I Don’t Want To Be the Main Character

68. Day 2, Racille Leppert (5)

1.

Has a knack.

What does this short and simple sentence mean? First of all, there is no dictionary meaning. As far as I know, I know that the sentence flirting is not an official dictionary entry.

However, if you slowly think of the meaning that is usually used, it simply means that you are acting like a fox.

And Rasil just said that to me. Yes?

That means that other people will see me acting like a fox.

“……f*ck?”

What?

I’m running around like a fox all over the place?

This was a completely unacceptable misunderstanding. No matter how much it is in a world where men and women are reversed, the fact that a man acts like a fox was a magical sentence that physiologically aroused resistance to me.

Evande.

Inadvertently, curse words came out of my mouth, almost like a spinal cord reflex, and a sense of rejection wrapped around my body to the point that I shuddered.

No matter how much it is in a world where men and women are reversed, it is true that my overall values are focused on my previous life, not this life. But, like the men in this life, not the men in my previous life, we do not laugh at each other, and I dare to say things that should be said coolly and directly.

It was natural for me to shudder at the thought of that.

No matter how many women are aiming for me with their eyes on.

At least all five of them would have been so pretty that it would be hard to look at them if they had been in their previous lives instead of this one, and honestly, in this life, if there hadn’t been a special event called regression that only I didn’t know about, I wouldn’t have had much contact with them.

Yeah, that must have been the case.

“…… Rudrick, were you really that shocked?”

The moment he heard the curse that came out of my mouth, close to a spinal cord reflex, Rasil’s expression became very serious.

“No, rather than shock…”

“Well, obviously, from my memory, I don’t remember swearing unless it was really traumatizing…?”

Um…….

Regression does not necessarily have only positive functions.

I haven’t spent that long with Rasil. No, to be honest, it’s true that I’m still a little confused.

However, it was quite a strange feeling to read my psychology so clearly.

Well, I’m still wondering what happened before the alternate return. It’s a matter of relying entirely on the dictation from the mouths of those five people, so it can’t be helped.

I don’t tell you what kind of episode happened like I’m worshiping a shrine, but I get a little angry when I talk about what only I know.

“……Well, I was a bit direct about it.”

“I can’t accept that?”

“Huh?”

“Let’s think about it, Rasil?”

I said with a very serious expression.

“f*cking means that I did something foxy, whether or not I meant to.”

“……Well, for now, isn’t it?”

“I can’t tolerate it!”

Boom!

He hit the table violently.

A fox?

A fox?

That was unacceptable. Whether intentionally or unintentionally, everything, including how my actions reflect that to others.

In other words, I couldn’t accept the fact that my original self was fading, and that I was no different from the men in this world because I was influenced by the actions around me.

If that’s the case, what’s waiting for me?

A collection ending with nothing more to look at. In other words, it meant that the ending of a full-time housewife, the average male in the world, was waiting for me.

And that was never a specification.

“Why did I come to the imperial palace in the first place? Why am I learning magic under Master?”

“…… Huh?”

“Because if you stay at home all the time, Dad and Mom are going to nag you about when you’re going to get married! She even said that she’s looking for a place to marry soon, right?”

“Uh, huh… But…?”

“It doesn’t make any sense structurally to say that you’re 20 years old and your wedding season is full. To say that you have to quietly act as a hostess when you get married when the future is so bright.”

“Um… First of all, it’s normal when you’re 20, right?”

Actually, she suddenly replied with a look on her face, wondering why he was doing this, but I didn’t have the slightest intention of backing down.

Sudden acceleration.

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Maybe it was the resentment that had accumulated over the years.

If a person living in the modern world has to shoot a survival game by being thrown barefoot somewhere in the wild savannah grassland in an instant, it is natural to feel stressed.

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Me too.

It is a strange world where men and women have changed what they do.

However, even the era, I almost took out the medieval fantasy that is commonly imagined.

It is sad to be taken away while enjoying the benefits of modern civilization, but in this world, when you are 20, you are still young, but you have to get married. And life after marriage was obviously not going to be fun.

“I don’t know because I’ve never experienced it.”

He let out a sigh that came from the depths of his heart.

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Mr Rudrick, Mister Rudrick! Still, you can pick someone out of the five, date them, and get married! You’re full! It may sound the same, but I have one answer.

Suck your dick.

