Good Dad System

Taking her father's car to school is a very common thing for Pei Qiaoqiao. The two parents have reached a division of labor and cooperation very early, and they will pick her up to and from school according to each other's busy hours. It's just the nature of the mother's training class. Busy time does not conflict with her reading time, so her mother gave her more.

She obediently followed her father into the car, and fastened her seat belt without saying a word. In high school, smartphones were not allowed in the school. If she sat in the back seat and did other things, she would be prone to motion sickness. He could only lower his head and look at his fingers, carrying the text on his back like passing the time.

If someone were to ask what Pei Qiaoqiao was most afraid of, she would definitely give an unexpected answer to everyone. The first place she was most afraid of was in the car; Find a place where she can relax.

But now, in the place where she was most afraid, Pei Qiaoqiao was particularly restless. She tried her best to reduce her sense of existence, and hoped that her father would not find another topic to talk to her about today.

"Jojo." Pei Naochun drove the car onto the road, and when he shouted casually, he could clearly see his daughter's body shaking in the rearview mirror, looked straight and stiff in his direction, and returned cautiously: "Dad, I'm here."

Here again, Pei Qiaoqiao was a little frustrated, not knowing what the topic would be today.

A few years ago, she and her parents could talk about a lot of things, such as your favorite vegetables and fruits, and the latest TV dramas on TV, but since entering high school, all these have disappeared. With the mainstream of daily topics, she understands, she understands, how important high school is, but she is really out of breath.

Almost every time she takes an exam, she is worried, for fear that her grades will fall behind or remain unchanged. She really doesn't have enough talent, and she can't take the first place in any class. She has always been in the middle and upper reaches. , at the stage where there is more than enough, running a few steps forward is the bright road, standing still, it is meaningless.

Whenever the grades come out, she has to go home to accept a round of "examination". She needs to record the grades, including the class rank, year ranking, and various subject rankings, and then write it down on paper, respectfully. Leave it to my parents, stand obediently opposite, and wait until the teaching is over before sitting down.

If she has improved compared to last time—this is usually rare. After all, when she runs forward, the classmates at the front of the class also run forward. How can it be so easy to crush others, then parents will rarely be happy Nodding, then quickly began to continue the homework of filling in the gaps.

"Look at how effective this supplementary class is. Parents have done so much for you, and they feel willing! Let's see, you are still not good at geography, I think I will entrust your Auntie Wu's favor and ask her to introduce it. A great geography teacher, giving you one-on-one tutoring, we have to spend as much money as possible, this is a must."

She usually shrinks a little, feeling the burden on her shoulders getting heavier and heavier, and said with her head lowered, "No need, I can do it myself..."

Then you will hear the laughter from the adults: "You don't understand this, your own efforts account for 98%, the key 2%, or rely on a good teacher to give you a little bit, like It's such a teacher, others can't find it if you want to find it! Parents don't want to lose face because of you, and I beg grandpa to tell grandma, I hope we, Qiao Qiao, will succeed in the future. This time we have made progress, but don't be proud, let's continue to work hard. "

"...Okay." She had no choice but to nod, and then continued to study hard for the next period of time.

If the exam is not good or it is the same as the last time, the probability of the former is relatively small, Pei Qiaoqiao is still serious in reading, and there is almost no big regression.

What she is most afraid to hear is the long sighs of parents and me. This part often lasts for a long time. In the strong silence, you can only hear the sighs one after another, and the replay after picking up the water glass and drinking it. Almost every time she heard the voice on the table, she could only hold her hands behind her back and pinched herself so that she would not cry at this time.

"Jojo, you've disappointed your parents too much." Usually at this time, the reckoning is about to begin. This is not a lesson. After all, neither of the parents has the habit of hitting their children, but they are really doing the reckoning, "Look How much did your parents spend for you? If your English is not good before, we will find the best English teacher for you. It costs 200 yuan for a class. The math you make up is for a large class, and it costs 90 yuan for a class... …You do the math, this week, your tuition fee alone will be deducted four or five hundred yuan, and your parents will only earn a few hundred a day, not to mention your living expenses. Of course, we are not saying that you spend money, It's just that we spend money to see the effect, this money is wasted, and parents are also uncomfortable."

