BOTB Chapter 22 (1) | Love and Lies

Hari’s POV

“Haha! Really? Cabel?”

“Cabel is always very lively and bright. It looks good.”

A bright laugh rang out in the dining hall. Now where they are was in Vastia.

I accepted their request from the previous day and Eugene brought my brothers and me together to meet the Vastia’s couple.

As always, the Vastia’s couple looked at the authenticity of the Cabel and praised it warmly.

Then Cabel’s shoulders were crushing to me. Looking at the look, Erich frowned.

“Don’t give it too much. I think brother is not really like that.”

“Oh, I know you’re jealous of me! Well, you know how cool this brother is! Don’t give up already because you might be able to got a gold if you tried.”

Cabel became a momentum with the praise of Vastia’s couple, and he shook his nose with Erich’s words. He couldn’t even see Erich’s face cooling down.

“The opponent is brother Cabel?”

“Yeah.” Said Erich answering Louise word.

“It’s not even worth it.”

“Mm.”

“Yes, the two of you are right.”

I heard the words of my future sister-in-law in Vastia, and they heard them too. Then Cabel cried out, screaming at his lungs.

“What, you guys! What do you mean? Isn’t this a secret feeling?!”

I didn’t know exactly what he meant, but I felt like he was imitating myself anyway. Really, aren’t you a fool?

You have even noticed that much, all new discoveries!

When it was a gathering place together, the inside of the dining hall was noisy.

There was no time for a friendly conversation to end. After a while, I enjoyed myself in my time in Vastia.

Then, at some point, Count Vastia suddenly moved his gaze toward Eugene and asked.

“Yeah, when can I hear the good news?”

And he forked in the salad in his words, followed by a pause.

“It’s been a while since you’re already engaged, right?”

There was still no news of marriage, and I was curious about it, but from the experience of my past life, there was a longer grace period for Eugene’s marriage.

However, as if to ridicule my thoughts, the next moment Eugene replied with a calm face.

“I’m going to expect it to be a little ahead of time. I’ll tell you when the work is done.”

Dum.

At that moment, I felt a big rock falling into my chest. I was amazed and looked at him sitting opposite of me.

Not only me, but Cabel and Erich, who were there, seemed surprised.

“What, brother, are you getting married?”

“Why do you do this so quickly? I don’t feel relaxed.”

At their words, Eugene just smiled a little. I looked at him, hoping that my face would not look awkward.

Eugene is getting married soon…?

I knew from the start that It was about to come one day, and I couldn’t help but shake my mind, I’m still suprised.

If Eugene really wants it, I should congratulated him.

With all my heart in mind, I solved my expression of steadfastness.

Even so, I didn’t even know that there was a person watching my face while I was doing my best.

******

“When brother Eugene said that he was getting married, were you sad?”

When dinner was over and everyone went to their respective rooms arranged by Vastia, Johannes came to me.

I was frustrated by his words, but he said he understood me all.

“Because everyone knows that Ernst’s friendship is different. There have been several things in the middle.”

It was natural to think so.

“It’s okay. I’ll be there. You’re not gonna be lonely.”

Johannes whispered as if comforting me, but I couldn’t say anything to him.

This feeling I’m feeling right now, it was something that could never be explained by such words.

“Lady Ernst, if you like, the next song will be with me…”

“Give me the honor to dance with the Lady.”

It wasn’t necessary to be accompanied by a partner, so I was only alone with Ethan today.

After refusing to apply for a partner coming from all over the place with a smile during the day, I headed to Terras.

“Oh, I’m tired.”

Ethan followed me into the empty terrace, as I sat down on the chair casually without minding.

The hem of the dress flaps out once again, and the shoeed foot is exposed.

My feet hurt a little, so I wanted to take off my shoes, but I still had Ethan, and I did think it was a little too much for him.

When I buried myself in a soft cushion, my bodies became dull.

I listened to the sound of the music smearing in my ear and looked at the starry sky beyond the railing.

Dressed in such a beautiful way and spreading a gorgeous patticoat. In the past, it was great to be like a proof that I belonged to their world.

Even though I am now receiving more attention and love than I did then……

Why is that?

I was feeling a little vain and lonely for some reason. Well, if I saw it before, it must have been a fatal fight.

“Sir Bishop goes in there, dances, socializes, and don’t you want to do that?”

I was always worried because he seemed unable to enjoy his youth because of my escort every day.

Ethan replied in a grave voice.

“I can’t.”

“Why? If it’s my escort, I’ll tell my brother.”

“It’s not that….”

