Loving You is the Best Thing I Have Done

The following days were as tired as ever. Countless courses, reports, and papers once made Shen Xifan's mood extremely low. She had long been told that Cornell was "a university deprived of four years of sleep", but really experienced that This painful taste is only known to me.

The weather in January suddenly became cold, and the wind was swaying badly. The school that had come and gone, and the bustle and bustle of the school, suddenly became quiet and abnormal, as if against the weather, she also became gloomy. ,sad.

　　 There are still two days of Chinese New Year in China, but the New York town on the other side of the ocean has no festive atmosphere, no red lanterns, no firecrackers, no crowds to buy new year's products, no dumplings, dumplings.

　　 has no family, no blessings, nor his company, and lives like a year.

　　The sky in Ithaca was bluish-grey, astringent, with a sign of snow but no snowflakes, and squeezed heavily on her heart. Such a sky is really lonely and lonely.

　　 Such a day is only suitable for a deep sleep, rather than discussing boring planning schemes in the teamwork in the classroom.

　　 She could not help but frown, and suddenly a voice came in, "Serena, what do you think of this plan?"

　　 There was a momentary blank in her head, and her thoughts were pulled back to the materials in front of her. She sorted out her thoughts and slowly opened her mouth, from international hotel chain culture to management, and finally added some Chinese hotel management concepts.

The team leader thought for a while and nodded, "It's a good thing, but generally you are rarely seen to speak. The hotel culture you mentioned just now has a few points that are very good. So, next time you do the discussion groupleader, can you?"

　　Looking at the expected eyes of the team members, she smiled embarrassingly and should bear it.

　　 There is another exam on Friday. The preparation of a new course will start next week. The paper of CareerTracks has not been completed yet. Now a new leaddiscussion is added, which is even worse.

　　 ended the group meeting, her tired body and impetuous emotions made her collapse.

After returning to the dormitory, I made a cup of tea for myself and sat blankly at the window, with a lot of reference materials on the table, but I didn't know where to start, I opened the computer, and blessed me on MSN and QQ. My previous colleagues , Friends have sent beautiful pictures, warm or funny New Year greetings filled the screen.

　　 It turns out that today is New Year's Eve.

　　 But he didn't receive the blessing of He Suye, maybe he is still in the institute now, maybe he won't go back at night. He had long told her that the subject was the key to entry. Maybe she didn't have so much time to accompany her. Please ask her to understand. At that time, although she was a little lost, she still told him to rest assured that the research work is the most important.

She called home, there was a thunderous firecracker in her ear, and Mother Shen shouted, "Fan Fan, mom and dad miss you so much, your dad has been talking about you for a few days, your grandfather they asked when you will come back ."

　　 She heard a sore nose and quickly agreed, "I will be back in half a year, soon."

　　Mother Shen sighed, "Forget it, let's say, New Year's Eve, Fan Fan, remember to eat dumplings tonight, you won't even have this, Tangyuan? By the way, can you receive the Spring Festival Gala?"

Of course, I can’t say that there is nothing here. Shen Xifan nodded quickly. “Okay, okay, there is it. Mom, don’t worry, I’ll eat well! There’s also Spring Festival Gala, online live broadcast. Help me and my grandfather to celebrate the New Year. So, hang up!"

　　 put down the phone, and her mind was full of pictures of the New Year. She remembered that on New Year’s Eve last year, she drank some inexplicable words to He Suye that she could not verify. At that time, the family was reunited, lively, and happy.

　　 Suddenly my roommate called her, "Serena, there is your courier, I just forgot to tell you, on the kitchen table."

　　 She was extremely curious and hurried to get up and took a look at the address and name, but was surprised to find that the sender wrote the English name of He Suye.

　　 Carefully opened the small box, and a small piece of jewelry greeted the eyes. The large black crystal was inlaid with dense white crystals. Under the dim light, it dazzled dazzlingly.

　　 took it out and found out that it was originally a silk scarf buckle, which was strikingly similar to the one she had broken before. She remembered that she had comforted the lost that night and said that she would buy another one later.

　　 Her answer at the time was that it was given to me by my grandma. It was brought from France a few decades ago, and I don’t know if I will have it all over the United States now. Forget it.

　　 But he found so similar for himself.

　　 There is also a message at the bottom of the box, "Happy Chinese New Year, pay attention to your body and take a good rest."

A corner of her mouth could not help raising a radian, sweet, ecstatic, she carefully buckled the silk scarf back into the gift box, and then picked up the courier note, looked at the familiar handwriting on it, gently touched, and seemed to have his余温.

