of his own to make up for the regrets of his native family. It was so difficult and unsatisfactory. Being disappointed when he was in love, and left out after marriage, suddenly felt that the huge world did not have a place to comfort his soul.

I don't know how long he has passed, he gasped in a hurry, knelt down under a banyan tree with tears streaming down his face, and looked at the dark sky in the distance, shouting and roaring angrily.

After dinner, Mo Ze NATO took Li Rong to the study.

"What book are you reading recently?" Mo Zebei asked casually when the two sat down face to face.

"Chu Ci." Li Rong looked a little cautious, as if he couldn't let go.

Mo Zebei followed this topic and chatted with her for a while, and finally revealed the purpose of this trip.

"Yuan Hao told me about the two of you."

Li Rong's gradually relaxed expression began to tighten after hearing this sentence, and it became more and more ugly and bleak.

Mo Zebei lowered his head to hold his cup, drank the refreshing tea, and gave him enough time to react.

After a long while, Mo Zebei spoke softly: "Do you mind telling me what you think in your heart?"

Li Rong firmly grasped the edge of the table facing the ground, his fingertips turned white, and his eyes showed pain.

Seeing Li Rong’s reaction, Mo Zebei knew that this person must be unspeakable. She slowly placed the celadon cup on the table: "If you don’t want to say it now, then another day, or..." She wanted to suggest This person turned to a professional psychologist.

Before she finished speaking, Li Rong bit her lip and looked at her.

Mo Zebei paused, rubbing his right knee subconsciously with his fingers.

"Can you keep a secret for me temporarily?" Li Rong looked sad, "I don't want him to know now."

Mo Zebei nodded solemnly: "Okay, I promise you."

The windows in the room were closed tightly, blocking the noise and excitement outside.

"I was born in a remote village in the south. Before my father had an accident, my family was still harmonious and happy," Li Rong hugged her arms and closed her eyes, speaking in a low voice, "It's just that misfortune in life is unpredictable. I followed a few people in the same village to other provinces and worked on a construction site. One day, there was a sudden thunderstorm and heavy rain. I helped my mother hurriedly clean up the dried buds on the ground. At this time, Mrs. Lin from the small shop in the east of the village came here in the rain. , Told our father’s workmate that he called and said that he accidentally fell from a high altitude and broke his right leg, and asked to send someone there. From that moment on, there was no peace at home."

"The black-hearted boss delayed my dad's best time for treatment, causing him to lose his right leg forever and become disabled for the rest of his life..." Li Rong's eyes were red, and tears slid out from the corners of his eyes. "The pillar of the house fell. This is undoubtedly worse for families that are not wealthy."

"Since that incident, my dad has abandoned himself for half a year, and our family's status in the village is getting lower and lower. But thinking of my young brother and my mother who was crying all day long, he slowly cheered up. Later, my mother went out to work, and he took care of my brother and me at home."

"Life seems to be gradually becoming hopeful. If those disgusting things don't happen..." Li Rong put his arms on the wooden table and buried his face. "The nightmare starts at the age of ten. , On the way home from school, I was dragged into a barren hill by a gangster in the village who had been in and out of the bureau many times. I was molested by him... Afterwards, I was threatened by him, so I dare not tell the inconvenience. My father, dare not tell anyone... countless miserable nights, I have been secretly wiping tears, I feel very dirty, I even..." Speaking of which, Li Rong's body trembled uncontrollably, shivering, and her voice choked, "I even wanted to die, suicide, and escape from this terrible world, but I couldn't bear my parents, and I didn't want them to cry for me... .."

Mo Zebei's eyebrows shook when she heard the sound, and at the same time extremely indignant, she tried to suppress the turbulent emotions in her heart, and walked over and stroked her shoulders.

"Later, he carried out several indecent assaults on me again," Li Rong bit his lip, tears bursting from his eyes, mixed with blood from the corners of his lips, "When he was thirteen years old, he raped/raped me... .. In the years that followed, I couldn’t remember how many times. Fortunately, my body was thin and lacking nutrition. I didn’t have menstruation, so I didn’t get pregnant.” Li Rong put his head on Mo Zebei’s lower abdomen. Then, clutching the corners of her clothes hard, "It wasn't until half a year later that he killed someone by mistake and went to jail again. This kind of insult and torture is over..."

Mo Zebei clenched his fists and bit his back teeth, but couldn't calm the anger in his heart.

"I hate that place, and hate those memories and the past that are full of humiliation," Li Rong's chest was violently up and down, "So I worked hard to study, came to City B, and finally got away from the one that made me wake up crying every day. The land of nightmares."

Mo Zebei stroked her hair, giving silent comfort.

Li Rong gradually calmed down her excitement, she wiped away her tears, looked at the void, and whispered: "I know I'm sorry Yuan Hao, I have concealed a lot of unbearable past from him."

Mo Zebei pressed her shoulders, his lips moved, and finally fell silent.

"I've never been in a relationship before, and being with him was totally an accident..." Li Rong lowered his head, "When I was working in KTV, he helped me out and gave me warm protection. And help, except for my father and younger brother, no opposite **** has treated me like this."

Mo Zebei sat next to her and listened to her quietly.

"After some contact, I gradually developed a good impression of him, and was moved by his sincere emotions. My heart that had been closed for many years seemed to finally have a crack. I thought I could have a new life," Li Rong trembled. "But after we confirmed our love relationship, I realized that the dark haze still existed in my heart... Whenever Yuan Hao deliberately expressed closeness to me, those fragmented ones would always unconsciously appear in my mind. The humiliated scenes will uncontrollably produce physical disgust, and even want to vomit."

Mo Zebei narrowed his eyes, but still didn't say a word.

"I was very contradictory at the time and wanted to break up, but I was not reconciled to the end of my life. In addition, I was very reluctant to be kind to me." Li Rong's mouth was a bit bitter, "I lied to him and said that I am a man. A conservative girl cannot accept the intimate behavior before marriage. Not only does he have no doubts, but he respects me very much. He has never overstepped the rules." Li Rong turned his head and looked out the window. Feeling guilty and uneasy, suffering like a fire, so I broke up with him several times, but every time he sincerely stayed, and didn't want to give up, so it ended in the end."

"You also know that he is very eager for marriage and family, and I tried hard to satisfy him," Li Rong slowly turned his eyes and looked at Mo Zebei, "I originally wanted to get more time to resolve through graduate school. I lost my demon and pain, but he disagreed... Then I stupidly wondered if I would get married, and there would be a turnaround? Let me both legally, conceptually and morally. It belongs to him completely," she said, closing her eyes weakly. "As a result, before marriage, I accidentally learned from my parents that the gangster who insulted me was released... I was really scared at the time. I was desperate. I wanted to escape to a place where no one knew about me, but I couldn’t bear to hurt my parents and hurt him. The wedding was held as usual, but I knew that my unknowingly rotten and pus-filled wounds broke again. It's opened, and it's hard to heal..."

Mo Zebei walked slowly under the moonlight, and Li Rong’s last words sounded in his ears: "Do you know Mo Zebei? Before experiencing the humiliation, the dream and ideal in my heart is your current and future life. An outstanding scientist who has devoted himself to the motherland and society, and has his own happy family... It’s just that life’s experiences are different. You can live in the sunshine cleanly and purely as a girl, but I can only live in the dirty Licking the wound in the gutter, silently looking up at you."

Mo Zebei stopped suddenly, looked up at the starry sky, and finally sighed deeply...

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