Before My Withering

Qi Shu’s office was on the 28th floor. As the elevator climbed up one floor at a time, I grew more and more uneasy.

I don’t know when it started, but my insatiable love for Qi Shu was mixed with an indefinable fear and rejection of the unknown.

I’m afraid of him, yet I wanted to be close to him.

Especially after my grand transplant, he would always use his pheromones to subdue me or force me to estrus. At that moment, I realized that being an omega wasn’t easy. 

Qi Shu’s pheromone scent was amber¹, which has a sweet smell, but it didn’t make people feel warm.

The elevator dinged.

The 28th floor was empty and cold, with only two conference rooms and a few executive offices. I walked through the long corridor and pushed open the glass door at the end.

Is Qi Shu not here?

The reception hall and the outside office were empty. There was a faint, strange smell lingering in the air. My instinct led me inside. Outside the closed bedroom door, I heard the oppressed heavy gasps and sweet groans leaking from inside.    

My head exploded.

Qi Shu…

My body instinctively wanted to escape, but my hand grabbed the door handle and my whole body was frozen in place. 

It was as if a sharp claw had gone through my chest and grabbed my heart, twisting it so hard that it dripped with fresh blood.

I don’t know where my courage came from. Maybe it was a masochistic instinct that wanted to be more astute, so I pressed the doorknob and pushed the door open.

However, I overestimated myself.

Knowing that Qi Shu had sex with others isn’t the same than personally witnessing it. I thought that I would accept this matter indifferently. Yet, the moment I witnessed the image in front of me, I figured that I couldn’t stand it.

A naked omega was kneeling on the bed with his hips raised high. While Qi Shu, who was conquering him, was fully clothed; he hadn’t even taken off his pants.

The scene was extremely erotic.

Qi Shu’s movement was fierce. The omega underneath was banged until he turned delirious with dazed eyes; he could only cry sweetly.

The air was filled with peach-scented pheromones. It’s sickening.

A huge wave of nausea surged up from my stomach, and it took me a lot of effort to hold back from bending over and vomiting.

“Xiao Yu.” Qi Shu looked sideways in my direction, his usual calm voice had a bit of a sexy tone in it.

They didn’t even draw the curtains. The afternoon sun from the French window sprinkled in, but the room was untimely chaotic. At this building height, which was extremely close to God, they basked under it.

All rules and morals would become irrelevant with Qi Shu.

“Senior…” I lowered my head to avoid seeing their entangled flesh, relying on the dull pain the embedded nails in my palm caused to keep myself sober.

Qi Shu chuckled and accelerated his movements.

The omega screamed more unrestrained. It turned out that such a well-behaved looking boy could make such a lewd, slutty sound.

Qi Shu would’ve liked it. He had always disliked me for not being slutty enough.

I don’t know how long it took, but they seemed to be done at last.

Qi Shu withdrew himself, grabbed the omega’s hair and said, “Lick it clean.”

So the omega dutifully licked it, during which he raised his eyes to me with a demonstrative gaze.

I was too powerless to respond.

I suddenly felt dizzy, and it took all my strength just to stand and not fall down.

“Come here.” Qi Shu beckoned to me.

I wanted to come over, but the soles of my feet felt like they were filled with lead.

I couldn’t understand why Qi Shu would do this to me.

Does it make him more excited to have someone watching on the sidelines? Then he could call people all over the world to watch it. Why should it be me?

Is it just because I’m obedient?

Seeing that I didn’t move, Qi Shu wasn’t upset. He pushed omega’s head to let him go, then just sashayed up and walked towards me. 

As he approached, I caught the sweet smell of amber mixed with peaches. It’s disgustingly sweet.

“Was it good?” Qi Shu asked me. 

With a lump in my throat, I held back the intense discomfort in my stomach. I looked up into his eyes, and said, “Good… May I go now?”

“Just arrived and you already want to leave?” Qi Shu’s eyes were dim and he raised his hand to pinch my chin.

He exerted a lot of strength, as if he wanted to crush my jaw. I let out a pained grunt.

Qi Shu frowned unhappily. He threw me on the bed with his backhand and said coldly, “Take off your clothes.”

The omega was sitting at the edge of the bed putting on a shirt. He stopped moving to look over in disbelief, but didn’t dare to say anything.

The bed still smelled of lust and Qi Shu’s scent. It was dirty. 

In this moment, I suddenly understood that the person I loved turned out to be unclean all along.

I carefully placed him on the apex of my heart, yet he made himself so dirty.

“Qi Shu…” I spoke with difficulty, roughly because I rarely called him by his name. It surprisingly felt a little strange. “I don’t want to.”

Hah, I actually said no to Qi Shu. I’m so awesome.

