Her Little Dimples

It was already dark, Xu You squatted on a strange street for a long time, and his mind kept buzzing. The phone vibrated tirelessly, but she never answered, and she didn't even have the energy to read the caller ID.

In the end, the feet were numb, and the pain in the stomach was finally relieved.

"—Little girl, are you okay?" A voice appeared in her ear.

Xu You looked up and saw a young girl wearing a mask. She was a little worried and bent down and asked: "I see you have been squatting here for a long time..."

Xu You was taken aback, tried to behave naturally, waved his hand, and said to the man: "I'm fine..."

She was pale and weak, and coughed several times.

The young girl couldn't help but stepped forward to help her, "You don't look very good, do you need to go to the hospital to see something?"

"no need...."

At this time, Xu You's cell phone rang again, and it was a thank-you call. She sighed lightly and pressed it off.

It was not that she ignored him deliberately, but she knew that some emotions in her heart had accumulated and it was not easy to fade away. The spirits are all broken up, and when this sensibility prevails, continuing to quarrel will only hurt each other.

She didn't want to quarrel with thank you, let alone hurt him.

"Thank you." After Xu You stood firm, he thanked him embarrassedly.

"Thank you, it's just a matter of effort."

The young girl was kind-hearted, and accompanied Xu You to stop the taxi on the side of the road, watching her get in the car before leaving.

Arrived home. The lights in the living room and kitchen were on, and Dad Xu was sitting on the sofa reading a newspaper. Hearing the movement, he raised his head and glanced at Xu You who had just entered the door.

"dad."

Xu You changed his shoes and walked a few steps closer.

Father Xu picked up the remote control set aside, turned the TV volume down, and asked casually: "Where did I go with my classmates. After playing for a day, I just didn't answer the phone call with you."

"I didn't look at the phone or where to play just now. I came back after eating."

Father Xu was silent for two or three seconds, then put down the newspaper in his hand, "Come here, I have something to tell you."

Xu You nodded, unconscious, unloaded the bag and walked over.

"You have been out of shape lately."

She was a little confused.

I heard Dad Xu say: "You tell me honestly, are you still thinking about physics competition?"

"..."

"No..." Xu You murmured back.

"No?!"

Dad Xu raised the volume and threw the book out of the side with a little excitement. He yelled, "I bought you the materials, and you said you didn’t have time to do it. As a result, you finished all the physics exercises in version B. Where do you have so much time? I told you that competition is not a way out, you have not received any training, and your school has not organized training outside. Why are you still so stubborn? Is your brain flooded?!"

"Look at your brother's lesson, isn't it enough? It's been a waste of time for year after year, and it hasn't come up with any reputation. People still have formal training. You can learn by yourself, what kind of climate can you become!"

"Girls’ youth is not so easy to waste, you say you, I agreed with you to apply for a physics competition last summer, but you were brushed off in the first test. I know you had a fever at that time and your performance was unstable, but this is also Isn’t it an excuse to know? What if this happens in your third year of high school? The competition is not the same as the college entrance examination, why don’t you give up...it’s the most important moment, and you’re still distracted to do it now. What kind of competition, if the college entrance examination is not good because of this, are you going to repeat it?"

"......"

She knew her father's expectations and worries, she couldn't find a word to refute, and she simply said nothing. Xu You's cousin also studied competitions, but he failed in the final year of his senior year. He did not succeed in passing the exam. The college entrance examination was also affected. In the end, his cousin did not want to repeat the exam, so he went to an ordinary 211.

"What happened?"

Chen Xiuyun heard the movement and came out of the kitchen. Seeing Xu You being scolded again, she became anxious, and quickly stepped forward, pulling Xu You behind her, "Why are you scolding the child again..."

"Ask her yourself!" Father Xu was still angry.

Chen Xiuyun turned his gaze to Xu You who was bowing his head.

She remained motionless and silent, without saying a word, her eyes drooping.

