I Dumped Her Not Knowing That She Was My Favorite

045. burn your heart

It reminds me of a memory I saw in a cartoon.

Love is like a catch ball.

It is a game that can be established only when the thrower and the receiver perform their roles properly.

At the time, I wondered if this was the right analogy, but…

“…under?”

Maybe it’s because I’ve been watching Japanese anime movies.

A somewhat high-pitched Japanese high school girl exclamation came out of my mouth.

My face returned to an ambiguous posture.

My brother’s hand was still pressing my cheek gently.

…wasn’t that just a kiss?

Wasn’t it a kiss angle?

Personally, I thought that the movie itself was difficult to create such an atmosphere, but I thought I did my part faithfully.

Honestly, even though it wasn’t such a grotesque scene, I held myself in my brother’s arms as if I wouldn’t see it.

It was good even there.

My brother didn’t reject me, but rather stroked my hair.

The fragrant scent of fabric softener tickled my nose, and the moment my brother’s hand touched my cheek, my heart felt like it would burst.

It’s not such a romantic place, but it’s still a first kiss…!

I thought that, but I couldn’t hold back the laughter that came out of my mouth.

“From now on, it will be really fun.”

As soon as my brother let go of my hand, I looked up at him again with a puzzled face.

Oppa who gulps down and observes my reaction.

“ah. Is that… a bit… scary…?”

no. no.

That’s not it! brother!

It’s not that it’s scary, it’s that I sent that many signals, isn’t it?

I had a lot to say, but I just didn’t know what to say.

How can I say with my mouth why don’t you kiss me?

But all I can send is a fierce look.

With a sincere expression on my face, I sent a sign saying, ‘Is this right?’

That was the moment.

“ah. sorry.”

My older brother slightly raises his upper body and pulls me into his arms.

I, who had been in a very hesitant posture, returned to the position I was in just a moment ago.

This time, my face landed right in front of my brother’s pure white nape.

“You didn’t see anything scary.”

no. That’s not it.

It seemed that the misunderstanding was getting deeper and deeper, but I realized that this situation…

I didn’t like it.

The more my brother’s hand pulled my waist harder, the more I felt like I was going to stop breathing.

“I’ll tell you when that scene passes.”

As the other hand stroked my hair, I started to feel my heart pounding just like before.

…I often think that I can only go to Seoul no matter what I go to, but I am not sure if this applies to my current situation.

I just pulled my brother’s collar even tighter.

You can be thrilled even when you are annoyed.

Eventually, as the roar of the battle scene subsided, my brother slowly relaxed his arms.

“…it’s okay?”

it’s not okay

not okay at all

But all I could do was nod my head feebly.

“Sorry. I forgot that you can’t see scary things well…”

I’m not some kind of 5-year-old kid.

It was okay to see the creepy tentacles pop out and the head explode and spurt blood.

He even told me before I came in that he had seen the main story.

I liked her brother’s wayward consideration, but it was just embarrassing.

“ah. But even after this, some cruel things come out.”

My brother’s face was full of worry.

“Shall we leave?”

“…no.”

okay. let’s see a movie

If skinship was the goal, I just thought that was enough.

Rather, it was because I was gaslighted by Hanbit unnie, so this level could have been appropriate.

Even if a kiss… or something more comes later… I think it’ll be enough…

“Are you really okay? If it’s because of me, I don’t really care. Because I’ve seen it all anyway.”

“ah. It’s really okay. instead.”

It was better to create a situation that I could control than to be nervous about my brother’s unpredictable behavior all the time.

“…Please hold my hand.”

I’m ashamed to say it.

I already said it once outside, so why am I ashamed again?

“Will that be enough?”

My brother’s hand naturally lay on top of mine.

“If you can’t see it, tell me right away.”

The older brother turned his face toward the screen again.

…If such a scene came out later, I was eager to hug him one more time.

* * *

asshole.

Han Tae-min, you poor bastard.

oh Why did he stick his head in there when he knew Luca couldn’t see anything scary?

As a ping-tuk, I was angry.

Amman said it was a fun scene, but I had no intention of forcing the other person to see something they didn’t want to see.

To even do that to Doa.

