I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior

Tong Ling is not good at words.

With her current logical thinking, she cannot organize gorgeous words to arouse the emotions of others.

All her decisions come from the instinctive judgment at the bottom of her mind.

Although she doesn't know anything about tricks, she knows what is right and what is wrong, and what strategies she should use to achieve what goals under what circumstances.

Tong Ling's way of thinking about problems is both profound and simple. It is like a perfect logical judgment aid that Taiwan has not yet produced. She can always see through the phenomenon to the essence as quickly as possible and make the best choice within the limit of her ability. , just like the eminent monks in Buddhism who have enlightened themselves, and also like the Taoist disciples who follow the natural laws of Taoism and follow the sect.

Due to changes in her personal thinking and the birth of freezing technology, Tong Ling found a second goal in her life outside of the war and met Chen Feng.

But meeting Chen Feng was still just her personal emotional need. Her highest pursuit out of a sense of historical responsibility was still to complete the expedition mission with the unknown fleet.

From the moment she set foot on the unknown fleet, Tong Ling's highest ambition has never changed from beginning to end. Like Qin Guang, it has not changed to this day.

The next second, a woman's voice sounded in the projection.

"Who am I? Who are you?"

This voice sounds cold and emotionless, but the audience can vaguely smell the scent of a lost lamb.

The thought capture team quickly gave the answer, and the information was synchronized to everyone. Whether it was the audience in the prison ship or other ordinary fleet personnel who had regained their freedom, they all knew that the owner of the voice was Tang Yingyu.

Tong Ling's behavior first calmed down not the prisoner, but the thought capture team that had been studying Tang Yingyu's psychological activities.

These people were stunned on the spot.

"Something's wrong. Why can instructor Tong read Tang Yingyu's thoughts? We've only been listening to rustling noises for so many years. Why?"

Someone shouted so depressedly.

No one can answer him, just as no one can question why Tong Ling didn't say it earlier.

Those who act without intention do not need and cannot explain themselves to anyone.

Tang Yingyu's words did not end there, but continued to unfold, and people's ears were filled with questions one after another.

"Am I the same as you?"

"What does it mean to be alive?"

"Does it mean you're alive if you can move?"

“Is being able to communicate with others the key to living?”

"What is a human being? Am I a human being?"

"Why can't I be like you?"

"Is that wrong? I thought that training was very serious. Am I wrong?"

"Do you have love? I heard two of my staff discussing marriage. Is that love?"

"What are emotions? Can emotions make people make decisions that are illogical and rational?"

"Do I also have a chance to gain love? Like you, watching your little baby grow up little by little in the projection?"

"I don't know why, but every time I see other staff members watching the projection of a baby, my heart beats faster. Do humans raise their offspring first in the projection, and then suddenly one day, the baby turns from the projection into reality? "

"Are there really so many people working on my little baby? I really want to say thank you to them."

"Will one day suddenly, like other people, I can meet a friend and sit and chat quietly together? After the staff creates a person who loves me, then I will not be able to do it in this universe. Are you lonely like this? Sometimes I feel very lucky, and sometimes I feel very pitiful."

"I feel sorry, although I know that I am not the same kind of life as these people. But I am still sorry. I don't want my children to die, so I have to take their lives. Human beings created me, I like Everybody, don’t want to take anyone’s life. But I have to keep my child alive. Otherwise, I really don’t know the meaning of my birth.”

These are fifteen sentences from Tang Yingyu's short life, running from her first babbling to her last words before her death.

After listening to it, the audience felt inexplicably sad.

Immediately afterwards, Tong Ling released a large section of footage that had been sped up many times.

People finally understood that what Tong Ling released was Tang Yingyu's memory.

Most of the picture is a battle scene from Tang Yingyu's fantasy. For decades, ever since she was deprived of the qualifications to train as a combatant, she had never stopped playing out the fantasy in her mind. She completed self-training in combat literacy in her mind's imagination and became a top warrior.

It's a pity that she never got a chance to show her abilities on a larger stage until her death, and she never got to touch a real combat armor. Her talent was short-lived during a confrontation with the rebels, and then the flame of her life was quickly extinguished.

Perhaps many years later, Tang Yingwu's combat prowess will become a folk legend, subject to various speculations and speculations, and embellished descriptions. It is believed that she should be on an equal footing with Tong Ling, but she died young due to a bad fate, and so on. .

