Before My Withering – 12

Translator: Eyljee

Through the deep and narrow corridor, Qi Shu twisted the innermost door and threw me in. 

Fortunately, the floor of the room was covered with a long woolen carpet. It didn’t hurt when I fell down.

“Looks like yesterday’s lesson wasn’t enough, you still have the strength to be slutty.”

Qi Shu took off his tie and threw it away. He then kicked me on my side waist.

“You’ve grown up, even dared to seduce Zhou Chen.”

The kick was so powerful that I curled up in pain, not doubting that if it had been a little more off, he would’ve broken my ribs.

“No…”  The drilling pain made me struggle to even complete a sentence, “It’s not… what you think…. ” 

“No?”

Qi Shu stepped on my shoulder and flipped me over, so I could face him. “Exchanging flirty glances in front of me, do you think I’m blind?” 

I didn’t know if it’s for physical or psychological reasons. My heart twinged, as if a sharp blade stabbed me one at a time. In and out. 

Why does he never believe me? 

“Xiao Yu, why are you so cheap?” 

The hard sole of his shoe almost broke my collarbone. I clenched my teeth to keep myself from screaming out in pain.

“No…” 

My defense didn’t make any difference. Qi Shu still spared no effort to humiliate me with the most unpleasant words. 

“You stick to an alpha when you see one. What’s the difference between you and a female anImal in heat?” 

“No wonder you’re so anxious to leave me. Heh, Zhou Chen, Wen Yan,and  the one surnamed Xu. How many more people do I not know?” 

“It’s hard for you if no one’s fucked you for a day, right? You don’t see your ghastly self in the mirror? Do you think that someone will want a cheap, rotten bitch who’s been badly played with?” 

 …. 

It hurts…

How come it hurts so much?

I didn’t know if it’s because of what he said. I just knew that I was a blind fool ×.

Qi Shu still hadn’t vented his anger. He kicked me specifically in the vulnerable places. Our physical strength was very different. If he wanted to torture me, I could only endure.

I protected my belly and tried my best to get up. Kneeling on the floor with my hands propped up, I bent over and gasped for breath.

There was the fishy sweetness of blood in my throat. My lip also had bite marks. 

Everything in front of my eyes were blurry, as if someone had installed a high-powered motor in my head, and the roar was deafening. 

Every part of my body ached.

At some point I even felt that my soul was trying to break away from my physical body. They were tearing each other apart, neither wanting to spare the other.

The spirit pleaded, please let me go.

The flesh laughed and shook its head. No, you must stay and suffer with me.

I coughed violently.

My lungs felt like they were on fire, and every cough was a burning pain. 

Heart hurts, stomach hurts.

What did I do wrong for Qi Shu to do this to me? 

“It’s hard for you…” I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, “I’m so rotten, yet you’re willing to have sex with me.” 

Then I thought of when Xu Xingze said to me, “It’s good that you don’t regret it.” 

I thought I’d never regret it. 

I thought that even if Qishu didn’t like me, it wouldn’t lead to hatred. But now he made me feel that he’s very anxious to kill me.

Qi Shu is out of breath. He looked at me condescendingly, his gaze is no different from looking at a dirty and smelly stray dog. 

“It’s not up to you to tell me what to do.” He said. 

I had no energy left. I wanted to sleep so badly. 

“Qi Shu…” I discussed with him wearily, “Look at me now…. My body isn’t fresh, and my face isn’t good-looking…. How about you just, you just let me go… Let’s, cough… let’s part without hard feelings…”

――If possible, it would be even better not to even have “good feelings”. Time went back to that summer-like early autumn, when I gave him a bouquet of flowers after saying “Hello, senior” and then never saw him again.

I didn’t know which word had offended him. Qi Shu’s eyes suddenly became even more frightful than just now. 

He squatted down and grabbed me by the neck and asked, “You still want to run?” 

He didn’t restrain his strength. I even heard a ghastly crack. 

Unable to speak, the lack of oxygen made my brain blank and my consciousness lapsed. 

The second before I was about to die, QI Shu released me. Fresh air rushed into my nasal cavity in large quantities, and I couldn’t help but cough.

So he really wanted to kill me.

It was as if I had become a weightless pocket of rags. I was easily picked up by him and dragged into the inner room.

I didn’t know what the Qi family had been thinking. In such an ordinary room, a basement was built.

Sensing what he was going to do, a great fear instantly engulfed me. 

“Don’t… Qi Shu, please ……” 

However, he ignored my pleas and pulled open the basement door and threw me in. 

The stairs were high and steep. I rolled and fell into a cold, narrow place. 

Midway through, I seemed to have bumped my head. A stream of heat slowly trickled down from the corner of my forehead. 