If it’s because of me, it was a good thing to tell Eugene,

‘Can you stop escorting Ethan to me?’

So far, it was my intention to say that it would be okay to stop now, as nothing special was going to happen, but Ethan drew an unexpected answer to my question.

“I don’t deserve it.”

Ha? What does this mean again?

I was puzzled by his unexpected words.

“What do you mean by qualification? Who decides that?”

I couldn’t understand what Ethan said now.

He doesn’t have the qualification to dance at the ball venue or to meet other people? Why?

However, I noticed that he was no longer willing to speak. I looked up at his tightly closed mouth and stood upright on a chair.

“Sir Bishop.”

Well. But when I called his name again, I heard a voice knocking on the door. It was Rosabella who looked beyond the glass door.

Ethan, who noticed my thoughts, moved instead of me and opened the terrace.

After that, he bowed to Rosabella and greeted me, then closed the door and went out.

I turned to Ethan after seeing Ethan back against the glass door.

“I also want to rest.”

“Come over here and sit down.”

I arranged the hem of the wide dress on the chair so she could sit. The chairs on the terrace were for 2 or 3 people, so enough for us to sit.

“You look tired.”

“Somewhat.” She said.

I’m looking at Rosabella’s face and saying it carefully, she easily affirmed it.

“I think my marriage is going to be accelerated. Did you hear that Miss Hari?”

“Yeah.”

I replied briefly, and then silenced for a while. And soon I smiled and added.

“It’s not hard to say that Rosabella is going to be my family.”

But Rosabella smiled subtly in my words and said something I couldn’t understand.

“Well, would it be a celebration?”

I didn’t know what she meant, and I looked at her face still.

“In fact, I’m not soft enough to embrace love or marriage.”

A quiet voice overlayed the sound of music leaking from the hall.

“But nowadays I actually think there might be no other better option in front of me. Is it because my heart got complicated when I about to got married?”

Rosabella’s expression, as she said, seemed to have a lot of emotion.

Even her eyes staring at the light outside the terrace seemed to have even a light depth.

I was a little surprised to see Rosabella’s face like that for the first time, but in a way it seemed to be a matter of course.

The bride, who was originally to get married, is said to have a complicated heart.

In addition, the two were not a romantic marriages but a political marriages.

As such, I thought that she might have thoughts like this because she was getting ahead of marriage.

Unlike in the past, she and I tended to be acquainted, so it could have been in this way that she could reveal her feelings in front of me.

So what should I tell her in this situation?

“Why don’t you talk to my brother a little deeper? Then you can know each other better than ever.”

In fact, I hoped that the two people would have had time to get to know each other.

Anyway, they would get married and live together for a lifetime, even if it wasn’t the first time, it would not be as good than if they loved each other.

“If you’re okay, you can talk now or after the ball.”

“Hari, I don’t have to do that.”

But Rosabella quietly looked into my face and shook her head.

“I know you always try for that person and me.”

“Rosabella.”

“Hari, I like you. Not because I’m going to be you sister, but I think you as a friend. So I want to be honest with you.”

And her voice that followed kept me speechless.

“I don’t love him, and he doesn’t love me either. I think that’s probably not going to change in the future.”

Rosabella shook her voice with a voice like she was ashamed of the firm truth.

“The only thing that exists between him and me is trust and duty, and there is no feeling of love, even though there is respect for each other. I’ve never felt sorry for that.”

It’s so dry that it’s cool. I even felt it. I looked at the person who was holding her breath.

“Isn’t this what we understand?”

I thought Rosabella had a chuckle in her eyes, but when she said this, she didn’t seem to feel that much pleasant either.

“I grew up learning that this relationship was reasonable from a young age. It may be very different from the environment in which you grew up. That person seemed to have no intention to marry off his siblings like himself.”

I didn’t understand that at all.

Indeed, if you go into the hall now and look around, you will be able to see a lot of people who marry for political purposes like them.

“I’m glad I still don’t love him, just like he don’t love me.” She said.

“But don’t look like that.”

“I don’t really think I’m unhappy like this.”

Rosabella then turned her head forward to see the hall, as if she had no intention of further dialogue.

Again, only the quiet sound of music was laid down again.

I didn’t say anything anymore.

Before I worried about Rosabella, who would lead a loveless marriage, it was Eugene, not her, that I thought first.

Respect and good will is in their marriage.

But in the words of Rosabella, who affirms that there will be everything but love, there is a cool feeling in my chest.

“Hari.”

I walked out from the ball arts venue to where the wagon was, and someone called me.

