Its Just A Game

So. When I originally started writing I did it to mess around, get some of the ideas that were in my head out, and for stress relief.

Tho writhing has changed from something that I wanted to do and mess around with. To something, I started to genuinely enjoy it. So I started taking it more seriously as I enjoyed planning out things and linking them together but due to my earlier chapters with the no planning or really an idea I have been having problems. Mostly in the over-complicated system, I made for when I wanted to make it more real life and then the idea of health I didn't really like because no one actually has a health bar because you get 100 paper cuts its gonna sting but by no means is it going to kill you. Yes, it is going to sting but it ain't anything lethal. but someone cutting your head off with a dull rusty sword will kill you and not give you a paper cut worth of damage. Now I know bob is a bad example of this. cause he can be shredded into mincemeat and regenerate as nothing happened and be stronger than before because of that. But I want bob to be more of an op powerhouse who can level cities, Countries by himself, but his weight his weakness is his family his people. The ones that can't destroy a city at will and the possibility that when he leaves it could all be destroyed IF he leaves everyone could die because he is the center of power and he is the defense and offense of the nation. And maybe he does leave to assist a battle the enemy seeing him show up at a battle they push and force the other fronts making him, yes, win a battle here but now he lost a few battles other places.

What have I've been doing the last little while?

Well, I have been reading my story and filling out a notebook with points thing I would like to fix races or ideas I want to expand on more. Things I would want to change if I went back to edit/rewrite it. I was contemplating on dropping this and just restarting from the beginning but. I believed that to be unfair and not the proper way to go about this. it's unfair to all of you who have stuck through my story. and not the proper way as that's not how I would want to do it. I would want to continue going forward and watch what I have changed what I am doing better before going back and editing the chapters.

Now, why am I doing this why am I posting this. Well, it's rather simple. I sat down for the first time in my life and was like what do I want with my life What am I going to do. As of right now, I ain't the happiest with my life and some of my choices. But I powered through like the numb skull I am and continued on not regretting my stupid choice and so I will continue. but that little sit down with my self. I thought I love writing I love seeing someone add my book to there collections. I feel like I did something that someone else enjoyed which was a completely new feeling to me as I was a loner by myself I didn't interact with others I didn't get a girlfriend when everyone else was. I didn't have any friends, nos sports nothin. so I have little to no experience with giving something to others in really any form and watching the outcome. And i just really enjoyed the Idea of others enjoying something I wrote and I love writing.

So I was liuke what if I became an author. a Pipe dream and a really big one for me. As I have all forms of commitment issues and a shitty memory to boot. but I was like why the hell not. I love writing and the idea someone willl enjoy what i wrote just made me happy. Soo, I want to do this more more full time.

Wil lthis happen anytime soon, No. Most likely not Ias I said i have commitment issues and a shitty memory so i tend to not do things, but I want to try and up my release frequency, and the amount of planning I put into the story. it will be a slow [process as I dont wanna scare my self off and i wanna do it right.

In short, I wanna do this full time.

Thank you for reading this.

Also, the next chapter should be ready for tomorrow if I don't get off work late or home late.

(Ya can really tell there was practically no direction in the early chapters)