Possessed an Academy Security Guard

57 – 057. The emotions of the three

Kang Ha-neul and Ji Ye-won fell for me. Ahn Su-ho’s judgment was exactly half right.

Ji Ye-won and Kang Ha-neul. It was true that the two had feelings for Ahn Su-ho as members of the opposite s*x, commonly referred to as romantic feelings. Regardless of how much the total amount of those emotions is. Nevertheless, the reason why Ahn Su-ho’s judgment was only half right was because the two had not yet realized their feelings.

…… At least until the point he thought so.

“…… Senior. I’m sick to my stomach for a while, so can I ask you to serve table 17 instead?”

“Huh? Uh oh yeah But my complexion is not very good. Are you okay?”

“Yes. Are you okay. I’ll be back for a while.”

Ji Ye-won, who entrusted the table on the side of An Su-ho to her part-time job senior, went straight to the bathroom. As soon as she entered her innermost compartment, she let out a deep sigh.

‘…… Why do I feel this way?’

Ji Ye-won made a confused expression while sitting on the toilet seat cover. She squeezed her collar tightly as if she was frustrated by her unknown emotions that swirled in her heart.

The beginning of that feeling was when I saw Kang Ha-neul next to Ahn Su-ho.

That stuffy feeling, as if someone had squeezed his heart, quickly grew in size the more I looked at the two of them.

When I saw two people talking warmly.

When I saw Kang Ha-neul emphasizing his relationship with Ahn Soo-ho while talking about dating.

When she heard the friendly title “Oppa” That came out of her mouth naturally.

And she shows blatant antipathy towards herself, when confronted by Kang Ha-neul, who acts as if she is An Su-ho’s girlfriend.

In every moment, Ji Ye-won felt an unknown emotion tightening her chest.

It was annoying. She was also angry. It was a feeling of disappointment, a sense of shame, a sense of sadness, and bitterness.

Ji Ye-won did not notice at all that it was her jealousy caused by her love feelings that she was not even aware of that tied all of her complex feelings together.

She

She was frustrated because she didn’t notice.

She

She was frustrated and sharpened her edge against her guest, against her river sky.

Even if you didn’t notice, that feeling didn’t go anywhere. Her enmity toward Kang Ha-neul, which stemmed from her jealousy, was evident in her actions and tone of voice.

She openly expressed her dislike for Kang Ha-neul. She deliberately threw up on her words. She desperately appealed that she was closer to An Su-ho than she was.

Her usual childish and naive behavior that she would never do.

She didn’t even know why she was behaving the way she did.

She didn’t know.

‘It feels like I’m looking at an obsessive girlfriend.’

Until I heard those words that Ahn Su-ho threw as a joke.

The moment she heard that, her cheeks burned. Even without looking in the mirror, she could feel her face flushed red.

Should you? Yeah, it was a shame. But that wasn’t all. The joy, the relief, the anticipation, the happiness that I felt softly in her burning embarrassment, such a feeling of happiness, she left the place and locked herself in the bathroom like this, as if she was running away from unfamiliarity.

She muttered through her confused eyes as she locked herself in, cooling her hot cheeks with her hands.

“I can’t believe I…… ?”

I wonder if I like Ahn Soo-ho.

She immediately shook her head at the question that popped into her mind for a moment.

Although he had a crush on Ahn Su-ho, it was a human-to-human goodwill. It was a favor expressing gratitude to the benefactor who saved his life.

The day I moved next door to Ahn Su-ho. The day I met him for the first time as Ye Ji-won. The day I cried in front of him, pouring out the emotions I had accumulated inside.

He said that his feelings toward Ahn Su-ho were human kindness. Obviously that was the conclusion that day.

– Pounding. Pounding. Pounding.

Why on earth does this heartbeat only speed up?

The small feelings of love that I had not been aware of until now started to increase in size explosively the moment I became aware of it.