Luckily, I could no longer feel the pain.

The basement was deprived of lights. The only light source was the door. 

Qi Shu was standing at the door. The light was cast from behind him. I couldn’t see his face clearly and just heard him say, “Reflect on yourself here. When you’ve figured it out, then I’ll let you out.” 

Reflect…. Reflect on what?

I couldn’t ask in time, as Qi Shu had already banged the door shut. Darkness instantly enveloped me. In the dead silence, I heard the sound of locking from the door.

At that moment, it seemed as if something had followed and disappeared from the world forever. 

He knows I’m afraid of the dark… 

I was never left alone in the dark before, no matter what. 

I couldn’t figure out what heinous things I had done to deserve such punishment? 

As time ticked by, my fear was magnified by the darkness. I cowered in the corner, all the bad memories came together, almost overwhelming my nerves.

I couldn’t hold out any longer. But I didn’t want to die here. 

The smell of blood filled the air, mixed with a faint floral scent, which was my pheromone.

Qi Shu had once said it was gaudy and vulgar. ――Like a rotten rose crushed in the rain and cement. He said.

I had never loathed roses so much. 

I didn’t know how long it took, but I gradually lost all consciousness.    

At the end of the memory, a light appeared at the end of my vision. Someone broke through the darkness and came to me, and whispered my name.

Is it an angel? Will it take me to heaven….

The angel was so gentle. He held me carefully, as if he was afraid to break me.

I wanted to tell him, it’s okay, I’m dead. Dead people don’t hurt.

But I couldn’t make a sound.

I wasn’t dead. 

I still hurt. 

Something broke through my flesh and made me want to roll around in pain despite my muzziness. And then there were needles stabbing in more than one.

After several iterations, I suspect that the angel took me for a rag doll and got a tailor to fix me.

Most of them weren’t good tailors. They worked slowly, and made me hurt for a long time.

My eyelids were too heavy to open. My arms and legs couldn’t move. 

Each voice was distant and muffled, reaching my ears as a bee-like buzz. 

Have I really become a rag doll? 

Ragdolls didn’t think about things, so I passed out.

This time the darkness was even longer, the only difference being that occasionally a voice would come. Although it was hard to hear what was being said, it magically soothed my fear and uneasiness.

As if a century had passed, my consciousness finally drifted back.

Before My Withering – 12

Translator: Eyljee

Through the deep and narrow corridor, Qi Shu twisted the innermost door and threw me in. 

Fortunately, the floor of the room was covered with a long woolen carpet. It didn’t hurt when I fell down.

“Looks like yesterday’s lesson wasn’t enough, you still have the strength to be slutty.”

Qi Shu took off his tie and threw it away. He then kicked me on my side waist.

“You’ve grown up, even dared to seduce Zhou Chen.”

The kick was so powerful that I curled up in pain, not doubting that if it had been a little more off, he would’ve broken my ribs.

“No…”  The drilling pain made me struggle to even complete a sentence, “It’s not… what you think…. ” 

“No?”

Qi Shu stepped on my shoulder and flipped me over, so I could face him. “Exchanging flirty glances in front of me, do you think I’m blind?” 

I didn’t know if it’s for physical or psychological reasons. My heart twinged, as if a sharp blade stabbed me one at a time. In and out. 

Why does he never believe me? 

“Xiao Yu, why are you so cheap?” 

The hard sole of his shoe almost broke my collarbone. I clenched my teeth to keep myself from screaming out in pain.

“No…” 

My defense didn’t make any difference. Qi Shu still spared no effort to humiliate me with the most unpleasant words. 

“You stick to an alpha when you see one. What’s the difference between you and a female anImal in heat?” 

“No wonder you’re so anxious to leave me. Heh, Zhou Chen, Wen Yan,and  the one surnamed Xu. How many more people do I not know?” 

“It’s hard for you if no one’s fucked you for a day, right? You don’t see your ghastly self in the mirror? Do you think that someone will want a cheap, rotten bitch who’s been badly played with?” 

 …. 

It hurts…

How come it hurts so much?

I didn’t know if it’s because of what he said. I just knew that I was a blind fool ×.

Qi Shu still hadn’t vented his anger. He kicked me specifically in the vulnerable places. Our physical strength was very different. If he wanted to torture me, I could only endure.

I protected my belly and tried my best to get up. Kneeling on the floor with my hands propped up, I bent over and gasped for breath.

There was the fishy sweetness of blood in my throat. My lip also had bite marks. 

Everything in front of my eyes were blurry, as if someone had installed a high-powered motor in my head, and the roar was deafening. 

Every part of my body ached.

