Please let me love you again

Xing xi ya clashed her body from a cozy bed. The warm comforter on that bed was so fluffy and soft, the pillows were overwhelming, And the softness against her skin was unbelievable. She could just sleep on there for an whole day.

Short after.

Locked her hands over her stomach, eyes on the ceiling, she then blink her eyes for about four times on a slowly motion as if her mind was travelling into another world, locked her fingers down to her belly. She's in deep thoughts once again, neither more likely in dazed.

Hardy can't find herself and pull herself together.

She unguishingly glanced up at the decorative ceiling light, with branches for several light bulbs in front of her. As her lovely memories being with Li da wei, started to surpass through her mind, replaying how sweet and memorable it was.

Her eyes sudden drop a sorrowful tears, full of emptiness and despaired, she's been missing Li da wei for over and over again.

It's been a five year since being apart from his life. Xing xi ya couldn't help herself from remembering what Da wei said and did on that rainy night in order to stop her from leaving overseas. Her mind and guiltiness is torturing her every single night.

Her intention wasn't like that but life are challenging her, like it was full of hatred on her.

What she's been longing and desperately wanted to see was no other than his face, hear his soft and daring voice, feel his tender embraces and his warm touches. All she wanted right now was nothing but related to Li da wei.

As long as It's him.....

There's nothing she's wouldn't never willing to do.

A few minutes after.

Xing xi sat up on bed, and then tightly wrapped her arms around her knees. Trying to hold back the seething pain aching inside her heart, as she slowly rubbed her arms to at least help her fight the tears back.

Somehow the pain felt like, someone was heartlessly stabbing her heart and not showing any humanities, her mind were cruelly shouting through her mind. Her hands begin to tremble, while covering her face with that shaking hands.

Sobbing noisily while weeping the bitter tears away. Xing xi ya failed to endured the loneliness along with the unbearable pain.

She's yearning to see him again, her body curl up pathetically, hugging herself from remembering him, while the tears continued to fall, down to her cheeks.

It was totally suffocating to her, that she can't undergo it, no matter what she did to resist her personal feelings.

There is no a single moment, when she don't think of him.

Cried and let out the pain until her tears become dry and all vanished.

Furthermore at the same moment someone suddenly doorbell through her door. Xing xi ya raised her head, rubbing her both eyes as she quickly took a peek at the clock.