50. Dirty spoon (4)

1.

Hiding my circumstances as much as possible from people I consider to be ‘friends’.

It was a lesson learned from failure in my past life, and one of the important principles in my life.

I am not a person who makes friends hard, but I am a person who values friends.

Min Ah-rin is almost like a friend I made for the first time in my life.

Her relationship with her could be said to be especially precious.

Although I always hide my nerdy feelings and pretend to be cool, there were times when it comforted me to have a friend.

So I hesitated even more.

It will be a bit awkward if you reject all your wishes, but the worst can be prevented.

I don’t want to see Min Ah-rin disappointed, but it would be the best choice for me.

But I also felt weak.

Is it really the worst choice to inform my situation…… In a way

I wonder if maybe I can continue to maintain a healthy relationship with my circumstances.

The fact that such a conflict arose in my heart was surprising.

If it were me in the past, of course I would have chosen refusal.

If I tell my circumstances, I can get financial and psychological help.

Because I had a heart that I couldn’t live in the world with a weak heart like that.

Because I had faith that I could succeed alone.

It’s useless to be comforted by others, and I didn’t want to lose a friend because of money.

By the way.

“Then…”

“Ugh, huh?”

“I can show you the house.”

“Uh, uh…? Really?!”

“Just, as usual.”

“Uh…? What do you mean by that?”

“There’s something like that. Just treat it like normal when you see it.”

“No, it’s not that easy!”

Looking at how you put an end to such worries in a very short time and brought out such a sound without even realizing it.

Definitely. I feel like I’m too weak.

I don’t know how to live in the world with this mindset.

After all, when you become an adult, you have to work hard to die alone.

This is the moment when you think a lot.

It feels like a sense of regret for nothing.

What.

Seeing that Mina likes Lin so much, it doesn’t seem like she’s all that bad.

2.

Home sweet home.

Sweet Home here does not refer to the apartment I live in.

Of course…… It’s Han Seung-gi’s house!

I felt quite good.

When I became conscious of going to a man’s house, I felt strange, but anyway, going to a friend’s house was always fun.

Honestly, I thought I would be rejected.

Perhaps there would be no one at Han Seung-gi’s house at this time, but it would be burdensome for a high school girl to suddenly visit a place where a man is alone.

I’m not even dating Han Seung-gi…….

Dating…….

Oh, really. I feel strange for nothing because of what the tasting corner man said earlier.

Of course, Han Seung-gi is more handsome than most celebrities, kind, competent, and kind.

Sometimes when imagining making a boyfriend, Han Seung-gi comes to mind.

To be honest, I think I would be happier than anyone else if I were to marry a man like that.

I thought it would be a perfect life if I gave birth to a cute son who resembles him and lives on a comfortable island when I’m old.

Han Seunggi is my best friend, not my boyfriend!

No, I think the story is too leaky.

Anyway, Han Seung-gi’s expression looked somewhat serious.

To the point where I wonder what he’s worried about.

A serious expression that is hard to see normally.

But what?

It ended up like this.

We are on our way.

Han Seung-gi said earlier that his house would come from a 20-minute walk from the department store, and now about 15 minutes have passed.

By the way, if there’s something strange…….

No matter how much I looked around, it didn’t seem like Han Seung-gi’s house would come out.

We just entered a dingy neighborhood.

Even at a glance from the outside, the neighborhood looks unsafe, dirty, and not suitable for two students to come and go. The neighborhood is full of depression.

I’m fine, but I was worried about Han Seung-gi.

Even when I said to go back, Han Seung-gi did not bend his will, saying that he had to go here.

Isn’t he scary?

Knowing what would happen.

I was very uncomfortable with the neighborhood I entered that way.

Stray cats with no cuteness, torn garbage bags, that… Crazy, isn’t it sat?

Even if I walked 5 minutes from here, it didn’t seem like Han Seung-gi’s house would come out.

Maybe you live in an apartment…… Otherwise, he would be living in a detached house, but there didn’t seem to be anything like that around here.

I stuck closer to Han Seung-gi.

I can’t show Han Seung-gi something disgusting like that, so I try to cover it with my body as much as possible.

Of course, Han Seung-gi didn’t seem to care at all.

How can you be so aloof?

Even if it’s Han Seung-gi, it’s not a visual that a boy would feel casually like that.

“Han Seung-gi, aren’t you scared here?”

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“This neighborhood?”

“Oh, the security looks really bad… It looks like there are a lot of dirty things…”

“Well… Well, I’ve seen a lot of stuff like that.”

“Ugh… That’s great, really. I don’t think I could live here even if I paid to live here.”

“Puff… Is it?”

Han Seung-gi smiles a little, wondering what’s so interesting about it.

Well, I just wanted him to laugh.

Because he’s always expressionless.

“Ahh… That bug is crazy…”

“Hmm… Looks like a cockroach?”

“Wow… I’ve never seen cockroaches. How did they look like that?”

“That’s right.”

“I really don’t think I can live here. I have a weak stomach.”

Han Seung-gi gets fed up every time I say that.

I walked for 5 minutes watching that incomprehensible reaction.

His steps stopped in front of a shabby villa.

“Han Seung-gi? Why?”

The villa…… It just looks scary

The road to the basement was dark even during the day, and the visuals at the entrance were frightening.

However, Han Seung-gi moved his steps into it.

What is it?

Why are you doing this, kid?

“Han Seunggi… What’s wrong? Jiha why? What’s there? Hey…, It looks scary… Uh, go together! I knew something would happen! Ugh… Really, what does it look like. It’s so dark, really. Ah, The light turned on. Wow… What is this…”

I still followed Han Seung-gi.

