Good Dad System

"Doctor Pei, Dr. Pei." As soon as it was time to go to work, all the nurses and doctors who were taking a lunch break in the nurse station woke up and were ready for the afternoon work. The nurse sitting there sorting out the medical records received a call from the outpatient clinic downstairs. , Only then did I realize that Pei Naochun, who went to the independent office to rest during the lunch break, did not wake up on time, and went downstairs to sit for a consultation, "The outpatient clinic is shouting, saying that more than a dozen numbers have been posted! You may have to go down as soon as possible. ”

She looked at Pei Naochun's face hesitantly, and came to be punctual in the opposite direction. At this moment, she seemed to have just been woken up by her: "Doctor Pei, are you not feeling well? Why don't I ask the head nurse to find someone for you for a while? ?"

"It's okay, I just forgot to set the alarm clock and slept." Pei Naochun waved his hand, stood up, and put on the white coat draped over the chair behind him, "Thank you, I'll go down right now." He was in a hurry. Fortunately, the nurse station was right next to the elevator. He didn't wait too long. He got into the elevator, waited downstairs, and walked to the outpatient building.

In fact, just now, he was not resting, but closed his eyes, receiving the memory of the original body. Fortunately, 009 is a rare humane this time, and even the medical skills that the original body has are given and transmitted together, otherwise In the afternoon clinic, I am afraid I can only ask for leave to open the skylight.

A county hospital is the largest hospital in the entire county. Although its rating is only second-class, it is equivalent to the management of third-class hospitals. Every working day, there are long queues. After arguing a few words, or even reporting it, it is a general hospital with complete departments.

Pei Naochun is a gastroenterologist in County A Hospital. He is regarded as the number one or two in the entire internal medicine department. At the age of forty, he has already held the title of deputy chief physician. These two years are enough. Years, materials have been submitted, ready to go to the chief physician examination.

He is famous not only because of his professional title, but also because of his excellent professional quality and good medical ethics. Being in the county town, it is inevitable to receive some middle-aged and elderly people who are old and unable to explain their illnesses, but he has always been gentle, listening carefully to their illnesses, and then carefully solving the problems for the other party, focusing on the patients as much as possible. , has been a doctor for more than ten years and has not been complained about.

He is an excellent doctor, respected and loved by countless people, he can be said to be smooth in his career, and in his family—probably, he can be considered a complete success, right?

If he hadn't heard what his son said during the period of his death and serious illness, he would have always thought that he was a good father and that his son was living happily.

Pei Naochun could clearly recall that the man he saw in the dark space was probably because of his experience in medicine and many years of studying. Greetings, and then slowly speaking, he once thought it was a complete life.

...

This time, the assessment world that Pei Naochun is going to enter is based on a documentary literature. The author is a well-known provincial team coach in the south. After retirement, based on his years of working experience, supplemented by some Spring and Autumn brushwork and artistic expansion, he tells the story of his encounters with one person and one chapter. Here, the sports seedlings that have been missed or successfully excavated, this book is not too well-known, but the descriptions of the teenagers and girls in it are all vivid.

One of them is particularly impressive. It tells the story of A Dong, a young man whom the coach saw at the Games of the Middle School in a certain city. The other party is full of talent. Even though he has not received relevant training, he has already broken the record of the Games of the Middle School in the city. , and even the records of the provincial middle school students' sports meeting are very far away. He tried to dig the opponent into the provincial team, and even visited the cottage, persuaded many times, but in the end he was still unable to persuade him. The book wrote:

I went to Adong's father many times. I thought the biggest difficulty was that Adong's grades were too good. It seemed absurd to many people to give up his studies and choose track and field. s reason. But I never imagined that Adong's father would almost drive me away with just one sentence. He sat there and said lightly, "My son can't do it, he has no ability." He tried to persuade him to explain the record-breaking results to the other party, but the other party turned a deaf ear and even found it funny. He insisted on telling me that Adong couldn’t do it. I don’t understand where this insistence came from.

