Game To Heaven

My mother after all is a woman, her heart needs a man. My father approached my mother for only a few months, and my mother agreed to get married because of the insistence of her two sisters who did not learn from their mistakes.

My mother's sister married, but did not last long. They are divorced and have children to take care of.

And the consequences are then very clear, my mother's marriage did not last long, my father left my mother just like that, without caring about anything.

And at that time I was in her w.o.m.b. Then my mother felt extreme pain that affected the child in the w.o.m.b.

Haunted by pain, my mother gave birth to me. Hate against men has grown when abandoned. And the pain is slowly distracted because of having a child.

He then raised children of my mother's sister. And finally my mother's family's economy deteriorated, because there was not even one husband.

My two sisters then worked abroad to become domestic helpers, which was a promising job with a very large fee from the Arabs. the job was very popular in my country, simply, being a maid with a large salary.

Because of the pain too, my mother had learned a valuable lesson, this was proven by her taking care of the children well.

Pain that becomes a bad memory, slowly fades, but does not disappear.

"I was a very crybaby, I could only cry, with a very trivial thing, I remember clearly, about it".

"Childhood was quite fun even though it was very crybaby. And the time to know women finally begins. When I was in 5th grade, I was already in love. And a whiny child like me can only see the most beautiful person, from afar ".

"And I'm having a heartache, because the person I like likes other people, but that is just the feeling of the child going to adolescence, not having a big impact."

"Then I was a teenager, there teens already have a high ego. I was the tallest and biggest person of my school generation, the first time I saw their expression I knew they were afraid of me ".

"Slowly looking for identity, I later became a coward who did not have the courage".

"Then I met the girl who took my heart again, this time she was different, this was not a love of a child anymore, she looked amazing to me, her smile made my heart pounding, and felt happy. But what I get is another pain, because he has a boyfriend.

"I then entered grade 2 junior high school"

"I don't want to fight or trouble, but then I accidentally offended my friend, and he started a fight first, then instinct said differently, I fought, and we were finally stopped".

"I did not feel beaten at the time, but felt guilty for making my friend angry. Then I finally realized, the punishment for fighting can cause me to be expelled from school ".

"I cried after knowing that, because we went to the disciplinary teacher, and told about our fight, which was actually not intentional".

"I was not aware at the time, the impact of crying boy".

"It got me treated badly, from teenagers trying to look tough."

"And finally I entered grade 3 junior high school, there I began to establish contact with women, because before grade 3 boys and girls were separated".

"Because of the lack of interaction with women, I'm always nervous, and awkward when dealing with women, I don't even dare to sit next to women".

"Even though I am a loser, there are still people who like me, a girl approaches by sending messages, every day".

"I did not understand about the couple relationship at the time, I answered without knowing that".

"A year, I can not eliminate nervous and awkward in front of a woman".

"Then high school, the world of love began. I'm still the same, and the girl who likes being next to my class ".

"My school days were only spent studying at school, at that time the hours of study in my country were terrible, we had go to school at 8 am, and go home at 3 pm, with a headache, due to different subject matter, and had to be digested at the same time, makes me tired and lazy" .

"When other people have lover, I just become a young man who is only in his house".

"And at that moment, the world that gave me many lessons finally began."

"High school was only spent watching movies, anime, and Korean drama which at that time were considered disgusting for a man where I lived".

"Movie and anime its normal thing for a boys, but korean drama its more like a death sentence, they are think its girly things. and negative things are created from that assessment, because of that most teenagers who like it are shunned by other teens".

"And the habit, I became fat in first stage, because I rarely do activities outside the home".

"first stage mean am not really fat, I was in the early stages of being fat".

"Then that period ended, and the world of work began. I applied for a job but nothing was accepted. Then because of financial problems again, I applied for a job with a limited amount ".

"And my mother decided to look for work, which was quite close. But all that is just in vain"

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"I spend my time, at home, and feeling bored because watching too many movies, anime and k drama, I finally started reading a novel".

"And a new world began, I read a lot of cultivation novels a lot, and only a few months I felt bored, without realizing the time passed quickly".