It wasn’t too much. Even if the nature of crush is different, crush is like. It would not be strange if a small feeling of love became a catalyst, and the good feelings accumulated over the years gradually turned into romance.

She hadn’t noticed the love affair that had grown in size before she knew it.

‘No. It can’t be. You can’t.’

Although she was aware of it, Ji Ye-won struggled to suppress the love feelings that were creeping up. She begged me not to lift her head, pressing her down.

‘What does love mean in my current situation.’

Ji Yewon saw her own hair dyed her light ash gray color.

I saw the name Ye Ji-won written on the name tag on her chest.

Min Chae-ryeong recalled the escape prevention microchip inserted somewhere in her neck.

…… And she remembered her own friend, Kim Min-a, whom she didn’t know was dead or alive.

-Kwook.

She grabbed her chest by the collar and chewed on her lips with a painful expression.

I was released from the safe house on the condition that I become Min Chaeryeong’s chess piece. She didn’t really want her own freedom. Her purpose was to rescue her only friend, Kim Min-ah, who was captured by her Dawning Corps.

This disguised life she is leading now was also for her purpose. She spent most of her day searching for Kim Min-ah, except for working hours to earn a minimum living expenses.

But what does love mean in such a life? Her most precious friend may be suffering at the hands of the organization even at this moment, but it makes sense for her to feel comfortable holding her love in her heart.

Because of this, Ji Ye-Won tried hard to suppress her love to raise her head. She suppressed and shook her head desperately.

She said that this feeling she harbors is an illusion. It’s just a confusion between gratitude and love.

She says she doesn’t like Ahn Su-ho.

She’s only been dating him for a month now, but does it make sense that she fell in love in such a short time? So, these feelings are all lies, illusions, and misunderstandings.

I have repeated that many times.

– Pounding. Pounding. Pounding.

My heart, which was beating non-stop at the emotion I once realized, showed no sign of calming down.

“Haa… ….”

Her sighs mixed with sighs echoed in the bathroom.

Meanwhile, at that time. Kang Ha-neul, sitting across from Ahn Su-ho, was eating food in awkward silence.

Kang Ha-neul, who gently raised his head, looked at Ahn Su-ho.

A normal face that can be found anywhere. Still, the height is barely over 180, and the shoulders are moderately wide. It’s never falling apart, but it’s not naturally handsome enough to attract attention, if it’s normal, it’s a normal appearance.

Nevertheless, when I look at him, I can see that a smile naturally draws on my lips, so I have a feeling that I like this man.

Suddenly thinking that way, Kang Ha-neul smiled broadly.

Unlike Ji Ye-won, Kang Ha-neul readily admitted her love feelings for Ahn Su-ho. When Ahn Su-ho joked that you were my girlfriend, she recognized her love affair with him in the feeling of her warm embrace. Although she was spitting out her mouth, in fact she didn’t feel bad. She was rather good When she became his girlfriend, she imagined herself, and in that imagination, she even shed a smile at her vague sense of happiness.

I want to get close to Ahn Soo-ho. Want to stay close

I’ve been vaguely thinking about that lately. She just thought she literally wanted to be friends. So she deliberately risked her shame and approached him kindly. I never expected that her desire was driven by love, but now I know for sure. She noticed, so it was.

It has only been 15 days since I met Ahn Su-ho. But what does the period of time have to do with romance? Even if you meet someone for the first time today, isn’t it possible that your heart can go.

In this part, Kang Ha-neul was frank with her feelings to the extent of being cool. She, like her Ji Ye-won, did not try to deny herself how she felt. Rather, she was glad of the feeling she had just noticed. The unknown attraction towards Ahn Soo-ho, she must have been because her desire to be friendly with him liked him as a member of the opposite s*x. Thinking that way, it seemed that the stuffiness that had been sitting in my chest implicitly disappeared as if it had been washed away.

‘Yes. There’s nothing strange about me liking Suho oppa.’

