Fallen Unknowingly...

******(ARON... (PROV)) *****

"ARON... " I heard sanvi scream and I sat from my sleeping position.

"What happened sanvi?" I looked at her and she's perfectly alright.

"Bhaiya.... Urgh... I'm in mess. I mean....,I entered my messy life..., no no no actually I created the mess." What is she talking about?

"How should I tell you bhaiya? How? Why my life is so messy? Why did he like me? Why did I like him? why do I confess???? " She started crying and keep on telling... no. no. keep on posing questions. What happened is out my mind now. But who likes her and whom did she like?

"W-A-I-T... " I said in high tone so that she can clam herself. And she looked at me with teary eyes. Why is she crying now?

"Who likes you? And whom do you like?" I asked. she sat next to me on bed as I directed her to sit. She looked down twisting her fingers. So, she is really messed.

"Sanjay... Sanjay likes me. I know that and it's not like first time he said that. But, .... " OMG!!! I smiled at that min but i nodded when she saw me.

"I thought he love you.... " I said it out and realized it's not time for this kind of stuff.

"Are... You... serious?" She asked with lot of innocence.

"I don't wanna lie...., Yeah, he never let anyone in his life this easily and he can't see you hurt. I know that feeling and I saw him going through that phase.... " She looked at me and nodded. Wait!!! she knows that?

"So you know that he loves you?" I asked.

"I don't know but I know it's not like a normal like he has for me. I mean..., Bhaiya i never felt like this for anyone. I never been into any kind of relation. Trust me not even a single date. I don't want to feel like this...., I dont know. I'm not perfect for him. I.. I... Create troubles for him and I don't want to get him into my disasters..... " Sanvi said looking down and I know she's crying.

"Sanvi, there's nothing to worried. You can't tell that you're not perfect for Sanjay. You never made disasters. You want to clear the mess and you get hurt all the time." I said. She looked at me.

"What do you think Bhaiya?" She asked.

"I don't tell you to do something. It's your life and you know what to do. Take your time, think and Sanjay is not like me Or Not like Arav Or not like anyone. He is different. He is normal from all of us. He stands for his friends not even thinking for a second. I don't need to explain you, you know him. And for you stupidity, you're a love guru for every one but when it comes to you...., you came for me?" I asked and she smiled.

"Now go and sleep. Don't mess your mind. You will know if you love him Sanvi. Sometimes it is good to let go people but sometimes it is good to hold on to people. Choose your path and walk along that." I said and she nodded. She clam herself after sometime and went to sleep.

****Next day.

"When will you came back?" I asked Sanvi packing my bag.

"I don't know. It may take 2-3 hours Bhaiya. I need to submit this article and I wish they do publish it without any changes." she said.

"Okay, Take scooty from Divya. I will take her to college with me." I said and we went to Divya. Sanvi left taking scooty and we reached college. I want to submit my fees to get my cettificates back.

"Hey man!!!" I turned toward Sanjay.

"Hai... "

"I thought you won't come today...." He said.

"Yeah...., " Before I speak. Counter person called my name.

"I will be back in 5 mins be here Sanjay." I left and paid whatever they asked. Signed few papers and came out, found Sanjay sitting.

"All done...?" He asked and I nodded as yes.

"You can tell me this stuff. You don't need to come today. You can rest Aron." I nodded.

"I really need sleep...., now. " I said.

"What did you do all night? Don't tell me you thought about Raina and started blaming yourself... " Sanjay said.

"No..., this time it's not me. Sanvi, is blaming herself." He stopped and turned towards me.

"What?" That's the only one word I heard.

"Asshole, what did you do to her ha? She started screaming after you left and I barely slept because of you asshole. Atleast you should have said the exact words. She is messing her mind. She thinks whatever i thought once up on a time." I said.

"Actually I said it but she didn't get that. And wait why is she blaming her?" Sanjay asked.

"She thinks she is a trouble to you." I said and we started walking.