“Brother.”

Eugene was standing still under the light.

“Miss Rosabella attended today.”

“I met her on my way to seeing you off.”

Busy with Rosabella at the ball, I didn’t even notice it.

Instead of not being able to attend, it seemed that he had come to see her face even though he was late.

Due to Eugene’s personality, she had no choice but to fulfill her obligations as his fiancée.

Now, it’s the fall that’s approaching winter, so the air around it is quite cold. Eugene said with a narrow eye, knowing that the clothes I wore weren’t that thick.

“Let’s go back. Get on the wagon first.”

But I just looked at Eugene like that, rather than grabbing his hand that was straight forward.

What I heard from Rosabella in the arts hall, again, the word shook in the my head.

‘I don’t love him, and he doesn’t love me. I think that will probably remain the same in the future.’

‘I don’t have the feeling that love and trust exist between him and me, but there is respect for each other. I’ve never even felt sorry for that fact.’

“Brother.”

Is this alright…? Is this really okay?

The stupid question went up to the end of my neck, and then quickly shattered like dust. Eugene seemed to think of me as weird, saying nothing to him.

Even when I saw it, I am weird now, so I could fully understand that he had questions.

“Do you like Miss Rosabella?”

I asked Eugene, who turned his face into the light. Then Eugene was silent for a while.

Come, answer it…

“Yes.” He said.

Yes, I know, it’s presumptuous to interfere with this. Besides, it’s cowardly, like this.

“Yeah, I think Miss Rosabella is a good person.”

I looked at the person I face. I actually smiled and wanted to cry, but I smiled. I can’t help it.

I have no choice but to smile.

I can’t help it.

Since someday you weren’t able to smiled well, I have to smile instead.

“Let’s go, brother.”

I hope you are happy.

If I can, I want to make you happy.

Actually, I think it’s been since a long time ago. However, I probably could not reveal it until I died. I grabbed Eugene’s hand and climbed the wagon.

I wish time would stop as it was, but it was also a wish that would not come true.

*******

In the middle of winter, Cabel graduated from the Academy. Finally, our second brother is getting a diploma! I was thrilled.

Of course, Cabel graduated from the academic school safely in the last year, but this time he received a gorgeous report card, not failing all subjects, and I was very nervous.

Besides, I was worried because the future of the present is not the same as my memory.

Moreover, to the second brother so far,

Do you know how many times I paid for the crisis that happened?

Good god, but graduation. Really, I’m impressed.

“Oops! Congratulations on your graduation!”

“Well haha I know! I told you not to worry? Because the graduation exams are just gum!”

“Yes! Brother is the best! Cool!”

“Um ha ha ha ha!”

I gave him a storm of compliment

Because I think I can flatter Cabel as much as I can today.

Then, the second brother became thrilled and his mouth was torn and smiled widely.

It’s probably an illusion that the words that compliment the second brother become more and more many as the days go by.

It’s not annoying, so I’m not talking about it!

“Congratulations to brother Johan, too.”

“Thank you.”

The graduated today not only our second brother, so I also congratulated Johannes.

Since Johannes is one of the best in grade, he said that he will be standing on top of the stage at the graduation ceremony today.

Nevertheless, he said, before the ceremony,

“First of all, I was lucky enough to have a senior position because I had a friend who graduated early.”

“I’m going to start the graduation ceremony. I have to go to stage.”

I also headed back to see the graduation ceremony with Erich and Louise.

Eugene said he could come by the end of the graduation ceremony, and the Vastia’s already moved to meet and greet someone they knew.

Then, a young man approaching me and spoke to me with a nervous face.

“Lady Ernst. Do you remember me? I greeted you at the banquet of Marjoram Baek, whom was held in the past month.”

“Um? Does the Sir graduate today?”

“Yes, I am!”

“Congratulations.”

The blue ribbon on his school uniform made me realize that he was a graduate. Then, many people glanced around and looked at us.

On the other hand,

‘Wow, the brave guy who was looking for a niche…’

‘Oh, I said I’d be the first to talk to her and hit the jackpots!’

The same sound rang in my ears.

“Lady Ernst, if you’re excuse me, join me next time…”

“Why are there so many worms in the middle of winter?”

And as if he were determined, he started to speak to me.

Suddenly, Erich, who was next to me, murmured with his mouth open, but it rang around with a voice that was too loud to be alone.

“It was a professional brother Cabel’s favorite activity to catch a bug.”

At that moment, the young man’s face in front of me quickly became speculative.

The noise that flowed around that was also caused by the mood died, and I felt like it was stopped all at once.

