I Dumped Her Not Knowing That She Was My Favorite

039. small resentment

I blankly stare at the ceiling.

Expelled from Doa’s house, I lay in bed and tried to interpret the meaning of her words.

In fact, I didn’t even have to try.

Yes, not having a boyfriend was the same as saying that the item was prepared for me.

Just before, I was so embarrassed that I asked openly, but the conclusion was clear when I put together various things.

“Well…”

Twisting my body to face the wall, I reached out my hand into empty space.

Doa is here…

If I really wanted to embrace Doa that day, would it be that Doa was right next to me on my bed?

An increasingly wild imagination.

I immediately regained consciousness after slapping myself on the cheek.

I’m not a middle school student dominated by sexual desire.

You won’t be able to come to the right conclusion if you think about it.

My feelings for Doa.

I thought that was the most important.

Even though Doa was kicked once, she was sending me a strong signal that made me feel sorry.

I… Doa…

If I said I didn’t like it, it would be a lie.

But the reason was the problem.

Do I like a person named Doa?

If that’s not the case, does Doa have this kind of heart because she’s Luca?

[Luka = Doa] The gap between the two was considerable, so it was difficult for me to ascertain where the weight was headed.

If I became a lover with Doa in a state where this thought was not established, I might leave a terrible scar on Doa later.

It hurt far more than just saying that I couldn’t accept your confession because I just didn’t like it.

I didn’t want to.

It was me who painfully learned that approaching the other person with a clumsy mind is terribly selfish.

assurance.

I needed unshakable confidence.

It seemed like it had been a long time since I hadn’t had such a good night’s sleep.

* * *

scab.

Taemin oppa was a bitch.

Is it all if you are handsome? Do you think it’s all good?

Throwing away the returned condom, I covered myself with the blanket in shame and irritation.

[Then how did you bring it to my house?]

My brother’s voice plays in my head.

What will you answer?

Did you want him to answer with a smile, ‘I took it with me in case I’m with you!’?

How the hell do you have to humiliate a person to relieve his stomach?

It was hard to imagine that someone the size of Taemin’s brother wouldn’t know what it meant.

Of course, he must have more experience than me, and he is more mature…

The more I stayed still, the more I jumped up, feeling like I was going back to the moment my brother entered my room.

okay.

Let’s just practice singing thinking that we’ve been bitten by the evil Pingtuk.

It wasn’t the time to be like this.

It was yesterday that we received the guide for our Closer debut song.

We had a chance to have a conversation with the composer through the voice code.

[hello! Closers. My name is Biya, a composer belonging to YM!]

[First of all, congratulations to those who passed, this is a song I was commissioned by the company and worked on even before you all passed.]

[As this is my first concept, I prepared a song with a fresh and lively rookie idol sensibility.]

[I have divided the parts considering all of your voices and ranges, but in case you need to adjust or change the part, please sing the song as a guide from beginning to end within this week and send it to the email address listed here.]

[Then I’ll look forward to it!]

I played the guide version of the song delivered to me again and tried to hum along with the music.

A pro wasn’t a pro for nothing.

As soon as they heard the song, all the Closer members trembled, saying that they really liked the song.

In particular, Leah, who was normally silent, posted a hymn about composer Biya through chat, as if she liked being assigned to her part.

“ah. ah.”

After clearing my throat, I slowly recited the lyrics written on my phone to the melody.

asrai warm memories

Memories spread like water

On the street where we were together

today i wait for you

The part that the composer marked as my part is the bridge part right before the chorus.

It seems a bit high pitched, but I still thought I could do it.

Of course, I wondered if I could sing it like this and make an actual sound source, but I practiced the song to the best of my ability.

By now, the time is 8:00.

Now it was time to get back to work.

After setting up to prepare for the broadcast, I cleared my throat once and pressed the start broadcast button.

Greeting chat that is spread as soon as you open it.

After all, the Pingtuk troupe was the best.