Kang Ha-neul looked at Ahn Su-ho. She was said to have a normal appearance a little while ago, but seeing it again, she seemed quite handsome as well. She wondered if she was covered with bean pods. No, she was just fine. The reason she fell in love with the man in front of her was probably not because of her looks.

The man in front of him, Ahn Su-ho, is the lifesaver who saved his life.

If that’s all that’s the case, you can just pass it off as a member of the guard, that’s his job.

But even after that, he continued to worry about his safety.

He was worried that even the guards he belonged to might be in danger, telling him not to trust them.

The appearance of being considerate and caring about yourself who couldn’t adapt to the academy, but not expressing it.

Most of all, the desperate look he showed on the day he saved himself as he attacked the enemy, refusing even to die.

As a woman, isn’t it a look that you can fall in love with?

Kang Haneul thought so and smiled all over her face. The food in front of her had already taken a back seat. With this strange feeling of satisfaction and happiness that wrapped around his chest, Kang Ha-neul felt comfortable as if he were lying on a grassy field bathed in warm sunlight.

“… What are you laughing at?”

“Just like that. Do you like seeing him eat well?”

Ahn Soo-ho shyly avoided looking at Kang Ha-neul’s answer. That gaze went far away, toward the counter where the staff came and went.

Kang Ha-neul could tell at once who that gaze was looking for.

“Do you care about that person?”

“Huh? Uh uh right what…….”

“Is it because of me? Sorry. I was a bit rude to that Ye Ji-won, right?”

Ahn Soo-ho, unable to find words to answer, only moved his lips awkwardly. Kang Ha-neul, who was watching him, asked a small question.

“Brother. You really have nothing to do with him, do you?”

“I told you several times I was just a neighbor.”

“For a neighbor, you seem very friendly. I heard you ate together, went to the market together, and went to the bathroom together?”

“That… ….”

Ahn Su-ho frowned as if it was difficult to explain. Kang Ha-neul stared at him like that. As if prompting for an answer.

“It just happened. It’s not what you think, so don’t get me wrong.”

“What do I think of that?”

“Something like Ye Ji-won being my girlfriend, or that I slept with her. Anyway, that’s not all.”

It was an unexpectedly obvious denial, but Kang Ha-neul still had a dissatisfied expression.

She also had something to notice. I recognized at once that Ahn Su-ho and Ji Ye-won were not in a normal relationship. In the first place, it’s not a girlfriend or a s*x friend, but what the hell is it between entering the bathroom together.

Kang Ha-neul wanted An Su-ho to tell the details. She instinctively sensed that it would not happen to him.

Even if you ask me every question, I will never give you an answer. Rather, that obsessive question might incur his resentment.

Hanging his chin, Kang Ha-neul let out a small sigh. It was complicated in my head, but I decided to keep it simple. Not a girlfriend or anything. If that statement is true, that is it. At least, for now.

“…… Me, brother You know the joke my brother made earlier.”

The river sky licked his lips and called to him. Suddenly, a slight blush appeared on his cheeks.

“Are you kidding?”

“It was like an obsessive girlfriend or something.”

Ahn Suho’s expression hardened at those words. It had to be. He hadn’t decided yet how to deal with Kang Ha-neul’s love affair.

“It was just a joke. I don’t care much about-“

“Actually, that joke wasn’t too bad.”

“What?”

“On the contrary, I think I was a little, a little bit happy.”

However, as if he would not care about Ahn Su-ho’s circumstances, Kang Ha-neul quietly took a step forward.

“It’s just like that.”

A small step.

A metaphorical step.

It’s not an obvious expression of intention, but it’s a step that Ahn Su-ho can easily understand the meaning behind.

Kang Ha-neul, who had taken that step, turned his head away in embarrassment. However, only that gaze was clearly directed at Ahn Soo-ho.

“…… Okay?”

Ahn Su-ho only smiled at the message that Kang Ha-neul implicitly threw. An ambiguous smile that can neither be seen as positive nor negative.

