Loving Him

ADAM'S POV

"Hey, Adam! What's wrong?" Keiro asked me as soon as he gets his whiskey.

"Marina," I slurred, maybe the alcohol already kick me.

"Marina? What about her?" he asked curiously.

"She's f.u.c.k.i.n.g pregnant!" I tossed my glass in the air.

"Woooh please calm down Adam, I mean you should be happy about that news. Marina's getting pregnant, what's the big deal?" he stated and I look at him like seriously? He is asking me like that? Am I too selfish to think about my dreams to think about myself? I think not.

"That thing can ruin my career my life," I slurred out pointing at him but he swats my hand.

"What's with you? It's not like you're not the Adam who loved the Marina I know," he said that makes me chuckled.

"I love her but I love my career too. And I want that child to be gone, I'm not even sure that was f.u.c.k.i.n.g mine," I said to him and his eyes were wide open like it was unbelievable for him to hear that coming from me.

"You know Adam, since that career, that f.u.c.k.i.n.g damn career goes in your life you f.u.c.k.i.n.g asshole forget everything! Everything about her about Marina! She, she gives up her dreams of being a chef just for you! She loves you with all her heart all her life. And even if you can't introduce her to people it's okay with her and even though in the eyes of the people think that she is your maid is still okay with her just to be with you, you bastard!! You know Adam you've changed, so you better think this before you regret it. I'm out of here," he shouted at me that makes all the people distance and avoided my eyes. And all I did was to stand there and recall all of what did he told me.

How can I be so blind all this time? I want to drunk myself for being so idiot treating her like that. I want this night to be drunk and forget what happened and go back to her tomorrow to tell her how sorry I am.

He's right I'm a f.u.c.k.i.n.g bastard!

KEIRO'S POV

I kicked the wheel of my car after I left the club. Adam's a huge fool, a huge fool.

FLASHBACK

I was about to walk somewhere to freshen up when I saw a woman who seemed to be crying near a tree in a park. As I approached the woman I was surprised that it was Marina. She immediately wiped her tears and smiled without reaching his eyes.

"Marina, can I sit next to you?" I asked and she just nodded. I sat down next to her.

"Is there a problem?" I asked and she shrugged.

"Come on Marina, your not good at lying, your eyes were so transparent.

You can tell me to lessen what you bring just this day you can lean on my shoulders and cry and cry till you're satisfied, "I said and she smiled.

"Thank you," her voice cracked.

"I don't know if I am selfish but I just want to get an answer. Why? Why can't Adam introduce me to his world as his loved one, the pain is just vulnerable," she g.r.o.a.n.e.d, I felt every word she utters. I can feel her pain.

"It's okay for me all the people in the world to think that I am his helper, it's okay with me but why every day and every hour every second why do I feel so far away from him even when we're on the same roof? I'm not angry I'm just...I'm in pain Keiro. It's too much, I can't take it any longer," she said and I couldn't help myself to hug her and let her cry on my shoulder.

I could feel her pain even though I had never experienced it. I don't want to think bad about Adam, I want to know myself and see him.

And this is it, this is the answer to my question. Adam was an asshole and a bastard man. I wanted to punch him his face but I couldn't, I want him to realize all of his doings. I want him to regret everything.

Adam is my friend but he's on the wrong line and I want to reprimand him in his mistakes. I want to show him that there is in front of him the woman he will be with for the rest of his life. She should not be like me no matter who that woman is and what the hell that means.

"Ughhhh! why the hell they'd do this to me!" I shouted cause the people to look at me.

"What!?" I shouted at them and they avoided my eyes.

"F.u.c.k," I muttered and get inside to my car and started the engine when someone accidentally bumps in my car.

"Hey watch it!" the girl said and I look at her. I was her the bunny girl.

"You?" she pointed to me.

"Why is it that every time this happens you are the culprit!?" she shouted and I am not in the mood to duel at her so I started the engine and left her hanging her mouth.

MARINA'S POV

Adam didn't come home late at night and he still didn't. I can't seem to have the courage to message him because I couldn't talk to him about what happened before.

As I waited for him to arrive I just checked my email and I missed many messages and Damien had the most messages, I almost forgot about him, even though I didn't even say goodbye to him after what had happened. I opened his message and I smiled at it he never changed.

"Hey, beautiful forgot me already?"

"Good morning gorgeous eat your breakfast okay?"

"Hey, lovely don't you miss me? why you're not replying:"("

"I miss you :( badly"

I smiled at his silliness and emoticons, he really got the signature of being a playboy. I replied at his messages and waited for his response but got nothing, maybe he's asleep already, so I close my account and log in on my twitter and found out the picture of Adam kissing a woman in the club. And now I know where he is. I shut off my laptop and wipe my tears away.

"He doesn't deserve every single tear from me," I muttered more ferocious and headed to my closet and got my clothes. I took out my large suitcase and put all the belongings I owned in it and left the belongings he had given me and if possible I left them alone to worry about.

But before I leave I wrote a letter to him and I left the ring he gave me. It has happened and it is happening now, I thought it would never happen again but whom will I betray. I would have been away if this had been the case for me, I want my child away from him. I could never imagine that this would be the course of our relationship, that this would be his decision. He's a monster that he said would kill our only child and the worst of them all and crush me a bit when he said he wasn't sure if it was his, what did he think of me? I can't, I can't take it any longer. I want to stay away, far from him.

Airport

I sighed as I landed my feet at the airport. It's time to leave. Nothing can stop me. Now I am preparing myself for whatever fate I may have with my child wherever we go.

I pass on to my God and I pray for our protection. Just one step before I walked in, it will change my life.

I can do it for my sake and my child. I touch my belly and I suddenly remembered my twin. We are now in the same situation and I hope that she is not in a desperate life like mine now. I hope she is in good shape and hopefully she is eating well. A tear escape from my eyes and I wipe it with my free hand.

"It's going to be alright baby. Mommy can take care of this for you, just hold on okay?" I whispered believing that he/she can hear it.

I wanted to find out if my baby was going to be a girl or a boy so when I came down I would immediately schedule a visit with a known doctor. I will take care of it with all my heart, I will not feel that I have anything to lose.

I will stand as a mother and father, I will do everything for my child. This is now my dream.

My phone beep and it was a text message coming from Damien. I gave him my calling card at that night to text me if he got my message.

"Where are you?" he asked in text and I immediately replied.

"Airport going to San Diego," I replied and not less than a minute he immediately replies.

"San Diego? I'm currently here at San Diego, why are you going in here by the way?" he replied.

"Long story Damien," I replied

"You want me to fetch you?" he asked and I didn't hesitate to accept his offer again. I also don't know how to get there and I might get lost.

"Okay thank you so much, Damien. I'll text you when I get there," I replied.

"No problem, okay I'll be waiting"

I was no longer able to reply because my flight was called. I adjusted myself and headed out. I will not regret this if however, our fate will collide, I do not know what will I'm gonna do. I should leave this pain in here and start a new life now with my child.