Fortunately, Doa, who was in my arms, said that she would finish watching the movie.

If Doah wanted to, he was willing to leave immediately.

However, Doa said it would be okay if I held her hand, so I believed her words and decided to continue watching the movie for now.

The climax is slowly approaching.

In fact, when the monster that appears as the boss of this movie appeared, the music changed and the goosebumps production continued.

Even though I thought it was really cool, I glanced at Doa.

It was because a rather brutal scene was coming soon.

[You too become a monster! Rengaku!]

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Kya! this is it! this is it!

When the line that became a hot topic in the world came out, I couldn’t help but feel happy.

Every time his fist met Rengaku’s sword, Doa’s fingers trembled.

I wanted to sneakily ask if it was okay, but after confirming that Doa’s eyes were completely fixed on the screen, I thought it would be better to let her immerse herself in it.

[It’s black!]

“…ah!”

Doa swallows her breath and covers her mouth.

It was because he couldn’t defeat the youkai even though he used the strongest technique that was close to a special move.

Rather, it was swordsman Rengaku who had his stomach pierced.

Blood started pouring out of his body.

Doa’s reaction was still average compared to the first time I saw a movie in a theater.

Because I almost spit out swear words in my voice.

It was clear that defeat had deepened, but Rengaku’s resistance did not stop there.

Determined to be together with the ghost even with his broken body, he seizes the monster with his whole body.

[I won’t miss it!]

The sacrifice of those who are ready for death always touches the heart.

This time, I, who was rather immersed, grabbed Doa’s hand even harder.

However, despite the struggles of the protagonist and his party, the monster managed to escape.

The day dawns, and what remains is a wounded swordsman who is about to die.

His last words, like a will, follow.

[Tell my younger brother to live as he pleases.]

[To my father… I hope you take good care of your health…]

[It is only natural that seniors become the shields of juniors.]

[Burn your heart.]

Uh… I feel like I’m going to cry again.

It was the moment I turned my head to see what Doa was next to me.

“…doesn’t it die?”

Dripping teardrops.

“…Rengaku doesn’t die like that, right?”

Doa asked me in a tone that couldn’t believe what she saw.

“no. I don’t think they have anything like medicine!”

“You say you’re fighting a monster you’ll meet, but can’t you fix that too?”

“How could the captain die like that? You don’t die like this, do you?”

Perhaps I was overly immersed in the surviving children in the movie, Doa grabbed my forearm and appealed with a desperate voice.

It was too painful for me to say that it was his last, so instead of answering, I opened my arms toward her.

“Hee hee hee.”

Doa cries sadly in her arms.

He patted her back as she sobbed silently.

I knew it would be like this.

Yes, because Luca often talked about being emotional.

It was the same when we played the story game on the air.

The reason why people like her dubbing and reactions is because Luca sincerely concentrates and accompanies the process.

It’s not mechanical or work-oriented, but if you really like yourself, it’s obvious.

If Luka watched the movie version while watching the anime Blade of the Demon, he would have been unable to help but shed tears.

“Ahhh… What should I do, Rengaku…”

It’s been a long time since the movie ended and the ending credits went up, but Doa was still immersed in the afterglow and showed no sign of coming out of my arms.

“…Are you okay now?”

I thought that if I delayed more time, I might run into the owner.

“…yes.”

Taking out a tissue from the bag, Doa wiped her tears and blew her nose once.

“let’s go.”

I woke up first and reached out my hand, and Doa grabbed my hand and left.

It was dark when we came out, but now a completely black darkness was sitting on the street.

“How was the movie?”

I seemed to have calmed down to some extent, so I asked her insinuatingly, as it was quite a distance to go home silently.

“…don’t look this way.”

“…yes?”

“I became ugly because I cried, so please don’t look at me.”

Actually, it was so dark that I couldn’t see anything well, but I replied that I would.

“It was fun.”

“Rengaku’s death still shocks me, but it was still fun.”

“okay?”

“Now I understand why my brother made a fuss to see it.”

okay. Doa land.

Didn’t I just ask to see you?

“But next time.”

Doa stopped and grabbed my other hand as well.

“We also watch romance movies together.”

A street lamp illuminated her with a pale expression.