Became an Academy Spearman

72. strong will

***

it’s tough.

The body is heavy.

I want to give up.

I want to put the spear in my hand… as it is.

These were the feelings I felt within the first 30 minutes of starting a sparring with Carly.

No, it could be said that it was a feeling that rose up in my heart.

No matter how determined I was, no matter how much I wanted to fight and train with her… I felt like my body was trying to betray my will.

The feeling of complaining of extreme fatigue and whispering in my ear to stop.

“…”

Still, he bit his lip.

I had to deal with the mind that was trying to be indolent and the mind that was weak.

“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. Let’s rest for a while.”

Suddenly, Carly pointed her sword down and was considerate of me, but immediately shook her head.

Even in the blurry gaze, I forcibly held on to my will.

“A little more… I can do it. Dalian please.”

Now, the temptation to put down my heart to her consideration and put down the window overwhelms me.

By the way.

I thought I had to get over this.

It shouldn’t have been like this already.

If I let go of my heart by relying on kindness and goodwill, this heart, which I made up my mind with difficulty, will weaken at once.

I felt it intuitively.

the desire to give up. Right now I have a desire to take a break.

That I should be able to take one more step, two more steps. Only then can I move forward.

“Are you really going to be okay?”

“Yes. it’s okay.”

While answering with difficulty, he squeezed the mana that had risen a little and wrapped it around the spear.

ㅡ!

I took a very small breath as I watched the faint blue light wrap around my spearhead.

At my words, I kicked the ground as I looked at Kali, who raised her sword again.

Eliminating distracting thoughts, he forcibly injects only one thought into his mind.

‘Put out the window.’

stab like that go ahead

I forcibly encourage my body to betray my will.

Shuuk!

Then, the tip of the spear blade advanced in a straight line.

It wasn’t that fast at all compared to the first time. But it meant that I could move on.

visor!

Intense sparks fly from the sword body that cleverly met the spear blade.

And right away, my spear blade bounced loudly, but it didn’t matter.

It was a spear that I fired with the thought of hitting it, so I immediately rotated my body as if using the anti-elastic force.

And spears faster than before.

ㅡ!

faster than before.

And I saw Kali swinging her sword again at the speed of the spear.

The hand that was still moving quickly, the sword that was swung so lightly had surprisingly strong power.

Chaeeng!

The speed at which the spear was struck was faster than before.

ㅡㅡㅡ!!

It was even more difficult to shed that power, as if a subordinate with a large arm came following the protruding spear.

Still, I forced myself to step.

Seruk!

Using his right foot as the axis, he rotated his body again, and this time he swung his spear wide horizontally.

—-!

The spear, which swung swiftly as if splitting the air, aimed at her leg.

And at that moment, I caught the eye of Carly’s hand pointing down like light.

little.

I began to see the path the sword was heading, even if it was very little.

Now I’m not one step ahead.

It was nothing more than… taking my feet off the ground and preparing to step on them.

It’s a weak level to say that it’s a step.

Still, I thought it was meaningful.

‘Because I have always been a human being.’

It was only when I was having such a hard time and my heart was greatly weakened that I finally felt like I could see the path.

So. We hold on to our weakened hearts even more…

‘Forcibly face each other.’

Chae Ae-Aeng!

I had to keep swinging my spear and running into it.

At the end of endless encounters. If I can take the right step… that will be the answer.

…

After that, I didn’t know how much I swung and stabbed the spear and ran into Kali’s sword.

However, it was clear that it did not last very long.

Because Kali’s ability to cut my spear grew stronger as time went on. Miraculously, I pierced the sword and my spear never touched her.

It’s really… a miracle. No, because it’s impossible to happen.

Seruk.

The sensation of the cold water bottle in my hand gave me a strange feeling.

There is really no strength in the body.

The arms that held the spear went down and trembled just by holding the water bottle like this.

Even now, Carly is forced to stop sparring and is resting like this.

Unknowingly, I looked back on my previous training.

‘Wouldn’t it have been enough for me to take a step?’

Even though he took a small breath, he smiled in his heart.

‘Maybe I’m overly greedy.’

I still want to keep growing. Such a desire fills the heart endlessly. It was supporting my will more strongly than the desire to give up and put it down.

The fact that I grew to level 4 in the last battle with Leonhardt… was like a big stimulant to me.

Because I can never forget the feeling of that moment.

The feeling of growing and moving forward… .

“…”

With a burning thirst, he struggled to lift his water bottle. As I slowly lifted the water bottle, my hand continued to tremble.

Seruk.

Then, without realizing it, the strength in my hands was drained, and I felt sorry.

I could clearly see the water bottle slipping out of my hand.

‘ah… .’

That time when I was just blankly anticipating what would happen next.

snap.

My eyes went blankly to the pure white hand that was overlapping my hand.

My hand, which should have let go of the water bottle due to exhaustion, was put on my hand by Carly so that I could grab it again with strength.

“thank you.”

“Thank you… Cadet of Han Chun-seong. Are you having a hard time right now?”

I shook my head slowly at the voice of Carly who asked cautiously.