At this time, she couldn't say anything else, she just lowered her head, pursed her lips, and said repeatedly, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"There's nothing to be sorry for, this is what your parents should do for you, but you still let your parents down. Think about how many classmates around you don't have such good opportunities and good treatment. You You must learn to cherish. We have done so much for you, not to hear you say sorry. You must understand that our money is spent on the cutting edge. Now that we have spent it, we should listen to the class carefully and strive to improve our grades. Is this the truth? "

"Yes." Mom and Dad are right, but Pei Qiaoqiao usually only gets frustrated. She really listens very carefully, and even sits there motionless after class, but for her, some subjects are difficult to understand. She couldn't figure it out after racking her brains. She really wanted to tell her parents that she would not go, but looking at their eyes, she really couldn't say, "Okay, I'll try my best."

"Jojo, your parents can't study for you, we can only send you to a good school and take good tuition for you. For you, it doesn't matter if you tighten your belt, grit your teeth, and suffer a little bit, you see. Since you went to high school, you said that you should be at school before seven o'clock, the whole family will accompany you to get up at five o'clock, and the evening self-study will be extended to ten forty. You have done your best to treat you with your heart, and you must not be the child who disappoints us."

"...Okay." Then she would go back to her room, sit at the desk, and read the book with extra, extra effort, but unfortunately, her hard work only allowed her to improve in many rote subjects Grades, a slightly more flexible subject, are not that simple.

Pei Qiaoqiao has always known that her thoughts are very hypocritical. If you tell others about it, they will probably laugh with disdain, saying that you are studying and taking exams for yourself, not for your parents. It seems that you are not good in the exam. It's the same with parents, they will say, you are in the midst of happiness and don't know happiness, your parents are not satisfied with you, they do so much, is it not for the good of your life?

But she still couldn't control her depression and discomfort.

She also wants to get good grades in the exam, go to a good school, become the pride of her parents and herself. Every time she fails in the exam, of course, she will also examine the omissions in her study stage, feel guilty, and redouble her efforts. These mentalities , and everyone around him is about the same age.

But at the same time, because of her parents' "earnest expectations" and "unlimited efforts", she began to feel that she was "guilty" for doing anything out of the ordinary. Isn't it exaggerated? But she did think so, and her parents told her so.

"We've done so much for you, how can you..." This sentence has grown into her ears since she was a child, and the content behind it is all kinds of strange, including quarreling with classmates, not wanting to go to the Math Olympiad class, wanting to learn At the age of painting and beauty, I have been tossing myself, secretly braiding at home, failing exams, etc., everything can be put behind.

Pei Qiaoqiao can be persuaded by her parents every time, because they have done so much for her, and they are all for her good, but every time, she still feels conflict and pain.

It was obviously made "for me", and the choice was made for my own good. Why did I suffer in the end, most of the time?

At the same time, the efforts of her parents gradually made her feel unbearable.

What is the reward for giving? It was probably Pei Qiaoqiao who gave her best friend a birthday present, and when she was on her birthday, her best friend also gave her one back. It was like this. There were contacts, but Pei Qiaoqiao slowly realized that her parents gave too much and she couldn't afford it. .

She went to learn piano since she was a child, which is what her mother wanted her to learn. At that time, everyone's economic conditions were average. Dad spent a small 10,000 to buy a high-priced piano from the piano store, and specially invited the surrounding kindergarten. A music teacher came to teach her how to play the piano. She didn't remember the exact price, but it was expensive, but after a few years of elementary school, the school rented another school's campus due to renovations, and it cost half a day to get to and from school. After more than an hour, she gradually ran out of time to practice the piano, and she was also full of activities such as the Math Olympiad training class and the school's Saturday interest class. The piano became ashes at home, and she probably only played that. Little Star and Mary have a little lamb.

But until now, this has been often mentioned by relatives and parents around. They will say that they spent so much money back then to buy a piano and to hire a teacher. In the end, Pei Qiaoqiao didn't even take a grade. It's a pity. , What a waste, and then looking at her, she shook her head and sighed. Every time she encountered this, she felt ashamed.

There are also these training classes that Pei Qiaoqiao attended. Since her mother works in the training class herself, she highly respects small class teaching. Of course, the most appreciated thing is that the teacher can focus on the one-to-one education of the students throughout the whole process. She found it for Pei Qiaoqiao. A well-known and good teacher, or it is one-on-one or two-on-one, and this of course also represents a "high" price. Naturally, the money spent will often be mentioned in the mouths of parents, and then Pei Qiaoqiao She would start to calculate in her mind how much she spent in total.