It may seem like an indecisive attitude at first glance, but in fact it was a consideration for Kang Ha-neul. A single word he casually said or a gesture he casually spilled could hurt Kang Ha-neul.

‘If I show an attitude like I like Kang Ha-neul… ….’

If Kang Ha-neul had feelings for her, if that was just an expression of her love, and if she responded to her feelings.

His relationship with Kang Ha-neul will become stronger. She wanted to have a deep relationship with her, something she hadn’t hoped for on his part.

However, Ahn Suho could not act hastily. He didn’t want to act.

Her predecessor would have concocted his own attitude to embrace the river sky without her hesitation. She must have had no qualms about using her feelings for her own gain.

It wasn’t just Kang Ha-neul, it was the same for Ji Ye-won. It would be nice if the two of you had a crush on yourself, or at least that unreasonable feeling. For the sake of the future, in order to use it usefully in future developments, I will use the feelings of the two as much as I can.

If he had just been possessed, he would have thought and acted that way without hesitation.

Anyway, these are just characters in a novel. Because I thought so.

But now?

Kang Ha-neul laughs, cries, rejoices, grieves, rejoices, gets depressed, gets angry, gets annoyed, feels sorry, feels ashamed, and appreciates whenever he encounters him. To. Ji Ye-won’s appearance.

He felt keenly that the perception that he had always harbored since the first day of being possessed, that ‘this world is nothing but a novel’, was gradually faltering.

When you think rationally, when you think rationally, it’s a very reasonable decision to use the love between two people.

However, as soon as she made up her mind to act like that in pursuit of her rationality, a stinging feeling of uneasiness came to a corner of her heart. He was a so-called scoundrel.

‘No matter how much they are based on novels, if this world is a real world, aren’t these two real people too? It is wrong to try to exploit that feeling without being able to give it a true answer.’

Unlike Kang Ha-neul or Ji Ye-won, Ahn Su-ho did not have feelings for the two yet. His heart was not at ease enough to harbor such soft feelings. In the meantime, he thought it was not right to give room to exploit the feelings of the two.

…… I thought about it, but at the same time I also thought of this.

‘Anyway, it’s a world in a novel, a character in a novel. The most important thing for me is to return to the original world. For that goal, I have to use whatever is available.’

Ahn Su-ho’s head was extremely complicated at the sudden situation that came before his eyes. Two conflicting opinions ran through his mind.

The one who only pursues rationality for return, and the one who puts forward the conscience and morals that an ordinary person must have. Those two values constantly tossed and turned in my head.

That’s why Ahn Suho had no choice but to show an ambiguous reaction here.

That ambiguous smile, the answer that was neither positive nor negative, was for Kang Ha-neul, but at the same time it was for himself.

“… ….”

Although Kang Ha-neul was unaware of such circumstances, he could tell that Ahn Su-ho was deeply concerned about how to respond to his words.

“Ehehehe. What are you making such a serious face on? I was just joking.”

That’s why I purposely said that to lighten the mood.

If he didn’t say that, I thought that Ahn Soo-ho, who had finished his troubles, would express a clear refusal to a confession that was not his own.

As if running away in fear of that possibility, Kang Ha-neul said that.

“…… Okay? What else do I say?”

And Ahn Su-ho also jumped on Kang Ha-neul’s horse as if he were running away. An awkward laugh flowed between the two.

Afterwards, the two of them left the store after eating and talking normally. Ji Ye-won did not appear in front of the two until the end. Eventually, even after the two broke up and Ahn Su-ho went home, Ji Ye-won did not appear in front of Ahn Su-ho, despite saying that he would definitely come.

The incident of the day, in which the emotions of the three people were complicatedly entangled, ended in a hazy way. Kang Ha-neul, Ji Ye-won, and Ahn Su-ho also needed time to organize their thoughts.

After the weekend, it’s finally Monday.

The morning of the day of the 1-minute dungeon exploration practice was bright.