My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  I stood on the guardrail facing the wind, with my eyes wide open trying to find the reflection of the "City in the Sky" on the rippling river, but all I could see was the glitz of the city under the flashing neon lights.

  After waking up, I realized that I was so afraid of death, afraid of being submerged in the bottomless moat.

  I looked back at Mi Cai, but she looked so indifferent.

   "Are you really not going to persuade me?" I frowned and asked Mi Cai.

   "Why should I persuade you?"

   "But I will really die if I jump off!"

   "It was you who died, not me." Mi Cai said with an expression of neither surprise nor surprise.

  I jumped off the guardrail and said angrily, "I didn't misunderstand you at all. You are a poisonous woman. In order to achieve your own goals, you don't hesitate to let others die."

   "I have no purpose, it was you who said you wanted to jump into the river." Mi Cai still said calmly.

I became even angrier, pointed at Mi Cai and said, "Can you stop killing me so calmly?... I remember I called to ask you to persuade me not to dance. According to the script I set, You shouldn't be acting like this!"

   "When I came, you were lying like a dead person, and you couldn't jump in the first place. Why did you call me so much? Is it fun to play me?" Mi Cai's words finally showed anger.

  I was a little aggrieved, I would jump on impulse at that time, who knew that my life should not die, and suddenly the strength of alcohol rushed up and made me fall asleep.

I didn't know how to explain it to Mi Cai, and then I talked nonsense, saying: "I really want to jump the moat. When I was about to jump, I remembered that I still owe you more than 10,000 yuan. It doesn't matter if I die. But no one will pay you back the money, so I didn’t jump out of my heart, because I am a person with a conscience and a moral bottom line, and I will never do that kind of immoral thing that does not pay back the debt.”

   "It's really tragic!" Mi Cai looked at me and said with a half-smile.

"Is it really tragic, okay? You don't know how much I struggled at the time. On the one hand, I was relieved after death, and on the other hand, I was condemned by my conscience after the debt was not repaid. It was difficult to choose!...Of course, I made a difficult choice in the end. Keep the moral bottom line, so I am still alive." I said with an exaggerated expression.

   Mi Cai seemed unwilling to listen to my nonsense anymore, stood up from the ground, and was about to leave.

   "Wait a minute." I called out to Mi Cai.

   "What's the matter?" Mi Cai was already very impatient in her words, and put on the coat she just put on me.

   "Have you been sitting here watching over me since the afternoon?"

   "I came to collect your body, not to persuade you, so I came in the evening." Mi Cai said with her characteristic calmness.

   "Who are you bluffing, you come to collect my body and cover me with a coat?" I exposed Mi Cai's lie with a meaningful smile.

  Mi Cai looked back at me and said coldly: "There is always a thing covering the corpse to cover the remains, don't you know?"

I was speechless by what Mi Cai said, and I was just so stunned, my attention jumped out of the bickering with Mi Cai, so the alcohol that hadn't been fully digested began to stir up trouble in my body again, and I was dizzy for a while , followed by a strong sense of vomiting.

  I lay on the guardrail and vomited into the moat as if I had hollowed out myself. I drank too much wine at noon.

After vomiting, I sat down leaning against the guardrail as if collapsed, closed my eyes, and my mind became more and more clear, so the picture I experienced at the wedding of Fang Yuan and Yan Yan at noon reappeared in my mind, followed by a tear Pain like pain filled my body.

  At that moment, Xiang Chen helped Jian Wei put on the diamond and crystal necklace that symbolizes the token of love. How much I wanted to tell Jian Wei desperately: I want to go back to the past, the past where I rejoiced in silence, the past where there was love and affection...

  But there is never a past that I can go back to. I lost Jian Wei, and I can only watch her happy in other people's world forever!

  Amid the tearing pain, there was a warm feeling from the corner of my eye, and I seemed to be crying!

   It must not be me who is crying, it is the city in the sky who is crying, and she is using tears to break down the sadness in my heart.

   "You cried, wipe your tears."

  I opened my eyes, and it turned out that Mi Cai hadn’t left yet, and she handed me a tissue.

  I didn't go to pick up the tissue. It's better to let the wind dry the tears so that there won't be any traces.

  Mi Cai knelt down and looked at me, and finally asked in a soft tone, "Did I just say too much? I shouldn't laugh at you as a corpse."

  I was silent for a long time and whispered: "Actually, it has nothing to do with you. Even if it is really a corpse, it only hurts a little before death, but the pain of being alive is heart-piercing... Do you understand this feeling?"

  Mi Cai shook her head and said, "I don't understand. All I think about now is when you will move out of my house."

   "Are you bothering me that much?" I asked with a smile, tears seemed to have been dried.

   "Yes, your behavior really doesn't give me a good image, you are an out-and-out bastard!" Mi Cai said bluntly.

   "Really?... But you don't know, the **** in your eyes who has done all kinds of bad things once had a clean city in his heart!"

   "I don't quite understand what you're talking about."

   "You don't need to understand... because today this city has been separated from my body and has become a city in the sky that I will never be able to touch!"

  I lowered my head and fumbled for my pocket, but there was no cigarette for me to burn off my melancholy and mend my broken soul.

Mi Cai didn't say anything, she sat down beside me, and leaned against the guardrail behind her in the same posture, our surroundings became more and more quiet, as if isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city by night, a gust of night wind blew by, It blows out the equality of all beings and blows out the fireworks in the world!

  I saw a cigarette on the ground that I had only smoked halfway and then extinguished it. I picked it up and blew it and lit it again. The smell of tobacco permeated again and dissipated under the dim light...

  I finally said to Mi Cai: "I know you want me to go, I will move out, tomorrow."

   "Is it real this time?"

   "It's true... I lost even a city, do I still care about a house?..."

  Mi Cai seemed a little curious that I always mentioned that city, and she asked me: "What exactly does the sky city you mentioned look like?"

I thought for a while and said: "She is a city that is crystal clear but always silent. She has a magic power that makes people forget their troubles, pains, and glitz. When you live in it, nothing is important anymore. Because you will transform into a crystal clear bird, break through all constraints and shuttle in the free wind..."

   "But the bird will eventually land, will it still be crystal clear after landing?" Mi Cai looked at me and asked.

   "I don't know... because I haven't thought about what it will look like after landing."

  …

Maybe my poor appearance aroused Mi Cai's sympathy. This night, she didn't abandon me alone by the river. I drove to that bustling and somewhat illusory city in her car, and I had already made up my mind. After this night, I will move out from that old house. Anyway, my life won't be any worse. It's better to complete Mi Cai and give her a quiet life.

Along the way, we were silent. I understand this silence as Mi Cai is still dissatisfied that I have cheated on her several times today, and my current desolation and pity cannot completely extinguish the flame of her anger, and can bring me back from the suburbs. It's been very humane.

Back in the community where we lived, Mi Cai parked the car, and she and I walked towards the entrance of the corridor, but unexpectedly found that Dad was sitting on the steps of the entrance of the corridor, and beside him was the used dog. Decades old black briefcase.