She found that she couldn't afford it, and she was slowly put on the single-plank bridge. If other classmates did not pass the test, they would be sorry for her life, and if she failed the test, not only herself, but also her parents, And that more and more golden mountains.

Thoughts like this, even if they are occasionally suppressed, they will soon be reminded again by the reminder of their parents, which makes her sometimes really suffer and struggle, but no matter how painful, Pei Qiaoqiao can only move forward like this without turning back, because As long as she stopped, she seemed to be a sinner.

And why is she afraid to ride in her parents' car? Because almost every time, in such a solitary environment, parents can inspire the ardent teaching of her daughter. They usually talk at length about her recent life and studies, or accuse or teach her, if it is at home , she can make up a lie, saying that she wants to go to the toilet, but in the car, she has nowhere to run, so she can only listen, and she has to force herself to answer indifferently.

Pei Naochun in front was a little distressed. He would not think that Pei Qiaoqiao was too fragile or too hypocritical. First, a child of this age was already in adolescence, and his world outlook, outlook on life, and values ​​were not fully mature. They are especially prone to amplify a lot of emotions. If adults use their own life experience to say what this is, it is really a bit high. You must know that people can bear different pressures at different stages of life. Second, for Pei Qiaoqiao, such pressure was not formed overnight, but a long-term, never-ending pressure.

To give a very simple example, let’s say that in reality, if one of the spouses or lovers talks every day about how much I have paid and sacrificed for you, how can you not be nice to me, how can you do this, it may lead to It has become a resentment, a broken relationship, not to mention the long-term oppression that lasted for more than ten years or even decades later?

It is said that moisturizing things is silent, this kind of silent, "for you" that runs through your life is enough to make a person suffocate in a restricted space, unable to move, unable to breathe.

"Qiao Qiao, did you have any nightmares today? Dad is really worried. Do you want to tell Dad that Dad is willing to be your trash can." Pei Naochun tried to keep his tone calm, the fact In the memory of the original body, Pei Qiaoqiao always suppressed her mood, until she was forced to marry, she resisted a little bit. In her life, she hardly ever resisted her parents directly. Pei Naochun didn't even know that in this place. At the point of time, what is the state of this child - to put it bluntly, it also depends on the original body. In fact, he doesn't feel that there is anything wrong with his child at all.

"Our family's Qiao Qiao, except for her grades, lacks shortcomings. She is very obedient in everything. She is not like those rebellious children. As long as you reason with her, she will not refuse to listen, and she will definitely be a filial child in the future."

"I..." Pei Qiaoqiao bowed her head. The midterm exam will be in two days. In fact, the nightmare she had last night was about the midterm exam. For her, it was just a daily routine. She would toss and turn, and nightmares would follow.

She sometimes envies her best friend. When she fails in the exam, she can only think about "your own goals and future", but her first thought will never be herself, but her parents waiting at home.

In the dream, of course, she failed the exam, which was worse than usual, and the exam was a mess. She went home with red eyes and timidly handed in the report card. Sure enough, she was greeted by furious parents.

"Did you do anything else during this time? I don't think you put your mind on studying at all. How much did your dad and I do for you? We are almost holding you up as the sun, you say I am Damn, because you have no career and no personal life, I can’t wait to go around you every day. I will help you make up for your poor grades. If you feel unwell, I will take you to the hospital as soon as possible. What kind of notebook, coffee and bread do you want? I'll buy it for you immediately, tell me, what do you want from us, are we not doing enough?"

"Yeah, Qiao Qiao, this time, you really disappointed Dad too much. I think your mother and I have really achieved the ultimate goal, and we almost gave you our lives. We did this for you. , you have to learn to be content, grateful, and redouble your efforts to study. Look at what you are doing in your exam now, Dad doesn’t even know what it means to do it for you.”

Then, there were two pairs of familiar eyes that were enlarged. Their eyes were full of disappointment and disgust, and the words "for you" hovered beside their ears.

"Dad, I just had a nightmare, dreaming of a ghost." Pei Qiaoqiao pretended to be relaxed and made an excuse to put off her father. For some reason, just thinking about that dream made her eyes feel a little sore. This time she must pass the exam. Take the exam well.

