I am a Good Man

Tang Xuan looked at the closed door, her eyes blurred with tears, her thin shoulders trembled violently.

How did he go?

How dare to go?

He dragged his feet back to the room in despair, sat on the bed and cried, looked at the diamond ring in his hand, and stretched out his hand to take it out.

Constantly exerting force, a tingling sensation began to come, but the diamond ring remained stuck on the finger and could not be pulled out.

She exhausted all her strength, and when it was about to be pulled out, she let go and cried even louder.

It's not that she had never quarreled with Ji Yang, every time, he smiled and coaxed, it was the first time it was so serious.

Even, he didn't explain.

Without looking back.

Tang Xuan held her leg helplessly, tears kept dripping, the phone in the corner turned on again, and received new information.

She walked over and picked up the phone. It was still Fang Xin's message: "I know that you may be in a bad mood. If you don't come out, don't force it. Go to bed early and good night."

A sentence is ambiguous.

She started to breathe shortly, shaking hands to unlock the phone, losing two sets of numbers was wrong, her eyes kept flashing, trying to remember what number Ji Yang would use as a password except for her fingerprint.

Correct.

Her birthday.

Quickly enter a series of numbers, the interface opens at once, and the chat history with Fang Xin remains.

Slip up, ready to give up on yourself.

As a result, when I saw the photo, I clicked it on, my pupils shrank suddenly, and then turned up. The earliest record was at the end of September. Fang Xin applied for Ji Yangfa to work overtime on the National Day last year.

Ji Yang didn't reply, and her palms began to sweat, and she continued to flip up, but there was nothing left.

Her gaze stayed on the sentence "Tang Xuan had a boyfriend who was very beloved before", her heart began to chuckle, and her palms began to sweat.

Panicked and at a loss, he was about to rush out to find him with his mobile phone.

Before stepping out of the bedroom door, but seeing Ji Yang's figure appear in front of her, Tang Xuan was surprised and happy, crying and laughing, "I..."

"I know it's your house, I'll get off right away and come back to get something." Ji Yang walked to the bedside, put the car key in his pocket, then opened the cabinet to take the suitcase, squatted down and opened it quickly.

"I'm sorry, I apologize to you, I thought... I didn't go to him, he came to me, we were nothing, I was afraid of your misunderstanding, so I didn't say, I..." She spoke incoherently, and saw Ji Yang start to go inside. Putting on the clothes, she cried louder in fright, walked over to **** him, clearly didn't want him to go, but the exit became, "I bought these for you!"

Like a helpless and willful child.

"Okay, I don't take what you bought, and I will return it to you." Ji Yang let go, looked in the cabinet again, took a few loose sports short sleeves in the corner, put it in the suitcase, and continued packing.

He was expressionless, Tang Xuan couldn't stop panicking, and his mind was blank, not knowing what to do.

"I apologize to you, we have no contact. I will tell you about this. I haven't thought of hiding it from you." She went over to **** it, tried to stop him, choked up, "I bought the pajamas for you. I bought it for you."

The two were arguing, pulling and pulling on a piece of clothing. Ji Yang flung the clothing quickly and threw it into the corner. Su Ri's tender and tender eyes couldn't make a ripple at this moment.

Tang Xuan was shocked, her face pale, and she stared at him in place.

"Okay, you bought everything you bought, and the house is yours. I rent it for the past two years, and I will buy clothes from you. I will call you the money, Tang Xuan, so you won’t lose money. "He looked at her with bottomless eyes, and suddenly made her tremble with reason.

"I didn't mean that, I don't want your money." She quickly denied, completely scared, and mustered the courage to say, "Because you are very busy recently and don't have time to accompany me, I..."

"You don't want to make an excuse." Ji Yang interrupted her, walked over to the wall and picked up the clothes, and said in a deep voice, "I should verify the things that you subconsciously recognize. It's not your fault. You didn't. Wrong, it’s all my fault. You say you don’t believe in love. I think as long as I treat you well enough and love you enough, you will love me. In the end, I realize that it’s not the case. You treat me as good to you as me I have to be nice to you, because I live in your house. This is what I have to do. Who tells me to be inferior to you?"

