Hold My Hand, Don't Let Me Go

Cold sweat travels down Xin Lian's neck as she trembles in fear while her knuckles unconsciously grip the sheet tightly. Not long after, she frantically opens her closed lids. Revealing two pair of brown orbs filled with fear.

She just had a dream of talking with the real Xin Lian, who was about to jump of the building to end her life.

As she recalls the happenings in the novel that she read in her past life, Xin Lian doesn't remember a scene where the antagonist talked with someone in the rooftop. Even at her death scene, she was shown as a vicious woman, whose hatred towards the heroine maximized right before she died. She cursed and blamed Yao Yue for everything that happened to her and she had no remorse to anyone but herself. She wasn't described as tired, weak or someone who has given up.

And as a reader, seeing the real Xin Lian before she ends her life, made her feel guilty for cheering and wishing for her demise. Especially when she tried to reach out her hands to save her, but unfortunately, she couldn't and wouldn't be able to do so in this life.

Just how sad was the proud Xin Lian was to end her life that easily? For her to feel that powerless and full of regrets.

Remembering all the stuffs that she did in the novel for her to be loved again by Jiu Chen, made her emotions stir. It was as if she could understand the mindset that Xin Lian had to do those horrible things. All for love.

Soon, warm tears slowly fall down her cheeks. The small whimpers became a sob until she started crying uncontrollably.

When Xin Lian died, nobody cried for her. Jiu Chen still continues his marriage to Yao Yue and people has moved on easily and forgot the fallen heiress; It was as if she never existed. When the book was finished, nobody even wants to recall the hateful antagonist.

She was one of them.

She hated the Xin Lian of the novel who was so desperate for the main lead's love. She rejoiced when the antagonist died; But for tonight, she cries for Xin Lian. She cries for her pitiful ending.

She vowed that in this life, Xin Lian would love herself more than she'll ever love anyone else.