"I really want to slap her again.... Why? Why Aron? She drives me crazy... " I looked at him and shocked.

"What? Why are you looking at me now?" He asked.

"I never heard this kind of modulation from you. You're really crazily... " I said.

"Thank you.... " He said.

"Sanjay...., I don't know whether it's my place to tell or not... " Before I complete he punched on my face.

"Urgh.... " I scremaed.

"Never ever again ask me permission before you tell something to me.... Now tell me." Oh god!!!

"Never leave her. She is meesy soemtimes but she makes you crazy and it's good for you. You ran with me until I reach my dream. So go for yours now. You're off the race Sanju. I want you to be happy now. Sanvi is new to this kindd of feelings and everything. She is afraid to get herself into this. But I trust you that she won't broke." I said.

"Yeah!!! " He said with weird look.

"What?" I asked.

"Words from the brother.... from Sanvi side ha. I won't break her... " He said and yeah she is my sister. I don't want her to be broken.

"Fine, I'm going to library for books." I said and Sanjay left to his Class. I went to library.

"The new editions.... " I asked at entrance.

"That way.. " He said and I went in. I took few books and started reading them for content. I shortlisted the best books but I need two more from mechanics topic. So I have to pick more 5 books. I looked at time. It's 3:30 Pm. okay good I have more 2 hours.

"Thiss...., no.. this... " I said to myself.

"Hey..., hai." I turned to the person. That's Raina.

"Hai." I need to be clam.

" I need help... in choosing a book. The office member said that you're here and you know about this book." She showed the book. I didn't look at her or speak to her. I took book from her and placed it on table. I read the content. Then went to thermal section and got her the book.

"Thank you... " Raina said and I nodded.

"Why don't you talk to me?" She said and I turned towards her.

"Why? I don't remember anything and you don't talk to me. My brother and you always fight.... Why?" She asked.

"Somethings are better to forget forever, Raina." I said.

"But it hurts me. I feel abandoned. I don't know why? Did I hurt you? Did I said something wrong to you before my operation?" She asked and how should I explain to her?

"No, you didn't said anything to me. You didn't hurt me either. I'm the one who hurt you and because of that your brother picks a fight with me. You should stay away from me, it's better you know..... " I said and turned towards my books.

"Hoo... okay." She said but I didn't replay her.

"Let me tell you something. I don't know why, but i get hurt whenever you treat me like this...,whenever you avoid me... " She said.

"Hey Raina...., I heard you came home... I'm so sorry I didn't came to meet you..." That's George. I looked at Raina and she is totally clueless..

"Oh..., I didn't know you both got back... " He said and I turned towards him.

"What?" Raina asked him.

"What do you mean by what? You both are the dream couple for all of us.... " I stopped George.

"Enough..... " I said and left the room.

*****At home..

"Aron...., " Sanvi stood in front of me looking weirdly.

"What happened?" I asked.

"That's my question Aron.. " She said.

"What? Nothing happened... Stop stocking me... " I said and passed her, but she followed me.

"Seriously, Aron. I wont stop following you. So spill it out. " She said and she's following me from past 2 hours. She want to know why I'm piss.

"Today, I met Raina. " She nodded.

"Okay... next. That's not a big deal. Meeting her won't effect you in this horrible way." She said.

"She talked to me, Sanvi. Raina said she felt hurt when I ignore her. At the same damm time George came and he said something which made disaster..... " I said.

"Oh!!!! Not expected. What kind of disaster?" She asked.

"I think now Raina knows about me and her. I think she knows what are we in past..... " I said.

"Correction... Not only in past but... even..., today." Sanvi said.

"That's the thing we should think now. Raina knows the truth. What will she do?" I asked. She don't remember me but she do feel me. She is hurt because of me.

"Bhaiya..., you said me not to stop myself going for sanjay. You said that I shouldn't run away from him. Then what are you doing?. Yeah!!! I accept that I didn't said anything. In your case Raina don't remember anything but you do remember right." Sanvi said.