Until that day, I really had no choice. I invited him to come to the school to watch A Dong run. I prepared a lot. I specially invited the children of the city team to be A Dong's partner. Didn't show up, called to ask, but Adong's father still said the same thing.

The sky was getting darker and he was obviously not coming. Adong stood in front of me, first apologizing, then he bowed to me and told me, coach, maybe I really can't. Looking at the loss and sadness in the eyes of the young Adong, I thought, I can't take Adong away.

Many years later, I still miss this child from time to time. He is the most talented person I have ever met, and he is also full of love for track and field, but even if I say 10,000 words to him, you can do it! Can't beat his father's words, right?

The young Adong in the article is the original son Pei Xiangdong.

Originally an aboriginal in County A, his parents were workers who ate commercial grains. Although his family was not very rich, he was given fairly good living conditions. Like most of his friends of the same age, he studied diligently. , out of a realistic idea - looking for a unit with an assigned job, he was admitted to the Medical College in Province C. After graduation, he was assigned back to the county A hospital and became a physician.

He and his classmates who were also majoring in clinical medicine at the C-province medical school fell in love and got together. The two had a good relationship after marriage, but as time passed, a rift gradually developed. The reason is actually very simple. His wife is a northern girl. , For the sake of the person I like, I settled in the south. When I go home on weekdays, I have to drive for a day, and I can't accompany my parents. Both husband and wife are doctors. For the first two years of work, they rotated in the department again. , It is also the night shift from 3 to 5. The time is always wrong. There are less gatherings and more separations. Gradually, no matter how much affection, I become a little alienated. When my wife was pregnant, the original body happened to be arranged by the hospital to study in the north. He was not allowed to come back often, so he had to let his wife take care of herself while working.

Soon after Pei Xiangdong was born, his wife developed symptoms of postpartum depression. Since both of them were studying medicine, they had some understanding of the related symptoms, but even if they tried to adjust, it was not so easy to solve. After hesitating, the wife had a long talk with the original body. She realized that the love urge that year had been gradually smoothed out with the passage of time, and the rest was more and more dissatisfaction and anger.

She misses her family, is not used to the living conditions here, and has lost her feelings for her husband. She clearly knows that there is something wrong with her psychological state, and she doesn't want to force herself to stay, but instead, she hurts the child and original.

Yuanshen suffered and struggled for a long time, but he still chose to agree. He sent his wife away and promised her that as long as she wanted, he would wait for her forever. Of course, his wife did not agree, but solemnly told him that he hoped he would Take good care of the child, she will go home and live a good life by herself.

As a result, this family of three, who had actually been together for a short time, was just formed, and then soon disbanded. When Pei Xiangdong was one year old, only the father and the two were left in the family, who depended on each other for life.

Although the original body has more medical knowledge reserves than the average person, he is still very stunned when it comes to taking care of children. The environment still grew up healthy and healthy, even better and more well-behaved than most children.

But I don't know if it is because this family lacks the role of mother, there are many problems, which gradually emerge as the child grows up.

Pei Naochun is a gentle doctor who is praised by everyone. The patients send pennants and praise everywhere, and they say that he never gets angry and has a professional attitude. Among his colleagues, he has a high medical level and is extraordinarily humble. Even if it is a new intern, he is friendly. He is a person with no temper. In his medical and work experience, he has almost never been angry with anyone. Many people will shake their heads and sigh from time to time, saying that they don't know where to find such a person.

But everyone can't imagine that at home, he is a father who will never praise anyone, which is also the source of all Pei Xiangdong's pain.

Pei Naochun's education method, strictly speaking, is traditional percussive education, and he never has a good word from his son on his lips——

"Dad, I'm very good today. I've been sitting here watching cartoons, and I haven't disturbed anything else!" The little radish head hurried over to hug his feet when he saw his father entering the door, and waited. With his father's praise, in his simple little head, he only knew that his father said that he could not mess with the things in the house.

No one could be trusted to take care of the child, so he had to lock the child at home. The original body will casually say: "Well, but why don't you go and read the book? Or watch the DVD I bought for you. Didn't Dad buy you a DVD of the idiom story? Go learn idioms, Don't play with things." He said casually, not noticing that his son's eyes suddenly dimmed.

