One Shots Collection By Samayra Akhtar

He was looking at her continuously.

He met her at the first day of the college and today is the last day. He still can't stop looking at her. He is never satisfied. What else can he do also? He can only look at her. He can just look at her from far. He can just love her silently.

Why? Because she is also in deep love but not with him. She also loves someone. She also have someone who is most precious to her. She also have someone whom she looks at continuously. She also have someone for whom her love never decrease but only increase with each passing day. Each day she love him more than yesterday.

What about the guy whom she love? Luckily that guy also loves her. She is his Queen. He completes her although he himself is incomplete. But that is normal. No one is perfect and complete in this world. Everyone have some or the other imperfection.

Someone even said 'IMPERFECTION IS THE INDIVIDUALITY'

But they together complete each other. It is what everyone says. They are a match made in heaven. They are made for each other. They suit well with each other. These are all the words of praise that they listen from people around them.

But what about the guy who also loves her? Who looks at her with eyes full of affection, with eyes full of adoration. The same very eyes that also have tears when it sees her with someone else but he also have a heart that wish for her happiness.

It is not like his love is not true. His love is absolutely true. But there is also something that we people call destiny, fate.

It is not always possible to be destined with the person we love or love the person whom we are destined with.

I have seen many such cases in my life. You would be thinking who am I? I am a great personality in the eyes of people. They say I am talented and hardworking. They say I must have worked very hard to reach where I am today.

They are not wrong either. I have indeed worked very hard to reach here. It is not easy to have a double Ph.D title and so many degrees. They also say luck also played a huge role in my life. They say I am very lucky to have achieved so much. And they say it's not easy to handle a college as a Principal.

Yes. It is not easy to be a Principal. Not only because of the responsibilities but also seeing my students hurt.

It is not easy to see my students crying whether loudly to let everyone know or silently so that no one knows. It hurts me too.

Why? Because I have faced failures too. Although I have achieved so much but I have failed too whether in my academic or my life.

People say I am lucky. I don't know what luck is. If considering their train of thought that says 'I am Lucky because I have everything that I want', then I would say them that I am not Lucky.

All these things are not what I wanted to begin with. I didn't want to have so many degrees and be so professional.

What I wanted? I wanted to have a simple life. I wanted to be a good wife to my husband, a good daughter-in-law to my in-laws, a good mother to my children, more importantly I wanted to be a good daughter of my parents and a good sister.

But right now I am nothing of the above. I am just a well-educated, well-mannered and well-known professor and the Principal of a highly reputed college.

It's not like my marriage was a disaster, in fact I never married only. And my parents... they disowned me.

I was deeply in love with a person. I loved him since school days. We also were good friends. We spend most of the time together in school and even accompanied each other at home.

And between all these I fell in love with him. He was such a boy whom every girl would love. But he never loved any one. Many girls approached her and he rejected everyone.

I was happy because it gave me relief. Then when it was time to go to college he decided to go abroad. I asked him to stay but he insisted on going. He said that he worked so hard to go in that college.

What surprised me the most was the fact that he chose literature. I thought he would choose science too like me. I was too bad in literature but I also wanted to follow him. I asked my parents and they refused me. They said I am destroying my future and my life. But I got in an argument with them and my father said that he would disown me rather than sending me there to destroy my life. They were concerned about me and thought the threat would stop me.

But I decided to leave the house and follow him. It took me one year to save the money and get admission in the college in which he was there. We would not be in the same class but atleast we will be in the same college.

He was shocked to see me there. He knew I wasn't good in literature hence he showed concerned. But I lied to him, for the first time that I studied for the past year to come here.

I was happy but my happiness didn't last long. I noticed a girl who was always with him. One day I said him that how can he dare to make me new best friend. He assured that I am his only best friend. Then he said that the girl is his girlfriend and they are going to get engaged in few months.

I was shocked as hell. On asking him more about her I came to know that he likes her for too long. He came to this college for her and he would be settling in this country forever.

I wanted to yell at him, I wanted to confess my love but I just ran away. I cried alot.

Once I even thought of destroying their relationship but my heart can't hurt him. Afterall he was my only prized possession.

I wasted my 2 years in the college I didn't pass any exam. I left the college out of shame and started studying literature in other college. I wanted to atleast study what he liked.

I never contacted him again nor do I returned to my family. I involved myself completely in studies and found a job as a professor. Since then this college is my home and my life revolved around this college.

He became a famous writer and his wife, his love was a successful screenwriter.

I don't understand why I took those decisions back then but I never regretted anything because everything was my own choice.

This is my last piece of writing. I would be retiring tomorrow. I don't know what I'll do in my remaining years of life but I'll definitely survive.

I will miss this college and also the chances that destiny gave me to meet him in these years as fellow writers.

But I never let him know my feelings nor the reason why I became so aloof. I don't know whether he thought about me or not in these years or missed me or not. I just know that he was proud of me.

I don't know whether I should go to him now or not as his wife have already left for heaven.