"what happened?"

Xu You's lips tightened.

"Speaking, do you want to make mom anxious to death?"

Xu You opened her mouth, and tears fell when she wanted to speak. She couldn't stop rubbing with the back of her hand.

Seeing her appearance, the two adults couldn't bear it. There was a stalemate for a long time, and Xu's father sighed heavily. He sighed heavily and said in a deep tone: "It's not your father who forced you. The hope of our whole family rests on you. Your mother and I are just your daughter, and we worked hard to raise you. You have good academic performance, don't waste such an important time on meaningless things, you will regret it later..."

"Forget it, I won't talk about you today. Go back and think about it. Go to bed early today."

Chen Xiuyun called to her, "Can you still eat something? Mom ordered noodles."

Xu You shook his head.

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After the shower, she leaned back on the bed and lingered for a while. Feeling too cold to sit, I just took off my clothes and went under the covers.

The quilt is not warm either, I just feel cold in my hands and feet.

I was stunned, not knowing why I thought of the thanks. If you get along with one person for a long time, you will become too dependent and habitually miss it.

He always wears little clothes, but his body is warm and dry, unlike himself, as cold as ice. So every time two people were outside, he would habitually hold her hand and put it in his pocket.

The ten fingers are intertwined, and the skin is pressed against the skin to keep warm. Wearing gloves is not so warm.

The phone light is very bright, put it next to the pillow, shaking and shaking.

This time it's not a phone call, it's a text message.

A slight ding-dong sound, continuously, rang in the room.

The last message is longer than the previous ones. Xu You picked it up and looked at it.

[Can you answer my call? Can I look at the text message? ...Xu Yo, I'm really scared of you, how can someone treat their feelings less seriously than me? If they say they break up, they will break up.....]

Seeing this, she didn't continue to look down.

The dizzy yellow light on the bed was still on, and Xu You reached out to turn it out, and the room suddenly plunged into darkness.

She picked up the phone, turned over, and fumbled for a number.

Two beeps.

"...Fuck, Xu You, I've been standing downstairs at your house for two hours, and finally paid attention to me. Damn, I was just about to send you a letter of dismissal." His tone was aggrieved as well as anger.

"..."

"Can you hear me?"

"you said."

"Come down? Come down."

The thank you speech was quick, and I asked it twice.

Xu You said nothing.

"Your community security master will soon know me..."

"Thank you, you have a cold, go home quickly." She said, her voice very soft.

He was silent for a while, seeming to admit, "Just tell me, what do you want me to do, I really can't do it."

"........."

"Are you going to break up with me?"

"No."

"Oh..."

There was a slight knock of the lighter over there.

Thank you for smoking again.

"You don't like my friend?" he asked.

Xu You held the phone tightly, her hands trembling, "No, it's not my problem with you."

"What's the problem, then you don't like me?"

He said ‘Oh’, "I’ll put it another way."

"Do you look down on me and my friends, and think that our grades are not good, that we live extravagantly and have a low taste."

I only eat, drink, have fun, fight and make trouble all day long, right? You all think that way anyway, right? "

The voice of thanks is rarely indifferent.

And fragile.

She didn't hold it up, bit her lip, her pillow soaked with tears.

Long silence on the phone. It was so quiet that there seemed to be only whirring wind. A few minutes is longer than a few hours.

"okay, I get it."

He hung up after speaking.

I didn't sleep well at night. Xu You had a dream.

In her dream, she seemed to have walked a long way, and her eyes were full of messy light retreating.

Sometimes the thank you words accompany her, but sometimes they disappear. She watched him walk away.

The lines of his back were indifferent, then faded, and finally disappeared into the darkness.

When he woke up, Xu You touched the phone and checked the time, four o'clock in the morning. She was lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, and couldn't sleep. Get out of bed, open the curtains and look out.

In the night, the vast expanse of whiteness reflected light.

It's snowing again.

this city.