Five or six-year-old children, who have learned a lot in kindergarten, clumsily came out with the foot basin, but because of lack of strength, they spilled water on the floor: "Dad! The teacher told us to be filial to our parents! Today is Father's Day. , I'll wash your feet!" The basin could hold the whole of him, and his face was flushed with exhaustion, but he was still very excited.

Yuan was moved in his body and mind, but what he blurted out was still a scolding: "Look, why are you so careless? I spilled water on the floor, and I have to mop the floor. Usually, the environment at home needs to be maintained in time, otherwise it will definitely be a mess. chaos."

"I'll wipe it when I wait." The little face that was full of excitement just now seemed to be cooling down at this moment, and squatted down with his head down, with tears rolling in his eyes.

After I started elementary school, I started to pay attention to a lot of things. Pei Xiangdong, who was in his early nine years, had just become the monitor of the class. He sat at the dining table, lowered his head to cook the rice, and said hesitantly, "Dad, I am the monitor of the class now..."

Before he finished speaking, the original words arrived: "Well, squad leader, isn't there a squadron leader or something behind the squad leader? You still have a long way to go, I'll hold a parent-teacher meeting for your class last time, excellent There are quite a few classmates, some of whom have musical instruments, those who can dance... Do you want to learn something too?"

Pei Xiangdong thought he was used to it, but he still felt sad. He lowered his head to eat, and replied dully: "...I think about it."

The county experimental middle school assigns classes through the entrance examination papers. The middle school entrance examination is only the first threshold. Pei Xiangdong is very good at reading and has always performed very well in the test. After entering the experimental class, on the first monthly test, he was ranked first in the year. , he came home with the score sheet, and waited for his father to get off work. As soon as the other party entered the door, he handed it over: "Dad, this is the score of the monthly test." He couldn't help but said, "This time I am the grade. First."

"Let's take a look." Yuan Shen adjusted his glasses and confirmed it seriously, "This is only a monthly exam, there is nothing to be proud of, and there will be three years after that! Besides, you must know that you think your competitors are students in the school. , can you post high school? Can you get into the city? University? It's still early!"

"Well, I see." He had known for a long time that he would get such an answer.

The original body always thought that he was filling in the gaps for Pei Xiangdong and finding problems for him - but he never realized that all this child needed was a compliment, and his "proverbs" became the shoulders of the child. The shackles made him gradually doubt himself.

- Am I that bad?

- Yes, you are so bad.

Pei Xiangdong and Yuanshen have gone out many times together. The county town is not big, they have lived for a long time, and they know many people. They often visit Yuanshen's friends during Chinese New Year and festivals. Every visit is like Pei Xiangdong. Is a knife in the heart.

An aunt who knew Yanxiaoyanyan: "Our family Xiaofang, recently the kindergarten graduation report performance, come here, I'll show you the photos." She happily took out a whole album of albums and rummaged through the pictures of the children in it. .

"Xiaofang stands out when she sees it, maybe she can become an artist in the future!" Yuanshen was very enthusiastic, completely ignorant of the son behind him, and it hurt to hear this.

"Hey, don't talk about our Xiaofang, there is nothing comparable to Xiangdong, I have heard people say, Xiangdong is doing well in the exam now, very good! Maybe he will become a cutting-edge talent in the future!"

The original body immediately shook his head: "Why, he, no! This kid is arrogant, careless, and partial to subjects. He has several courses that are a big hindrance, and now he is taking advantage of others' overall average that is almost cheaper than him. If you don't pay attention to yourself, you will be pressed by someone."

...Well, he knows, he understands too. When he was a kid, he would immediately defend himself - and then greet his father's stormy criticism of his impoliteness and lack of social etiquette, and now he is used to it. In short, anyone, in Dad's heart, anyone is better than him.

In junior high school, parents often began to "cross the sea and show their magical powers". They inquired about various ways to add points and urged their children to do it. Among them, exercise was a very popular one, even if it really didn't work, It can also be used as exercise.