Of course Pei Naochun knew that his daughter was lying, but what he couldn't help but blurted out was a long sigh. He was probably a sigh lover, and he couldn't control himself when he was troubled.

"Dad, what's the matter." Hearing her father's sigh, Pei Qiaoqiao held her breath subconsciously, her shoulders pressed against the back seat of the car, biting her lips and looking at her father, "I, did I do something wrong?"

"No, of course not." Pei Naochun immediately realized that maybe he had put pressure on his daughter again, and he also made an excuse, "Recently, Dad's work has a few people who have asked for leave, and there are more things, so it's not always worrying. Don't worry? When they come back from leave, they will be free."

"Is that so? That's fine." Pei Qiaoqiao didn't even know what she meant, but she knew that at least at this moment, she could breathe a little more easily.

The father and daughter sitting in front of each other lied at the same time, and the peace on this face was barely maintained in the lie.

Pei Naochun parked the car steadily at the entrance of Pei Qiaoqiao's school. He lowered the car window and watched his daughter get out of the car. Pei Qiaoqiao carefully closed the car door, and before getting off the car, he told his father that she was going to school, so be careful on the road. Pei Naochun just looked at his daughter's back, and he could see that the child was relaxed at the moment, which was completely different from the previous, when the father and daughter were alone together, the other's back was stretched straight.

He raised the car window and was about to go to the company before starting the car, but he couldn't help sighing.

He thought that for a daughter at this stage, the pressure from her parents was already strong enough that she couldn't hold her head up in front of the parents who were obviously supposed to be in the harbor, and who were obviously supposed to rely on her.

Pei Naochun knew that the original body should also be confused. He also firmly believed that everything he and his wife did was unconditionally devoted to their daughter. She wanted her daughter to become better, and he also used his life experience to help her. daughter plans.

Of course, their husband and wife are like most parents in the country. While paying, they also hope to get something in return. The reward is a well-behaved, obedient, and good enough daughter who has grown up step by step. She has fairly good grades. Going to a good university, finding a stable job after graduation, marrying a good person with the support of your parents, having a child, and helping your parents to support the elderly at that time is perfect.

But when these rewards are forever bound to giving, they will become depressing and utilitarian in nature. No matter how good the starting point is, it may not lead to the best results.

Pei Naochun began to think deeply. He was a little tangled. In fact, in this world, there is no big villain at all. In most people's eyes, Pei Qiaoqiao's life was perfect. Her husband did not cheat, and her son also treated her. It's pretty good, there's no burden in economic life, and even though the career is not good enough, it's stable enough. What's wrong with this? It's a life-winner model. But even with such an easy version of life, Pei Qiaoqiao is still unhappy.

And his wife, when thinking of Lin Shuqi, Pei Naochun is even bigger. It is undeniable that Lin Shuqi sacrificed a lot for her daughter. When she was "forced" or took the initiative to give too much, she would inevitably "demand" from her daughter. "More, in addition, she, who is also a woman, also has her own life experience. She sets the best template of her life on her daughter. Under such a background, it is a heavy responsibility to change her. Long way to go.

This is simply full of maliciousness, and the easy mode is full of endless loops. Pei Naochun couldn't help but smile bitterly.

...

As soon as Pei Qiaoqiao arrived in the classroom, she realized that something was wrong in the class. The bulletin board with the class score table hanging behind it was changed, and it was divided into fifty-six grids. Colored words that read "Our future".

"What is this?" she muttered to herself.

Pei Qiaoqiao's deskmate came over and said: "This is what Laoban did with the dorm students last night. I heard that we want to write about our ideals in life. Laoban said that we don't want to do any future university. When we write it, he helps us collect it. Get up, wait for the class reunion ten years later, and then take it out for everyone to watch together."

"What are you going to write?"

"It's all right. In the future, which city do you want to be in, what job do you want to do, start a family, and if you really don't know how to write it, just write which university you want to go to." The same desk I asked about last night helped explain, "The old class means that our current efforts are all to realize the cornerstone of the future. He wants us to understand that getting into a good university is the first step in realizing the future life of most people. He also hopes that we will have After we have a preliminary vision for the future, we can better choose a school and major that suits us.”

"...my future?"