How Can I Get Rid of Him

I’ve forgotten how the conversation ended with Fu Yan that day. He might have felt guilty, but I was calm.

After Brother Egg and Fu Yan left in the evening, A stayed with me in the hospital. After all, this was merely an island with basic medical facilities. There was only one sofa to sleep on. I was physically and mentally tortured that day, so I quickly fell asleep on the bed. I woke up in a daze in the middle of the night and saw A sitting on the sofa, holding a pen and paper, and checking his phone while writing something. The paper was filled with dense writing. I looked at the time; it was already past 1 am. This can’t have been a travel guide as he never bothered to check it. I used to be the one to tell him where to go. Thus, I couldn’t help but ask what he was doing.

He picked up the prescription medicine and shook it, saying, “This medicine is all in English. I can’t understand it. I’m checking to see if there is anything to pay attention to. The medicine should not be taken indiscriminately.” The doctor who prescribed me the medicine spoke English. We somewhat understood his explanation about the dosage and combination, but we were all confused about taboos.

“Oh.” I didn’t know how to reply to him. It was rare to see A showing affection.

A had always done things casually. Occasionally, when in a good mood, he could pretend to spoil me for a few days, but over time, I realized it was all a three-minute thing, and it never lasted long. No one has the energy to spoil a non-loved person forever.

He sometimes acted like he cared about me, but that was all conditional. The last time my mother had just died; this time I fell into the sea. I had worked hard for five years and still could not enjoy a reciprocal relationship. I always had to pay a tragic price for that bit of affection, which was all just sympathy.

So now I was tired and didn’t need his sympathy.

I don’t know when A went to bed that night. When I woke up, he was sitting on the chair next to my bed, with his head resting on my pillow and his right hand clasping my left finger. We would only have had this kind of intimate behavior in bed in the past. I was not used to it, so I quickly took my hand back.

This gesture awakened A. He rubbed my hair and asked if my feet still hurt. I shook my head. He helped me wash, gave me breakfast, and took me back to the hotel.

In the afternoon, A and the others discussed the medical expenses with the company that drove the motorboat. I heard that D’s girlfriend’s English was good, so they could communicate without problems. Later, the company covered my medical expenses, so I breathed a sigh of relief. Since I decided to break up with A, I had to pay him back on our return. Speaking of this, I have to complain about foreign medical treatment. I spent nearly $10,000 that day, which is around 60,000 yuan. It is a bit of a loss for a person who has just started working. Who said that foreign medical care is better than that of China? I am anxious <(￣ ﹌ ￣)>.

I was lying alone in the hotel that day, bored to death. The flight we had booked was for two days later. For a moment, I wanted to buy a ticket to go home the next day, but after seeing that the price of the ticket had increased fivefold, I calmed down. It used to be tough for my mother to raise my sister and me. Unlike A and his loaded friends, I never had much money at home. Now I’ve just started to work, so money was still scarce. Occasionally, I had to weigh the pros and cons of affording it when I wanted to indulge.

The doctor said to avoid wetting the plaster so I couldn’t take a bath. I could only wipe my body. When A came back in the evening, he saw me dragging one leg while holding a towel and didn’t understand what I was doing. He came over to help me wipe, but I said no. He pretended not to understand, grabbed the towel, and wanted to undress me. I was not as strong as him, so I pushed him in a hurry, and he almost fell on the slippery bathroom floor.

A looked at me, puzzled. “What’s wrong with you?”

Me, “I can wipe it.”

A, “What if you fall later?”

Me, “I can do it myself.”

A, ” … “

Me, “Get out.”

A, ” … “

When A left the bathroom in anger, he slammed the door shut.

A few minutes later, he came in again. He looked at me helplessly and said, “I don’t know how I offended you, but don’t be angry with me, Ok? If later you really fall, you will need a cast again. Didn’t it hurt enough yesterday?”

I thought about it and felt he had a point, so I shouldn’t stand. I should sit and clean myself slowly.

I looked up at A, “Go get me a chair.”

A went out and brought in a chair that looked like a sofa.

Me, “Ok, you can go out.”

A, ” … “

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The next day, Brother Egg and the others went out to play, as originally planned. In fact, I felt guilty. Because of my accident, nobody got to play during the last two days. Everyone was busy during the year, so whose annual leave was not precious?

That day, A found me a wheelchair, put me in it, and pushed me to the beach. Wheelchairs couldn’t enter the beach, so I could only watch the faraway sea from the concrete floor. A pushed me to a high observation deck to see the panoramic beach view.