I quickly ran to the computer and left a message for him. I typed a few words and deleted them. I couldn’t find the right words to describe my mood. It’s better to write, “Happy New Year, the scarf is beautiful, thank you, I like it very much. Also, pay attention to rest, don't be too tired." With a sigh, his eyes floated back to the beautifully packed small box.

　　She pursed her lips and smiled lightly—how much time did such a small thing spend on him to find it.

　　 The window was still dark gray and heavy twilight, but those bright lights made her feel warm. The orange light penetrated the confusion of the night, and reflected with the one in front of the table, like a lover looking far away.

　　 But the portrait on QQ didn't beat for a long time, she had short hope and then long disappointment.

　　 Then I can only bury my thoughts in my heart and learn to numb myself with work.

　　 Friday's exam was quite unsuccessful. Shen Xifan always felt that someone in her ear was singing, which disturbed her, and she couldn't even spell out a few professional words. In the end, she hurriedly handed in the test paper.

　　 Although the discussion of the group on Saturday was relatively smooth, she was nearly collapsed by the team members' insidious questions during the defense, and finally ended up in a hurry.

　　 There was also a problem with her thesis, even though she had been fighting for a few nights before, and used all the information she could find, clenched her teeth and changed the thesis again. But when he handed it in, the tutor shook his head and made a big stroke, "Not professional enough!"

　　 is about the theory of administrative management. She immediately felt speechless. The theoretical knowledge of the management major was too abstract, and she could not even understand it sometimes. After all, she was not from the management major, and was said to be not professional enough.

Shen Xifan completely lost his temper, and obediently went back to the library to continue to look for materials. When he looked at it, he felt that the letters in front of him were all beating. pour.

　　 is wandering on the edge of sleepiness and confusion. Without paying attention, her head sways to the thick edge of the book. She hurts when she hurts, and the person is completely sober.

Touching the sore spot that was knocked, she planned to continue reading, only to hear snickers coming from behind. She turned to look at it. It turned out to be Lin Yishen, who was standing behind her with a bag on her back, but her eyes kept staring at her. paper.

　　Shen Xifan didn't even want to lift his eyelids, heaved a heavy sigh, "Don't disturb during rework."

　　Lin Yishen did not leave, rummaged through the paper, and then asked, "Where is the problem?"

　　 "Theoretical part of Operations Management!" She held her head weakly and turned the pen carelessly, "The instructor said that it is not professional, not professional! If I were professional, I wouldn't miss MMH, I would change to MBA."

Lin Yi laughed deeply, "It's such a trivial matter, why didn't you say it early, maybe you didn't take my brother who is from the science class into your eyes. This theoretical knowledge is too high for you, it's a side dish for us. A plate. In this way, you copy me the paper, let me take a look."

　　Shen Xifan thought of it too, and by her own efforts wanted to perfect the theoretical part of the thesis almost impossible task, nodded, and immediately copied all the materials to him.

　　Lin Yishen looked at her dull eyes and sighed, "After all, after a few days, your tutor will not be human, let me go, I will go to watch immediately, you go back to sleep first, I'll go find you."

　　 She just felt very tired, unable to provide any trace of strength, still struggling to be entertained and entertaining herself, "In the past few days, I have felt like I was ten years old after consecutive examinations and essays."

　　Lin Yishen was not angry, "Like it was just dug out of the ground, well, let's go back, I will find you later."

　　She nodded, picked up her bag, and waved out of the library. Along the way, the bone-chilling cold wrapped her tightly like a big net, so cold, that when she looked up at the sky, the gray sky of Ithaca became darker and darker, and it seemed to snow.

　　Lin Yishen looked at her leaving back, sighed slightly, sat back to the original position, took out the computer, and the friend sitting on the side just recovered for a while, "That girl looks like your girlfriend at first glance!"

　　 "What girlfriend, when do I have a girlfriend!" He looked at his roommate suspiciously.

　　 "Hey! Don't admit that the one who came to you last Christmas is small and exquisite."

　　 "That's not my girlfriend, I said that it doesn't matter to you." He sighed again at the questioning look of his friend, "I can't say anything in three words, anyway, I'm wrong, OK!"

　　Friends continue to gossip, "The little sister you said before will not be the girl just now, weird thing, the two look really similar!"

　　Lin Yishen pointed to the computer, "Work, work, stop whispering, be careful not to be scolded when the report is completed!"