“Sorry, sorry! Excuse me ah ah…!”

The young man who ended up trying to say something to me, couldn’t even make it, and he ran away.

It seemed that there’s his tail was running away from something invisible.

“Wow, brother is really evil.”

“What did I do?”

Erich shamelessly replied to Louise’s tone. I was stunned as I was. No, this one?

I thought I was only have to endure the guys who only approached me when the second brother is so far, but it turns out that you are also an accomplice?!

“If my crossroads are blocked, all of them won’t be able to get close to me.”

I mumbled because he was absurd, and at one point, I was frustrated with the thought that had passed by.

No, wait…?

Then, in my past life, was my path actually blocked? Are you sure these facts were why I was an old lady until I turned 27?!

“Oh, the graduation ceremony starts.”

However, since the graduation ceremony started immediately, I could not express my doubts, I had to plow and pledge the following.

After that, the second brother entered the 2nd Division knight of the Imperial Palace.

Eugene and Cabel, who go to Imperial Palace side by side each morning, seemed to be proud of it.

In particular, the second brother is a big head that you can see his nose grow longer!

Well, this is the second time, but it’s still very impressive.

“Miss Ernst, could you please pass this letter to Sir Cabel instead?”

Wow, besides, did the ladies come to me even to request sending a love letter now?

“When I stopped by Imperial Palace last time, I tried to give it to him myself, but it took me a while to work.”

Hyuk, I was a little surprised.

Ooh, love feelings to our second brother. Do you think you can be a wife who embraces him?!

Of course, Cabel was fine, so I knew that there were some young ladies who expressed interest by looking at his appearance.

In addition, after becoming officially a knight of the Imperial Palace, he said,

‘The uniform is cool!’

It seemed to me that there were some young ladies who glowed their eyes at Cabel with a feeling of feeling like this.

“Second of our house, is it true that you are referring to Brother Cabel?”

“Yeah, the cute thing is just my taste.”

Marjoram young lady again shyly laughed. I stopped feeling terrified and got the letter she gave me.

Wow, wow. Second brother, here is a young lady who likes you!

When I went home and handed this letter, it seemed to me that I could see how much he was going to scream again and again.

Today I am in a festival for a New Year event, so it is late in the evening when I can give this letter to Cabel.

The 2nd Knights stayed in the Imperial Palace because they couldn’t come here today.

Arlanta’s New Year’s festival is held every year in different parts of the Empire, this time the place famous for its glass lake.

The venue for the New Year’s event was around the glass lake, which is directly illuminating the sky.

This place was proud of the mysterious mood of lotus blossoms in all seasons.

It is said that the goddess of Arlanta’s guardianship is filled in here with the clear spirit..

Cool. Anyway, there is such a myth It was an unrealistically beautiful landscape.

“Hari, isn’t it cold?”

“I managed to still stand up. Miss Rosabella?”

“I wasn’t very cold.”

I chatted with Rosabella and looked at Eugene, Erich, and Johannes standing over there. In the New Year’s event, women and men had to move separately.

Nowadays, many people claim this to be boring, but since the founding, It was a tradition that continued, and it was a culture that can not be changed.

“I’m cold.”

“Would you like my shawl?”

“No, my sister is cold, too.”

I tried to take off my silver fox shawl to Louise, but I was rejected.

Instead, I grabbed Louise’s hands and split my body temperature.

My hands were cold and as she was held by me her hands still cold too, because it was really cold.

“Why are we doing the New Year’s Day right in front of the lake? It’s colder because of the water temperature.”

Louise’s murmur was also sympathetic to me.

They said If we receive the spirit of the goddess in the glass lake, it will be a year or something.

I think it’s just a superstition.

“I’ll excuse myself for a moment.”

But then one moment, Rosabell, who was next to me, left.

I looked at her back as I thought she would probably meet someone she know and say hello or take a break somewhere else.

Rosabella moved behind the altar, where the torch for the New Year festival was laid.

I was a little puzzled because it was a place where she would not able normally walk unless there was an important person with her.

What? But now I seemed to have seen a man with red hair from where she was heading.

A young man with red hair is only Dice though? I think I heard that he’s a little late for the New Year’s event.

Has he finally arrived? It turned out that Dice had wagon phobia, and he would have probably moved by wagon while he was heading here.

Is he okay?

The distance from the palace to this place was a little too long, so it would have been a long time.

Rosabella knows about that Dice, so maybe she’s gone to take care about his condition?

“Louise, wait a minute….”

