Male and Female Reversal High School Pure Love

72. Stress (2)

1.

The follow-up wasn’t a big deal.

Just. It’s to instill fear in them so that they won’t attack again.

All you have to do is pose a threat, either physically or mentally.

Anyway, after the late night follow-up, I returned home.

It seems that the follow-up measures had some effect.

Because later on, even if I opened my mouth, I would tremble.

You must have thought that she was a crazy b*tch and attacked you, right? Is there anyone in my neighborhood who isn’t crazy?

Besides, there are many cases where people from this town usually run at me without looking back. I am like that too.

A madman rushed at it, but it was just a ‘sloppy neighborhood resident 1’.

Food waste… , Threw it all in the trash. The barrel was broken, so it was thrown away on its own.

The trash can, which had fallen to the floor and was bleeding, looked just right for food waste.

Anyway, I kept thinking about it as I got home. It sure seems like the stress is building up faster than usual.

It seems that the memories of yesterday are embedded deeper than I thought.

The fact that this happens immediately after a happy experience makes it even more difficult.

And that’s it too. The incident just before has added a new stress to my life.

Thinking about it, if I hadn’t fallen into the gender reversal world, what happened just now wouldn’t have happened.

In the previous world, no one called me a boyfriend or anything, but the day would come when a man would suffer this kind of thing.

It’s the last days. Really.

More than any other time, I don’t like the reversal of men and women.

I told Gao that such things are common in my neighborhood, but it is also true that it is not a very pleasant experience.

It is a life that would have been full of annoyance even if I had just returned.

I worked hard until I died, and when I finally thought I could find stability, I came back out of the blue.

The money I saved up doesn’t even exist, I’ve returned to the town I barely escaped from, and the gender reversal is only a hindrance, let alone a help.

Regression doesn’t help anything.

I am doing my best to live the same life as back then.

It was like studying whenever I had time, and drawing a line from people around me.

I didn’t want to earn money and live my whole life as part-timer.

Because I have lived in such an environment, and I also have a talent for studying.

It may be a kind of compensation psychology, but I wanted to aim for a higher place.

That was my only goal in life with nothing.

At the same time, if anything went wrong on the day of the exam, it was also a life that would fall into a mess.

If you don’t have a scholarship, you can’t go to college, and when you become an adult, the petty support from your parents will stop.

Although it may be possible to combine part-time job and luck, it was unclear whether the result would be good.

Also, I thought it was useless to be friendly with people.

Isn’t Min Ah-rin a person from a very different world from me right now?

If I tried to climb up, wouldn’t it be time to go too far?

Life is about living alone, and my life was even more like that.

I had neither the time nor the reason to build friendships with anyone.

It was clear that I would be alone in the end anyway, and it was clear that if I made friends, they would leave me someday.

I’ve already sent a few people away like that.

The existence of Min Ah-rin adds complexity to that idea, but first of all, my thoughts were like this, and I never doubted this.

And what.

Do not draw pets?

Okay, now let’s be honest. It looks gross.

I never thought of her as cute.

It was all like self brainwashing.

I was conscious of that fact, but I tried to think of it as a cute pet.

It seems that it needed a living being next to it.

It’s more comfortable than human relations, and it won’t leave a big scar even if you let go.

Without management costs, easy to obtain.

Maybe…… Maybe you want to look a little different.

Maybe he was trying to reveal that he was a special person.

Isn’t there a scene like that in old movies?

A man who fell on an uninhabited island gave the name Wilson to a volleyball that was washed up by the waves.

It’s not a particularly good metaphor, but it feels similar.

It gave me a different feeling that there were bugs or something else in the house that moved besides me.

Anyway, my mind is complicated.

It feels like all the stress I’ve been building up to now is coming at once.

I opened the box of cigarettes, but all that remains is one cigarette.

I’d rather not smoke than to crack one.

I thought I bought a lot, but where did it all disappear?

It is said that bad things come in droves, but they don’t help even with trivial things like this.

I don’t have money left for cigarettes this month.

No, maybe it was a wrong choice from trying to relieve stress by drinking and smoking.

In the end, instead of disappearing, anger is coming all at once.

I dragged the mattress to the corner of the room, turned off the light, and covered my head with the blanket.

Although drinking and smoking might not have been a good option, I didn’t know how to relieve stress.

I still don’t know.

I just wondered if something would work out if I stayed like this.

I have to go to school again tomorrow.

Last time, there was a time when I thought that weekends were boring, and that weekdays were better.

Looking back like this, I realized that I had withdrawn a lot.

Boredom or something, why did I sit down feeling such useless emotions?

Should I just not go to school?

The thought of walking for 40 minutes makes me annoyed again.

To be honest, I don’t have the confidence to keep smiling like I usually do.

Really. What is this doing?

I just get tired of everything.

I hate both gender reversal and regression, so I hope they send it back to the old days.

2.

“Hey, that’s right. I saw Han Seung-gi the other day, right?”

“Where do you see him?”

“What’s the name of that place… It’s about 4 to 50 minutes away from here. Some kind of dog is running around in a beggar-like neighborhood.”

“A beggar town?”

“It’s so dingy, shabby, and weird people are walking around.”

“Why did you go there?”

“There’s a restaurant where seniors can drink.”

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Monday morning. The two men, one of the few bullies in the classroom, were gathering together and whispering about Han Seung-gi.

It wasn’t that nice words were exchanged.

“Isn’t he wrong?”

“Did I miss that?”

“I must have just passed by. Would he live in a place like that?”

“He was wearing a t-shirt and shorts? Slippers. And I saw him go into a villa.”