Pei Xiangdong likes to run very much. From a very young age, he always goes to and from school by himself - the security in the county is very good, and there are never many children with keys. He likes to run all the way home, and when he is happy, he likes to run happily. When happy, run until you sweat. The outstanding test results in the physical education class made the physical education teacher extend an olive branch to him. County A Experimental Middle School is famous for its long and short legs. The student union exams, but sports and art competitions are not good enough. Even the annual county-level and city-level competitions The games were all at the end of the crane. The PE teacher was eager to find Miaozi. Seeing that Pei Xiangdong was talented, he dragged him into the school team.

After joining the school team, he felt like a duck to water. Although the physical education teacher is not very professional, the relevant targeted training given by professionals, in the eyes of professionals, is all tricks and tricks, but it also makes Pei Xiangdong's grades leap forward. He is a middle school student in the county. In the sports meeting, he directly won a Grand Slam, the 50m, 100m, 200m, and 400m championships were all-inclusive, and he took the school all the way to the city's middle school students' games. Therefore, coach Wang, who was inspected by the provincial team, saw at a glance Then, as the book said, Coach Wang tried his best, Pei Xiangdong begged his father repeatedly, but failed to convince him.

At that time, the original body said something to Pei Xiangdong: "Do you know how many people there are in China? One billion people, after so many years, only one trapeze came out, and the rest are gone. Don't listen to that teacher bluffing you. , how can there be so many talented people? You can't do it, when the time comes to go to the city team or the provincial team, it will be difficult to come up with it!"

"But Dad, I really like running, and Coach Wang also told me that I'm very talented." For the first time, for the sake of his own thoughts, he firmly expressed his heart in front of his father.

"What's the use of liking, you don't have this ability." Yuan Shen said earnestly, "Have you ever seen an Olympic champion beside us? You don't even have a National Games champion. Look at the TV again, most of the running They are all dark-skinned people. It's not that people say you can do it. If you can't, just follow Dad's instructions, study hard and study hard, and then find a job in the future. Running, we can't fight! What talent, It's all a joke and a lie."

He didn't think that there was only one way to study in the world. You must know that the nurses in their departments, as well as those who graduated from technical secondary schools, would not be a problem to get a few thousand dollars if they came out, but running is too illusory! No matter how he looked at it, he didn't think his son had anything special. How could it be possible? After the original body was identified, he didn't plan to modify his thoughts. He didn't even plan to watch his son run once - isn't it just running? What catches your eyes? It's not necessary!

In the face of his firmness, Coach Wang and Pei Xiangdong had to choose to give up. After all, Pei Xiangdong was still a minor and could not be his own master; besides, he was not such a decisive or rebellious teenager. With his father relying on each other, he subconsciously obeyed his father's words.

Then Pei Xiangdong lived as his father said. He was admitted to the school in the city, and he was admitted to the Medical University of C Province with good grades. Following the path drawn by his father, he became a doctor. Of course, even if In this way, his father's diligent supervision was inevitable in his life.

"You have to work harder! You have to keep up with your professional titles, otherwise what will you use to compete with others? Don't think that you are not bad now, there are too many outstanding people in the world!", "You are a newcomer. The paper? I have read it, but the journal you posted is not authoritative enough, and the points are not high. You will try other good journals next time. Also, this topic is still not enough, and you will consider it next time.", " If you want to give lectures, you have to learn from others and prepare in the best possible way. Don’t think that if people invite you to give lectures, they will recognize you. It’s just that you are famous now! I don't agree with your idea."

Yuan Shen always said this, even if his son had already started a family and had a child, he would still be like this. He was quite satisfied to see his son making progress under his own encouragement.

The original body is satisfied with his life, he has a great reputation in his career, and his pursuit of medicine can be regarded as a satisfactory result. In the family, although after divorcing his wife, he lived with his son for the rest of his life, but he was not very lonely. His son inherited his mantle and became an excellent doctor. Later, he also had a happy family. How could he have any regrets? ? He is very happy.

