I Have No Health

I said, sticking out my little hand. Nineina sent a blazing gaze to Caesar. If you’re going to protect me, please protect me properly.

Caesar raised his hand coolly.

The black gloves were meticulously wrapped around his fingers. 

“Ah.”

As his gloved hand came up, I let out a brief sigh and quickly lowered my hand.

“……”

Caesar lowered his empty hand, wondering what the hell Nineina meant to do. 

It was a moment where ordinary people would feel embarrassed or awkward. 

“I look forward to your kind cooperation.”

I said with a smile. I appealed with a bright smile that was full of life. 

Help me! Protect me! 

Both of my hands rested neatly on my knees.

Caesar checked my hands with his own eyes. The black gloves that he immediately wore after he washed up were quietly huddled. 

“I don’t like people. As promised with Rubenio, I will do my best to protect you, but that’s all. Don’t ask for anything more.” 

I twitched because I felt like I just got dumped before we even started. I didn’t ask you out. 

But it wasn’t a bad suggestion. I didn’t want to get too close to him either. 

“As long as you’re efficient with what you were assigned to do, I’ll respect your wishes.”

Business smile. 

I welcomed him with a grin. 

Although he has mysophobia, he even accompanied Meia to a ball to protect her in the original book. 

He rarely spoke, but he was often emphasized in the original work. The promise with Rubenio must be really important to Caesar. 

He seems like a twisted person, but he will keep his promise to protect me well, so I wanted to respect what I should respect.

“A day’s life dies a day later. It won’t last more than two weeks.”

“What are you talking about all of a sudden?” 

“Is there any meaning to such a life?”

He seemed genuinely curious. My heart was enchanted by his black abyssal eyes.

“My motto is to do my best in life, whether I live one more day or two weeks. In your eyes, I seem ephemeral, don’t I?” 

His eyes broke my spirit, but not my heart.

I turned around with a snort.

“You won’t live long.”

It was a voice that stuck to the spine.

I was forced to look back. 

“Are you asking to fight?”

“I’m not going to hurt you.”

“Breaking my heart has no difference.” 

“… I didn’t mean to.”

There seemed to be no malice. He was just wondering.

“Even if you want to break it, it doesn’t break right away. I tend to be tough. You asked first, so I’ll ask too. Answer me.” 

“I’ll listen.” 

“Did I say I wasn’t going to live long? That’s a fact that everyone knows. They’re aware, but no one dares to say that in front of me. Why did you tell me that?” 

He was silent for a long time.

“I don’t want my words to hurt you.” 

It seems that some poisonous words have come to mind.

“What, did you think it was funny? Foolish?”

“…..” 

A retaliation, or even worse, came to mind. 

Yes! At least you have a conscience. Seeing you don’t say it directly.

“Don’t you feel sorry for me?” 

“…..” 

“No, I’m not asking you to sympathize with me. It’s just been a while. A plain gaze like yours. It’s a little cold, but it makes me feel at ease. So don’t worry if I fall down right now. Apart from helping me up.” 

“I’m glad I can be of help.” 

I was being sarcastic to the fullest, but I was embarrassed when an honest answer came back.

Perhaps he isn’t unaware of the sarcasm. He seems to be that twisted.

‘Poor man.’

Cheap sympathy thrown meaninglessly scratched another wounded chest. 

People who mean nothing to each other. 

That was our current relationship.

──・・✧・・──

This life was boring on a different level.

“Master, are you okay?” 

The maid’s quality massage skills melted Nineina’s body like steamed rice cake, but I could not be satisfied with this. 

I was bored. It was insanely boring.

“I want to go out.” 

“·······!” 

“·······!” 

“·······!” 

At my words, the three maids simultaneously exchanged glances.

The will in their eyes was the same. It said, ‘No Way!’.

The maids’ heads turned at the same time. 

‘Amazing unity.’

I sighed deeply. 

‘It’s working. It’s working.’

I felt sorry for the desperate servants who pretended not to know, so I decided not to insist. 

It became a strange situation where people spoke but no words were heard. 

‘By the way, the weather is really nice today. It’d be nice to be able to stretch out in the sun.’ 

I clasped my hands and stretched forward.

There was no problem so far. The problem occurred after I put my interlaced fingers behind my back. 

“Ugh·····.” 

The headaches I had been accustomed to for a full month, came back as my vision spun around.

In fact, it’d be a lie to say I got accustomed to it. Who can get used to this kind of thing? 

“Master, are you all right?” 

“You shouldn’t move your body like that.” 

“Heuhhhh··········” 

Taking a deep breath, Nineina held onto the window frame tightly. 

The senator recommended Nineina to lay down properly as soon as anemia came up, but she did not want to follow it now. 

‘I’m always lying down and I still feel dizzy, so why lay down again?’ 

The sensation on her cheeks became awkward as she bit her lips until it bled.

It was never a pleasure to have a body like a mountain pine that was amazingly beautiful. 

Whether I was in agony or groaning, people looked at me admiringly.

Even the maids who have been serving Nineina for a long time. 

“Master ·····.” 

Their crying voices were full of sadness and worry, but I felt goosebumps when I met their brightly shining eyes. 

Their ecstasy tried to kill me. 

I knew it wasn’t the maid’s fault. 

It was only natural for humans to lose their eyes to beauty. 

It wasn’t an animal that relied on sight for nothing. 

‘Suddenly, I’m reminded of Caesar. I can’t believe I miss that indifferent gaze.’ 

But I didn’t want to call him in for this kind of thing and create an awkward situation.

I chose to look away rather than blame and hate the maids. 

“Huh?” 

Then I found Meia washing her horse in the garden. 

‘Is this right? A scene from the original work….’ 

Meia and Nineina had many similarities. 

First of all, they were the same age. 

She lost her mother at birth and her father was also desperate to protect her. 

Also, the treason incident in the year they were born had a huge impact on both their lives. 

As a result, Nineina was sent to the Duke’s villa, and Meia became a wandering orphan of unknown origin.

Nineina, who didn’t care to live because she was sick, or Meia, who didn’t care to live because she was a slave had similar lives, but Meia’s life was more hectic. 

It was instantaneous that a powerless child was sold to trashy adults and became a slave. 

Meia had been disguising as a man ever since she grew up to avoid more difficulties. 

But Meia was not a child who could become a slave. 

Whether there really is such a thing, Meia was the epitome of natural nobility. She wasn’t a pine tree. 

Nineina met Meia when she was about to break. 

– You’re going to die soon.

Nineina openly pumped them out, saying she was not interested in slaves. Meia was the first slave she had shown interest in.

– Don’t you want to live? 

When Meia saw a noble girl show interest in her, she did not run away or beg for her life. 

Perhaps it was interesting, Nineina bought Meia. 

Then I forgot. 

I never would have thought of Meia until I saw this scene today.

Nineina was that kind of person. 

“Hmm······.” 

But my feelings were a little different. 

“Oh, my God!” 

“M..Master! We will call him right away and scold him.”