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　　 I don't know how long I slept, I just feel that my body is hot, but the subconscious feels cold and trembling, the shallow dreams, a blank, but still retains a little sober consciousness in reality.

　　 She only knew that her roommate had come to open the door and left, and then heard the sound of a small "dumpling" in her ear, soft, and it seemed to be the melody of falling snow.

After a long time, the doorbell rang hurriedly, Shen Xifan suddenly sobered, opened her eyes, and there was no light in the dark room. It took a long time to wear the shoes. The feet just touched the ground and only felt the throbbing of the buzzing head, someone outside shouted , "Shen Xifan, is there!"

It was Lin Yishen-she answered, and stumbled to open the door. I saw Lin Yishen standing outside the door, with water dripping from her hair, gasping for a little, "Why do I only answer the door now, and there is no light in the dormitory, I think what happened to you Now."

　　 She was confused and said, "Why, it rained?"

　　 "It's snowing!" Lin Yishen entered the door and pressed the switch. The room was bright. Shen Xifan narrowed his eyes and looked out the window. "It's really snowing!"

　　 He smiled and raised the materials in his hand. "It's sorted out. You have a look. If I don't understand, I'll explain it to you. If the tutor can't answer it when asked, it will be miserable."

　　Shen Xifan exhaled, relieved, "Brother, I promise to provide you with red eggs and burn three incense sticks for the Chinese New Year! By the way, I would like to order bacon and sausage. You are not a vegetarian!"

　　 "Poor mouth!" Lin Yishen reached out and poked her head, who knew that the temperature where the finger touched was actually higher than normal, withdrew his hand and quickly asked, "Shen Xifan, are you feverish?"

　　She touched her head and nodded. "No wonder I feel cold. It turned out that it was really a little hot."

　　 "Let's go to bed!" Lin Yishen frowned. "Such an adult has no consciousness at all. He doesn't know how to take care of himself. How did your tutor toss you and stayed up for several days?"

　　 "I'm okay, but I have a little fever, why do you make such a fuss!" Shen Xifan's stubborn temper came up again, "I will show me the paper soon, I will change it at night, I will hand it in tomorrow!"

　　 The voice didn't fall. She felt dizzy and couldn't bear her heartbeat. She only felt the rapid expansion of blood vessels. She had to hold her heart and take a breath.

　　 Lin Yishen was terrified, "Shen Xifan, what's wrong with me, okay, if you want to go to the hospital, lie down and talk!"

　　She nodded, "I'm going to lie down, slowly breathing, my heart is not comfortable."

　　CVI Institute of the University of Pennsylvania.

The laboratory and data room are all bright, the data scrolls in rows on the computer screen, and the analog images pass by page by page. From time to time there are complaints in various languages, "Wrong, wrong! Damn data!" !"

　　He Suye looked at the computer intently, suddenly his right eye jumped wildly.

Perhaps it is too tired. I have only slept for less than three days in more than half a month. Even lying in bed is a luxury, not to mention sleeping. In order to come up with the research results of the subject, everyone worked hard. And he has not contacted Shen Xifan for a long time.

　　I don't want it, I can't

　　 Suddenly, the phone ringed far away, in silence, like in the ear, over and over again, somehow no one answered. It's like anxiety that there are too many words to say.

　　 Someone next door called him, "Hey, your phone!"

　　 He was shocked and stood up quickly. After receiving it, he heard a familiar voice with some anger in forbearance. "He Suye, what the **** are you doing?"

　　 He was a little surprised, more worried, "Lin Yishen! What happened, what happened?"

　　 "Shen Xifan has a fever and an uncomfortable heart. What is going on, should I be taken to the hospital?"

The instinct of his profession reminded him of those terrible diseases at once. His mind was blank, and his coolness slipped across his body. At this moment, it was like a huge stone smashed **** his heart, shaking it, feeling like that Anxious, her voice suddenly became hoarse. "Is she in the dormitory now, other than these, are there any symptoms such as vomiting and difficulty breathing?"

　　 "There are no other symptoms for the time being. She is lying in bed now and has fallen asleep. Today I saw her face is particularly bad, like staying up for several days."

　　Long sigh of relief, the tense string still refused to relax, "I know, I will go right away!"

　　Lin Yi was stunned for a while, "It's snowing here, let's talk so late..."