" Bhaiya, Raina knows that she will forget everything if surgery goes well. But she don't want to go for that because she don't want to loose you. She said she want to live with your memories and She want to die but she don't want to loose you..., " Sanvi said. I know Raina and if she knows the truth then she won't give up. But i dont want her to be back in my life again. I know I will hurt her again.

"Aron.... " I turned towards door, when Sanjay shouted my name.

"Is... Everything... Okay?" Sanvi asked sanjay, because the mess up look is crystal clear on his face.

"Raina happened.... " He said and I looked at Sanvi.

"Look this is what I'm talking Sanvi.... " Now, I'm so frustated. I don't want her to know about this.

"What is he talking about?" Sanjay asked sanvi.

"Raina..., she knows that Aron and She.... " Before sanvi complete her sentence..., her phone rang.

"Now..., I should leave... I hope you both can chat for while and please stay here Sanjay. Bhaiya, speak with him and please dont take stupid decision." Sanvi said after looking at phone.

"What happened????? " I asked her.

"I got red symbol in my girls groups that means it's kind of emergency and we should meet... " What???

"What do you mean by Emergency?" Sanjay asked.

"It means we girls need to talk right now.... " Sanvi said.

"Let me drop you... " I said.

"No, I will ask Danny to drop. You both need to talk RIGHT NOW.... " Sanvi said seriously and left. Sanjay talked to me a lot. Whatever he said had a point. And I know I love Raina and I can't love anyone as I did for her. But I'm scared. I can't take the pain of loosing her again.

***After 1 hour.

"Aron..., What do you feel when you saw Raina?" Sanjay asked suddenly.

"I... I... didn't feel anything. I saw her face and it made me stop my breathing. I can't process whatever happened. I don't know what to talk at that moment. When she saw me I seen her eyes which is full of pain. I know it's not easy to accept without memories. When Sanvi said she's alive I shouted at Sanvi. I didn't want to but she is the only one where I can shout... I... i... I'm scared Sanjay. " I said because he understands me more than anyone. More than my mom. More than Raina, Sanjay understands me. He is younger one than me but I never felt like I should take care of him. Because he never gave me a option to take care.

"Now why are you running away Aron?" Sanjay asked. I looked away from him. Because I don't want to answer.

"Aron, You can't run away.... If you run more...., Raina will get hurt more and more..... " He said.

"When ever I see her..., I feel pain in my c.h.e.s.t. I can't breathe...., I feel like lost. Because of me she lost everything. She don't deserve that. I want to touch her but I can't. I want to hug her and say that's it's okay..., but I can't. I want to talk to her, listen to her happiness, Make her feel happy....., I can't do any of it. I just can't. If I go back...., Abhi won't accept. Now, Raina is starting new life without me...., let her Live her life. I don't want to break her family Sanjay. I have created enough mess already..... I can't see her going through the same again. I love her...., I do love her.... forever and ever... " I said.

"Then love her and go for her. Stop blaming you for everything Aron..... " Sanjay said.

"What if same happened to Sanvi? and what if you're in my place? Do you do the same as I do?" I asked him. He looked at me for a minute and then answered.

"No...., I don't leave Sanvi. I want her in my life and I will fight for her. I'm not saying this because you will change your decision listening to me...., but the fact is I won't leave her. You know me Aron, Even if I hurt Sanvi..., I know I can heal her. Because it's my place to hurt and heal. Because I'm the only person who can do that to her. So you tell me now, Can you see Raina with someone else? Are you ready to see her get hurt by someone else? ha?" I looked at Sanjay. No, I can't see her getting hurt.

"You can't, I know. Now get back Aron. You need to talk to Raina..... " He said and I nodded unknowingly.

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*********(SANVI.. (PROV)) ******

One week later.....

"Hey Sanvi, Did Aron talk to Raina?" Divya asked. Aron was trying hard to talk her. But it's not happening. Today Raina asked Aron for coffee.

"Yeah, Today I hope so." She nodded and turned to leave.