There were lots of people on the beach. One family bought the children out to play; two young lovers were cuddling together; several friends were having fun. The sun was bright, the sea breeze was slightly humid, and the seawater was so blue that it connected to the distant horizon. From time to time, a few seagulls flew by leisurely. Everything looked so beautiful.

I turned my head to look at A. He was standing against the light, and the sun’s halo outlined his three-dimensional features. I thought it was his beautiful skin that had attracted me initially. I suddenly remembered the day I had successfully confessed to him for the first time. It was also a sunny day. He had just won a game, and the cheering crowd was gradually dispersing from the court. I was sitting side by side with him in the auditorium. He said a few words to me with a smile. I don’t remember what he said, but I thought his smile was shining, and his eyes were full of stars and the sea. So I suddenly asked, “Would you like a boyfriend like me?” He was stunned, then nodded in agreement.

At that time, a thousand fireworks were blooming in my heart. It felt like eating a ton of honey. I thought I was the happiest and most fortunate person in the world.

It would be great if time could stop at that moment forever, and life would be as good as the first time we met.

“Remember the first time we went together to the beach?” A pointed to a crying child in the distance and said, “You, an almost 1.8m-tall man, were caught by a crab and almost cried.”

“It was really painful!” I remembered the time we had gone to Hainan; as soon as I had walked on the beach, I stepped on a crab. It broke my skin, and I bled a lot. It wasn’t easy to hold back my tears. They were not angry tears but physiological tears. From then on, A would call me “crying bag.”

Suddenly, many familiar scenes came to mind. When we played video games at home, I would kick him upon losing. When A was happy, he would hug me and discuss how to decorate the house in the future. When he was drunk, he would smile and say, Xiao Xi, I love you. In an instant, Lhasa, Xiamen, Siem Reap, all the places we had been together, everything we had done, was like playing a movie in my head.

It turned out when it was about to end, I still wanted to remember these happy things.

I don’t know if A also thought of something emotional; he lowered his head and kissed my lips gently, and the two tourists next to us looked at us with a smile.

This time, I didn’t push him away. Five years later, I gave him a farewell kiss. Since we had started on a sunny day, we should also end on a beautiful day.

I went to bed after washing at night and turned off the lights. A lay next to my pillow and covered me with a quilt. He turned around and hugged me, putting his head on my shoulder, and talked about what to do tomorrow and what to do the day after tomorrow. I listened but never answered.

A seemed to be used to me ignoring him these days, and he didn’t care, so he continued talking about his arrangements. While talking, he squeezed my face, “When your feet are ok, we will take a few days off for the National day and find a quiet beach for fun for a few days. You didn’t have a good time now.”

The night was so deep that when I turned my head, I could see the gleam of light in his eyes through the moonlight. On such a quiet night, such an intimate posture and such gentle words were easy to believe.

I took away his hand that was squeezing my face, looked at him, and said with a very calm voice, “Pei Hao, let’s break up.”

[1st floor] Alex is vanilla: ah ah ah ah broke up, broke up!

[2nd floor] Late stage of procrastination: Oh, oh, it’s good to break up, but why do I feel a little uncomfortable? /Д`

[3rd floor] Just don’t believe your shoes: OMG, it turns out the scum A is called Pei Hao!!!

[4th floor] A corrupt female: The OP probably won’t use a real name, but Pei Hao’s name is scumbag.

[5th floor] I used my brain: … The same Pei Hao said he did not want to take the blame … (Xiao Xi, come out to discuss it, can I change the name of the scum A?)

[6th floor] Reverse da beauty: Hahaha, wouldn’t it be coincidental, upstairs is also called Pei Hao?

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[11th floor] Mr. Thirteen: About the medical treatment abroad, my friend in Canada called an ambulance for $2000 (fear.jpg)

[12th floor] I live in a village huh: I had acute gastroenteritis in the United States and was afraid to go to the emergency room …

[13th floor] GD wife: I feel sorry for you who are abroad (hug.jpg)

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[20th floor] Guo Qing is not insulted: Maybe we just want to remember the best parts at the end of a relationship. It’s not about how reluctant we are to give up on this person but to respect our own life experiences and the beautiful moments we had.

[21st floor] Take me to fei: Xiao Xi, didn’t you say before that A didn’t love you?

[22nd floor] [OP] Registered a random number: Being drunk doesn’t count.