Don't Look

As I stood in the darkness I could feel arms around me, holding me tightly. There was crying, was it coming from me? I could hear growls mixed with a human scream getting closer as glass broke. The arms around me got even tighter.

"Keep your eyes closed! If you can't see them, they cant see you…"  A womans voice whispered into my ear as I feel her press her cheek against mine.

"If you can't see them, they cant see you…" She repeated this almost like a prayer. Hot damp breaths hit the back of my neck making me cry out louder.

"Don't cry. Don't cry. If you can't see them, they cant see you!!"  

Stop saying that, stop it! Why are you saying that?? The breaths continue to hit me, moving around and I feel her flinch.

"Forgive me." She whispers as she lays a kiss on my cheek before she throws me back, I do the only thing I could do, I kept my eyes shut. I squeeze them as tight as I can as my hands come up to cover them too, just to make sure. She threw me. She threw me away like a toy she didn't want anymore.

 Did she think I would have opened my eyes and that would have been her time to escape?? Most Likely since as soon as I landed on my back I heard footsteps as they ran away from me. I heard screams, from her and from the monster that followed. I heard begging, she was trying to plead. To be let go since she left me as an offering.

Her screams became louder as I could hear her struggle before in a whisper like voice.

"You shouldn't have opened…..YOUR EYES…" Its voice like nails on glass, it almost sounded chipper as she began to scream more. As soon as she screamed they sounded almost like water was in her lungs. A wet rip sound echoing in whatever room we were in.

 I felt pee escape me as I whimpered and listened to that woman, who was she, continue to cry out as she was ripped apart and eaten. Soon the room went silent as I could only curl into a ball.

Was that my mother? It had to be… Who else would have been with me? My mother tried to sacrifice me??? Why??? Didn't she care about me??? Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice the heavy footsteps get closer until I felt long thin fingers c.a.r.e.s.s my cheek.

"Dont. Cry. Anymore, child. " It said to me as it moved my hands away from my eyes, I squeezed them harder to the point I started to see stars.

"Look at me." It commanded as it gently lifted me up, holding me like a mother would hold their new born child. "Look at me…. just this once. I will… Not harm you…." It said again, its voice changing into something almost softer.

What was I to do? Slowly I opened my eyes, looking down at me first. I was small, huge winter clothing on me. Thats funny… Its not even cold. Then I notice its arms, long and lanky parts of bone sticking out at the elbows. Slowly my eyes travel up noticing that its hunched over greatly, parts of bone sticking out all the way up its spine. Once I reach its face it's long and hollow, a rather large mouth that seemed to be in a permanent smile, teeth as sharp as knives, blood dripping down its chin and neck. Its eyes large and white as it stares into mine.

 "Good child… Goood. " It leaned closer as it pressed its forehead to mine, it was cold to the touch it almost hurt. "Now… lets get you safe. Close. Your. Eyes." It commanded looking at me to see if I would listen. I reached up and put a hand on its cheek as I closed my eyes, the fear I felt before was gone. I felt safe, safer then I did with the woman. It took a moment before it started to walk away, a blast of cold wind hit me after a moment. I guess it was winter here… but where is here? Where am I?

 As it walked with me I felt myself falling into a slumber, holding onto whatever body part of it I could.

 "...Mama…" The word escaped my mouth before I could even think about it. I felt myself falling down into the darkness even more. It said something after that but I don't remember what it said.

 It seemed like I stayed in the darkness forever. Then I heard someone calling a name.

"Kida."

Was that my name?

"Kida..!"

It might be if they keep calling it.

"KIDA!!"

I gasp awake as I stare at the floor, I notice a pair of broken black glasses laying in front of me, parts being held together by tape. A burst of cold wind hits me from the door that was open behind me. Damn I thought I closed that before I went to bed. I slowly sit up as I look around the deteriorating room I was in. Parts of the floor had caved in, the walls green with moss that seemed to be growing due to the poor conditions it was left to face.

 I get up and make my way to the door, staring out at the white winterland that seemed to settle throughout the night.

"F.u.c.k.i.n.g snow." I mumble before closing the door and making my way back to my little nest of blankets and pillows. As I sat down I stared at my hands, they were riddle with cuts and scars from living alone. How old was I? How long has it been since I've seen another person like me? It's been a long time. Last one I found was a large group, I warned them about how there was to many of them traveling together. They had a better chance at surviving if they split up the group into three and one took a center walk, the other two flanked from behind and to the side. Of course no one wants to listen to the kid whos on their own.

 I heard their screams that night. When I went to investigate there was red covering the snow, it was almost poetic. It was then I decided to not get involved with others like me. I made it this far on my own I can make it even farther.  

 I let out a sigh as I pulled my bag over pulling out different things, some clothes and other necessities. In that moment I noticed there was a wrapped bag, I don't know where this came from. When I slowly open it I find a couple of canned food and some energy bars.

I take a moment looking at them before I look back at the door. This has always been my life, a dream I don't remember, a door open and food placed in front of me. I wonder who leaves it, why they leave it, why wont they stay with me? I quickly unwrap two bars and eat them before I begin to pack up my stuff. I need to find things to fix up my room. I need to find more food. I think I want to find a cat too.