"And do you talk to Sanjay?" She asked turning back. I didn't answer her.

"So, you didn't..... " I nodded as yes.

"Yeah, fine people. Die. I don't care." She is pissed I know and she left.

I met Raina and My girls that night. Raina asked us about Aron and her. We didn't said anything but we made her understand that it's not our place to tell her truth. She didn't take it seriously. She is okay with us. But when I return home...., I heard Aron nd Sanjay talking in Aron room. I didn't distrub them, But when Aron asked Sanajy about..... 'What will he do if I were in Raina place and If he is in Aron place...." Sanjay answer is something which I didn't expect. Actually I didn't expect anything, but when I heard Sanajy answer. A smile appeared on my face and I felt happy from inside.

I'm not ignoring Sanajy and I'm not speaking with him as I speak usually. I feel nervous in front of him. And he never tried to pressurize me in any way. I don't know why he didn't even tried to talk to me.

"Hey...., " Aron came.

"Hai... How's your coffee?" I asked. I'm waiting at his college canteen for him.

"I told her everything.... " He said and sat in front of me.

"How did she respond?" I asked.

"I can't tell you, because she reacted normally as if it's okay. She didn't say anything. I explained about me and Abhi relation too and why I'm keeping myself away from her also. She said okay and nodded her head. So that all.... " I nodded at him.

"Do you talk to Sanjay?" He asked and I'm surprised to know that he knows that.

"Seriously? I know what ever the hell you're thinking sanvi... I have gone through that. Actually, it's kind of Same boat we're in." He said and I smiled.

"Let me tell you..., it's just a suggestion... Sanvi. When you feel your heart want him..., And you don't want to loose him then go. He needs you. I never seen Sanjay this happy. He won't force something or to do something which you don't like. He won't break you...." he looked at me and he ruffled my hair and left.

****Next day.

I know Sanjay was busy with his semester exams and new project work. But I should talk to him.

"Bhaiya, I'm going out. I will be back in more 3 hours... " I said.

"Where?" He asked.

"To meet Sanjay.... " I said.

"Ooo Good. Again we're on same boat Sanvi." I smiled at him and left. I reached his office but trust me my inner feeling and my inner thoughts are killing me.

"Hey...., Sanvi. I miss you. " Miss. Jullie embraced me into a tight hug.

"Me too Juliee... " I said and gave a hug back.

"How are you?" She asked.

"I'm good and you?"

"I'm fine, Sanvi. Actually I should get down to give this file. You can wait in my cabin.... " I nodded.

"And yeah you can go meet Sanjay. He is with his family member...., I mean Leela brought one girl. I don't know her name..., it's kind of match for Sanjay.... " Oh!!! I nodded. She left to lift. I came to Julie cabin and sat down to clam my nerves. I'm not jealous to listen about that girl. But I'm afraid of what is going to happen. Leela aunty will choose best for Sanjay....

"Jullie.... " I turned towards cabin door.

"She's out, Leela aunty. " I said and she looked surprised to see me but in next moment she smiled.

"Good you're here...., Come I want to you meet someone." I nodded with smile and went with her. When I reached Sanjay cabin. My heart started beating fast because I'm scared to face him. I shoud have talked to him before today. Everything happens for a reason Sanvi. May be that girl is best choice for him who knows?

"Sanvi, come fast.... " Leela aunty said and I nodded.

"Hey, Tara She's Sanvi. " Leela aunty introduced me to that girl who is Tara. She is preety..., let me correct she is gorgeous. Taller than me. Nice skin tone.

"Hai, Sanvi.... " I got my sense back when she smiled at me and introduced herself. I stopped judging her. I'm not judgemental kind of person but right now I'm judding Sanjay and Tara. Stop Sanvi please!!!!

"Hai.... Tara." I said. I don't know why I don't want to dare to see Sanjay.

"She's is best friend of Sanjay... They are too good. Right Sanjay?" Leela aunty said but I didn't look at him.

"Yeah, mom." I heard him.