Unexpectedly, an illness in his old age made all his thoughts shattered. Older people are inevitably full of problems with their bodies. He accidentally fell and threw himself directly to the hospital. He was too old to have surgery. Although he was barely able to take care of himself, he had to trouble his son and daughter-in-law to take more care. Fortunately, my son works in the hospital. After work every day, he can go directly to the ward to rest and chat with him by the way. During the day, he can entrust the nurse to take care of him, so he doesn't need to bother others too much.

He was bored in the ward—there were not many smart TV stations in the hospital, so he often watched sports stations and various games to pass the time. He unexpectedly found that every time it was a running competition, his son would keep his eyes still, staring at the TV, not even blinking.

He remembered the past and joked, "Look, there are only one or two people who can run in China now. I said you couldn't run, right?"

Yuan Shen didn't want to. He said this casually, but his son's heart almost lost control. Pei Xiangdong looked at him and suddenly said, "What if I can do it?"

He smiled: "What in case? No, no."

Pei Xiangdong didn't say a word, he just smiled embarrassingly - what if it really happened? He has paid attention to the results of various domestic competitions for a long time. After the information age, the Internet is very developed, and most of the information can be searched. Is he really that bad? Up to this moment, watching the people running as much as they like on TV, he will still miss him - when running, he is really happy.

Being a doctor is indeed a good choice. He is doing well now, but this is not what he wants most. He is quiet at night. Say I can't, I also want to try, at least, I want a chance to try.

That night, at Pei Xiangdong's hospital party, he drank a lot of alcohol and returned to the ward drunk. He sat on the chair next to his original bed, looked at his father blankly, and suddenly laughed and cried, saying that he was drunk. Speaking the truth, drinking is strong and cowardly, this is probably the reason. The words that were once held in his heart could not help but want to pour out. He staggered and sat unsteadily, saying sentence by sentence:

"Dad, I'm in your heart, so useless? From childhood to adulthood, you have been telling me, I was wrong, I can't, even if I try hard, I won't get praise, I really have done enough. , but then?" He laughed so hard, "then you would still look at me and say to me, Pei Xiangdong, you are a useless son, you can't do anything well."

"From the beginning of my memory, until now, I have never heard you compliment me. In front of outsiders, I have never lost face, and you will always tell them, look, my son is not good at all. What about closing the door? It's the same, no matter what I do, you can always pick out the error."

He looked at his old father. For more than 40 years, he has been a human father, but he is still brooding: "friends, classmates, teachers, relatives... so many people say that I am not that good. Oops, but in your heart, I will always be the worst one. Dad, I like to run. Coach Wang didn't lie to me. Later, when I met him again in college, I ran to him! He is still Say I can do it!"

The original was lying on the bed, staring blankly at his son, unable to say a word, he always felt that the child should be scolded and disciplined, how could he praise him? If you boast too much, your tail will go up to the sky, but why is it like this? Pei Xiangdong is of course a good boy, but he didn't boast.

How come this is so? He couldn't give himself an answer.

"In this life, even if I become famous, in my eyes, I am a waste." Pei Xiangdong rarely cried.

"I..." Yuan Shen wanted to speak, but saw his son snoring, and when he was drunk, the whole person fell asleep. He lay on his back, the thoughts in his mind became more and more chaotic, and he just wanted to wait until tomorrow. But I didn't expect that there are so many tomorrows in this world? I don't know if it was because of the bad weather in winter, or because of too much stimulation that night, he suffered a brain hemorrhage and passed away the next day.

Pei Xiangdong thought that he was mad at his father and wanted to die. When saying goodbye to his father's body, he approached his father's coffin and said hoarsely, "Dad, you are right, my life is nothing." He went to his father to leave. At that moment, he still failed to get that compliment.

In the dark space, the man had tears in his eyes after saying this. He said his wish little by little: "You can praise him for me, he is a good boy and has done a good job." He suddenly After a while, his body has begun to gradually disappear, "Also... if he likes running so much, let him try it! Maybe, he can do it?" He suddenly realized something and laughed bitterly. At the last moment, he Subconsciously, he was still full of doubts about Xiang Dong, and he couldn't even give him any trust.

...