“Crazy, what? Really?”

The two, who had an inferiority complex to Han Seung-gi, quickly became excited.

The two men had little contact with Han Seung-gi.

It is safe to say that there was none at all.

However, Han Seung-gi stood out too much to just ignore and live as there was no point of contact.

They had an experience of stubbornly rejecting Min Ah-rin at the beginning of the semester.

After that, I kept looking for opportunities, but Han Seung-gi, who I thought was a common study bug, started getting closer with Min A-rin.

The relationship between the two was unusual for anyone to see.

Looking too close to be friends.

They were always hanging around.

I never stopped laughing.

It was quite unpleasant for the two bullies.

It was also a look that gnawed at my pride.

In the meantime, Han Seung-gi took off his glasses.

I could admit that I was pushed behind in my brain, but I felt that I was completely pushed out in terms of appearance and personality.

I even thought it was an objective fact, not a subjective judgment.

Since then, an inferiority complex welled up within them, and that inferiority complex turned into hatred for Han Seung-gi.

At first, it was only to the extent of talking behind my back when I was with friends, but those actions grew my hatred more, and recently it has developed to the point of deliberately slapping Han Seung-gi on the shoulder.

To them, it was so much fun to talk about this topic.

“You mean a beggar?”

“I heard that even beggars don’t live in that neighborhood these days?”

“Ha…. Did you always pretend to be proud?”

“I know it’s embarrassing. I’ve been hiding it.”

“hehehe… That’s right. I thought I was from a great family.”

They talked about the subject throughout school.

The more they gossiped about it, the more their hostile feelings towards the other person deepened, and by the end of school, they even began to say that Han Seung-gi was a slut who only approached Min Ah-rin from the upper class for money.

There were a lot of children from good families at school, so they were bullies who didn’t bother anyone and played together.

As soon as I found an object that would have no side effects even if I touched it at will, the desire that I had suppressed for so long began to leak out.

3.

I didn’t leave school with Min Ah-rin today.

I knew that she was very worried about me, but she just couldn’t afford to take it away.

I just felt like I needed some alone time.

There is no way to go back to the past anyway, but nothing will change just by frowning on your own.

After all, if you have to live here for the rest of your life, you have no choice but to work hard.

Life sucks, though. Well, it was like that before I came here.

It was just less f*cked up. Maybe it’s basically the same thing.

Since I changed my mind like this, the stress that was piled up for some reason.

… ….

It didn’t really go away.

It is still mentally difficult.

Because you have to brainwash yourself like this to survive even a little bit.

Anyway, I continued on my way.

I now have to walk another 25 minutes to get to my house, but worrying about that kind of thing makes it difficult for me alone.

It’s always best to be blank.

As I walked like that, I was able to spot a strange movement in an alleyway.

It wasn’t particularly human movement, and I was curious and entered the alleyway to see a cat biting a garbage bag.

Looking at the food right next to it, it looks like a cat mom’s blessing, why is it doing that?

I couldn’t understand the cat moms who invested so much money in that incomprehensible creature.

How much money do you have?

I watched the creature from a squatting position, then stood up.

It’s cute, but it didn’t spark much interest either.

And when I turned around to exit the alley.

I could feel that the saying that bad things come in droves was proven.

There are only two bullying male students in our class.

The two people whom I regarded as something like a natural monument were standing at the entrance of the alley, laughing.

At first glance, the atmosphere was not good.

Also, apart from the atmosphere, I’ve been feeling them knocking on me lately, and I’ve seen a lot of them looking at me and whispering among themselves.

I’m not sure, but maybe I went against their judgment somewhere.

I am not particularly interested.

Um.

I was clearing my head saying I would continue brainwashing myself.

How can stress never go away?

I wasn’t as angry as yesterday, but I wasn’t in a good mood.

Annoyed would be an appropriate word.

Life is so annoying these days.

That’s right, I’ve had a lot of fights like this, but it’s the first time two days in a row.

It’s okay to say that this is my own record.

4.

The two bullies could feel that they had endured a lot.

In middle school, I would harass and ostracize someone even if it bothered me a little, but I couldn’t play freely at this school.

There were too many upper-class children to bully anyone.

However, it felt like the things I had accumulated over the years were pouring out in front of me with a person who would have no problem even if I touched them at will.

They began to unleash their desire on the man in front of them.

The beginning was about Han Seung-gi’s residence.

I said it with the feeling that it would be embarrassing to live in such a neighborhood.

Looking at Han Seung-gi’s reaction, I was able to gain confidence in the information.

This person was a good person to touch.

Of course, their joy soon faded away.

A gentle man who was looking at the cat in the alley.

A schoolboy who always smiled and was kind to everyone.

The man, who had a good impression and seemed likely to shed tears at the slightest bullying, started approaching them.

And when the distance was completely close, they felt that Han Seung-gi was taller than them and felt uneasy for no reason.

Ignoring their menacing remarks, they instinctively pushed his body away.

“Can’t you hear me? How far the f*ck are you coming…”

There was still no change in Han Seung-gi’s expression.

He wasn’t the active man he usually shows.

“Ha… Why is life like this these days?”

The voice was like that too.

A low voice, devoid of vigor.

Han Seung-gi, who gave off such a strange atmosphere, started fiddling with his arms and then took out a white, square thing.

“What…, Should I report it… Uh…?”

“Report is… damn.”

When Han Seung-gi took a pack of cigarettes out of his arms.

When he put the last cigarette in his mouth and lit it.

As he inhaled and exhaled the cigarette deeply.

They could sense that something was wrong.

I could instinctively feel that everything Han Seung-gi usually showed was fake.