"I didn't..." Tang Xuan quickly denied, tears falling down her cheeks, and seeing him putting on clothes, she quickly walked over.

She was afraid he would not come back if he left.

"Including my busy time during this period, you feel that you are detaching from you, and sometimes I feel that you would rather I be a little worse, so that I can maintain the previous state, I have benefited, so as a balance, I must treat you as a balance. Baishun." He put his jacket inside, and what he said was like hitting Tang Xuan's heart word by word.

She even froze, her expression dull.

Thinking about it, she seems to have been stopping him, eager to maintain the previous state, put the two in a comfort zone, trying to continue to prove their important value in this relationship.

The monthly salary is equivalent to Ji Yang, and the house is in her name. It seems that without these, she will be abandoned at any time.

Ji Yang had already closed the suitcase, Tang Xuan regained his senses, and ran to the door quickly, pressing his back against the door, on the one hand digesting his words, on the other hand preventing him from leaving.

"I apologize to you because I misunderstood you. I can explain the photo. You...Don't...Let's talk..." She was incoherent, she even had a plea in her eyes, not knowing what to do, but absolutely Won't let him go.

"What are we talking about? What else can we talk about? You said getting married, then I want to ask you, do you want to get married and have children at an appropriate age, and do not want to be talked about by others, or do you want to marry me?" He laughed and paused, "I think it happens to be that I treat you well. You think you are capable, with a good monthly salary, and having a house, which can make it easier for me to settle down in this city. I should need you."

"But Tang Xuan, I don't want it, it's boring."

As soon as he finished speaking, Tang Xuan couldn't stop the tears and she kept shaking her head, carefully pulling his hand.

Ji Yang retracted his hand and glanced to one side, "Then you think you can get what you need. I will transfer the rent for the past two years to you, and the money you spent on me will be paid back. You, as for what I spend for you, no more."

"Ji Yang..."

"In this way, you won't feel that I have to do something about you to be nice to you, to love you purposefully, as if I should have been bad, so that you are worthy." He felt extremely ironic, lost and helpless in his eyes," I love you so much, but I can’t build up any of your confidence and security. It’s because I have failed too much and it’s not your problem.”

The fragility in Tang Xuan's heart was shattered by him. She thought that the things hidden in her heart would not be discovered.

He is so clear.

At the beginning, she did try to treat her well, subconsciously, as a condition of exchange, she was good enough to be worthy of him, as if this combination would prevent Tian Chengrui from depreciating and disgusting her again, which can cushion her heart. A little low self-esteem, so she never disliked the Ji family.

She feels that she is not worthy of a better one, and Ji Yang also likes it, so she gets married and have children step by step. In this relationship, she will be more "favored", at least not much.

"No." She said without confidence.

"I don't care what others think or say, but this person is Tang Xuan, I hold the tip of my heart and love the person who wants to marry, can't you feel the intention of being with you?" He is getting more and more off track. It aggravates the nature of this matter a bit.

But that's it, showing Tang Xuan's original idea bloody, it is true that she loves him, and it is true that she is inferior and cowardly and a little pitiful.

"I apologize to you, I shouldn't think too much, Fang Xin..."

"Is it Fang Xin? It's not your **** ex-boyfriend. It's your own lack of self-confidence. Everything I do is not taken for granted, nor is it necessary to do this. If I don't love you, am I guilty?" Ji Yang said coldly. Interrupting, he said that his heart fluctuates violently, and took two deep breaths, "You get out of the way, I'll get out immediately."

Tang Xuan suddenly rushed into his arms, tightly wrapped around his waist, crying, tears pouring out like a bank burst, still shaking his head.

Her native family was complicated and lacked love since she was a child. When she was in love with Tian Chengrui, the other side also thought she was horrible, worthless, and often ridiculed and belittled. Ji Yang was right. She was sensitive and suspicious of inferiority complex, and felt that no one would love her unconditionally. ,

Ji Yang was still holding the suitcase rod in his hand, and did not speak.

"I want to marry you so I think about it." She looked up at him, tears falling unscrupulously, her eyes dim, and crying, "I'm not making a fuss, I'm afraid you leave me and don't want me anymore."

"I was wrong. Don't leave. I won't think about it anymore. I will believe you and myself, okay?" She softened her voice, observing his expression nervously.