Autumn in the south has its own color. Even though it is often written in textbooks that autumn leaves come and fall, in this boundary, the trees are still lush and green, and the eyes are full of greenery. Few leaves.

Small county towns have always had their own rhythms. Perhaps because the economy is not so developed, it is always slow.

County A Experimental Middle School is one of the best schools in the county. It has expanded and renovated several times in recent years. Now the old campus is used as the high school department, and the newly enrolled junior high school students are enrolled in the junior high school department in the suburbs.

The center of the junior high school is a full circle of plastic runways. It was just repainted during the summer vacation. The traces and numbers on the runway, which had been somewhat dim, became clear at a glance. Now it is the last class before school in the afternoon. The playground There are only a dozen or so students in the school, most of whom are on the school team. In the extracurricular activity classes that are always requisitioned by teachers, they still have the privilege to come down to exercise.

"Xiangdong, what's the matter with you?" The boy who had just finished running around the playground was panting on his legs and looked down at his partner. His forehead was covered in sweat, dripping down drop by drop. On the white school uniform, it was also because of Sweat appeared to be deep and shallow.

"It's nothing." Pei Xiangdong lay flat on the ground, staring blankly at the sky, as if thinking about something.

He Xiaoliang gasped and stretched out his hand to his friend: "Get up, lie down and wait for your clothes to get dirty." Although he could see that his friend was in a bad mood, he didn't have the habit of getting to the bottom of it, "How about I... Would you like a drink?" As long as you drink a carbonated drink, your worries will always be reduced.

"Let's go." Pei Xiangdong grabbed his friend's hand, was pulled by a hand, and stood up directly. The two teenagers, one left and one right, walked side by side and went to the fence—

Yes, the fence is not the gate. The management of the County A Experimental Middle School has become more and more strict in recent years. Every day at the school gate, there will be students and teachers who specialize in supervision. They use a pair of eagle eyes to check the students' hands and exposed backpacks. Those who slip through the net are asked to smuggle prohibited items into the school. Of course, there are many types of prohibited items, including beverages and snacks.

There are policies on the top and countermeasures on the bottom. Students once complained about the outdated and unfashionable wide sports uniforms. Now they have become a weapon to hide things. In a trouser pocket, a coat can hold several large bags of potato chips. Even if you really "smuggle" and don't get in, there is still a way to "smuggle", like this—

The school's fences are all painted white, the lower part is a flat flat stick, the top is carved with sharp corners, and there is a gap in the middle, which is enough for an adult's arm.

"Madam Boss." He Xiaoliang raised his voice. He had a small curly hair on his back. People who didn't know the goods thought it was natural curly, but it actually cost a lot of money. , "Two bottles of pulsation!" Holding a ten-yuan bill in his hand, it danced with the wind.

The fence at the corner is a huge "smuggling den", and directly opposite is a row of grocery stores, which include stationery, snacks, drinks; toys and daily necessities. If they want their profits to plummet, they have to curve the curve to save the country and help the students deliver things.

"Come on." The lady boss of the first grocery store was the most sharp-eyed. She shook her hand, took a black plastic bag, filled it with drinks, and quickly crossed the road and walked to the fence, handing over the money in one hand and the other in hand. Delivery, no greetings, just turn around and leave.

"Take it." He Xiaoliang handed the Pulse over. In fact, he couldn't drink it, but he just listened to a lot of propaganda. After exercising, of course, he had to drink a bottle of sports drink, "Remember, today is my brother who invited you. Yes." He and Pei Xiangdong are the same age, and the difference between the two is two months before and after, but he has always been brooding about his brother's identity, and has repeatedly tried to persuade Pei Xiangdong to call him "Brother Liang."

"What bro." Pei Xiangdong poured the drink into his mouth. He just took it out of the refrigerator. The sweet water was still mixed with the icy energy, and he wanted people to cool down. "Next time, I'll invite you. ."

"Cut." He Xiaoliang was quite disappointed when he failed to deceive a brother, but he cheered up quickly, hugged Pei Xiangdong's shoulder, and chatted as he walked, "Don't be unhappy, did you miss the exam?" He couldn't think of anything else. The reason for the annoyance, but it is also strange that Pei Xiangdong is a scholar who is hanged on the honor roll every day.