I didn’t need to look at his expression to know that Qi Shu was angry. How could a small pet being raised reject its owner?

The grating sound of the trouser chain being pulled up was particularly harsh. I couldn’t see Qi Shu, but I could tell by the omega’s fearful expression what he looked like right now.

“Let yourself out first.” 

“Qi ge…” said the omega softly. 

Qi ge… Heh. 

“Get out.” Qi Shu’s tone left no room to argue.

“Oh..” The omega reluctantly dressed and thoughtfully closed the door on his way out.

I slowly sat up from the bed and looked at Qi Shu. Time hasn’t diminished his stunning side profile. His facial features were still perfect and could make one’s heart beat.

After sleeping with him for four years, it’s as if I hadn’t lost either. 

“Xiao Yu, did I spoil you too much?” 

As Qi Shu walked step by step, I instinctively shrank back, but he pulled me back by the collar. 

“Do you remember who you are?” He watched me intently as he asked, “Are you worthy to say no?” 

Of course I’m unworthy.

I’m just a tool for him to vent his lust, and I’m one of the substitutes for the white moonlight² in his heart.

“Senior Wen Yan…is coming back next month, right?” I laughed self-deprecatingly and intentionally stepped into the minefield.

Qi Shu’s expression was wonderful.

It turned out that it’s so much fun killing a thousand enemies and losing eight hundred.³

“When he comes back… I’ll….” I hadn’t thought about what I was going to say, so I told instead, “I don’t mind you fucking other people in the bed. I, anyway, I’m dirty… But Senior Wen Yan is clean. You can’t do this to him…”

After saying this, I had thought that I may be a Holy Father. Even at this time, I still worry about Qi Shu. 

“You’re dirty?” Qi Shu’s eyes darkened. “Following me made you feel wronged?” 

“No. I just…”

I just want you to be cleaner as you head towards your happy end.

Even if you’re an asshole.

“Xiao Yu, you better figure out who owns you.”

Qi Shu slammed me to the ground, and a ruthless voice followed: “You’re not going anywhere until I’ve had my fun.”

When I fell to the ground, I hit the bedside table and accidentally brought the things on it down with me. When I saw half a box of condoms on the ground, I felt even more sad.

“I’m not going anywhere.”

There was a broken hole somewhere in my heart, and it whistled as the wind filled the inside.

I’m waiting for you to throw me away.

I’m not going anywhere.

Qi Shu’s office was on the 28th floor. As the elevator climbed up one floor at a time, I grew more and more uneasy.

I don’t know when it started, but my insatiable love for Qi Shu was mixed with an indefinable fear and rejection of the unknown.

I’m afraid of him, yet I wanted to be close to him.

Especially after my grand transplant, he would always use his pheromones to subdue me or force me to estrus. At that moment, I realized that being an omega wasn’t easy. 

Qi Shu’s pheromone scent was amber¹, which has a sweet smell, but it didn’t make people feel warm.

The elevator dinged.

The 28th floor was empty and cold, with only two conference rooms and a few executive offices. I walked through the long corridor and pushed open the glass door at the end.

Is Qi Shu not here?

The reception hall and the outside office were empty. There was a faint, strange smell lingering in the air. My instinct led me inside. Outside the closed bedroom door, I heard the oppressed heavy gasps and sweet groans leaking from inside.    

My head exploded.

Qi Shu…

My body instinctively wanted to escape, but my hand grabbed the door handle and my whole body was frozen in place. 

It was as if a sharp claw had gone through my chest and grabbed my heart, twisting it so hard that it dripped with fresh blood.

I don’t know where my courage came from. Maybe it was a masochistic instinct that wanted to be more astute, so I pressed the doorknob and pushed the door open.

However, I overestimated myself.

Knowing that Qi Shu had sex with others isn’t the same than personally witnessing it. I thought that I would accept this matter indifferently. Yet, the moment I witnessed the image in front of me, I figured that I couldn’t stand it.

A naked omega was kneeling on the bed with his hips raised high. While Qi Shu, who was conquering him, was fully clothed; he hadn’t even taken off his pants.

The scene was extremely erotic.

Qi Shu’s movement was fierce. The omega underneath was banged until he turned delirious with dazed eyes; he could only cry sweetly.

The air was filled with peach-scented pheromones. It’s sickening.

A huge wave of nausea surged up from my stomach, and it took me a lot of effort to hold back from bending over and vomiting.

“Xiao Yu.” Qi Shu looked sideways in my direction, his usual calm voice had a bit of a sexy tone in it.

They didn’t even draw the curtains. The afternoon sun from the French window sprinkled in, but the room was untimely chaotic. At this building height, which was extremely close to God, they basked under it.

All rules and morals would become irrelevant with Qi Shu.