A heart hung, and the spirit was tense, for fear that he would pull her hand away. She hadn’t seen him so serious, but she really scared her. It felt like he walked out of this door forever. Won't come back again.

"You let go first." Ji Yang looked down at her, and the words fell in her ears clearly.

Tang Xuan froze, and then faltered, never expecting that this was what he said from his mouth.

She thought that in this relationship, she would never be the one to be abandoned. He loves her more than she loves him.

"I'll move out first, let's calm down first." Ji Yang said as he pulled his luggage and walked out.

The pain from Tang Xuan's heart valve pierced her heart, tears filled her eyes, and she stubbornly held his hand to prevent him from leaving.

"You said you would stay here with me and you would always take care of me." She whimpered dullly, and her other hand gripped the corner of his clothes, speaking intermittently, "Auntie just called me just now and asked us how we are doing. Well, I said they were all good, and I asked when we can go back, so that it won’t be cold after a while."

She took a breath, letting her tears drop, "I would have heard some of what they said before, but I haven't questioned you, I still choose to believe you. Even if there are these reasons you said, I will I have never denied that you love me or trampled on your feelings for me. I cherish it."

"You said you don't want to get married earlier, I said you can wait. Later on the investment of the branch company, I was disturbed and flustered, and secretly insomnia in the middle of the night, but seeing you run the market very hard, I don't want your efforts to be disappointed, I am willing to be with you To endure hardships, I admit that the branch office opened up and the performance increased. You started to be busier. Slowly, we may not be people in the same world. I feel very insecure. You never mentioned the matter of getting married. It feels like I am worthless. You can leave at any time. I don't know what to do. I feel anxious all day long."

Since Ji Yang started her business, she has held oppositional opinions, and everything seems to be out of the track she originally wanted.

Tian Chengrui once told her that the two of them are not in the same circle, and she can't keep up with him, and there is no need to be together.

"I explained that I want to spend a while." Ji Yang stared at her for a while, "If I don't want to get married, I won't take you back."

"But that was what you told me after I promised you to invest..." She instinctively took the conversation, and realized her problem halfway through.

"Xuanxuan, that's not an exchange of terms. I propose to marry you and take you back. It is not your reward or exchange of terms for agreeing to me. If you are willing to support me and wait for me, I should promise you that it is my responsibility and this It’s you for the rest of my life, so I should give you a sense of security." Ji Yang faced her gaze, tucked his eyebrows and chin tightly, and said heavy, "I am for us. I said that if others have it, I will work hard. Give it to you slowly, don't you feel my contribution? Do you really love me?"

The last sentence made Tang Xuan cry again. She never took his contribution for granted, but she would think that she was unworthy and untrue.

It's ridiculous to want to come.

Does she love him?

I have always felt like I like it, and I feel that he must love himself more, but now, facing him to leave, the feeling will be a hundred times more painful than watching Tian Chengrui leave.

With psychological pain, she couldn't stop the tears.

Can't accept it at all.

"Don't go." She couldn't calm her mood, crying so hard, she said a few words intermittently.

Ji Yang sighed deeply, turned his head to one side, pressed his lips tightly, and said nothing.

Tang Xuan's cry stopped, looking at him who was calm, her heart began to fall, her voice trembling, "Ji Yang..."

His Adam's apple shuddered twice, then turned his head again and looked at her.

"I love you..." Her eyes were red and swollen, and there were tears inside. Two lines of tears slipped when she said this.

Before the ending sounded, she felt that his heart softened. It was the kind of obvious emotional movement, but she was tolerant and restrained.

"I will no longer try to figure out your feelings for me, you are kind to me, nor will I forcefully add some impurities to this relationship, nor will I want to convict you and turn my character defects into a sharp sword to hurt you. , I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." She stretched out her hand to hug him again, buried her head in his arms, still choking, "I love you, I know no one will treat me like you again, I don't want you It will not stop you from making progress. I will support you and do what you want to do together. I know you are for our future. Don’t have pressure. I think stability means that we can be together well. In this way Very good."

She was directly convicted today without asking, and she couldn't escape her subconscious circle at all.

In fact, in essence, she doesn't believe in herself.