It’s a tragedy when you look at it up close. But from a distance, it’s a comedy.

Who said that?

Was it Shakespeare or Chaplin? It’s not particularly important now.

Rasil, who had been trying hard to understand how I was going insane like a madman, carefully asked me how much I thought I had calmed down.

“Rudrick, then you don’t like the idea of getting married…?”

“Of course I don’t like it. Why me?”

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Marriage is the grave of life.

I am not a non-marriage person, but rather than hating marriage itself, I hated the future after marriage that awaited me in this world.

If I meet a good person, I will do it someday.

…… I don’t know why the story came this far in the first place.

Ah, I was talking about flirting.

In the end, that is also the gaslighting that this society has been doing to me for 20 years.

If my actions are reflected that way to others, it must mean that I feel like ordinary men in this world.

Thinking about it like this really sucks.

No matter how crazy I am, I’m slowly assimilating.

“……I see.”

Actually, she overheard my serious reaction, and in the meantime, she put on a sullen expression and shook her head.

No, why are you…… ?

2.

There was a commotion.

There has been a lot of commotion throughout the day.

That’s what Racille Leppert thought as she lay in bed.

Well, her date, which had been looking forward to it for a few days and kept me awake all night, ended with this.

“When you wake up, feed them in the morning… Go back to the capital right away and who’s next, Sylphia. Anyway, take over…”

I won’t be able to sleep anyway. Rasil, who had been muttering while lying down, gently closed her eyes.

There was a variable in the plan.

I didn’t know that Rudrick, the person in charge, would hate getting married that much.

Rudrick is 20 years old, so even if you say so, Rasil is already 24 right now, right after his return. In this era where early marriage is rampant, even if you miss marriage, the age you missed a long time ago.

So, if I could win Rudrick’s heart, I was thinking of going all the way to marriage, just like roasting beans with lightning.

“Do you hate it that much?”

It was difficult to understand from Lasil’s point of view. She, moreover, even if she listened to Rudrick for the reason, she still wouldn’t understand.

I don’t know.

With her eyes closed, Rasil rolled over on her side and went to sleep. It’s already late. It was the time when Ludrick, who was in the guest room, had already left for the land of dreams.

But maybe it was because the room I came back to after a long time was unfamiliar, and I couldn’t find sleep energy that easily.

Racyl, who had no choice but to get up, turned on the magic stone lamp next to her bed, sat down at her desk, and opened her drawer.

In the locked drawer is a small notebook.

Right after she returned to her past, it was a notebook in which she wrote down the contents of her future using all of her memories from before her return.

“……I found it.”

And what she wrote with particular emphasis was the ways that Rudrick’s constitution could be improved or corrected.

Rasil frowned as she flipped through her pages and stared at them.

Before her return, she had already gone to the point where she couldn’t use her hands and found out that the hundred medicines were invalid, but now, before the magic circuit inside her body is seriously damaged, there are ways you wouldn’t know.

There were still more than eight years left until the apparition, but it was a matter of Rudrick’s life.

“The person in question, Rudrick, seems relaxed so far…”

Racyl, who was staring at her, blurted out her words.

Rudrick has never experienced it, so he thinks that way, and Rasil, the person who experienced it himself, had a slightly different idea. It’s best to start using her hand as soon as this emperor’s birthday is over.

Perhaps on this point not only her but also the other four of her agree.

Racyl, who had been muttering, covered her notebook and groaned.

“After the birthday celebration is over… I’ll have to start right away.”

Now, in the early stages when no symptoms appear.

There were endless ways to use it.

And if all else fails…… I couldn’t help it. At that time, I had no choice but to really try my best to win Rudrick’s heart.

The reason for Rudrick’s physical constitution is the excessive concentration of mana in his body, in a state of saturation.

If that’s the case, it is possible to solve the problem to some extent by receiving that magical power directly from Rudrick and reducing the magical power density.

Unfortunately, the most reliable way to exchange magic is through physical contact. It is also because of the contact between the mucous membranes and the exchange of bodily fluids.

“……Hmmm.”

It was embarrassing enough to make me cough just imagining it, but it would be a little different if it were a married couple.

Rashil once again strengthened her resolve.

She didn’t know that she would hate Rudrick’s marriage so much, but she didn’t break her will despite the unexpected difficulties that appeared on her part.

I still don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.