I Won't Accept Your Regrets

The closer the servant was, the more the child the servant was holding became clearer, and my heart thumped like crazy.

No way, no way.

I couldn’t control my trembling fingertips.

The seven-year-old boy that the servant was holding had the same color as Raymond.

Ebony hair and eyes that seem to contain the night sky.

It was black-haired and black-eyed, symbolizing the imperial family in the Empire.

Holding the child from the servant, Lize opened her lips looking at Raymond with teary eyes.

“Your Majesty, this child…is yours and my child, Edmund.”3

At the end of her speech, the party gossiped loudly.

With confusion in my head I was only looking at the child in her arms.

Lize, came back…with Raymond’s kid.

The moment I encountered the black eyes of a child of the same color as Raymond, I was mesmerized by withdrawal of the ball and felt as if I had been hit in the head.

The next day of the party, the capital was noisy with the story of the emperor’s extramarital affair.

The son of the emperor, as seen in a place where numerous nobles gathered, could not stop the rumor from spreading.

The pouring newspapers were all about the emperor’s offspring.

And there was a rare story of a childless empress and a story of an empty crown.

“Your Majesty, Duke Croft has arrived in the drawing room.”

I was staring blankly in the mirror and I was able to come back to my senses from Helan’s voice. When I turned my head, Helan looked at me with a worried look.

Normally, I would’ve given you a light smile, but I’m… It wasn’t all right.

<“Your Majesty, this child…is yours and my child….”>

I stayed up all night with open eyes and I still had a sore voice from crying, and the child wasn’t erased from my head.

I was shocked to the point where I couldn’t exactly imagine how I came out of the party, which was filled with commotion and shock.

The only thing I remember was that Raymond didn’t say a word to me until I returned to the Empress Palace.

“Let’s go to the drawing room.”

I forced myself into a body that was not hard enough and headed to the drawing room where my father would be waiting.

“I Welcome the Empress.”

When I entered the drawing room, my father, who was waiting for me, came up from his seat.

“Hello, Father.”

When I approached him and reached out my hand. My father’s face was full of distress when he got up holding my hand tightly.

Apparently, after hearing the news, he couldn’t ignore his sleep properly and came to the Imperial Palace.
(Aww such a wonderful father!! Yes! Support your daughter!)

When my mother passed away, my father raised me with utmost sincerity without any concubines (Mistresses).

Maybe that’s why. My father wasn’t so happy when I said I’d fight for Raymond.

He knew that I had to be the empress in order to strengthen Raymond’s support and position as an emperor, He was given credit for the revolt and received the title of a duke.

But it was because he knew that Raymond didn’t love me.

<“Ellie, whatever the imperial power may be, Nobles are noisy, Do it because you are going to live a happy life. Don’t do it for me or for power.”>1

<‘I love Raymond. Father.’>

I responded with a happy smile, my father said with sad eyes.

‘A relationship made by one’s one-sided love… It’s fine!, In the end, I wont ever get tired. It’s Raymond.’
(Um…I bet you regret what you said darling…)

At that time, I was as happy as I was foolish to my father’s worries. The fact that I can stand by Raymond’s side.

It would be exhausting, but I thought it would be a wonderful future for me.

Many years after we get married, when we have children, and when our children grow up, I thought that it was a good thing to be exhausted.

But then I thought there would be more happiness because I would have children.

But the ordeal came to me much faster than I thought, laughing at my past foolishly.

I sat down on the sofa with my father and I ordered Helan.

“Everyone out.”

The ladies left the drawing room left and the door was closed.

Heavy silence sat down in the drawing room. Neither father nor I could easily tell the story.

A child brought by Lize Nacio who turned the Empire upside down.

Even the father won’t be able to easily find the answer to what to say about the child and what to do in the future.

I didn’t know what to do or think with the child either.

When I saw my father’s purple eyes full of worries and anxieties, I finally opened my lips.

“Father, I’m sorry, I’ve made you suffer because of me.”

I’m really sorry.

It was a stubborn marriage, but I’ve never shown a happy face before.

