How the Regressor Loves the Reincarnated

3. Reincarnated Luke Isvant

1.

To me, my previous life on Earth was just a vague old memory. Having already lived as Luke Isvantra for nearly 20 years, it was only natural to some extent.

Perhaps the fact that he lived an ordinary life in his previous life also played a role. He went through compulsory education as usual, graduated from high school, and went on to a university that matched his grades.

I fell into the so-called public interest as a social worker without having an army that everyone else goes to. Perhaps because my eyesight was so bad, as soon as I took the documents from the ophthalmologist, the 4th grade judgment came out.

I lived a very normal life, saving money and planning to get a job after graduating from college.

But it wasn’t that I ended my life on Earth abruptly enough to leave behind regrets. Rather, it is safe to say that I was given a lot of time to sort out my regrets to the point of overflowing.

‘Yoon Si-woo’, that is, in my previous life, I was a terminal lung cancer patient.

It is said that the patient’s will is the most important thing in chemotherapy, but if it was overcome only by will, the death rate from lung cancer would not be so high.

If I had been a smoker, I would have felt less unfair, but I have never smoked a cigarette in my life. As such, it is likely that the cause of the outbreak was second-hand smoke, which was experienced to the point of getting sick of it in the gap between smoker friends.

When the news spread that I had lung cancer, my friends also easily realized that they were the only reason why I had lung cancer. When I saw friends who came to visit the hospital as a group and apologized over and over again, I sweated to alleviate their guilt.

To be honest, I didn’t have a heart to resent them at first, but seeing them crying as if they had committed a crime made me feel more sorry for having such thoughts for no reason.

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My family always cheered me on, telling me never to give up because everything will be fine, but the shadow of death that was cast by the day eventually forced me to make a decision.

Perhaps it might be a bit harsh to describe it as coercion. That decision was made because I wanted it from beginning to end. It was only a little dissatisfying that I had no choice but to make a decision because I was pressed for time.

The first thing I did was use the money I saved for the people around me. My parents were so stern that they would pay for the treatment themselves, so the money I saved up was money I couldn’t use for treatment because I was told to spend it for myself when I regained my health.

Well, the cost of chemotherapy isn’t even a penny or two, so how can you, as a parent, burden your child with that? I couldn’t stand it thinking that I couldn’t put a proper pocket money in my parents’ hands until the last moment.

Even if he was miraculously cured, there was no hesitation because the money spent was not worth it. I feel a little sorry for not being considerate of the fact that the recipients of the gift might feel uncomfortable because of it, but if I had to make an excuse, I wasn’t clear-minded enough to consider such a thing carefully.

After that, I started keeping a diary, and since this was a helpful choice in many ways, I am quite satisfied with it. The diary, which I started to fill with positive sentiments as much as possible while excluding negative things as much as possible, neutralized some of the negative emotions I had to feel inevitably, so it was of great help in the long run.

Above all else, since I started writing a diary, I almost lost my temper over trivial things, so it was certain that it was quite effective.

I wanted to do it at least once in the first page of my diary, but I couldn’t do it because of my deteriorating health, so I made a bucket list of things I regret. I also didn’t forget to write the name of the person I want to do something for me next to, hoping that those left behind can overcome my death and move forward.

Of course, no one read that diary while I was alive. No matter how sober, showing my diary to others is a bit like that. There were all sorts of reasons for mentioning the diary in the will.

After my mind was organized to some extent, I tried to live with a smile as much as possible. It’s obvious, but it wasn’t easy. Not only the pain and shortness of breath that come dozens of times a day, but also the depression that comes every time I lie down to fall asleep, no matter how much I try to convince myself that I have finished organizing my mind. Because I ate some.

Perhaps acting as if he had already accepted the fact that he was going to die was the cause of the failure of treatment, but… Thinking about cancer only after he has already died only hurts his head.

Speech aside, death came quite suddenly. Still, I thought, ‘Ah, I’m going to die soon.’ I thought I would be given time to say goodbye one last time, but losing consciousness at some point was my last memory as Yoon Si-woo.

It might have been fortunate. If I had seen my parents’ faces at the last moment… It would have been clear that the lingering feelings would arise again.

2.

Luke Istvant has been unusually intelligent and mature since childhood, and has been favored by his family and his family members as well.

Since he was an adult whose essence had already been established, it was an extremely natural thing for him.

But Luke had no reason to share such a secret with others, so the only person who knew about it was Luke.

Basically, Luke had 25 years of life experience in addition to his current age, so acting like a child was practically impossible for him. It is normal for a 5-year-old child to act cute to his parents, but if the mental age is 30 years old and the body is 5 years old, it is unavoidable that the act of acting cute is repulsive.

Fortunately, thanks to being born into a high-ranking ducal family, the more he acted like an adult, the more praise he received rather than worry, so Luke was able to act like an adult without too much pressure.

The Duke of Isvant, the family in which Luke was fortunately born and raised, is one of the founding families of the Barthes Empire, standing at the center of the power structure within the empire along with the Duke of Ludmeyer, the Marquis of Eleanor, and the Marquis of Shire. It was a place

Especially among them, it is one of the families that are absolutely loyal to the imperial family, and it is also a prestigious magical family that has no place to follow in terms of magical talent that has produced tower owners of the imperial mage tower for generations.

Luke, who was born and raised as the only direct lineage and legitimate heir of such a prestigious family, was in a position where he had no choice but to receive the expectations of the entire family as a result of showing an unusually mature appearance from a young age.

‘It’s a shame that magical talent is also inherited.’

Fortunately, Luke inherited the magical talents of his father, the current owner of the Imperial Mage Tower, so he did not betray their expectations. Rather, his talent for manipulating magic itself was one step above his father’s, so it was more difficult to let go of that expectation.

Actually, that didn’t mean that Luke was a genius in the sense that his thinking was exceptional. He was simply a genius in the eyes of others because he had the ability to think like an adult since childhood.

Luke himself also thought that it was only natural to hear the voice of a genius since an adult’s thinking and a child’s ability to learn were combined. Because he wasn’t such an unrealistic idiot that he had the illusion that he had heard such a thing because he was good at it.

Luke wanted to live this life in peace, without getting involved in any special incidents beyond the norm. Just living up to the family’s expectations and leading the family without any problems was enough.

Of course, Luke was not aware of the fact that the probability of such an optimistic future awaiting him, who would become the head of the only ducal family in the empire, rather than a rural baron family, was very low. He thought that it was not a big mistake to hope that the peace of the empire would not be suddenly broken in his generation.

“Nice to meet you, Prince Isvant. My name is Adele Ludmeier.”

It was absolutely not his fault that his hopeful future was shattered in an encounter with a woman.

“Still, you made a wise choice this time.”

“If I had been wasting the chance I was given again, living like an idiot… I wouldn’t have let it go.”

Luke thought that the words she whispered in his ear were the starting point of everything she did.

Even if he regretted saying he hadn’t heard it and going his own way, if he were given a chance to make a choice again… Maybe Luke wouldn’t make another choice.

For Luke, the answer to that choice was always fixed.