It’s hard even to nod, but I didn’t want to show her that it was tough. She was taking time to hang out with me now.

However, I thought it was rude to show her that I was tired and that I was having a hard time.

“it’s okay.”

He spoke forcefully, focusing on his hands and slowly bringing the water to his mouth.

Following Carly’s hand, which naturally loosened, I was able to drink water within no time.

Gulp. The water that flowed through my mouth was really, indescribably delicious. While the cold water seemed to wake up my drowsy mind again, it was as if I was addicted to drinking water at this moment when my thirst was quenched.

“Whoa… .”

As soon as I almost emptied the water bottle and set it aside, laughter leaked out.

More than any other food, drinking water when feeling this great thirst was the most delicious. It was so amazing that it made me laugh out loud. I felt a deep gaze.

“…”

When Carly blinked at me, she thought I was being rude.

“…I showed ugliness.”

“No, rudeness, that kind of thing… no.”

I thought while keeping my eyes on Carly who immediately shook her head at my words.

‘He’s a really nice person.’

I thought so involuntarily.

Seeing my ugliness like this, Carly smiles at me and tells me that it is not. Besides that, I felt her goodwill and kindness everywhere.

As long as I didn’t do anything Carly didn’t like, Carly was such a nice person.

A woman who is upright, just, and good… a woman who firmly adheres to her values.

So today it suddenly struck me as funny that another cadet looked pitifully at the fact that I had to spend it with her.

‘This is a really great perk.’

Carly caring so much for me was something I just had to be thankful for.

Rather than training with a spear alone in the training ground, I can look ahead and move forward because there is an absolute strongman called Kali now.

Being able to train with a clear direction gives me great strength.

I can test my will, and I can be aware of the strength of the armament I encounter every moment when I swing my spear.

Against her, who will compete for the top spot with strength within the academy.

It was like a luxury that other cadets could not afford, no matter how much they paid.

‘okay. So. Let’s do better.’

When she grants me this kind of favor, it was absolutely right for me to think of what Carly would like to do and adjust accordingly.

I should treat her with more kindness and express my gratitude.

The car that met Kali’s eyes while making a promise in her heart.

“……”

Carly suddenly averted my gaze.

Even though it seemed odd to me, I didn’t take it seriously.

‘…well, I don’t think I’m talking about my appearance.’

My appearance would be really messed up due to the continuous sparring, so if the cadet looked at me like that, it might be burdensome for me as an instructor.

I also opened my mouth slowly while recovering my gaze.

“Then Instructor. Please fight again.”

“…Cadet Han Chun-seong?”

“I think I’ve had enough rest.”

It had only been a few minutes, but I felt like I could hold the spear again.

Then, if I could hold a spear, I thought I could fight again.

when the body has reached its limit. I want to push that body to its limits.

Now a strong desire arose from me.

***

Chae Ae-Aeng!

Intense sparks flew and the spear ricocheted.

This time, a spear flying through the air. It was a natural result because I put my strength into it on purpose.

Let’s look at the cadet Han Chun-seong as it is,

dump.

It was only then that I could see him sinking to the ground with his staggering body.

Even so, when he tried to get up somehow, I moved quickly.

“Cadets of Hancheon Castle.”

“…Yes.”

Even though I reached right in front of me, Cadet Han Chun-seong was not looking at me.

Even that answer was powerless.

Cadet Han Chun-seong had his eyes on the spear that was now out of his hand.

Looks like I need to hold the window again.

It seems like we have to continue this sparring… .

Even though he was so admirable… I carefully put my hand on Cadet Han Chun-seong’s shoulder.

“Let’s stop now.”

“I can do more… .”

“no. If you try to push yourself further with that body, it will only backfire.”

Even though he opened his mouth resolutely, he could not continue the sparring. It was obviously unreasonable, and it was a limit.

However, Cadet Han Chun-seong continued to hit me with a spear, burning his will.

…He kept knocking on my heart as if he was going to show me why I decided to favor Cadet Han Chun-seong.

“…”

Even as I met eyes with Cadet Han Chun-seong, who blankly turned his head to me at my words, my heart was shaken for a moment.

It seemed that a strong light could be seen between the blurred eyes.

still hadn’t given up. The desire to continue fighting more.

‘how… .’

Can you make your heart this strong?

Any other cadet would have given up fighting with me long ago. It must have been not long after he started sparring with me.

I could be sure of that.

I’ve never been treated softly in sparring with cadets.

Rather, the more I encountered the sum, the stronger I was on the side of pushing the cadet Han Chun-seong.

Because I thought it would be more helpful to the cadets.

“……”

As the eyes of the cadet Han Chun-seong suddenly closed, he inadvertently blinked.

I had to urgently receive the body of the Han Chun-seong cadet who was about to collapse.

Seruk.

I was very surprised to see him fall into my arms, but I couldn’t help but accept him.

“…Cadet Han Chun-seong?”

I asked in a surprised voice, but there was no answer from him.

The profile of Cadet Han Chun-seong, leaning against my chest and exhaling lightly…

My body seemed to have frozen.