I can’t send myself to a place that looks like this and then something bad will happen.

I don’t want to see Han Seung-gi go through something bad.

Anyway, with that thought in mind, I followed him.

“Hmm, Min Ah-rin.”

“Uh, huh? That… Let’s go up first! It looks a bit dangerous here…”

Clap-

“Clap?”

The only door in the basement.

It was opened by Han Seung-gi’s key.

“Um…”

“Uh…, Uh…?”

“This is my house.”

My mind went blank.

3.

Moldy visible in the nooks and crannies.

A faint musty smell.

I felt that the house was tidy and tidy, but the reason why it looks bad is probably because the house itself is old.

The bathroom, visible through the crack in the door, was also an incomprehensible structure.

Why is the toilet seat so high?

You have to take the stairs to use the toilet?

Something seems to be stuck to the window. What else is that?

And.

“Uh crazy…. Don’t, don’t! Crazy!”

“Lina, how are you? How many did you eat today? Three? You should be full.”

An incomprehensible sight.

Han Seung-gi picked up the hideous-looking money bug and put it into a barrel and blocked the entrance of the barrel.

“I’m not coming out anymore. Would you like to sit on the mattress over there? I’ll bring you some water.”

“Uh, yes…”

Of course, from the moment the door to this house was opened, there was nothing I could understand.

And.

I understand.

It was hard to stay sane.

Every time I looked at each house, my karma began to come to mind.

“Ah, Min Ah-rin. Let’s put the things we bought earlier in the refrigerator. Do you want to give them to me?”

The refrigerator that was opened like that looked like there was so much empty space.

I could understand why Han Seung-gi was so obsessed with lunch.

‘No, I’ve only been eating beef for a week…’ . It’s really too hard.’

‘Han Seung-gi, don’t you get bloated if you eat that much for lunch? I have to leave some.’

‘I went out to dinner with my family. He brought me to Fine Dining because my grades were good. It’s really all thanks to you.’

‘You don’t know yeoptteok? Really? Why haven’t you eaten? Well, personally, I didn’t like it because it was spicy.’

‘You bought that lunch yourself? And… Cooking is great… Uh… , Why is the visual of the lunchbox like that….’

Also, I was able to recall the words I had previously said one by one.

“Sit comfortably. It’s clean. I clean it every day.”

‘I: New robot vacuum cleaner. Isn’t it cute lol’

‘I told you that my shoes were missing, and my dad put them in a strange place while cleaning the room. Don’t you have those times too?’

‘I just want you to leave the cleaning to me. Thank you so much….’

The most unique part of this house.

No, the expression “Special” Is a bit strange, but anyway.

That there was no trace of the other person.

That only one person could be seen.

‘Sister is really… It’s really annoying.’

‘My mom said she got a business license or something this time.’

‘My father cares too much about me.’

‘I decided to go on a trip to Japan with my family this winter.’

I couldn’t find any books to study.

There didn’t seem to be enough space to study.

‘And… Where do you go to school is not it? Do you take tutoring?’

‘I bought a lot because they said it would be nice to solve a lot of problems…. What if you can’t solve the problem… Wouldn’t it be okay to throw it away?’

Every time I looked at every nook and cranny of the house, I remembered the things I had said.

I could also feel a terrible feeling whenever I remembered those lines.

A sense of wonder.

No, disgust beyond shame.

An aversion to oneself.

Thinking about it, it seems that there was quite a bit of evidence to notice the circumstances of Han Seung-gi’s family.

The extreme reaction to money was typical.

But let alone notice. I was spitting out words like that.

When Han Seung-gi was starving, I sent him a picture of the restaurant.

When Han Seung-gi slept in a space like this, I sent him a KakaoTalk message saying that it was cold when the air conditioner was turned on and hot when the heater was turned on.

What is a best friend? Do you even deserve to be called a friend?

I would rather not have known pain.

As if salting a person like that, as if deceiving him. Didn’t he say all sorts of things?

My hands were shaking.

Because it reminds me of the things I’ve done.

And, whenever I did something like that, it reminded me of Han Seung-gi, who laughed it off like it was nothing.

Because I imagined that feeling.

I’ve never felt so much guilt.

I was confident that I had always kept the line and never caused any special damage to others.

To me, these feelings are on a level I have never experienced before.

Ah. Come to think of it. Didn’t I break Han Seung-gi’s glasses?

Last time, I lamented my life with Han Seung-gi over a trivial matter.

I liked the reaction while rubbing my breasts against Han Seung-gi. What about the holy knowledge… Maybe it was.

My breathing quickened.

His heart beat fast, and he felt stuffy again.

I felt my body heat up.

My eyes started to shake.

“Min Ah-rin?”

“Ugh, yes.”

I couldn’t raise my head.

I didn’t have the courage to look at Han Seung-gi.

“Um… I’m sorry.”

“…Huh?”

What do you mean by that?

Why does the apple come out of his mouth first?

“I should have told you earlier, but this is a bit… I have something I want to hide.”

That’s right.

Come to think of it. Was it me who forcibly revealed what Han Seung-gi wanted to hide as a wish?

“Well… I live in a place like this.”

Please.

Now that I think about it again. Didn’t you say all kinds of things when you saw this town on your way back?

“Anyway… I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you earlier. It’s just, well, that’s right.”

I’m not one to take an apology.

It’s not okay for Han Seung-gi to apologize.

My mouth didn’t come off.

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