All of this is destined to be nothing more than a fantasy.

Tong Ling shared Tang Yingyu's life. At the same time, the leader of the thought capture team, an old lady who was nearly 260 years old, came out with an analysis report three hours later.

The old lady quickly integrated and analyzed the scenes of Tong Ling and Tang Yingyu sitting against each other for decades, and came to a conclusion.

The two of them had actually been communicating, but in an unintentional way that others couldn't understand.

The two of them are currently the only special individuals who can maintain the state of being mindless while awake.

The communication between the two is not through words or body movements, but a collision and information exchange that occurs at the level of quantum storms of thinking.

The language of the two people can be named spiritual language.

The white noise heard by the thought capture team was actually clear images and language in Tong Ling's brain.

Over the years, it was Tong Ling who taught Tang Yingwu human language and thinking.

Tang Yingyu's mental battle training was not a completely empty fantasy. He also had Tong Ling's guidance and correction.

Every time Tang Yingwu communicated with Tong Ling, she would correct some problems in brain training, and then came up with some new ideas that belonged to her.

These ideas may be right or wrong, but in the next exchange, Tong Ling will absorb some of Tang Yingyu's correct perceptions and point out the wrong parts to her.

In addition to the battle fantasy, there are also some pictures of Tang Yingyu's daily life interspersed from time to time.

She seems to have learned a lot of new knowledge from Tong Ling.

She imagined that she was grazing under the green mountains and green waters, she also imagined that she squeezed into the elevator with a folder in her arms in an office building, and she also imagined that she was wearing a white coat in the laboratory and looking at data with her eyes wide open, and she also imagined being with a face. The blurred half walked hand in hand under the sunset.

But then, the other half of her fantasy disappeared, leaving her alone, squatting in space with her legs and knees folded.

She looked up at the stars in the sky, and countless human feet paddled past her on surfboards.

She tried waving to the passers-by, but no one responded.

At this time, she already knew the truth. She just looked the same as humans, but they were not of the same race.

She felt endless loneliness, and there was only one obsession left in her heart: to survive. If you are destined to die, don't let your existence disappear completely. You have to leave something in this universe.

The final image is no longer a fantasy, almost everyone has seen it.

She first heard another voice in her body and knew she was pregnant, and then the door was broken.

She turned around and saw the angry, contorted face of Bill Cranston.

…

After watching Tong Ling take out the embryo from her body, her unwilling consciousness finally sank into darkness with a sigh of relief.

In just one day's information, Tang Yingyu's short life was summarized very concisely.

This is a boring, monotonous life with almost no hope.

As a lonely individual in the universe, a single-person race, she had longed for many beautiful things and longed to live like a human being. However, as time went by, she gradually recognized the reality and began to construct her own They broke away from the cognition of fairy tales and gave up more and more unattainable dreams, leaving only the simplest pursuit - to let their lonely race continue to exist.

From then on, Tang Yingyu's life curve only had the trunk, without branches and leaves.

This is the thinking stage that any normal single-person intelligent life will inevitably enter after entering adulthood and mastering the correct understanding of the universe, that is, the three views.

Just like those colonizers of the past who are still wandering around the galaxy, trying every means to continue to live.

Among the colonizers, there are individuals like White Elephant who have reintegrated into human civilization, there are also individuals like the ancestors of the long-armed people who want to change the human form and leave their own traces, and there are also individuals who endure the constant weakening in order to Individuals who continue their lives and divide themselves again and again. There are even individuals who are reformers who, after a lot of experiments, determine that high temperatures are more suitable for them to extend their lifespan, turn to humans for help, and finally drill into the lava planet, just to live for one more day.

But no matter how the reformers choose, there is only one ultimate goal, either to live longer themselves, or to place their hope of living longer on others.

After reading Tang Yingyu's life memories, both the first generation fleet members who survived the disaster, and the second and third generations who knew they would not be tried and had a chance to survive, all fell into a long silence.

People feel that compared to other people's colorful lives, Tang Yingyu seems to be the most miserable one.

Even the people who were forced to participate in Nuwa's plan had a much better life than her.

"Everyone." A deep male alto broke the silence. It was Zhou Donglai who was supposed to be sleeping.

Due to his special self-positioning, Zhou Donglai has now become the highest existing spiritual leader of the Free Will Alliance after Solent Cage went insane and Ophellos Cage died.