　　 The voice was not over yet, so he was interrupted by the sound of He Suye's decisive voice, "It's okay, help me look at her, and send it to the hospital as soon as there is a situation, and I will pass immediately!"

　　 hung up the phone, and he noticed a thin sweat on his palm, his hands and feet seemed to be frozen, and he felt conscious after several activities. He hurriedly explained the progress of his work and picked up his coat and left the institute.

　　 The sky was gloomy and pressed against his heart. He couldn't help breathing and messed up the square inch. There was only one thought in his heart. Shen Xifan, don't get into trouble, don't do it, I'll be there soon.

　　The endless darkness and loneliness, the ear is the sound of the wind and snow. Time became unpredictable in her lethargic consciousness. The man in the dream walked in the snow and the snow was still so beautiful, but the whole body exuded a cold air that was thousands of miles away, and he was lifeless.

　　 she ran to him desperately, a cold heartfelt fear clutched her thoughts tightly. She felt that the distance between them was so close that she was within reach; but the person who couldn't reach him at all saw her slowly disappearing, even her footprints disappeared, as if she had never been there.

　　She shouted his name, she begged him not to leave her alone, the desperate thoughts filled the space.

　　 The world is vast and there is no response. Only the deep white snow is still falling in front of me. The hoarse and sad wind sounds painful and painful, leaving me standing alone in the snow, I don't know where to go.

　　 didn't even know how to shed tears, it seemed to be numb.

　　 Slowly, word by word, she heard the anxious, low-melt voice, "Girl, wake up, what's wrong?"

　　 Slipped a little lukewarm liquid from the corners of his eyes and fell into the temples. In the misty eyes, the man frowned, his eyes filled with worry and anxiety.

　　 couldn't say anything, but the tears flowed out of control, not just because of the nightmare just now, so many days of depression and thoughts, all vented. His arms were still as warm as ever, she had only one thought at the time, why she was so fragile and so crying in front of him.

　　The heavy snow outside the window dyed the entire night sky into a beautiful cyan color, like the softest feathers on the wings of a white bird gracefully fluttering down, the beauty is beyond description.

　　 Everything in the world becomes vivid and beautiful, just because of the man in front of her, in a flash, she finally knows how important he is.

　　After she calmed down, He Suye asked, "After all, I haven't slept for a few days. You are overworked and feverish. I was shocked when Lin Yishen described your situation on the phone just now.

　　 "Lin Yishen?" Shen Xifan's eyes widened, "How did he know you when he called you?"

　　 "Because I am the cousin of the cousin of his uncle's third aunt--" Lin Yishen pushed the door in and smiled, "I didn't expect it? We are still somewhat related."

　　Shen Xifan looked at He Suye for help. He nodded. "Actually, I don't know what our two generations are, but basically that is the case."

No wonder they used to see them intimately talking at the hotel before, and Lin Yishen always told her "your boyfriend" with a sly smile. It turned out to be like this-she carefully looked at the two people in front of her, "Also It's really awesome!"

　　Lin Yi smiled deeply, "Genuine boyfriend is here, my fellow brother is going to leave, and save the light bulb."

　　He Suye held Shen Xifan, "You lie down first, I will send him."

　　Walking to the stairs, Lin Yishen waved his hand, "No need to send it, take care of her, don't thank me too much!"

　　He Suye smiled, apologized and relieved, and sincerely said, "Thank you."

　　 Lin Yi pursed her mouth deeply, then stopped talking, and finally sighed softly, "Forget it, forget it, we both made it clear before going abroad, I hope you don't forget!"

　　 His eyes were clear and his voice was soft, but he threw the ground loudly, "I will give her happiness."

　　 Lin Yi narrowed his eyes and looked at the heavy snow outside the building, a smile left on his mouth, and the time was eternal, relieved.

After going back, Shen Xifan asked, "How did Lin Yishen find you, isn't your dormitory without a phone?"

　　 said lightly, "He found someone he knew well and went directly to the institute to find me."

　　Shen Xifan lowered his head, "I'm sorry, He Suye, I'm such a troublesome guy, I'm so sorry."

　　 was caught off guard. A soft kiss fell on her forehead. The tenderness was infinite. He gently lifted her forehead and looked straight into her eyes. "I should be sorry."

　　 was a quiet and warm moment, but she sang the empty city plan in her belly. She was embarrassed. He Suye rubbed her messy hair with a smile and asked, "Put your clothes on and eat."

Maybe it was just a fever, and the white porridge didn’t taste at all. She just couldn’t swallow it after eating half a bowl. He Suye refused, "If you eat a little more, you will have to take medicine later. Your stomach is empty. The medicine is not well absorbed."