The more I thought about it, the more I was worried about Dice, so I thought I should go to meet him.

“Miss Hari!”

Then, Lavender Cordis appeared in front of me, flapping in a rich fur coat.

“I’ve been here. I don’t know how long I’ve searching for you before.”

She was wearing a dress that was not for cold weather and her neck and clavicle areas were clearly exposed.

Of course, she wore a black fur coat over it, but it looked cold enough to just shimmer in her body.

“Hello, Miss Cordis.”

“Can I stand next to Miss Hari when they put up the torch? It seems that it will start soon after they say that his highness Dice has arrived.”

“Sure.”

“Then, me and…”

“But I’m sorry, Miss Cordis. I have work to do, so I think I should leave the room for a while. But I will come back when the ceremony begins…“

I told Lavender Cordis with a sorry face.

After all, it was because I felt like I had to see Dice before he started the New Year ceremony.

“Where are you going?”

“A little over there…”

But Lavender suddenly shot me with a ferocious face.

“That’s where Velontia just headed over. Isn’t that too close to Miss Velontia?”

Before she came to see me, she seemed to have seen Velontia head somewhere. So it seemed she offended that I was going to go to meet her now.

“I’m not going to see Rosabella.”

“Yeah?”

But Lavender had a nostril as if she hadn’t believed me already.

“Now I see the lady lying well too.”

I started to feel uncomfortable.

I distanced myself from Lavender. It was true that she never throw the thantrum, and never did outside her courtesy.

But now Lavender was acting rudely, telling me sarcastically.

“Okay, go. Miss Velontia will be waiting for you, so you have to go there. Hurry up, you won’t be able to chase Miss Velontia back if you’re late?”

I hardened my face for a while and looked at LavenderCordis, and then she stopped talking as I stopped my foot.

Just then, Lavender Cordis stepped on me.

“Oh…!”

Unfortunately, the side of where we are was the low waterside of the lake.

Lavender even swung me from the side of my feet and swung me to her side with a splash! I fell on the water as she wished.

“Oh, Miss Hari! You should have been careful.”

The shouting voice was indeed abominable. Like maybe it’s a good plan above your head.

Still, the place where I fell was a shallow waterside where the surface of the water was only up to my knee.

It was fortunate, but when falling into the water, my straw, including my hands and sleeves of the clothes, became completely wet.

It was so absurd that I looked up at the Lavender above with a frown.

No, how old are you, are you stepping on me like a childish feet? Our third brother stopped 10 years ago!

Besides, it is now a winter, so my arms and legs that touched the cold lake were as if they were frozen.

Hah, don’t you like me? But what! What’s all this absurd kid?

The people who noticed my confusion stalked closer to the lake shore. Lavender Cordis was still shouting innocently.

“Miss Hari, are you okay? Maybe you like it. Why do you stay still and fall over by yourself… that’s bad!”

But her impudentity did not last long. I suddenly looked at the Lavender falling sideways to me with a plop!

“Oh, Miss Cordis! You should have been careful. Why did you fall down alone to hit your body?”

Louise exclaimed overhead. Even if I didn’t know well, it seemed that it was Louise who dropped Lavender.

A laugh came to the fact that all this happened in less than a minute.

“Hari!”

Soon, a man’s distinctive voice from thick neck rang.

Seeing that the voice was not of one person, it seemed that It was my two brothers or Johannes who attended the New Year festival together today.

Shortly thereafter, someone stepped into the waterside where I was without hesitation.

“No, I can just go up alone….”

I stared at the upcoming Eugene.

“Don’t move because you might fall over. I’ll go.”

In fact, the watered dress became heavy, so it was hard to move, but I didn’t want Eugene to help me with wet clothes.

“Stay still!”

I couldn’t do this or that, as Eugene’s face gradually getting colder and cooled like a frozen sound lake.

“Ouch!”

But the thing that made me even more embarrassed happened the next moment. Eugene just took me out of the water and hugged me!

Uh, wait! This is not a little too much. There are many eyes to see, and this look is not good!

“Well, wait a minute, I think it’s a bit…”

But Eugene was so frightened that whether I was struggling or not, I can’t move an inch and he took me out with a stiff face.

Then, as I glanced at first glance, it seemed that Lavender had a white face like a blank sheet and looked up at Eugene.

She was drowning more than I was when she fell into the water a little while ago.

But Eugene moved, as if he could not even take a longer look at the state of Lavender.

People with eyes wide open soon came into my sight.

Damn, I was embarrassed and wanted to cover my face, but my hand that had soaked in the lake was frozen, so I could not move freely.