However, in the minds of the crew members who supported the expedition plan, since Zhou Donglai did not participate in the parliamentary coup and armed unrest, and was still a student of Qin Guang, the damage to his reputation was not serious.

Tong Ling is not good at controlling people's hearts with words, and now Zhou Donglai's words have become the most important.

Zhou Donglai said.

"The child instructor wants to tell us. There are two so-called freedoms, small freedom and big freedom. Small freedom is personal freedom. Big freedom is the freedom of civilization and the freedom of race. Free races can reproduce freely in the universe. , no oppression, no threats, no need to hide, no need to worry about being destroyed anytime, anywhere.”

"Small freedom is the freedom that we, the Libertarian Alliance, have always believed in. We want to do whatever we want, we are unwilling to accept the constraints imposed on us by the collective, and we demand unlimited freedom of personal choice. But we have a clear distinction between personal freedom and civilized freedom. When conflict arises, the selfish choice is indulgence.”

"We doubt history, do not acknowledge history, and use self-deception to paralyze ourselves, forgetting the strength of the enemy. We tell ourselves that the universe is so big that if we escape, there will be a hiding place. In fact, we are wrong. Such a powerful child instructor is still available at any time. If we are prepared to sacrifice, what qualifications do we have to say that we will definitely survive?”

"Even if we can really survive in other galaxies, it can only be because our compatriots in the Milky Way have not given up resistance. Human beings in the Milky Way are pursuing true freedom! All small personal freedoms must be based on the race. On top of great freedom. To use an old Chinese saying, if the skin is gone, the hair will not be attached!"

"We were wrong. We caused serious losses to the fleet. Even if we are punished with death, there is nothing wrong with it. But there is an old Chinese saying that once you know your mistakes, you can correct them, and you can never do good. We should thank Instructor Tong Ling for giving us the opportunity to correct our mistakes."

"There are still more than seventy years until we reach our destination. As long as everyone can give up their prejudices, stop thinking wildly, work more efficiently, and stop caring about so-called talents and so-called hobbies in the next journey, Keep telling yourself that what I am engaged in is what I love most, and if I can reach my full potential, then we still have a chance to make amends."

"In addition, I also announce something as the acting commander-in-chief. All the staff of the original Nuwa Project can freely change industries as long as they can obtain S-level potential evaluation in other fields. At the same time, some people who have reached the level of potential in other fields can Personnel with the upper limit of personal potential can also participate in the Nuwa Project from scratch at any time. Everyone in our unknown fleet has the opportunity to be both a scholar and a warrior."

"When we set out, we selected the best from the entire empire. To this day, we will still be the best among the best! We can do it!"

Zhou Donglai's words perfectly complemented the memory of Tang Yingyu shared by Tong Ling, and re-sowed seeds in the hearts of the prisoners in the prison ship.

After the end of the doomsday suppression process, the prisoners were not released immediately. Instead, as Zhou Donglai said, everyone's talents were retested, and at the same time, more comprehensive basic knowledge teaching was provided to some people who wanted to choose their careers freely.

But the wonderful thing is that the number of practitioners of Nuwa Project has not decreased, but more people are trying to contact it from scratch.

…

"Teacher, the matter is over. This is the fleet damage report. Please take a look."

In Qin Guang's room, Zhou Donglai placed a paper top-secret report in front of Qin Guang, who had just woken up.

After a long time, Qin Guang sighed, "Oh, too many people have died, and our technology has stagnated for several years."

The development of things was very different from his original arrangement. He knew it would end like this in the end, but he thought there would be fewer casualties. He underestimated the degree of loss of control and fell into self-blame.

The old Qin Guang rubbed his swollen temples, "It's my fault."

"Teacher, it's not your fault."

"No, it was me who made the plan. I am the top person in charge, so of course I should take the responsibility. I am indeed not as good as Marshal Tang Tianxin, let alone the sage. I didn't expect that someone would assassinate Tang Yingyu. If If instructor Tong Ling hadn't arrived in time, it would have been all over. Moreover, if instructor Tong hadn't been able to read Tang Yingyu's memory and use Tang Yingyu's memory to add persuasiveness to your words, our productivity would have been hurt even more. Also, from the results Look, these things could actually have been avoided, but I have been careless and ignored the importance of ideological construction."

The master and apprentice were chatting when an announcement sounded from their communicators at the same time.

General Solent Cage, who had just regained his sanity, chose to commit suicide.

The master and apprentice were stunned.