Konoha’s Love Master

Not a side story.

Last night, I broke up with my girlfriend who had been together for three years and three months...

When I wrote this, I suddenly got stuck.

After a night, when I wrote the word "break up", my heart still throbbed.

I moved out from her place last night, didn't go back to my home, and stayed in Haiyou for one night, but I couldn't find anyone to tell.

In life, almost all friendships are broken, and the only one to confide in is her.

Parting from her is something I have imagined, but never really faced.

At around 7:00 last night, I returned to the rental house of the two of us, and I was still chatting with book friends, complaining about the 2021 codeword record of Jiangbei old thief, which is 76 short Douyin videos.

The chat page with her in WeChat stays at:

Me: your decision

Little devil: let's separate

I'm good

…

My note for her is "little devil" because she's really, really special.

I've never met anyone like her.

She broke into my life like a meteorite, subverting the whole world.

I am a rational realist. I am just a good person among ordinary people. I can achieve 90 points in many things, but I can't do it to the extreme.

My only sensibility is emotion, and only in emotion, I'm not rational.

And she is an extreme idealist.

People who have never met philosophers and thinkers may not be able to understand people like her.

Sensibility is above all else, and compared with spiritual needs, the care of real life is not worth mentioning.

She is sensitive and vulnerable, and she needs extreme spiritual care, which is love.

She will be so vulnerable that she wants to commit suicide, she will suffer because the world is not good enough, and she will ask me why there are such bad people in this world.

She is good at thinking.

In the Huo/Zun incident, she stood firmly on the side of the man, not the woman, because she discovered that the woman is the villain.

In the case of Wang/Leehom, she still defended the man, because it can be seen from the clues that the woman is not a good person, and the man was forced to marry and threatened.

She can always think independently, see through the essence of things, and then suffer from it.

She can't understand this world and doesn't understand why the Creator created evil people.

I said, the world is like this, we can only adapt.

She said, I don't accept it, if I can't change it, I'd rather die.

Look, this is her.

I made a lot of concessions for her, because it was the first time I met such a person, and I thought, if I could, I might be able to see a completely different life.

Not so ordinary firewood, rice, oil and salt.

Her marriage plan is after the age of 32, and her childbirth is after the age of 38. These are things that my parents cannot accept, but I still agreed to her.

I'm a self-sufficient person so I can provide everything and watch her.

But she is too extreme.

When time passed, passion faded, and love turned to family affection, I still loved her, but I no longer had so much energy and willingness to carefully care for her spirit.

There will be times when I'm in a bad mood, although I don't blame her, but her messy lifestyle really makes me unhappy.

My obviously bad attitude will hurt her.

She said she couldn't live like this.

I said, this is life, it is impossible to be so harmonious forever.

She said she couldn't help it.

We also had a breakup before, and that was before we lived together, and our plans for the future had greater differences.

After the painful tearing, helplessly, driven by sensibility, she would come to me again, with a dozen of WeChat voice messages every day for five or six hours.

I can't solve the problem, but I can't let go.

In the end, it was delayed like this, and another year and a half passed.

Feelings are always the most difficult thing to control. Even if rationality knows it's not suitable, it still can't be controlled.

Last night, I pushed open the door of my house.

She stood there and I saw the corners of her mouth curl up...

Yes, she wanted to laugh.

She smiles every time she sees me, because she is emotional, she is happy when she sees me, so she grins.

But silly girl, I'm here to get something...

I didn't even take off my mask and just walked in as usual.

I asked her, "Are you sure?"

Her expression changed suddenly.

Stupid, just remember now that I'm not going home as usual.

I started to pack my things.

Wherever I go, she follows.

I said, "I can't take many things with me. If you don't want to see them, just throw them away."

She lowered her head: "Yes."

I actually packed it up pretty quickly, but it lingered in every corner of the house for a while.

She followed behind.

I stand by the window.

"Live well in the future." I said.

She nods.

"You are a wonderful person, don't doubt yourself." I said again.

I'm afraid she won't be able to live without me.

How bad is her real life ability...

Her eyes were red and she began to cry.

She always likes to cry.

But this time, I stopped asking her why she was crying.

I picked up the phone: "This time, I will block you, if you want to break it, be decisive, don't pull it back and forth."

She watched in tears as I blocked her phone number and deleted WeChat records.

"I can't get through to you anymore?" she asked.

I nodded.

She wanted to grab my hand, but she didn't touch it in the end. She just cried and said, "Don't delete your Alipay friends, I will return the money to you."

I still deleted it.

"Need not…"

My eyes started to blur.

"You don't have to pay me back..."

I said, "Just live well..."

I opened the door.

"Live well."

I didn't look at her, I opened the door and went out.

I know that if I hesitate, I can't break it.