“Hari, are you okay?”

“Where are you going from now on? Bring a towel and blanket right now!”

Still, other people gathered soon because Eugene was in a hurry so he could come up to a place. Johannes, Erich, and Louise were right next to us.

Hey, why aren’t you still letting me go?

“Brother, drop me off.”

“I…”

“You know how much your body is like ice cubes now? Your hands and feet are all frozen, how are you going to walk? Just stay still.”

“No, it’s okay, so please drop me off.”

And isn’t that the same for you?

I’m not asleep, so I know he must felt cold too because he went into the water, but even if I was stubborn, Eugene didn’t budge.

Oh, but what about Lavender Cordis?

“Miss Cordis?”

“I know.”

I want to asked Erich what he knew.

He didn’t seem to know that it was Lavender that push me out, and it was just like what everyone else know.

Still! No matter how bad she got me in the water, you can’t just leave her like that!

Besides, Unlike me who slightly drowned in water, Louise who pushed her hard, make her completely wet.

Of course, there was a high probability that the servants and escorts were already pick her up from the water, as this is a new year’s event, who gathered all the nobles together.

“Are we there, yet?”

“I’m taking out you from other people now. Don’t worry.”

Eugene said, looking back and forth, but I was a bit suspicious of why.

“I think there’s a carriage right there.”

It wasn’t until Johannes voice said to him.

At that time, the servants brought a large blanket, and I dried myself with it and still held by Eugene and moved to the wagon.

“Sister, don’t care about that woman! Why did she make you fall into the water!”

Then, Louise, who followed us in steps, shouted in a painful voice. At that very moment, the air around me felt instantly changing.

Hyuk, I don’t think you should say that!

There are several bombs around me that don’t know when it will explode, my sense is telling me!

“I just made a mistake.”

I said secretly, sweating cold.

Even so, today is New Year’s Day, and I didn’t want trouble caused by me. Luckily, the three men and Louise doesn’t said much since then….

Why. Why am I so uneasy? I’m more worried because he’s not asking me somehow….

“Change her with extra clothes. Wipe off the wet areas well.”

Still, there is a heater inside the wagon. It was warm.

I changed clothes inside with the help of maids. The sleeves and hem were stuck wet, and I had to struggle a bit.

It seemed like the new year ceremony started out there, but I was just left in the wagon because I wasn’t going to be there.

Everyone said they would stay with me, but it was the first event to pray for the peace of empire this year.

I didn’t like to put a face stamp on them together and don’t think it would be good for them to be in a wagon, so I push them to go.

When I finished changed my clothes and buried my frozen hands and feet on the blanket, someone knocked on the door.

“Hari.”

Ah, it was Eugene’s voice. Then, did he already change his clothes?

“Brother, come in.”

I opened the door myself and let him in.

At first glance, Dice’s voice leaked out from the open door. Now he seems to be presenting a New Year’s celebration in front of people.

“Can you not go?”

Then Eugene stared at the side and replied.

“I don’t care. No one will find out.”

But Eugene was a Duke of Ernst, they are a lot who wanted to say a word to him.

His eyes, sitting opposite of me, fell on the blanket. At the moment, Eugene’s eyes were frowned slightly.

“It’s a little better.”

He took care of the blanket on my leg.

The touch was pretty meticulous. I stared at Eugene.

“My hands are still red.”

“Ok.”

His eyes touched my gaze, and I squeaked my fingers.

Nevertheless, I didn’t know that black eyes would fall to my hands on my knees.

After a while, I shook my fingertips with the warmth that swept over my skin. I looked at Eugene’s hands that covered mine, and then I completely wrapped in.

In an instant, the body temperature that had passed from all sides pushed in.

Even though it was obviously only my hand that was caught, I wasn’t thrilled and hardened as if I had tied my whole body to a chain.

Just like I took Louise’s hand from the outside and shared my body temperature, Eugene did it to me.

His eyes still down stared at his hand and my hand that intertwined. That was a good thing for me.

My eyes couldn’t hide the nursery rhymes, so I felt so clear that I was going to be shaking.

I closed my eyes for a while to calm down. And when I lifted my eyelids again, this time I just met my eyes with the person in front of me.

Eugene’s lips, which were tightly closed, slowly opened.

“I want to be a good brother to you.”

The moment I heard it, my heart sat down and started to run a little faster.

What do you mean……?

It won’t happen, but the thought of whether he’s saying this because he notices my heart has passed for a moment.

“You’re already a good brother.”

Why do I think my expression looks awkward now?

