Darkness is Coming

  In the big forest, there are all kinds of birds, but the objective law of the jungle in the natural world determines that there are always more bad birds than good birds.

   This is what a big brother who was admitted to college told Doudou, Doudou has never understood what is meant by the strong feeding the weak, what is an objective law, and he has never understood why there are always more bad birds than good ones. Today Doudou can finally understand this sentence, because Doudou himself has become a bad bird.

Doudou is an orphan. He doesn't know where his parents are. He heard from the elder brothers and sisters of the orphanage that thirteen years ago, a swaddle with little Doudou sneaked up on the steps beside the door of the children's welfare home one late night in the cold winter and twelfth lunar month. When the nurse picked up Xiaodoudou, there were two strings of ice beads hanging on his face.

  The economic situation in 1998 was not as good as it is now, with heating and air conditioning all over the street. The winter at that time was really cold. Speaking of this, Doudou had to be thankful that he was not from the Northeast, otherwise he would definitely freeze to death outside that night.

   They all say that if you don’t die, you will have good luck. This sentence did not come true in Doudou. He was lucky enough to escape, but the days to come were not easy. Some child welfare homes are well-equipped, the nurses are kind and kind, and the children are harmonious and friendly with each other. If they integrate into such a big family, they can have a happy childhood and grow up with joy, but some child welfare homes are just the opposite.

   There are not many child welfare institutions in Huaxia. So far, there are only a few hundred in the whole country. They are under the jurisdiction of the civil affairs department, and there is no supervision department. The child welfare home is actually an orphanage. Because there is no effective supervision, and the orphans have no support, sometimes the nurses or the director will try their best to deduct the welfare for their own personal gain, and even more, they will abuse the children to vent. The grievances that have gradually accumulated in the society in life.

  Unfortunately, the orphanage where Doudou is located is such a cruel place. In order to prevent the abused children from confiding in the outside world, the orphanage even set up a fake internal school.

Children in welfare homes also have to go to school, otherwise they will not be able to find a foothold in society when they grow up, so welfare homes with conditions will start classes on their own, and welfare homes without conditions will send their children to nearby schools for day study, etc. After the children are a little older and complete the nine-year compulsory education, they will be sent to high schools and colleges if they have hope, and vocational education and skill training will be given to the children who have no hope, so that the children can learn some basic skills and be able to engage in simple manual labor.

And the Nandu Children's Welfare Home where Doudou is located, after pretending to invite a few life care and cultural teachers, it announced the opening of classes in the hospital, and did not give the children the opportunity to go out to study. No one will know about their dirty deeds.

   But how do children understand this? They are born with no dependence, no sense of security, and no vision for the future. For them, as long as they can live and have food, it is an acceptable life. Whether it was the whipped wooden board that was beaten on the body for no reason or the two meals of porridge every day, whether it was the musty-smelling Chase shop or the tattered tattered clothes, they had no choice but to resign.

Losing the opportunity to receive an education, for these ill-fated children, means losing their whole life, but they don't know this, they only have two things in their little minds, when will they have the next full meal ? How do you find some fun in your boring life?

   The answer to the first question all depends on the mood of the dean and the nurse, but the second question can be solved by yourself.

  Eating, sleeping, and playing Doudou, this is the origin of Doudou's name. Doudou heard that he used to have a name and a surname. His surname was Ni, and he was the old dean, so I forgot what it was called. Anyway, everyone called him Doudou, so let's call him Doudou.

Doudou is a daily pastime for many children in orphanages. The children have no concept of good and evil. They are beaten by the nurses in the morning and go to Doudou in the evening. They vent all their grievance and resentment on Doudou, and lie back when they are tired. Datongpu slept soundly, did some exercise before going to bed and then rested, always able to get a good night's sleep in this shabby house with raindrops.

   At first, Doudou was very angry and puzzled. He was so small, why did he just bully him? But Doudou had nowhere to complain. As long as no one was killed, the nurses would not care. Secretly complaining could only be exchanged for a more violent beating.

After a long time, Doudou gradually got used to it, and he beat him, it was just a joke. If he was injured, he could go to the infirmary to sit. Sometimes the nurse would give him some candy when he was pitiful. This is other children. I can't enjoy the treatment. The most delicious black candy seems to be called chocolate. Doudou is the most obsessed. Take a bite of chocolate in your mouth and feel it slowly melt, let the sweetness spread from your mouth to your heart. All pain is healed.

   After being beaten like this for many years, Doudou originally thought that after a few more years, he would be able to leave the orphanage and join the society. For other children, leaving the orphanage is not a good thing, because the nurses always describe the society as extremely sinister, as if entering the society is like entering the blood of a monster, and after two or three efforts, they will be chewed into **** by the society. But for Doudou, leaving the orphanage is the beginning of a new life. The college student’s brother secretly told him that the society is not as scary as the nurses said. There is food to eat, and a good life to wear new clothes every year.

   But Doudou didn't expect that just when this new life was about to come, Niuniu died.

Niuniu is a girl of the same age as Doudou. She has congenital diseases, cleft lip and stuttering. Her parents sent her to the orphanage. She is Doudou's only friend in the orphanage. She is kind-hearted and likes to read. There is always a kind of light, which is a yearning for the future, which is especially attractive to Doudou, because in the eyes of other people, Doudou can't see this kind of light. Whether it's a nurse or other children, their eyes are dead, and they look like a pool of stagnant water, which makes people feel cold.

  The orphanage said that Niu Niu was mentally ill and committed suicide by jumping off the building, but Doudou knew that was not the case. The building in the orphanage was only two stories high, so how could someone fall to her death? And Niuniu was telling everyone the night before that she wanted to be a star in the future, and she wanted to be an idol like Sister Zhang Xinyi. Although everyone was laughing at Niuniu, Niuniu didn't care, she raised her chin confidently and said that it was the same even if it was a cleft lip. You can sing, Doudou believes her, because Niu Niu sings really well, whether it is only her mother or two tigers in the world, Niu Niu sings the best in the whole orphanage.

   Such a girl, how could she commit suicide? Doudou didn't believe it, so he went to the dean's nurses to ask for an explanation, and the answer given by the nurses was that Doudou was locked in a small dark room and beaten to death, and he was not given food for two days.

After    came out of the small dark room, the older children came out laughing and wanted to make peas. Contrary to everyone's expectations, this time Doudou didn't lie on the ground with his hands in a ball and curled up into a ball, but like a wolf, he would hit anyone when he saw him. If he couldn't beat him, he would bite. The blood did not admit defeat, and more than a dozen children beaten by one person ran around with their heads in their hands.

   After the fight, Doudou grabbed all of their porridge, drank it full, and then found a stone step to sharpen the tip of his chopsticks.

  Wait until the night, Doudou quietly got up from the Chase shop, took out pointed chopsticks from his trouser pocket, and walked to the nurse's lounge, where he was going to ask for an explanation.

   On the unpaved concrete floor, Doudou walked up and down, talking to himself.

   "If you don't give me an explanation, I will give you an explanation."