Ji Yang paused for a while, and slowly released the luggage lever. The big hand covered the back of her head, soothingly touched, and then surrendered, "Don't cry."

Tang Xuan raised her head to look at him, pitifully, "Then you won't leave, right?"

"Can I rest assured?" He lowered his head, covered her face with his hands, wiped her tears with his fingertips, sighed slightly, his voice was low, "Don't let others influence our feelings, day After all, it’s us. What I can’t accept is your distrust of me. You have repeatedly doubted my feelings for you and thought you were unworthy. Then what do you think of yourself? What do you think of me? Xuanxuan, you can’t feel it. Is my love for you?"

"Correct……"

"I don't want your apology." He interrupted.

Looking at him, Tang Xuan stood on tiptoe without hesitation, and kissed his thin lips with soft and soft lips.

Ji Yang took a step back, and her slender arm climbed up to his neck, the strength was not small.

Immediately afterwards, he put his foot on the edge of the bed and fell down.

She took the initiative, covered her body and continued to kiss him. In a tingling sorrow, Ji Yang turned over, more urgent than her.

In the end, cold water was poured from her head suddenly. Today is a special period.

"Forget it, go to sleep." Ji Yang hugged her and calmed down.

Tang Xuan pressed her mouth, and put her hand over his pajamas again, "I bought the pajamas for you. If you don't wear them, take them off."

"Tang Xuan..." Ji Yang frowned before uttering two words. When she saw her slipping down, her expression changed suddenly.

The sky was faintly bright, and the morning light came in through the windows.

The alarm clock by the bedside kept ringing.

Ji Yang moved, and wanted to get up to turn off the alarm clock. As soon as he moved, a white lotus arm stretched out from the quilt to hug him.

Apart from anything else, the one lying on the body, like an octopus.

Tang Xuan's voice was confused, "Don't leave."

"I turned off the alarm clock." Ji Yang held her and moved it aside, took the phone over, stretched out his hand, and the ringing stopped, he looked at the broken screen and looked at her in his arms again. Where did you learn your temper? If the phone is broken, you have to buy it. If you say it is thrown, you will fall."

Tang Xuan was wrong, holding him silently, and desperately rubbing against his neck.

Just listen to his words and regret, "I bought it for less than a year, almost 10,000 yuan, how many cosmetics and clothes can I buy for you with that money? I can last two months if I save money and buy milk powder diapers."

She opened her closed eyes quietly, and she stretched out her hand to embrace him, as if she had been filled with honey.

"I don't know how I got used to it. The person who has a temper doesn't know it at all. Do you think I was too successful or too failed?" Ji Yang said and looked down at her, someone pretending to be dead on him.

Seeing that no one answered, he was about to sit up again, and she moved, "Don't move, I haven't put on clothes yet, the wind is coming in and it's cold to death."

The words were squeamish and domineering, and he reached out and patted him lightly.

Ji Yang didn't move, and lay down and hugged her obediently.

Tang Xuan lay for a while, seeing that she was about to be late, she had no desire to get up, and hugged him in a sleepy sleep, "I have asked for leave, and I don't want to go to work."

"Then do I have to take time off to accompany you?" Ji Yang asked.

Tang Xuan didn't reply, instead she raised her eyes to look at him. Those eyes were clear and bright, and his face was still reflected.

"What do you do with you? Lying on the bed all the time? It makes me all over?" Ji Yang also looked at her.

"I……"

"You can't figure it out again, or do you want to lie down with you all morning and come with me to collect the certificate in the afternoon? I can consider it." He said again.

Tang Xuan looked startled.

"Well, you have no chance to oppose it. Hesitated to grind and harp. That's the decision. It’s the wisest choice to kidnap people home before you don’t hate and wake up, and sleep for another two hours. Yesterday I was tossed to death by you late." Ji Yang didn't give her a chance to speak, holding her in one hand and pulling the quilt up with the other, closing his eyes and leaning his chin on top of her head.

Tang Xuan's lips moved, but in the end she said nothing. Liu brow bends, eyes closed and leaned in his arms.

The other end.

"It's a meeting." Yu Xiang shouted, and everyone went to the meeting room.

Fang Xin sat down and started observing Tang Xuan. Seeing that the other party hadn't come, she shouldn't be. The other party is usually respectable.

