I was excommunicated from the Holy Knights

72 – Blue Steel Princess 1

The future was unpredictable in many ways.

The result of the chaos created by the disorderly movement of numerous variables and causes was not easily predictable.

Because of this, people had no choice but to face a deep sense of bewilderment in many ways while facing unexpected situations.

which..

Even I, who knows the overall flow through the name of the original work, was the same.

Of course, basically, the existence of me had an advantage in predicting the future than other people in this world.

For example, did you know that there was thick fog from morning to afternoon in the last war?

It’s like Anhalt’s pitiful move that he hurriedly fled to the Kalmar Allied Powers after losing the battle, and came back in a hurry after hearing the news of the victory a while ago.

I was able to predict more comfortably than others how they would move and act through natural phenomena that cannot be controlled by human power, or the character, situation, and psychology of the characters in the original work.

But.. even me like that,

It was impossible to completely predict the difference in the future caused by a variable that can never be considered small, such as the change in the behavior of the existence of me, Santana.

And such ‘future uncertainty’ is at this moment…

It was making me feel enormous remorse for what I had done the other day.

‘What the f*ck…’

What’s on my mind at this moment,

A word that expresses exactly what I am feeling right now.

As I swallowed it countless times, I began to beat myself to the ground and regret the things in my past that I wanted to get rid of right away if I could.

*

“So… you want to go back to your hometown, are you saying that?”

“Yes, it is.”

Cazeros sat across from me and spoke in a calm voice.

As I listened to her unexpected story with the words that she had a favor for me, I automatically began to feel embarrassed.

Everyone is breathing a sigh as the war ends in victory.

Cazeros’ request was that he wanted to visit his hometown, which was not too far from here, since he had come all the way from Milan at a time like this.

Of course, if you look at it at face value, there was no room to say anything out loud from my point of view.

Cazeros was not particularly tied to me, and we were just very close colleagues.

That’s why she says she wants to go home, not anywhere else, but there’s no way I can stop it.

In fact, even telling this story now could be said to be telling a colleague what he was doing rather than asking my permission.

However, formally, it was like this, but honestly, I wanted to stop her like this if I could.

The relationship between the two of us has become very close since we kissed right after a banquet not too long ago.

Although I was in a position where I couldn’t announce that we had become lovers due to the surrounding circumstances, I had the idea that I wanted to progress with her as soon as possible.

With an honest heart, I was the one who even had the idea that I would like to formally get engaged and proceed with the marriage if it was okay with her.

Of course, in order to overcome this, it was necessary to overcome the formidable wall of difference in social status, but from my point of view, I did not care about such things in the first place, so I was willing to endure even a little hardship.

However, at this point, she was asking me a favor, not a favor.

Please allow me to go home.

I want to go and see my parents after a long time, say hello and come.

And hearing her request, I asked cautiously, feeling the urge to refuse it.

“Should I… go? So, what I mean… is that if it’s not necessarily now, you can go later as well. At least after our relationship has been sorted out a little more…”

“… I’m sorry… but… if not now. It’s because I don’t think I’ll ever have the courage.”

“..yes?”

Cazeros speaks with a voice that is more serious than he thought.

When I heard her say this, I automatically expressed my doubts…

Then she looked at my face, a small smile on her lips…

He smiled warmly and seemed to contain some loneliness as he spoke to me.

“To be honest… I also have the idea that I want to continue living like this. I want to continue living like now… with Santana. I want to be by your side no matter what the situation.”

“That… if that’s the case…”

At Cazeros’s words, I tried to stop her once again, but soon she stopped me with a gesture and continued talking.

“But… I can’t do that right now. It’s because I still have things to sort out like Santana did in the past.”

“Like me in the past… you mean?”

At her words, questions suddenly started popping up in my head.

It’s because I didn’t think of anything right away because I organized things in the past.

However, at that moment, one thing came to my mind…

One fact related to the keywords family and hometown began to come to mind.

‘Ah.. is that so? I hope Cazeros will run away like me…’

Recalling the fact that she had some reluctance to relate to the Dragona Empire, I began to feel as if the puzzle was being put together automatically.

Although it was not intentional, my actions so far could be seen as a position where I returned to my hometown after a long wandering life and reconciled with my parents.

From my point of view, I didn’t even know there was such a background setting in the first place, and I really couldn’t imagine that the target would be a tycoon called the lord of Bohemia.

Anyway, looking at me like this, Cazeros, who probably ran away from home in a similar way, also felt enlightened in many ways.

And from my point of view, it was only natural that I couldn’t bear to stop her from doing this.

It wasn’t my intention, but Cazeros gained so-called ‘enlightenment’ through me.

I needed to support the decision the woman I love was making to grow up.

“If you go back to your hometown… how long will it take?”

“It will probably take a while. I have a lot of work to do.”

“..I guess so.”

With those words, I slowly got up from my seat with a lonely smile on my lips.

and..

“… ”

“… ”

While holding her tight…

I, with a voice full of regret and encouragement, told her…

I told her that I truly love her.

“Please be careful and come back as soon as possible.”

“… yes. I will. As long as I can… as fast as I can…”

She responds to my words with a slightly crying voice.

So the two of us felt each other’s warmth for a while and remained silent.

In order to engrave the other person’s touch into the body even a little more.

*

The time when the sun has set and the curtain of darkness has fallen.

The stars were twinkling in the sky, and the moonlight was softly illuminating the world.

The world feels more dreamy than usual.

Bathed in that moonlight, she slowly began to stare at what she was seeing.

Late at night, a woman is escorted out of the city by escorts.

Her steps contained a strong feeling of regret, but nevertheless, she did not stop, and was moving forward as it was.

Where you have to go…

In this moment, for yourself…

And to the very place where the answer that can be said to be the best for that person exists.

And, while watching it.

A smile slowly began to form on his lips.

‘In the end… you’re leaving. No.. to be precise. It’s the right expression to go back, right?’

Given who she is, the answer is the latter.

But at the same time he knew.

About what will happen after this in the not too distant future.

As for what will happen immediately after she leaves,

And… about another ‘funny thing’ that will happen when she returns.

*

“… yes? That… that… what… are you talking about?”

I put on a blank expression as I heard an unexpected sound.

And looking at me like that…

My father, Earl of Thurn, spoke with a deep smile on his lips.

“hehehe, there is no need to be so ashamed. Aren’t you old enough to think about marriage? Because of that, your sister has already sent letters to the ladies of various families, so news will probably arrive within a few days.”

A bomb declaration that exploded less than a few days after Cazeros left.

Regarding this, I was so shocked that I didn’t know what to say for a while…

After a while, when I finally regained my composure, I automatically started thinking about one of them.

‘What the f*ck… ‘