Became an Academy Spearman

81. growing pains

***

clap.

At the sight of nature closing the door and disappearing, Kali hesitated at that moment.

—-I want to capture the cadet Han Chun-seong.

In an instant, I was overcome with such a desire. But that only stays on her mind. not expressed outwardly.

“……”

Carly, left alone, blankly brushed her red hair.

‘Why do you think that… .’

My mind was so strange. I was suddenly feeling confused.

I feel like something is out of my mind.

There was nothing wrong with my favoritism towards Cadet Han Chun-seong. Because I decided to do it earlier. Maybe it’s because it’s my first time as an instructor. I kept feeling over-exaggerated.

I want to lead the Cadet Han Chun-seong according to my thoughts, and I have a desire and desire to pave the way.

I hope that the steps taken by Cadet Han Chun-seong will be the right path I think, and I hope that I will move on to the honest path. That’s why he reacted sensitively to rumors about Cadet Han Chun-seong.

It was the same with the previous Luna cadet, and the rumor about a female cadet named Karite that he encountered today.

Because you show too much interest and reaction.

And in our previous meeting, I had decided to treat Cadet Han Chun-seong better.

That’s why I was able to endure today.

Without showing the cadet Han Chun-seong his cold side or anything else.

“It didn’t show on the outside… it probably wouldn’t.”

Then, in a daze, I looked back at today’s me.

Throughout the lecture, I tried my best not to show coldness or foolishness to Cadet Han Chun-seong.

And I thought I did pretty well. He didn’t show that kind of sign, but the feeling was just strange.

—-Because I also decided not to look at the relationship between students negatively.

Before we parted ways, I pretended to be okay by saying that to Cadet Han Chun-seong, but my heart wasn’t like that at all.

Even though it was said, it seemed that the heart was strongly denying it, as if rebelling against it.

That had been disturbing my heart until Cadet Han Chun-seong left.

“ha… … .”

Even as I let out a sigh, I felt like a fool.

Oddly enough, there were a lot of rumors about cadet Han Chun-seong being entangled with female cadets. Even so, he knew that Cadet Han Chun-seong was not a poor quality cadet.

He knew enough well enough to assert that he was not a man who was often a prostitute, chasing after female students.

‘Yes, Cadet Han Chun-seong is not that kind of student at all.’

…I just got involved with the female student by chance, and even today, when talking about the female student named Karite, she even showed her innocence.

To the point where I could feel the sincerity when he said that he was worried about the female students.

But… why am I thinking such stupid things?

The answer was so easy.

“Because I don’t want Cadet Han Chun-seong… to date.”

The right path of the Cadet of Han Chun-seong, which I hope. There is no love on that road. Love shouldn’t get in the way.

Of course, there are cadets who develop while dating, but that was extremely rare. As an example, one in a hundred. so hard to find.

I wondered what was so hard about accepting that even while gently biting my lip.

“Really, I am very stubborn.”

I kept trying to change my values and trying to accept them, but it wasn’t easy at all.

It would be really unpleasant to see a cadet who was supposed to favoritism fall in love.

However, to keep denying it… It seemed that friction would continue to arise between Cadet Han Chun-seong and me.

Being an instructor, trying to interfere with each student’s emotions is really ridiculous… .

Suddenly, Esia, the same instructor, came to mind.

ㅡThe feeling of love is so natural that I can’t stop it even if I try to stop it.

Saying that there is no point even if the instructor tries to suppress it. I understand with reason, but the heart was the problem.

If cadet Han Chun-seong hangs out often with other female cadets, of course you can’t help but feel that way.

“That… will I be able to accept it?”

If a cadet who pays so much attention and wants to progress well goes the wrong way… I wonder if I can tolerate it.

swish

He sighed and shook his head.

It was still premature. It’s up to the cadet Han Chun-seong to do. Then all I can do is just watch him grow.

I already said it was okay, so I had to watch ‘for the time being’.

***

training ground.

Even though it was a different time in the evening, Cheonseong was at the training ground.

Shuuk! Chaeeng!

The blade of the spear that cut through the air hit the scarecrow made of steel.

And such a shrill ringing resounded regularly thereafter.

Such Han Chun-seong’s eyes were looking straight at the blade of his spear, and naturally, several cadets gathered at the training ground to see Han Chun-seong and then disappeared repeatedly.

And as Han Chunseong’s training showed no signs of changing no matter how much time passed, all the cadets who were watching out of curiosity had disappeared before they knew it.

… .