"Are everyone here?" Yu Xiang glanced around.

"Team Leader Tang didn't come." Fang Xin said.

"Oh, she asked for a day off, did the rest come together?" Yu Xiang took a look again, "it should be all here, let's start talking about today's tasks, let me talk about everyone's arrangements first..."

What she was talking about Fang Xin had been automatically blocked, and only Tang Xuan asked for leave in her mind.

The other party has always been a sensible person, doing things vigorously, is this serious enough to ask for leave?

Also, Ji Yang proposed to marry him, and the two went back to see their parents. Tang Xuan is twenty-seven, right?

If this is blown away, I am afraid that I will have to doubt my life, and I will definitely not be able to marry before the age of 30.

One morning, she felt very happy, and her work efficiency increased several times, waiting for Tang Xuan's tragic follow-up.

Unfortunately, the tragic follow-up did not wait, but Gou Lang came with a lot.

I was at work in the afternoon, and I don’t know who came from the office, "Telling the groove, this is a leave of absence to get a marriage certificate."

"Who?"

"Group leader Tang, look at the circle of friends."

...

Fang Xin had a bad premonition, quickly took the phone, opened the circle of friends, and hasn't slipped down yet. The first thing is Ji Yangfa's dynamics.

A piece of Tang Xuan, holding a large bunch of delicate pink roses, slightly lowered her head, revealing her white neck, her face was full of happiness, and her smile was like a flower.

Scrolling down again, she was stunned.

It was a wedding photo with a red background. The two of them were wearing white shirts. Yan Yan looked at the camera with a smile. The appearance of the talented woman was envious of others.

His matching text is: "From then on, the sweetheart is the one by the pillow."

Why are you married?

Didn’t Ji Yang see the pictures and text she posted? Fang Xin went back and took a look, and she was sure it was sent.

Following the comments, Ji Yang replied in a good mood.

She couldn't help but sent another message to Ji Yang.

Just sent it out, showing that she was hacked?

How did this convince her? Feeling humiliated, she is the only one who plays with men, and no man plays with her. She has always played with men in applause!

The next day.

Tang Xuan came to the company and seemed to be in a good mood. A group of people began to tease her, and the company was a little bit more joyful.

At noon, Fang Xin and Guan Xue both ate in the lounge. The two were not in the same group as the others. Even if the relationship broke down, there was nowhere to go.

Tang Xuan walked in, took out the food, and opened the lid. Ji Yang made a vegetarian stir-fried beef and a stir-fried cauliflower for her, as well as a fried egg and a bowl of radish rib soup.

"Eat so much? I'm afraid that Director Ji wants to put you on weight quickly and have a baby?" Li Xin said with a smile.

Tang Xuan was a little shy, but didn't deny it.

"Really? Just getting pregnant? So fast?" Li Xin looked at her expression and couldn't help asking.

"He cooked too much last night, and he deliberately saved a part of it to bring it over today." Tang Xuan explained.

"You don't answer all the questions." Li Xin opened her up and said with a smile, "If you don't tell me, next time Director Season comes to me and ask him, I will get pregnant as soon as I get married, so anxious."

Tang Xuan was really shy when discussing this topic in the public. "I didn't say that. Would you like some spare ribs?"

"The guilty conscience changes the subject, don't you want to ask us about this kind of thing? There are ways to have a man and a woman, you really don't want to know?" Another married female colleague walked in and said.

Tang Xuan's face was flushed by them.

At first, waiting for the branch office to stabilize before getting pregnant, so that the pressure would not be too great, but Ji Yang said that it would be good for her and the child to get pregnant early, so she was going to get folic acid to eat.

To be honest, she was still curious.

"What kind of way?" Guan Xue was more curious than she was. She had been married for two years, but she couldn't get pregnant.

My husband's family also has opinions now, and my husband doesn't take her seriously.

"I'll just talk about teasing her." The female colleague turned off the topic and looked at her meal. "Eat more. Ask Director Ji to eat more, and both of you must cheer."

"You really are..." Tang Xuan was ashamed and embarrassed, and she was almost defeated.

Several people told her to laugh like this. They walked out one after another. Li Xin also took the bowl to wash. Only Fang Xin and Guan Xue were left in the lounge.

