Leaning Too Deep

"Normal Speech"

'Inside Thought'

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Death may be the greatest of all human blessings.

-Socrates

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I was dead. I was sure I was already dead. I died in the arms of my beloved and still remembered it clearly.

He held me with warm c.a.r.e.s.s while murmuring something into my ear. I caught some words how he would always love me repeatedly.

He held me lightly yet firmly. He caused me no pain - because I was already in one - but the numbness slowly took my consciousness away.

I opened my eyes a bit and gasped in a breath, but nothing came. I choked on my dry tongue. In desperation, I s.u.c.k.e.d in another breath, tears pooling in my eyes.

Remembering every feature of him, until my last. I tried to speak, but none came. My heart stopped, and I painfully felt it. My mouth gave one final sigh. Then I felt nothing, nothing at all.

'I will always love you too,' thought me unsaid. 'Even in the afterlife.'

That was why I thought it was the end for me. It was the final of my story. My life. However, here I was, embraced in the dark of nothingness.

It was not that I was afraid of death. In fact, I found death intriguing.

Why?

People always had so many versions of death. Even without knowing which one was the truth.

Why?

Because of that, I was always questioning myself. Where would I go? Would I be a ghost and haunting people? Would I sleep forever in this darkness alone? Must I be waiting for him? Would I go to Heaven or Hell? Garden of Eden? Reincarnation? Did I become one with the stars?

As if someone up there answered my questions, my body starting to get s.u.c.k.e.d into something akin to a vortex.

'What the hell?' alarmed my mind.

The peace voluntarily broke, and a series of voices assaulted my hearing. The warm that suddenly surrounded my body did not lessen my confused and panic mind, especially if voices of destruction, explosion, and chaos heard.

'Can dead people die twice in a day?' pondered me.

Then, something clicked in my mind. That somehow I was being reincarnated.

I got a second chance to live again. To feel the air of freedom, or to not make the same wrong decision again. And I could feel the abundance of tears that flowing from my eyes.

Tears of regret, and happiness.

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It took me so many times to convince myself that I got reincarnated. That I got a second chance to live again.

I tried to move my body though to no avail. My mind and my muscle memories positively clashed with each other. And it was such an aggravating feeling.

'Be smart! You are just a newborn,' adviced my mind. 'Why don't you just sit back and relax?'

So, here I was, on my back helplessly and tried to stay awake. Wherever I was now, it was so different from that time. This place felt peaceful. Well, it was until something akin to snoring sound broke it.

I squinted my eyes to the source of the sound that next to me. With blurry vision, I could only make the yellow-colored and its small stature.

'Is it a baby? Like me?' questioned my mind. 'Are we twins?'

I blinked my eyes twice yet my vision still blurry. Well, I guessed this was the limit of my new eyes.

Though, the blurriness made me float between the line of consciousness back and forth. I aimed to stay awake, but I could not keep focus anymore.

'Well, sleep will suffice for now,' decided me.

I closed my heavy eyes and retreated into darkness.

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