At some point I even felt that my soul was trying to break away from my physical body. They were tearing each other apart, neither wanting to spare the other.

The spirit pleaded, please let me go.

The flesh laughed and shook its head. No, you must stay and suffer with me.

I coughed violently.

My lungs felt like they were on fire, and every cough was a burning pain. 

Heart hurts, stomach hurts.

What did I do wrong for Qi Shu to do this to me? 

“It’s hard for you…” I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, “I’m so rotten, yet you’re willing to have sex with me.” 

Then I thought of when Xu Xingze said to me, “It’s good that you don’t regret it.” 

I thought I’d never regret it. 

I thought that even if Qishu didn’t like me, it wouldn’t lead to hatred. But now he made me feel that he’s very anxious to kill me.

Qi Shu is out of breath. He looked at me condescendingly, his gaze is no different from looking at a dirty and smelly stray dog. 

“It’s not up to you to tell me what to do.” He said. 

I had no energy left. I wanted to sleep so badly. 

“Qi Shu…” I discussed with him wearily, “Look at me now…. My body isn’t fresh, and my face isn’t good-looking…. How about you just, you just let me go… Let’s, cough… let’s part without hard feelings…”

――If possible, it would be even better not to even have “good feelings”. Time went back to that summer-like early autumn, when I gave him a bouquet of flowers after saying “Hello, senior” and then never saw him again.

I didn’t know which word had offended him. Qi Shu’s eyes suddenly became even more frightful than just now. 

He squatted down and grabbed me by the neck and asked, “You still want to run?” 

He didn’t restrain his strength. I even heard a ghastly crack. 

Unable to speak, the lack of oxygen made my brain blank and my consciousness lapsed. 

The second before I was about to die, QI Shu released me. Fresh air rushed into my nasal cavity in large quantities, and I couldn’t help but cough.

So he really wanted to kill me.

It was as if I had become a weightless pocket of rags. I was easily picked up by him and dragged into the inner room.

I didn’t know what the Qi family had been thinking. In such an ordinary room, a basement was built.

Sensing what he was going to do, a great fear instantly engulfed me. 

“Don’t… Qi Shu, please ……” 

However, he ignored my pleas and pulled open the basement door and threw me in. 

The stairs were high and steep. I rolled and fell into a cold, narrow place. 

Midway through, I seemed to have bumped my head. A stream of heat slowly trickled down from the corner of my forehead. 

Luckily, I could no longer feel the pain.

The basement was deprived of lights. The only light source was the door. 

Qi Shu was standing at the door. The light was cast from behind him. I couldn’t see his face clearly and just heard him say, “Reflect on yourself here. When you’ve figured it out, then I’ll let you out.” 

Reflect…. Reflect on what?

I couldn’t ask in time, as Qi Shu had already banged the door shut. Darkness instantly enveloped me. In the dead silence, I heard the sound of locking from the door.

At that moment, it seemed as if something had followed and disappeared from the world forever. 

He knows I’m afraid of the dark… 

I was never left alone in the dark before, no matter what. 

I couldn’t figure out what heinous things I had done to deserve such punishment? 

As time ticked by, my fear was magnified by the darkness. I cowered in the corner, all the bad memories came together, almost overwhelming my nerves.

I couldn’t hold out any longer. But I didn’t want to die here. 

The smell of blood filled the air, mixed with a faint floral scent, which was my pheromone.

Qi Shu had once said it was gaudy and vulgar. ――Like a rotten rose crushed in the rain and cement. He said.

I had never loathed roses so much. 

I didn’t know how long it took, but I gradually lost all consciousness.    

At the end of the memory, a light appeared at the end of my vision. Someone broke through the darkness and came to me, and whispered my name.

Is it an angel? Will it take me to heaven….

The angel was so gentle. He held me carefully, as if he was afraid to break me.

I wanted to tell him, it’s okay, I’m dead. Dead people don’t hurt.

But I couldn’t make a sound.

I wasn’t dead. 

I still hurt. 

Something broke through my flesh and made me want to roll around in pain despite my muzziness. And then there were needles stabbing in more than one.

After several iterations, I suspect that the angel took me for a rag doll and got a tailor to fix me.

Most of them weren’t good tailors. They worked slowly, and made me hurt for a long time.

My eyelids were too heavy to open. My arms and legs couldn’t move. 

Each voice was distant and muffled, reaching my ears as a bee-like buzz. 

Have I really become a rag doll? 

Ragdolls didn’t think about things, so I passed out.

This time the darkness was even longer, the only difference being that occasionally a voice would come. Although it was hard to hear what was being said, it magically soothed my fear and uneasiness.

As if a century had passed, my consciousness finally drifted back.