It was only when the night got deep that Han Chunseong was able to retrieve the spear.

Even that, with his entire body covered in sweat, he looked very tired to anyone’s eyes… .

“ha… .”

I was dazed even though I was breathing heavily.

Keeping hitting the scarecrow made of steel meant that both arms holding the spear were subjected to heavy load, causing both arms to numb.

Arriving at the training ground late, how many hours did he devote himself to training?

I absentmindedly checked the time, it was time for the cadet cafeteria to close.

dump.

Even as he sat down in his seat, his whole body felt as heavy as wet cotton.

Even though I know that I have to leave the training ground, my feet do not fall because of deep regret.

‘I have to become stronger.’

I have to become a little bit stronger.

What I learned from today’s conversation with Carly came as a great shock. Because I think I have to protect Karite somehow. All I could think was that I was still too weak.

The enemy I have to face is a monster classified as a super-dangerous species, such as an apostle.

The possibility that there would even be a beast to cooperate with such an apostle, and the fact that Karite will face a mysterious death next week and be used as a sacrifice.

It all seemed to weigh on my heart.

Even the future I know I can’t tell anyone.

No matter how much I thought about it, there was no reason to convince anyone who would listen to me. In the end, all I could think of was that I had to do it.

I have to protect Karite, and I have to prevent a big accident from happening.

So.

“I must… become stronger.”

I forced myself to hold on to the window.

The way I was going was now evident.

Compared to what I kept thinking about yesterday, the path I was going to take was clearer now.

—-You have to become stronger.

‘I didn’t have to neglect training just because I cared about Karite.’

Rather, I had to devote myself to training more than before.

You have to have much greater power than you do now to be able to cope with what will happen in the future.

Took. Seruk.

A light breath leaked out as she raised herself up using the spear pole as support.

The deadline is next Wednesday, and now there is only a week left. There was no time for this.

again.

Then I saw Instructor Ludmina approaching me.

“Agar Cadet?”

“Oh, I’m leaving now.”

“okay. And doing too much is not good for the body. Let’s go back today and get some rest.”

He smiled awkwardly at the training instructor’s voice and nodded.

that buck

As soon as I came out of the training ground, I saw a world completely saturated with darkness.

growl Even on an empty stomach.

“……”

I took a deep breath and continued walking.

…

Seruk. Seruk. With the sound of lightly brushing the bushes. The bright moonlight softly illuminates the park.

I had arrived at a park that was neither a restaurant nor a dormitory.

“Let’s practice a little more…”

I know that a person’s will becomes power in this world. Then I had to look further ahead now that I had reached my limit.

that buck

When I arrived at a relatively deserted place in a large park, I slowly unhooked the spear on my back.

Grabbing the spear in his hand again, the coolness unique to the iron cage felt even greater today.

“…”

Taking a slow breath, I put my eyes into the empty space without anything.

He raised the tip of his spear, facing the darkness in which even the moonlight rarely shines.

Shuuk!

Lightly release the force from the throwing spear and retrieve it, while taking a step forward and firing the spear.

The time of swinging the extremely heavy spear continued again.

When the spear makes a sharp sound as it crosses the air, as if forming a large stream, the force swings the spear so that it does not stop in the air.

And in less than 10 minutes, the body complained of the pain as if it were creaking.

In addition, due to an empty stomach, it felt more difficult than usual to even apply strength from the hand holding the spear.

Being conscious of everything, it doesn’t stop.

‘I’m determined to be stronger.’

Rather, as if whipping me more, I wielded it somehow to wield the spear even forcibly.

impatience. I knew that there was a feeling of impatience in my heart.

Trying to do something in such a short amount of time, and not getting the right results.

By the way. I felt like I had to do something like this.

I felt like I would regret it greatly later when I went back to the dormitory, slept, and faced the next day.

I should have tried harder. Did I really try to be strong? It seemed that he would go and reprimand me then.

Shuuk!

At the sharp sound cutting through the air, I lightly retrieved it as if I was releasing the power in the hand holding the spearhead.

Looking at the window that cut through the air again, I suddenly went crazy with a thought.

“…If only I could acquire the skill.”

If I can learn my skills by next week, wouldn’t I be able to achieve greater growth than anything else?

After using that concept in the last fight against Gerard. I was deliberately self-conscious.

[Pokes a point and twists]

If only I could get a special concept with the right skill… … .

gulp.

Swallowing my saliva, I slowly retrieved the spear.

“……”

I breathed in very slowly.

It was worth taking the risk, in order to tidy up the extremely tired body a little bit.