But as the door closed, I couldn't help but glance back at her.

She stared at me with red eyes in the only gap left by the door.

"boom."

I close the door.

Go straight to the elevator.

I also thought that she might chase out like last time.

But this time the elevator came very fast.

I didn't allow myself to hesitate, and quickly went in.

I booked a hotel for myself to live near the company.

I ate Yang Guofu from that subway station.

We passed by there many times, and we were impressed by the unexpected business of this store. After we made an appointment, we would go there and try it if we couldn't think of anything to eat.

In the end, I still didn't go with her.

After I clicked, I couldn't find the location by the floor-to-ceiling windows.

I want to take another look at this subway station where I commute to and from get off work every day for more than three years, but in the end I can only sit in the middle.

While eating, I imagined whether tears would fall into the soup.

Actually no.

I won't cry outside.

I need a space of my own.

I remember that before I went to pick up my things, I could still take the subway as usual, and it felt like I was going home as usual.

It's just that the head feels dizzy at that time.

strangeness.

Even though the emotions are calm, the body responds.

I went back to the vicinity of the company and entered the Hi Inn Hotel.

I was thinking, if I want to ask if breakfast is free, I can give a five-star praise...

In the end, he still didn't say anything, took the room card, went upstairs, and opened the door.

I didn't expect this Haiyou to be so broken.

It really shouldn't save money.

I took out my toiletries, and after taking a shower, I took out my phone.

I checked WeChat, and there were no new friend requests.

The bad thing is that this store doesn't even have wifi, and I don't even have the traffic to watch videos.

I can only lie in bed, alone.

I finally got my own space.

I knew I needed to cry a lot.

It is difficult to live a normal life without releasing emotions.

I'm still sane.

Like I will tell her she is great, I don't want her to pay back the money, let her live well.

I think I still have a scheming mind.

I have achieved the ultimate in this relationship, where can she find someone who is better than me?

I think, on Christmas, we went to Jiading New City together to see the grand theater she had always wanted to see. She said that it was designed by the top international designer invited in China, and it has a special sense of design.

We went to Nanxiang Ancient Town.

She said that the crab rice dumplings here are not bad, but the best one is the tenderloin with 3 skewers for 10 yuan, which is the best tenderloin she has ever eaten. If she comes again next time, it must be for the tenderloin .

I thought it would be me who would accompany her next time...

My heart began to throb, and tears rolled down my face.

I soon developed nasal congestion and shortness of breath.

I can't lie down.

Because of the stuffy nose.

I sat up and felt cold again, so I put on a down jacket on my body.

The down jacket is very warm.

I thought again, why did it become like this?

Why is she just refusing to back down?

I want to call her, I want to say, Mingming, Mingming, as long as she can be a little more realistic and accept the bad things in life, we can get married, live together for many years, and grow old...

Why? !

I couldn't help but pick up the phone, find her name in the address book, and cancel the red label that prevents this person from calling.

But I didn't make this call.

I thought, if she called at this time, maybe it was God's will.

I put the phone aside.

I thought about many things, thinking that I would never have this person in my future life, I would never find someone as unique as her, and I would never find such a spiritual haven.

I suddenly felt that I was in the dark, and only myself was left in my world.

I have to say that I am very good at using my reason to guide my life.

After crying, I picked up the phone again and blocked calls from this phone number again.

I feel so much better.

I threw away the phone, turned off the lights and fell asleep.

Waking up at 7:30 in the morning and always sleeping well after being exhausted.

I know that someone as emotional as her will only be ten times more painful than me last night.

But what does that have to do with me?

After checking out, I walked down the street with my heavy bag on my back.

I'm thinking about what to have for breakfast today.

In the end, I still went to the family I was familiar with.

It's been a long time since I had breakfast here. After living together, I always steamed two steamed buns in the morning, boiled an egg, and soaked soybean milk. This is our breakfast.

I bought siu mai, meat buns and soy milk at Family Family.

The whole family has never had such a poor breakfast.

The meat buns looked like they were made yesterday, and the skin was very hard.

There is no freshly ground soy milk in the past, this time the soy milk seems to be soaked at home.

The music played was "Annual Rings", and I listened silently.

Opposite them sat an old man and a young man, and after they left, a young woman followed.

Not good looking.

Anyway, she is not as good-looking.

I put all the trash in the dry trash.

Put on your bag and go out.

The mood is very calm.

Thank you to all the book friends who have read it, I really have no friends to talk to.

And I feel like I need to remember how I feel in this moment.

Maybe there will be a follow-up, maybe not.

I have never experienced a breakup like this, and I don't know what will happen afterwards.

Maybe it's a relief to tell everyone that I'm fine.

Maybe it's because I can't let go of the entanglement.

I still have a few hundred photos left, which is something I'm too scared to touch right now...