[Hello everyone~ Ruharuha~]

Part 1, as always, was a communication broadcast, so I started lightly, but part 2 was undecided.

I wanted to try it immediately when I got a game recommendation or other content, but a chat that looked very good came up.

[Luke! Luka-sama, doesn’t he do things like the World Cup?]

World Cup… I don’t think I tried it once and didn’t.

[ah. Shall we try our World Cup? What shall we do?]

In response to my question, the Pingtuk teams lined up the World Cup list they wanted.

[I think something like the Snack World Cup is okay, An Anime World Cup? I think it would be nice to do this with Mooring later?]

Closer’s youngest, Humoring Yang, was also very virtuous, so it seemed okay to do content together later.

As I was scrolling down the World Cup site, I immediately clicked on something that looked very interesting.

[Let’s try this.]

-Annoying and affectionate lover type World Cup

[You guys asked what if you want to date me? How to become Lucatan’s lover. Let’s avoid this, let’s find out.]

I clicked on impulse, but the options were pretty extreme.

A lover who doesn’t wash when I meet VS a lover who secretly goes to the club

[Ah… it wasn’t easy from the beginning, right? But I’m the latter.]

[If you don’t wash, you can ask me to wash. But it seems like there’s no way for me to stop going to the club secretly?]

A lover who was caught communicating with another member of the opposite sex VS a lover who never shows his phone

[But isn’t this the end game? I think I might not want to show my cell phone.]

Viewers also opened a heated debate among themselves in response to my remarks.

[no. Isn’t the reason for not showing it so fucking obvious?]

[The phone is private. Why would you want to see that?]

[I’m trying not to show it because there’s something that gets in the way. yep]

[hahahaha I’ll show you, so please make me a lover~~~]

Scanning the reaction, I smiled and nodded.

[But I think if you have old photos or postcards, you might not want to show them. I. I don’t want to show you a picture of my bare face.]

It seemed that there was no need to burn the rice cakes anymore, so I quickly moved on to the next one.

A lover who shows off fighting with a messenger profile VS A lover who is crazy about female cams or male cams and sponsors them with a lot of money

[Hey… this is…]

In my mind, it was unconditionally the latter, but I wondered if it was right to say this with my own mouth.

[Ugh. Could it be that Lukatan is the latter?]

When everyone in the chat room made a fuss at my reaction, I immediately made fun of it for a flexible response.

[I understand, though. There are many times when you guys do it out of fan spirit.]

[But sponsorship should be done at a healthy level, I just don’t have living expenses, but I don’t want to do this because I’m in debt.]

[Of course, I believe that no one will do that, but please don’t do that to Pingtukdan. If I do that, it will be too burdensome and I will be sorry.]

I clicked on the previous one, and as soon as I saw the next option, my brows flinched.

A lover who is extremely ignorant VS A lover who knows everything but pretends not to know

Taemin oppa’s face comes to mind.

Feeling emotional for nothing, I clicked on the latter as if there was nothing to hesitate.

[ah. I honestly really hate this. You can learn to be ignorant. cant let me know But pretending not to know when you know it is just annoying?]

Even after that, options that were extremely hateful continued to appear, but today’s first place was fixed.

Taemin oppa who can’t watch the broadcast.

Today is your sniping.

[Now~ everyone! If you want to be my lover, never act like you don’t know~ Okay~]

When I finished my own little anger, it seemed that the lump in my heart melted away a little.

[Part 2 will bring some water and bring snacks!]

I told the Pingtukdans that I was going to take a break for a while, and I sighed and picked up my phone.

Still, I said yesterday that I would continue with the message, but…

Would you like to contact your brother?

I unlocked it by sliding my thumb and swallowed a gulp at the notification that came.

Why are you nervous when you really come?

After confirming Taemin oppa’s name, I tapped the screen to open a message window.

[Doaya.]

he calls my name

[Is it difficult for us to get to know each other slowly…?]

Even though I was very happy with the words, I felt like my face would burn as I wondered what my brother was thinking when he sent those words.