Guan Xue thought that the female colleague just didn't want to tell her, and she was a little isolated. Seeing Tang Xuan and Ji Yang Xiu Chengguo, seeing each other's sweet smile felt dazzling.

"Ding."

The microwave light is off, and the soup and vegetables are hot.

Tang Xuan took out the paper pad and put another copy in.

"Hey, Captain Tang, I didn't expect you and Ji Yang to get together eventually." Guan Xue said suddenly, and then smiled again. "Captain Ji chased Fang Xin before, I thought they could be together. ."

This was the first time she said these things in front of Tang Xuan. She had said it earlier if she knew it, and never expected the two to receive their marriage certificate so quickly.

Ji Yang is basically scum, rich and scum. If Tang Xuan knew about these things, getting married would be like eating shit, right?

The pain is inseparable, it will be interesting.

Fang Xin knew that Guan Xue's temperament would definitely be unbearable. She was named suddenly and pretended to be flustered, "How long has this happened? Don't listen to her, Team Leader Tang. I didn't agree at the time. We were not together. pass."

This is as if Tang Xuan picked up what she didn't want.

"Leader Tang, even if you get married, you have to guard against Ji Yang. At the beginning, Fang Xin knew that he borrowed money and overdrafted a lot of credit cards. I heard that he almost hooked up with a part-time job. It was like having a relationship with someone, so I didn’t dare. Stay with him." Guan Xue said as if he had a good relationship with Fang Xin.

"No, those are things from the past, people will change, and Director Ji looks pretty good now." Fang Xin denied.

Typical want to be a female watch and want to set up an archway.

Guan Xue would not do as she wished, so she immediately said, "Didn't you tell me? She also said that Ji Yang deceived Zhang Xiaoman to not pay back the money. His character is very scumbag. Didn't he go outside to call for special services? These are all hidden. Team leader Tang."

"Those are……"

"Stop talking!" Fang Xin was anxious to tell her apart. Tang Xuan pulled her face down and took out her own meal from the microwave. Her words were very light, "I know that I borrowed the money from Xiao Man. I don’t know if I ever confessed to Fang Xin, but some people still have to control themselves. Don’t go chat with other people’s boyfriends or husbands in the middle of the night, let alone go out alone. Misunderstandings may easily occur."

"I don't know where you heard the news. I don't know if there is any evidence? People are still responsible for what they have said."

Tang Xuan said, closed the lid again, and walked out carrying the food.

She didn’t know how much of her previous prejudice against Ji Yang came from the two people’s mouths, nonsense, nothing was right, and she confessed that it was Fang Xin clinging to Ji Yang like a dog skin plaster and wanted to destroy it. They are related.

As soon as she left, Guan Xue also looked at Fang Xin and sneered, "You went to hook up with Ji Yang? Didn't you look down on it?"

Secretly?

Fang Xin's face turned pale for a while, she stood up and walked out, "I don't know what you are talking about. I have time to study how to give birth to a hen."

"Fang Xin!" Guan Xue was guessed at the sore spot, and her hair exploded.

Fang Xin sneered without stopping.

The author has something to say: how to say it, Mi'er feels that a certain aspect of people, especially the emotional aspect, suffers from a lot of personality defects, and even creates a scum-absent physique.

Tang Xuan’s temperament comes from her native family, from emotional trauma, and lack of self-confidence in herself. This kind of person may even have a mentality that I should find someone worse, so that in this relationship, she thinks, "Maybe I Can take the lead", "I may not be so inferior", and she feels that I am not worthy of a better one. I am just very bad. When she meets a scumbag, she still can't figure it out and will die miserably. Moreover, most of the boys they meet are still scumbags.

This character's temperament comes from a friend around her. At first, Mi'er couldn't understand her. Later, I realized that some people wanted to relieve their inner self-esteem in this way. They would amplify their shortcomings and keep telling themselves. She is not good, she is very bad, only suitable for worse, good boys will not like her, although she is good and very good in the eyes of others, sometimes feels pitiful and sad, but it seems that except for herself, No one can redeem her, and the scumbag would only pull her into the abyss, and even deliberately belittle her in order to lift herself up, and aggravate her inferiority complex.

Finally, good night.