　　 She was immediately curious, "What medicine to take, do I need to take medicine like this, isn't the fever gone?"

　　 "You are overworked and feverish, don't I tell you not to be so desperate? The original body is not good, now the toss is worse!" He Suye was a little bit worried when he mentioned the illness, and his brows were deeper.

　　 She was a little curious, "What medicine should I take this time?"

"Guipi Decoction, nourishes the heart and spleen, benefits qi and produces blood. It contains Huangqi, Poria, Atractylodes, Licorice, Longan, Angelica, Polygala, Muxiang, Wolfberry." He Suye sighed, "Go to sleep for a while, good I told you to get up and drink medicine."

　　 "But where did these medicines come from? Are there any Chinese medicines in the United States?"

　　 "There are Chinese pharmacies in Chinatown. Traditional Chinese medicine is very popular among Chinese there. By the way, today is the third day of Chinese New Year. When I went to Chinatown, it was still very lively."

　　 She smiled softly, a little childish, "Is there any sugar gourd, steaming dumplings and dumplings, will there be dragon and lion dance performances, couplets, blessings!"

　　 "I missed home, didn't I?" He Suye took her hand, "If I want to go, I will show you, but there is still an atmosphere in the new year in China."

Shen Xifan felt that there was a move in her heart, but she didn't know how to express her words. She just gently picked up the medicine called Angelica and put it in her palm. She said gently, "Wait another half year, I will be like it. Then you What about?"

　　 "Stupid girl!" He Suye smiled comfortably, "What do you say?"

　　Angelica, Angelica-"Youzi is tired of the hometown of Angelica, and she most likes the old house in Gaotang."

　　Then it was the ancient man who gave such a name to this traditional Chinese medicine, whether it was the beloved mother who hoped to return to the world day or night, or the woman who thought of her husband, but no matter who it was, such a heart and a kind of thought reached the bottom of your heart.

　　 Maybe it was really exhausted, maybe it was the effect of Chinese medicine, and the drowsiness soon rushed up, feeling that someone was gently kissing her lips, she laughed softly, and fell asleep again.

　　So, there was no dream overnight.

　　 The next day, she was aroused by the morning light.

　　 The sky is white, the dense sun shines on the snow, and emits a faint halo, so clean and elegant, so flawless. Shen Xifan gave a soft sigh of relief, uncomfortable.

　　However, with such heavy snow, how did He Suye come last night?

There was a scent of mellow rice in the kitchen, which interrupted her thoughts. She quickly dragged her shoes to the kitchen and found that He Suye was carrying the tableware. When she saw her, she asked, "Rise now. how do you feel?"

　　She touched her forehead and breathed a sigh of relief.

　　 "It's vegetable porridge." He Suye opened the lid of the pot, and Shen Xifan took a deep breath of satisfaction. He couldn't help laughing, "Girl, don't be intoxicated, go and wash it."

　　Vegetable porridge has a refreshing and mellow entrance. One bowl is not enough and another bowl is added, and He Suye just looked at her with a smile, "Don't eat so urgently, be careful of your stomach upset."

　　Because he made it by himself, it tastes very delicious.

He did so much for himself, but he felt that it was not enough, and that he was not good enough for her, and he was always stubborn, and he was always afraid, worried, and anxious about the future of the two people, and this illness was also born in the heart. .

　　 Those heavy tasks are really nothing. The ascetic life like a monk is just a shameful sense of loneliness. It turned out that she was suffering from acacia, because she missed it, she was lonely, scared, impetuous, helpless, and out of control.

　　If you owe him a lot of love, then use your life time to repay.

　　 She put down her chopsticks, looked at his eyes with stubbornness and frankness, and gently told him, one word at a time, "He Suye, I think, I want to be with you forever."

The hand holding the chopsticks shook slightly, and then there was the crisp sound of the chopsticks. A complex emotion appeared in his eyes, rejoicing, moving, or something, Shen Xifan could not see what it was, Just let him stand up and walk in front of him, then hug him gently.

　　He Suye said only one word in her ear, but felt more touching and sincere than any mountain alliance.

　　 He said, "Okay!"

　　 Commit to life.

　　This winter, in a foreign land, she finally understood that there will always be happiness in the world of love, and there will always be a long time in the world of love.

　　She met him in such a splendid time, fell in love with him, and then decided to stay with him.

　　Nianhua so far, the completion has no sigh.

　　 "Love you, the best thing I have ever done"