However, Eugene did not continue talking from there. I also quietly exhaled and still felt the warmth dig into the overlapping my flesh.

Stinging.

It was a little stingy in a place I didn’t know, and I don’t whether it was outside or in my inside.

It was such a bitterness that it is impossible to know exactly where the sore spot is, just like water is squeezed through a sharp cut on the paper.

Still, I didn’t want to let go of my hand first, so I kept holding Eugene’s hand until someone else knocked on the wagon door.

“Your highness, are you okay? Your highness?”

I called Dice who wear a blank look from before.

For what reason, he has been making such a fascinating face since he’s in the glass greenhouse.

Why is this man behaving like this? Is it aftermath of the New Year? Or is it the bequest after wagon phobia?

I shake my hand before his eyes. It wasn’t until that time that Dice was alert.

“Oh, Lady Ernst. When did you come?”

“I said hello before.”

“Did you…?”

I still stared at the Dice as if there was a hole in his head.

“They said you fell into the lake at that time.”

“Yes, It was okay as I get out of there soon.”

“What happened?”

I thought for a moment and then said that it was just not a big deal.

“I accidentally fold my foot.”

“Do you think it’s a secret nature? You expect me to believe it?”

Shhh, not really.

Still, it was a little bit of a rumor from the neighborhood that Lavender Cordis pushed me down in that weather.

Of course, if Lavender spreads the fact that it was Louise who dropped herself into the lake, I wouldn’t stand still.

“So I couldn’t participate in the New Year’s event. I’m sorry.”

“No, no, there was no such a good thing. There was no such an important thing, just what. Even if it’s New Year’s ceremony. Nothing bad gonna happen.”

But from now on, it didn’t seem to be like that.

I closed my eyes thinking of a letter that came to me two days ago.

It was a letter from Lavender Cordis, stating that she would like to apologize to me for the New Year’s time, so be sure to stop by Cordis’ residence sooner or later.

What should I do?

She want to apologize, but I can’t just ignore it.

Besides that day, she was looking at Eugene out of the lake with me.

Ethan was also concerned for me.

Nope.

But now I have to asked Dice as I passed by, holding my agony unfinished.

“Did you meet Miss Rosabella that day?”

“Uhuk!”

But, in my words, the tea that Dice was drinking poured out of his mouth. I opened my eyes and narrowed my eyes.

“Why are you so embarrassed?”

“”Hey, my lady, uh, how do you know?!”

“I watched Miss Rosabella go to the back of the altar where your highness is.”

Dice replied in a rush, as soon as he just realized what I was saying, he’s calming down.

“Hmm, yes. I just had a short chat.”

“Are you sure?”

I stared at the end of his face, looking at his face, but nothing was visible in his expression.

Something was suspicious, but as soon as Dice turned the topic, I couldn’t ask for more.

“Come over here and sit down, Miss.”

Two days later, I was facing Lavender Cordis. Eventually I visited the mansion of Cordis.

It wasn’t because I wanted to get an apology, but rather than just I want know what she was thinking and listening to her.

Lavender in this life has never been a constant direct harm to me, she didn’t hit me, so I changed my mind.

Of course, I had fallen into the lake in the New Year’s Festival a while ago, but it seemed to have originated from an impulsive grumpy.

And the face of Lavender, who looked up at Eugene and become shocked that day, she seem still curious about me.

Then, it seems that the reason she tried to apologize to me today was because she was afraid that I would reveal the truth to Eugene and that she would be hated by him.

Of course I can say I won’t say anything to Eugene, to relieves her anxiety.

But there was no reason or excuse to do it, so I didn’t intend to tell Lavender what to do about it.

“I don’t want to be with you for a long time, so I’d like you to tell me quickly.”

Even though I’m facing Lavender now, I still didn’t want to get along with her.

“Yes, I don’t intend to face the Lady for a long time either.” She said.

Her mind seemed to be the same with me.

Last time she even pushed me into the lake, but now I think I can’t get close to her and Lavender was not doing it either.

“What the secret for that?”

But her words that followed continued to surprise me.

“The secret of wielding a lot of men around the skirt width.”

At that moment, my hand holding the mug stopped in the air. I looked at the person sitting across from me with a table in between.

Lavender was smiling with a pretty docile face, but I could even understand the meaning of ridicule in her word.

It wasn’t as dull.

“Ernst’s three Lords, as well as Sir Vastia, and his highness Dice, they can be bothered by the lady. I’m thinking of it every month, but no matter how much I think about it, I don’t know.”

Oh, I see.

