One Shots Collection By Samayra Akhtar

Do you know..... I always wait for this day. Every year I wait for this day. Every year I wait with the hope that may be this year would be different. May be this year I can do what I want. But.... it need happens. I am not blaming you for anything I know it's my fate. It's my destiny and you are not a part of it. May be it's good also. Because I have heard and even saw that the things that we don't have have great value in our life. I don't know if that would have happened or not. But you would be too valuable for me too lose even I I get you. But I know that will never happen.

We can never be together. And I have accepted that.

We have never celebrated birthdays together, neither yours nor mine. You don't know how much I wanted you to be with me on my birthday or how much I wanted to be by your side on yours.

You used to say that I am like a kid being excited for birthdays. But what you don't know is that I celebrate it with only those who are very very close to me. I don't want a lot of people on my birthday. I like to be alone and only want few special people to be around me. And you... you would never be excited for your birthday. But still.... you had so may people to celebrate it.

I sometimes get jealous.

Jealous? I shouldn't be, right? I know that. I know I should not be jealous but it really used to hurt. But you know what, I always celebrate your birthday.

Yes duffer, I do.

Do you remember the time when I said I want a cake? I didn't want the cake but you. I just wanted to be with you. I still remember how you brought the cake. Were you really thinking at that time that I wanted a cake? What should I say to you, stupid? That time was the first time I tried to speak to you. I mustered up the courage to ask you to come so that I can celebrate it with you. But you didn't come on that day. And you, like a stupid brought the cake on the next day. What would I have done with the cake that day? I even felt like strangling you to death. Hahahah.

Sometime I feel like you are too stupid but sometimes I feel like I am the stupid one.

I am the stupid one to have feelings for you. I am the stupid one to never express it. I am the stupid one to pray for your happiness. I am the stupid one to ignore my feelings and the pain for you. I am the stupid one to wish for being by your side forever despite of the pain. I am the stupid one to look forward to your wedding with the one whom you love.

I am.......

I thought I would be able to endure it. I'd be able to stay by your side. I'd be able to suppress my feelings. I'd be able to kill my feelings.

But I can't.

With the passing time, instead of fading away it kept on increasing. I constantly tried to persuade myself not to love you. Not to have feelings for you.

But I couldn't.

And now I couldn't bear the pain anymore. I couldn't stay by your side. I couldn't stay beside you witnessing your love for someone else.

I am tired.

I am tired of loving you endlessly. I am tired of ignoring my own feelings. I am tired of understanding your feelings and your conditions. I am tired of celebrating your birthdays alone. I am tired of this one sided love.

It's time to let go.

She finally descended from her train of thoughts. She saw the cake lying in front of her on a table. Her lips curved upward forming a smile on a tear drenched face.

"Happy Birthday my love. May you have all the joy in your life. May you get everything that you d.e.s.i.r.e and love. May you get success and happiness in whatever you do. May God remove all the hardsh.i.p.s from your life and make your journey of life easy. May God bless you with the Best."

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AUTHOR'S WORDS.

Thank you to all the readers to accompany me through the journey of this book.

Here is the end if this book.

I initially planned to write 10 stories in this book and I did though it took more than six months. But today I added this one story as well to express my gratitude for you all. Thank you for reading my work. I do welcome suggestions and you can point out my mistakes as well, if any.

I hope you enjoyed reading these stories.

Although all the stories are different there is one thing on common and that is love.

Love is very beautiful. But it is something that not everyone believes in. Those who have experienced it believes in it while this who haven't do not believe in love.

Everyone have different experiences in love but everyone's love is special.

Some are lucky enough to get their love reciprocates while some are not been loved back by their special someones.

At some point we also blame time because sometimes we are late either to enter in a particular person's life or to confess.

Sometime we are too afraid to confess. Sometime we fall for our friend or best friend and then decides to bury our feelings deep down in our hearts just because of the fear of losing friendship and that person.

Sometime we are too busy in loving someone that we don't realize someone else's love for us.

Sometime we let go of the people whom we love for their happiness but sometime we get selfish and refuse to let go.

Sometime we fall so deeply for a person that we can do anything for them or to protect them. We even become evil or bad to others for our love.

Sometime we feel hurt but still refuse to let go just because we love too much.

Love isn't planned. It just pop up in your life unexpectedly. At times you may not even realize that you are in love.

Falling in love is by chance but staying with them is by choice.

We may fall in love easily but staying with that person for the whole life is not easy. We have to go through thicks and thins together. We also have to compromise at times and even sacrifice when needed.

But what we do not have to do is letting go of the hand of our special ones when we decide to be with them. No matter how much it hurt, hold on and you will get through every difficulty walking hand-in-hand.

Keep loving!!!