“Senior…” I lowered my head to avoid seeing their entangled flesh, relying on the dull pain the embedded nails in my palm caused to keep myself sober.

Qi Shu chuckled and accelerated his movements.

The omega screamed more unrestrained. It turned out that such a well-behaved looking boy could make such a lewd, slutty sound.

Qi Shu would’ve liked it. He had always disliked me for not being slutty enough.

I don’t know how long it took, but they seemed to be done at last.

Qi Shu withdrew himself, grabbed the omega’s hair and said, “Lick it clean.”

So the omega dutifully licked it, during which he raised his eyes to me with a demonstrative gaze.

I was too powerless to respond.

I suddenly felt dizzy, and it took all my strength just to stand and not fall down.

“Come here.” Qi Shu beckoned to me.

I wanted to come over, but the soles of my feet felt like they were filled with lead.

I couldn’t understand why Qi Shu would do this to me.

Does it make him more excited to have someone watching on the sidelines? Then he could call people all over the world to watch it. Why should it be me?

Is it just because I’m obedient?

Seeing that I didn’t move, Qi Shu wasn’t upset. He pushed omega’s head to let him go, then just sashayed up and walked towards me. 

As he approached, I caught the sweet smell of amber mixed with peaches. It’s disgustingly sweet.

“Was it good?” Qi Shu asked me. 

With a lump in my throat, I held back the intense discomfort in my stomach. I looked up into his eyes, and said, “Good… May I go now?”

“Just arrived and you already want to leave?” Qi Shu’s eyes were dim and he raised his hand to pinch my chin.

He exerted a lot of strength, as if he wanted to crush my jaw. I let out a pained grunt.

Qi Shu frowned unhappily. He threw me on the bed with his backhand and said coldly, “Take off your clothes.”

The omega was sitting at the edge of the bed putting on a shirt. He stopped moving to look over in disbelief, but didn’t dare to say anything.

The bed still smelled of lust and Qi Shu’s scent. It was dirty. 

In this moment, I suddenly understood that the person I loved turned out to be unclean all along.

I carefully placed him on the apex of my heart, yet he made himself so dirty.

“Qi Shu…” I spoke with difficulty, roughly because I rarely called him by his name. It surprisingly felt a little strange. “I don’t want to.”

Hah, I actually said no to Qi Shu. I’m so awesome.

I didn’t need to look at his expression to know that Qi Shu was angry. How could a small pet being raised reject its owner?

The grating sound of the trouser chain being pulled up was particularly harsh. I couldn’t see Qi Shu, but I could tell by the omega’s fearful expression what he looked like right now.

“Let yourself out first.” 

“Qi ge…” said the omega softly. 

Qi ge… Heh. 

“Get out.” Qi Shu’s tone left no room to argue.

“Oh..” The omega reluctantly dressed and thoughtfully closed the door on his way out.

I slowly sat up from the bed and looked at Qi Shu. Time hasn’t diminished his stunning side profile. His facial features were still perfect and could make one’s heart beat.

After sleeping with him for four years, it’s as if I hadn’t lost either. 

“Xiao Yu, did I spoil you too much?” 

As Qi Shu walked step by step, I instinctively shrank back, but he pulled me back by the collar. 

“Do you remember who you are?” He watched me intently as he asked, “Are you worthy to say no?” 

Of course I’m unworthy.

I’m just a tool for him to vent his lust, and I’m one of the substitutes for the white moonlight² in his heart.

“Senior Wen Yan…is coming back next month, right?” I laughed self-deprecatingly and intentionally stepped into the minefield.

Qi Shu’s expression was wonderful.

It turned out that it’s so much fun killing a thousand enemies and losing eight hundred.³

“When he comes back… I’ll….” I hadn’t thought about what I was going to say, so I told instead, “I don’t mind you fucking other people in the bed. I, anyway, I’m dirty… But Senior Wen Yan is clean. You can’t do this to him…”

After saying this, I had thought that I may be a Holy Father. Even at this time, I still worry about Qi Shu. 

“You’re dirty?” Qi Shu’s eyes darkened. “Following me made you feel wronged?” 

“No. I just…”

I just want you to be cleaner as you head towards your happy end.

Even if you’re an asshole.

“Xiao Yu, you better figure out who owns you.”

Qi Shu slammed me to the ground, and a ruthless voice followed: “You’re not going anywhere until I’ve had my fun.”

When I fell to the ground, I hit the bedside table and accidentally brought the things on it down with me. When I saw half a box of condoms on the ground, I felt even more sad.

“I’m not going anywhere.”

There was a broken hole somewhere in my heart, and it whistled as the wind filled the inside.

I’m waiting for you to throw me away.

I’m not going anywhere.