Hi I'm Married, But I'm Sleeping With My Boss

Hi everyone. The last part of this book is literally the explanation of everything that happened within those 81 chapters. This chapter isn't really a chapter but you can call it that. It will include

1) My own character analysis

2)The alternate endings

3)why I prefer building and recreating chances of love

4) What is possible to not like about this book.

5) last message

Character Analysis 

Meilin: It's also important to know volume four was a mistake. I forgot to delete in before I published chapter 77. I couldn't do anything about because it was a premium chapter. That's just a side note. Now Meilin, she obviously wasn't that much of a weak character but if you might've paid attention I revealed why. 

Meilin was born into a home that was already in crisis. With everything that was going on in her life at a young age, she was scared of what life would look like as an a.d.u.l.t and her fears became a reality. As an a.d.u.l.t, she passed through difficult circ.u.mstances that made her hate herself many more times. From the mistakes she made to the failure of realising herself, she was bound to feel inferior especially to the opposite s.e.x. 

Because... for some reason, all the men she'd stumbled across were living a good life. Her father was actually a rich dude, but he neglected herself and her mother. A stereotype and a wrong way of thinking but that's how she saw the world. 

The playground and the elevator were almost two decades apart. What linked unlike poles together. Haru and Meilin were obviously two different personalities merging. Haru didn't have a specific one but Meilin was only liable to change towards the end of the book when she'd realised haru killed Guiren. 

Actually I did curse Meilin. Her mother's love story was somewhat similar with Her own love affair with Bao. Marry a man and he ends up not treating you right because he's never satisfied with what he has.

The Hana curse was obviously for Meilin to experience the same thing her mother went through before she died. The hana curse also affected Meilin when her daughter's turned against her, the same way Meilin turned against her mother and went ahead to live with bao. Her mother was depressed till the day she died, and Meilin was depressed after hearing her daughter say she wished she'd die. That led Meilin to run out of her house in the thick snow that cold day after chances of a blizzard was announced.

Does it all Make sense now? You can see how that relates.

Meilin's thirst for love literally pulled herself and Guiren together. Principal Li wei was just chapter fill in, I wasn't too into their romance. And I'll let you in on a secret, I wanted Meilin to have another baby, but I wasn't too sure of who'd be the proper biological father so I decided to dump those ideas.

Haru: Heartthrob and our unsteady antagonist. Haru was a really bright boy with all the possible good emotions and positive vibes. He was never really sure about what the future had for him because of the way he painted the world. At his young age, he imagined he'd be a successful business man, have a car and a wife. That was all he imagined. His imaginations were normally about space and superheroes. He wasn't even that moved by the world 'love' even when he met Meilin at the train station it was a normal 'friend request'

And when he met Meilin at the train station, he believed more in the power of optimism. But once Haru reached his teenage years, especially when he was sixteen...he changed completely. For almost all his life he didn't know his parents were dead and the people he was living with were just relatives. His cousins didn't even like him because of the attention he got from his aunt who he always thought was his mother. He was living a lie and was puppeteered to think he had a perfect life.

The yang family was wide and nothing but power struggle. People could kill just to inherit the leadership of the enterprise. It was obvious that his aunt and uncle had their motives but he never bothered to ask. It would make him feel bad more than he already was.

It made him doubt the whole love thing. It made him think that it was nothing but a chance of benefits. His relatives claimed to love him but it was clear it was just because of his networth and all his father left behind. But None of that made him happy. He wanted someone that could understand him.

Even when he met Ai jin he knew at once that she wasn't the type that'd listen to his insides but would remain totally with his external features. 

When he met Meilin again he had a feeling that they knew eachother but not too much. He didn't have anything to back up his claim but he was still sure..

His greatest fear was having everything he craved for being taken away. Just like how he lost it after he found out who Guiren was. His selfishness got the best of him and he ended up killing his 'opponent'

Haru had always been emotionally weak, the next thing that comes to his mind what what he'd follow. An example was when Ai jin fell down the stairs and the only logical explanation was Meilin. He was quick to point fingers because his emotions were like a consuming fire. Same emotions made him cheat on Meilin after he got rejected time after time.

But no matter all he did, his love would still rekindle.

Ai jin: A princess, and Beijing's number one idol. She's unique, pretty and talented but her number one flaw Is her hunger for drama. Well Ai jin is one of my favorite characters, and I wished I actually did more for her 😔 

Before her fame, she was the nice soft girl Haru used to know before he broke her heart. Everything she worked hard for was to show Haru how much she'd achieved without him. 

What hurt her was the fact that he could only say congrats and it seemed like it was no big deal. She was on billboards and magazines and what even pissed her more was her discovery of Ai Jin. She felt downgraded by a mere elevator girl that somehow managed to be his 'personal assistant' 

It was all funny that Haru could find someone like her attractive more than an A lister model. Ai jin unlocked her jealousy trait and swore to kill Meilin if things would get that severe. 

She wasn't fighting because she loved haru, she was fighting because Meilin wasn't even in their league. She wanted to push her away because she believed they couldn't even breathe the same air. They were rich and she was poor, haru wasn't supposed to surrender himself to her so weakly. Ai jin assumed that she just came for money and only that.

Bao: The character everyone hated. The perfectly nuetral character. Was he really that bad? He started off as a boy at the oustkirts. Lost his caring mother and his dad went ahead to marry another woman that cared little about him. Bao actually did love Meilin, he got arrested because of the dreams he had. He wanted happiness, that's all for himself and Meilin. Everything went wrong when he realized he couldn't give Meilin what he thought he could because of his criminal records.

He resorted to violence because it somehow relieved him of the stress. He needed someone else to blame so he decided to punish Meilin for the mistake that he made. He wished he never met her. He was sure his life would've been different.

I did want Bao to have a little bit of his human emotions so I decided to not let him kill Meilin's babies. He still somehow cared about her but everything he did was for his own benefit. 

His relationship for Ai jin was for money at first and he didn't think he'd fall for her. When he did, it felt like he was being mind controled. He was ready to take all risks as long as it was for her. But in the end, he died. At this point I think I have to type less now.

I was going to talk about Guiren but I can't because it will make it too long. You know what, I still will.

Nah

The alternate endings— 

Meilin died when she got hit by the truck that ran into her but I didn't think you guys would like that.

Ending 2 

Guiren marries Meilin and Haru goes to jail where he actually belongs.

Ending 3 

Meilin lives happily ever after with Haru.

I didn't plan to kill Guiren but I had to.

People must have noticed how much I like building my sandcastles and smashing them. That's probably because I wanted to make the story longer and I just enjoy ruining my character's happiness. I can't let them fall in love at first sight and expect a happily ever after.

Now to address the matter of not liking this book— 

It's something that's inevitable I know but sometimes I prefer not to hear it. I don't have more than 24 hrs but I try my best to always keep the book in mind and update as much as possible. I only take days interval whenever I feel like no one would care. I make a lot of mistakes but I promise to fix all that before March. It won't be easy but I'll try my best.

Final note

Just know I'm planning to start  another book anytime soon. Not sure yet but I have a lot of incomplete projects that I don't know if I can

finish. Well that's all for that. Thank you for your time.