Polar Night Player

I have to say sorry first.

On June 9, 19, shortly after "Witch’s Tavern" was blocked, I opened this "Player of the Night". It was originally influenced by "The King of Eternal Night" and "Kabaneri of the Iron City". Two versions, including the one posted in Witch, also have a world view that I remember similar to the Iron City.

In short, at the beginning of writing, I was confident and passionate. Even though the results of recommendation and listing were not good, I still insisted on writing. Afterwards, there was no improvement, and I still wrote very seriously.

But on the night of December 30, 2020, everything fell apart.

I don't know what's going on, so I can only write it here. I hope everyone will take a warning.

That night, as usual, I read the novel until one o’clock in the morning. Because I was thirsty, I drank a bottle of Dongpeng’s special drink. Then I rested. I felt hot and sweaty, excited, and my heartbeat was extremely fast. I felt a sense of dying. Chatting with friends until dawn, I couldn't stand up after getting up at 7 o'clock and went to the hospital in my town for an examination.

In the end, there was no major problem, but sinus tachycardia, so I prescribed Betaloc.

Then the nightmare came.

From that time on, I always felt that my heart beats fast. I used mobile phones and instruments to measure my heart rate crazily. I felt that the hospital in the town had a wrong diagnosis.

It lasted until January 4th, and my update became very unstable. I couldn't calm down to do anything, but there was no problem of insomnia at that time.

I returned to Hangzhou on the evening of the 4th, and then suffered another night of insomnia on the evening of the 5th. On the morning of the 6th, I couldn't help but ran to a tertiary hospital for examination.

On the 6th, 7th, and 8th days, I checked many items and finally diagnosed that there was no problem. Because of insomnia and anxiety, I went to the psychiatric department.

The doctor didn't listen very much, so he asked me to make a self-assessment form for severe depressive symptoms, moderate anxiety symptoms, and then I prescribed the medicine, and did not say the diagnosis or what the situation was.

Going home on the 8th night, considering that there is no problem with the heart, I took a sleep aid. It was indeed effective. I only woke up at 8 the next day. So I considered taking the anti-anxiety drug Deanxit prescribed by the doctor and took a tablet at noon. At night, I took sleeping pills and fell asleep.

But the next day, I obviously felt dementia, the mood swings disappeared, and I was confused. Because there were relatives in the family who were sick, I said that psychotropic drugs had great side effects. I felt that my condition was not serious, but only for a few days, so I stopped the medication. , Do not dare to continue taking sleep aids, worrying about addiction.

Later, he was tortured by insomnia for 4 consecutive days, and he was very thin.

Since then I began to reflect on my past life, especially when I was full-time for a year and a half. I only wrote about extreme nights, no money, a very bad life, unhealthy, a bottle of Coke every day, staying up all night and not exercising, I felt that my physique was already extremely good. difference.

Therefore, I planned to find a job and went to another psychiatric hospital at the same time. The doctor told me that this condition was relatively mild and I didn't need to take medicine, just physical therapy + self-regulation.

After a week of work, he recovered significantly and his sleep state also changed. Later, because of a successful interview for his favorite job in Shanghai, he resigned from this job.

After resigning, I was restless all day long on January 26. My heart jumped to 170+ while playing games. I was frightened and took medicine. The next day I went to the top three to see an expert. The expert said that I checked it half a month ago and there should be nothing. Sudden disease, unless it is paroxysmal supraventricular tachycardia, but as long as it is not frequent, surgery and treatment are not required, and it has no effect on life.

After returning home, I started to suffer for a long time. I felt that I must have a heart problem, and I always had various symptoms. I couldn't handle it on January 30, so I went back to my hometown first.

Since I am at home, I go to bed early every day, start at 8:30, have a stable meal plan, do not smoke, drink, drink, eat fruits and vegetables, keep exercising or walking and jogging occasionally. The body does have some improvement, but the key problems are still not there. solve.

I feel anxious, irritable, and restless in everything I do now.

Now I feel that I’m panting at every turn, walking up and down the stairs, and the most obvious is talking for a long time (talking to my parents for more than an hour, I have a feeling of breathlessness, but my heart rate has always been 70 to 80 normal) Later, because of pharyngitis and bronchitis, I was worried that it had deteriorated to COPD (although the possibility is very small).

In this state, the late stage of the polar night had to speed up to end. I originally wanted to write about the extras of many characters, but I couldn't keep it going. I'm sorry, I'm extremely sorry.

Have a chance to make it up later.

I will go back to Hangzhou tonight and check my lung function tomorrow, so that I am completely relieved. It is not COPD.

If everything is in order, I will start to work on the 23rd, and I won’t use this number for writing books afterwards. The new book preview will say in the group, and there is no guarantee when it will be opened.

Some friends also said that I have hypochondriasis+anxiety+depression, but it shouldn't be serious, and it is not recommended to take medicine.

The most distressing part is that these things have severely affected my daily life. I have no motivation or passion to do anything. I am worried all day and I am worried about death at any time.

What's ridiculous is that this kind of emotion can't be adjusted, it has never been before.

If I really have any incurable disease, you can only see you again.

If I am indeed out of control due to hypochondriasis or anxiety, I will try my best to adjust in the first half of this year and then return to normal.

In addition, patients who have the same experience can join a group chat. If there is a good treatment method, recommended by a doctor or hospital, you are also welcome to come into the group to chat with me privately.

The group is still the one hanging in the Jiye introduction.

This is the end of the polar night player.

——Wow Anduin, 2021.02.18, 11:40:15

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