My 26-year-old Female Tenant

Another 5 days passed in a blink of an eye, and I finally completed the handover of work. This was my last night in Xuzhou. I wanted to go home and say goodbye to my father and mother, but I never found the courage and courage to go home. The reason is that they are angry at the moment, and going back will not help except to cause trouble for them, so I am still huddled in the small hotel alone, drinking beer, tasting emptiness and loneliness.

Drinking, drinking, I became in a trance, and saw the guitar standing in the corner again in a trance, but this guitar was obviously given to me by Jian Wei, but the first thing that appeared in my mind was Yes: Not long ago I used this guitar to sing the song "The Proverbs of Love" for Mi Cai, she burst into tears, and I held her in my arms.

Thinking of Mi Cai, thinking of the fights we had several times because of that room, I finally smiled. I don’t know what kind of intersection we will have when I go back to Suzhou this time. I remember she said to me: If I go back, She is willing to let me live in that old house, I hope she will remember her promise, and then fulfill it.

I emptied myself and lay flat on the bed. After I don’t know how long it lasted, my cell phone rang. I thought it was a call, but it was just a text message. It was Li Xiaoyun who sent the text message. She said: Waiting for me at the coffee shop where we met for the first time, and emphasized that I don't have to go.

  I felt sorry for Li Xiaoyun, so I didn't think much, put on my coat, and rushed to the coffee shop where we met for the first time.

  …

  When we arrived at the coffee shop, everything was just like when we met for the first time. I raised my eyes to look for it, and Li Xiaoyun was still sitting in the same position as before, but I couldn’t laugh anymore, and just walked towards her with the heaviness of guilt.

  I sat down opposite Li Xiaoyun and looked at her, only to find that her face was so haggard.

  I was speechless and silent, Li Xiaoyun finally spoke to me and said: "Listen to Director Zhou, you have completed all the work handover today."

"Um."

  Pain appeared on Li Xiaoyun's face, and he was silent for a long time before asking me: "You should leave Xuzhou tomorrow, right?"

  I nodded and said, "Train at 2 o'clock tomorrow afternoon."

  Li Xiaoyun no longer looks at me, but stares blankly at the dead leaves rolled up by the cold wind outside the window...

   I don't know how long it took before Li Xiaoyun said in a low voice: "I heard that every time we bid farewell, a star will fall and die, but... even if it dies, it will turn into a shooting star, right?"

  I know that Li Xiaoyun compares herself to the falling star, but I don't know how gorgeous she will be at this parting moment.

Li Xiaoyun finally looked at me, and asked me with a complicated expression: "Zhaoyang, tell me truly, what kind of woman is worthy of you abandoning our relationship for marriage, you have to make me understand clearly , let me live my future life in a down-to-earth way.”

  It was difficult for me to define my relationship with Le Yao, and in the end I just said: "Friends, friends in need."

   "Is that all? Nothing really happened between the two of you?" Li Xiaoyun asked.

  Under Li Xiaoyun's questioning, I finally confessed, "Yes, I slept with her in the most decadent days of my life, but we didn't have any love between men and women."

   "I can't understand, but the relationship between us is over, and I don't want to pursue anything further. I just want an answer, and now you give it to me!" Li Xiaoyun said absently.

   "I'm sorry, Xiaoyun..."

   "There is no such thing as being sorry in a relationship. Being together or breaking up is your own choice. The only thing you are sorry for is our parents. We have failed their expectations."

  Li Xiaoyun was right, but I couldn't make up for it after all, so I continued to remain silent...

  In my silence, Li Xiaoyun unexpectedly asked me: "Zhaoyang, do you still remember the first time we met you borrowed money from me?"

"Um."

   "You are leaving now, shouldn't the two people who are about to be separated do not owe each other?"

"should."

   "Okay, now I will also borrow a thousand dollars from you."

  I said without thinking: "No problem." Then I took out 1,000 yuan from my wallet and handed it to Li Xiaoyun.

  Li Xiaoyun took the money from me, smiled and said to me: "But I will not return this money to you."

  I was thinking about why Li Xiaoyun made such a move, didn't he say that he owed nothing? Why don't you plan to give it back to me?

  But a woman's heart is sometimes as deep as the sea, and I couldn't figure out her purpose for doing this even after thinking hard.

   But Li Xiaoyun didn't intend to explain to me, but just put the money in his wallet, and then got up to leave.

   "Xiaoyun, you just said that even a falling meteor will be gorgeous for a while, what kind of splendor do you want? I'm willing to give it to you." I finally asked the back of Li Xiaoyun who had left.

"Zhaoyang, I don't want you to make up for anything... You have to know, not every meteor will be seen by people when it falls brilliantly... As long as I know it, it's enough to be gorgeous once... Take care!" Li Xiaoyun choked up After finishing speaking, I left the coffee shop alone without stopping. Through the floor-to-ceiling windows, I saw her walking in the crowd of people on the street, and was submerged in neon lights for a moment. I could never see her again. The relationship that led to marriage ended in the light and shadow of neon...

   Sighing heavily, I am a little bit sad, but it hurts even more!

  …

The next day, I took the train to Suzhou at 2 pm. No one saw me off, and I didn’t say goodbye to anyone. This seemingly simple departure made my days in Xuzhou seem like a simple one. I just stopped for a moment, but inadvertently dropped a stone in a river, so there was a beautiful mistake after a "wow", I think I will remember this beautiful mistake for a long, long time !

Finally, I arrived in Suzhou at 8:30 in the evening. When I left the train and stepped on this land I have been familiar with for a long time, I felt mixed feelings. Maybe my fate has really taken root in this wounded city. , After a dream, I finally came back, but I have no way of knowing what the future will look like. I hope, in this city that has made me full of holes, I can also find traces of happiness. I went to the restaurant in the empty city, because there are people I miss and music I miss, don’t get me wrong, the people I miss are just still in the same posture, with a cigarette in my hand and a glass of beer beside me, quiet singing her favorite song.

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