Pei Xiangdong was rarely depressed, so he found a place to sit by the rostrum of the playground, where there was no sun: "It's not because of grades."

"What's the trouble with that?" He Xiaoliang is quite carefree. He has always been bad in exams, and his family told him that when he was in high school, he would study languages, and then he would go abroad to study, saying It doesn't sound good, he's just mixing in junior high school now, he just got a junior high school diploma. He wasn't bothered, there was nothing to be unhappy with like Pei Xiangdong.

"You said..." His mood was particularly low today.

"What?" He Xiaoliang was very funny, "Tell you a cross talk?"

"Do you think I'm bad?" One sentence can revolve around eight hundred times in my heart.

"Huh?" He Xiaoliang was choked, his chin, neck, and body were all covered with freshly choked water, and his face was full of disbelief, "Wait, my ears are broken? What did you say?"

"Am I particularly bad? I'm useless?"

"..." He Xiaoliang wiped the water on his body, unable to control his expression of wanting to complain, "Are you kidding me? It's like someone often said in the space that the Xueba came out after the exam and said he took the exam. Smashed it, the scumbag finished the exam and came out and said that he also failed the exam, and in the end, the scumbag was still the first, and the scumbag was the last?"

"No, I mean it."

He Xiaoliang's eyes met Pei Xiangdong's. After a while, he couldn't help but take a step back: "Do you really think you're bad?" The other party's expression was serious, and the sadness in his eyes was not fake, "Are you crazy?"

He became incoherent: "Please, can you be my brother? Take a look at the honor roll, we have a total of about 1,000 students in the third year of junior high, all of whom are under you. My mother comes to hold parent-teacher conferences for me every year. Sometimes she has to say something to me, if I can be like you, why would she find a way for me? Let’s talk about sports, although we are both in the school team, you are the coach’s top treasure, and he keeps it in his hand. Treasure, I'm afraid that you will fall and hurt, what about us professional households? It's not even looking at it..."

"If you were my mother's child, she would be able to pay you up! You actually said that you are bad!" He Xiaoliang raised his forehead, "If you are bad, I don't think I should have been born!"

"...Maybe." He lowered his head, there were green trees beside the rostrum, shadows reflected on his face, "I'm fine."

"It's really okay?" He Xiaoliang sat down next to Pei Xiangdong, "Don't think about it! This is the trouble of geniuses and mortals. We mortals don't worry about being bad! You see the world and worry that you are not good enough."

Pei Xiangdong responded with a smile, but the stagnation in his heart was not relieved at all: "Well, I see."

This is not a "genius' trouble", but the daily and daily confusion that permeates his life-even if he tries his best, he may not be able to get the approval of the person he wants. Perhaps, he shouldn't use it. Certainly the word, but certainly not.

"By the way, Xiangdong, are you still going to the provincial team?" He Xiaoliang was a little curious and worried for him, "But you did so well in the test, shouldn't your family agree? If it were me, it would be different, my mother I would definitely like to send me there."

"Let's talk about it." Pei Xiangdong replied softly. The problem was not that he was good or bad in the test, but that his father never felt that he was capable of participating in the competition. "Actually... I don't have any talent either."

"What the **** happened to you today?" He Xiaoliang looked at the other party suspiciously, "What do you mean by lack of talent? You have even broken the city record! I heard that it is almost the same as the provincial record, so how can this be considered lack of talent? What? Besides, Coach Wang didn't look for anyone else? Just staring at you, ordinary people like us can't even get the eyes of others."

He listened to He Xiaoliang's words, but only had a wry smile in his heart - even Xiaoliang thought he could do it, but why didn't his father listen? Is it because he thinks he can't run well, or because...he has nowhere to go.

...

"Doctor Pei, that coach Wang is here again." The triage nurse probed in, the afternoon outpatient clinic was over, and Pei Naochun packed his things in the clinic as usual.

Coach Wang has been here almost every day during this time, and even the triage nurses can call him out when they see him.