"Oh!!! Nice to meet you Sanvi." Leela aunty said to Tara to talk to me for some time. Because she had work to do with Sanjay. Tara keep on asking me questions about me and I did as what she did. Because my mind is out of control rigth now. So I don't want to make mess. I sat on opposite side of Sanjay. I can feel his gaze on me.

"What type of girls do Sanjay like?" Tara asked and I'm shocked.

"Urgh...., I... I... don't know actually. I mean I never asked him that." I said with hesitation.

"Oh..., Actually my parents want me to get engaged to him. I know him from childhood but we are not even close. I don't to start something without any thing between me and him." She said and she's too sweet.

"That's really good." I said.

"What do you think? Does he likes me?" She asked.

"Hmm.., yeah. You're kind and sweet person Tara. " I said and she smiled. She asked lot of question about Sanjay and I answers her. I don't why I have all answers about him. That made me realise that I do know him more than what I know about me.

"Hoo..., So he likes coffee.... But I don't. " she said.

"Yeah, That won't decide your compatibility. " I said and Tara smiled. She talked a lot. Leela aunty came to us.

"Why don't you go for Italian Dinner?" She asked Tara. Sanjay came to us.

"Of course, it's a nice idea Leela aunty. But Sanjay won't like it. " Tara said and I looked her.

"Why?" Leela aunty asked.

"Sanvi said He won't like Italian dishes a lot. He's more for Chinese. " Tara said and I looked at Sanajy. At that moment ...,he's already looking at me.

"Oh, I don't Know that." Leela aunty said and I got blank out. Even she don't know that Sanjay won't like Italian dishes?

"Yeah, I don't mom." Sanajy said looking at me. I want to get out of here now. I want to get out before I speak something which I shouldn't. I should get out.

"Hmm.., I need to go to washroom.... " I said and Leela aunty nodded. Tara smiled and I left. Actually I ran after sometime because I need to breathe. If it continues I know I will get panick attack.

"Sanvi, Wait....!!! " I heard Sanjay. I didn't turn back or stop but keep on walking. He came infornt of me and dragged with him. I don't know o what room.

"Are you deaf?" He shouted.

"I didn't hear you.... " I lied.

"You're not good at lying to me Sanvi. " He said.

"No..., I'm serious. I need to pee. I... " I shattered at my words...,Before I complete.

"Shut up. I know, I should have said you about Tara..... " He said.

"Oh, no it's nothing Sanjay. That totally fine. You don't need to tell me." I said.

"Are you drunk?" He asked and I nodded as no.

"Then why the hell you're behaving like this?" He shouted. I jerked from my place.

"Why Sanvi?" He asked me again in clam tone. I looked him. I want peace and I dont want to run from the fact. My thoughts are running damm fast inside my mind. I can't even process exactly what the hell is happening? I tried to speak but I can't..., I don't know why? Next min I'm in his arms. My head on his c.h.e.s.t and his arms on my back.

"Shhh!!!! Don't cry.... " I didn't even know taht I'm crying.... god!!! What the hell is wrong with me?

"Tara is nothing to me... " He said and my tears flow down my cheeks.

"Maybe she is the one for you.... " I said and I don't know why I said that. Whatever I'm saying is out of my control.

"No...., " He said and he hug me more tight. I felt warm and safe in his arms and I know I can't feel this way with anyone in this world. I know that. But..., I don't know why I'm stopping myself. I don't know why?

"I...., mean...., she..... seems like nice..., person.. " I said hugging him back.

"But I don't.... " He said.

"Why didn't you gave a chance to any of your Date partner?" I asked him hugging and sobbing.

"Because it's not considered as date for me... " He said. I pushed him away from me and looked him

"Are you serious? They are too good. They are pretty, Well educated and from nice family. They are.... " Before I speak further he said something we made me blank. I felt there no words to say back. My tears started flowing down my cheek like a river. How can he tell me this? How can he? How can he do this to me? I'm not in a state to handle anything?

"Do you want to kill me?" I asked.....