Now that this has happened, I could see how much my father’s heart would be broken without having to look at the situation.

Looking at me like that, my father had deep wrinkles in his forehead.

“There’s nothing you should be sorry about, just that the circumstances around you don’t help you as much as you try.”

My father, who paused, sighed heavily and opened up again.

“How did you respond to this?”

“… I haven’t said anything yet.”

“I see….”

The father swallowed a bit of saliva.

“For now, it’s important on how you respond.”

“…yes. I was actually going to talk to His Majesty today.”

Raymond, what is he thinking now?

All the way back to the palace, he never gave me a glance.

Perhaps the thought of Lize and the child filled his head.

What am I supposed to tell him, and what will happen to my child?

My head was dizzy from the mess.

“Ellie.”

I opened my eyes to the voice of my father calling my name. It shocked me because he had never called me by my name ever since I became Empress.

“… father.”

“I just wish for your happiness now. But I don’t know if it will happen right now. Will you be happy in this imperial palace?…”

My father looked at me with sad eyes.

“I have regrets. That I couldn’t stop my marriage.”

I loved Raymond and always looked back at our happy memories, but I never regretted loving him.

But now…

He never thought of me, even though the child claiming to be his illegitimate son appeared before my eyes.

Do you ever wonder what kind of shock or hurt I’m going through? Or do you not care?

Would he be happy to hear that I have a child?

Now I have doubts about his heart towards the child.

Now I can understand my father’s feelings, and I look downwards.

“Sorry, father. I’m not sure what to do either.”

Me, my child. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future.

I swallowed the words I could not say.

“Ellie, just know this one thing. You’re my daughter and if you can’t be happy in this imperial family, you can always come back to me. “

I was amazed at what he said.

Saying that I can come back at any time was like saying I could abandon my place as the empress.

“Father, I…”

I never thought of leaving Raymond’s side.

Unable to hide my embarrassment, he glanced at me with a determined look.

“I think his ability as an emperor is excellent, Eli, but I don’t about him overpowering me as a father.”
(YESS DADDY OVER ANY MAN AT ANY TIME!

“…..”

“As you know, His Majesty is a man who has slaughtered his own flesh of blood and ascended the throne.”

“Father, that’s. …… His Majesty back then had no choice but to survive.”

“Yes, I know. But that’s not all. I’ve been with him for as long as you have. Ellie, all the cruel things you haven’t seen. “

“…..”

Father breathed in a deep sigh.

“If His Majesty accepts him as a prince, and in the distant future something happens between you and him–I am not sure he will protect you, instead he might choose his son.”

“…..”

No, Raymond said that he wouldn’t ever abandon me.

But my father was right.

He wanted a child. A Child that would succeed after him.

But if it were me and my own kid who loved you so much… Of course it would be me he would chose.

A hundred times, I could accept that I wasn’t his priority, but my child shouldn’t be pushed back.

But if, as my father said, there’s a situation where my child and her child confront each other, Raymond… I don’t think he’d hold my child’s hand.

I don’t want to admit it, but as soon as I got the answer I bit my lips tight.

“Your Majesty, I just wish for you to always be happy.”

My father, who patted me on the back of my hand, who couldn’t say anything, smiled a faint smile.

Looking at my father’s purple eyes with the same color as mine, I thought of it for the first time.

The future of leaving Raymond to protect me and my child.
(🎉🙌🏻🎊)

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Late in the afternoon, when her father was gone and she was briefly organizing her thoughts, Helan came into the room with an urgent look on her face.

“Your Majesty”

“What’s going on?”

“His Majesty has come to the Empress’ Palace.”

“What?”

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Normally, he would never come to Empress’ palace at this time.

I got up from my seat, tidying up my clothes. And then Raymond showed up through the open door.

“Empress, I have something to say.”

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End of Chapter 005
Wow! Is this is beginning of Ellie’s new chapter in life?
Who knows? Also I think the moments between the father and daughter was so heartwarming yet so heartbreaking….I just can’t 🤧
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