What she called me today was not to apologize for the past. How did I be such an idiot, even though I know for sure what this woman is like?

“What’s better about you than any other ladies? I don’t know. I’m sure it’s worth watching… Is that a face that’s smooth on its own? In fact, I’m not sure.”

The mug that I was holding in my hand was boiled down on the table.

“Ernst’s authority is so high and no one dare to talks, but I know there are a lot of people who think like me.”

It’s not too difficult to predict what Lavender Cordis will say in the future. Because I’ve heard this many times from her in last life.

“Yeah, a sleazy person would have a sleazy way to suit her. So, are you going to roll your body in secret, Miss Ernst? Just tell me honestly.”

Nowhere was Lavender Cordis, who was pretending to be friend while pretending to be nice in front of me..

“That’s the only thing the lady has. Cheap body. Even if she give it once, it’s a recyclable part, so it should have been easy to do it often.”

But I rather like her like this.

She approached me and somehow tried to be happy, but sometimes she couldn’t hide her disdain and dissatisfaction.

She reached out to me as if we were inevitably matching.

Rather, the words she’s spitting out now will be closer to the sincerity she originally had in her.

“However, where would that dirty habit go? The lady lived where she used to be, they said you were selling flowers? I heard that it was a place in the back street….”

But her attitude, which died in one morning, was somewhat make me puzzled.

She was attacking me as if she couldn’t stand my existence anymore. It was a very different behavior from what Lavender had been so far.

As an extension of work related to Rosabella, it seemed overwhelming to say this. I wasn’t able to know what the hell was going on with her.

“Are you saying that ‘selling flowers’ when prostitutes sell their bodies at the window? Is the Lady like that?”

Lavender was literally eager to insult me somehow, like a woman who had no mercy in her eyes on me.

Soon, she frowned at me and burst into a sharp laugh.

“Somehow, if I go only to the vicinity of the Lady, it seems that the bad smell vibrates. I guess you still haven’t abandoned your habit when you lived on the street?”

This was what Lavender Cordis told me, when she avoiding the eyes of my three brothers.

So she was able to look at my face she faced without agitation.

“I don’t know what the Duke Ernst and the man who put you in the door are thinking. Oh my God, she’s a prostitute who rolled out of a brothel.”

It was an entirely new situation, but still the old repetition.

“It’s long enough to know what you’re doing now.”

…..Ah, it’s a little boring.

I stared at the mocked smile in front of my eyes with dry eyes.

“If that’s the secret of the Lady, I’m sure I can’t do it. Don’t you think it’s too nasty?”

Then it seems that I was a little afraid of others thinking of me like Lavender Cordis back then.

Because of my predicament, I thought that such a tag would always stick behind me unless I worked harder to buy the favor of others.

So I’m always conscious of other people’s interests, scaring rumors, and worrying about who might misunderstand me and spread my bad news.

I always lived like that day after day, but now I’m sick of it.

‘Do whatever you want.’

Suddenly, what Eugene had said to me that day came to my mind.

‘If you have a place you want to go, you can go anywhere, and you can do anything you want to do.’

‘I said it before, but if you don’t like it, you don’t have to accept it. Nobody can force you.’

He is telling me straight without shaking many times. He told me so in his voice.

So far, when Lavender Cordis has told me this way, I’ve only explained that it’s not like that.

I was anxious that other people were really looking at me with the same gaze as her, but for what?

Now, when I think about it, I can’t afford it.

Regardless of how I behaved or excused, those who dislike me could speak to me that way anyway.

No matter what I do, my past does not disappear.

Even if I become the most noble identity in Arlanta, there will be people who mock me and say that.

And, actually, as Lavender Cordis says, it was unlikely that almost everyone had such a malicious idea about me.

Then, in what sense would it be a waste of my time to get hurt and care about these sounds?

I could ignore those loud people who knew what they were trying to do and laugh at them as they like. Isn’t this?

In fact, I wonder if I shouldn’t let them hurt me this way and they have nothing to do with me.

‘It doesn’t matter. You’re an Ernst now.’

And as soon as Dice’s resolute rumbling in rewind my ear, I decided.

Let’s just stop.

I’m not wrong. I didn’t have do it, and then whatever I said to others, I just had to be confident.

Hah.

I stand up quietly.

Then Lavender Cordis smiled like a dog running away from her tail.

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“I know you know yourself well because you don’t explain anything. But, you know, you know how to do that dirty body….”

But I didn’t leave immediately.

Wicked thing!

And I lifted the mug in front of me and sprinkled the liquid in it relentlessly to the person in front of me.