Frozen Soul Trapped In Box Of Love

"She was the model that become my partner for a fashion magazine cover. I used to be friendly to everyone but I was startled by the moment I see her"

"Because she was pretty?"

"Of course she is. But thats not it. She was eating two cup of ramen right before our shooting"

"She was eating and you was startled?"

She must be really pretty that even while she was eating, she can make this psycho freak startled. I just nodded to my own thoughts but he continue his words.

"Its a taboo to eat before shooting, basicly for woman. They need to mantain their looks, weight to fit the clothes"

Pretty definitely hurt. Dont think I can live like that. He just continue his words with his eyes closed and I just keep silent beside him.

"I was ready to propose her and spend the rest of my life with her."

His face darkened. He open his eyes and I can see those cloudy gaze. He was smiling bitterly.

"I was busy filming overseas for three months. That night, I was planning to surprise her by coming home three days earlier. I open the door of my house with such excited heart and there I saw... they were kissing on the dinner table with no clothes on their body".

"Can you please exclude the details. I was trying to eat peacefully."

I take close look at him, bearing the hundreds needles that stuck in his heart would not be easy .

"He was my manager. We working together for almost ten years and he was kissing my woman at my back."

He stop talking. It must be hard to remembering the betrayal. His hand playing the sand before he continue his words.

"I was too shocked and silently walk away from my own home"

"Thats weird, if he was your manager why didnt he coming with you to the overseas"

I didnt dare to ask about that memories of the betrayal, so I try to ask about the manager. But, it just bring the conversation into more deepest part of the betrayal.

"He manage my financial, my contract and finding suitable job for me. He handle all the annoying stuff at the company"

"That's show how much you trusted him. Wanna get revenge? I can help you kill him secretly."

"Can you do that? Lets chop him into pieces and feed it into shark in the ocean"

"Seriously? Thats so childish"

We both joking, but no one laughing. Its actually pretty serious for me. I can ask Zaden to deal it secretly.

"I wish I can forget that moment. There was so many way finding out about your lover betrayal. I wonder if... fate can be more easy on me"

"Fate.. I wonder if I should talk about the same things"

"Why? Did you really lost your lifetime memories?"

"I am... Its been two years. The cafe that I work for my part time explode. I was the only survivor."

"Than why you have to be here?"

"Witness protection I guess, it seems more than an accident explosion. I dont know, I can't remember"

"Are you sure thats you not the one who set the cafe too explode?"

"Maybe, who knows?"

I gave him a faint smile. There was no point to correct him since I'm not sure myself. Surprisingly, he just nodded.

I wonder if this kind of conversation are just plain boring or because we both just too tired of thinking about ourself being betrayed by fate.

"But if you ask me about revenge. Feeding him into the shark is to generous."

He gave me a surprise look. Its a look where it shows that, chopping his body and feed it to shark is generous?

"Do you what is the most painfull thing in this world? Its regrets. Its like the unseen razor that slice your soul silently and you will never die."

"Regrets?"

"That things called REGRETS, is vicious and a heavy burden that you can never get rid of. You will always weighing your sanity by the things that you can done but you didn't do it because you can't turn back the time"

"It sound easy to me"

"Thats why you are here? Easy to hiding from your regret?"

He look at me with narrowed eyed. Then we heard a familiar boat engine sound. Our conversation just end there and we look at the sea.

"It's a boat.. A speed boat. Is it Uncle? I thought he was only gonna be here next month"

"I kinda familiar with this speed boat but where"

There was a tiny spot that become more and more visible as it heading near to the beach.

I stand to my feet and trying to look at the boat. It can be true. A tall and skinny woman jumping out from the boat.

I forgot about her. But she suppose to be here next week. Did she get in trouble again. With all of others people, why did her father always send her to me.

"Err.. Mr. Superstar how famous you in the entertainment world? You might be have to prepare yourself"

"Why I felt offended by that. I am older than you so please use more respected words"

I run off to the woman who was in yellow frilly mini dress. She look outstanding no matter what she put on her body.

"Carmen. You are here"

"Aya.. You bitch. Where have you been. I've been trying to call your home and no one answer. You better take this phone right now or I swear...".