Rebirth at the end of seventy: my life I make the decision

In the lively wedding banquet hall, looking at the smiling niece on the stage, I didn't know what it was like. One cup after another. Before long, most of a bottle of red wine fell into my stomach. I knew that the envy in my heart had risen to jealousy, and even gave birth to a feeling called hate.

I have no children myself. After Fangyuan was born, I once brought Fangyuan twice for my brother and sister-in-law who was busy asking Fang Cheng for medicine, but I really don't like this niece with cleft lip in her life. It's not just because of her cleft lip, but I don't like it anyway.

But whether I like it or not, the ugly duckling, who was born with a cleft lip problem, is now a beautiful white swan.

Take another look at Xie Jue standing next to her eldest brother. In those years, she was haggard because she was unable to bear children due to illness. She finally asked for a pair of dragon and Phoenix twins, but none of them was healthy. Almost the whole person was crushed. But now, she is standing on the stage with a radiant face, surrounded by a beautiful daughter and a handsome son-in-law.

But what about me?

Once I had an enviable job and a husband who was deeply loved by my loyal dog.

Now, although I still work, it has long been no longer an enviable career, and the man named Li Rui, who once said he would love me and take care of me all his life, has long become someone else's husband and father!

When I think of Li Rui, I always think of his kindness to me, but I hate his ruthless love for me.

I know that when two people quarrel, I shouldn't ask for divorce, but it's just my impulse. I just want him to pay more attention to me, love me more, and spend more time with me, but he doesn't understand the truth that there are no good words during the quarrel, and he really divorced me!

I thought he left everything in his house savings to me in order to give him an excuse to go home again, but I didn't expect that he would never go back.

It's really hard to live without him. Before going to college, my mother never let me do housework. After I established a relationship with Li Rui, I almost didn't touch the spring water.

Li Rui does all the shopping, cooking, laundry and mopping. He even cleans my underwear. When love is strong, Li Rui once said that as long as I am responsible, I am as beautiful as flowers.

Because there are no children, our home is quieter than others. Without Li Rui, my home is particularly lonely. At night, I dare not turn off the lights to sleep. In the first few days, I turned on all the lights in my home and listened to the movement outside. Even if there is only a gentle step, I think Li Rui has come back.

But one day, two days, ten days and a half months, Li Rui disappeared from my life, even from the city, and never appeared in front of me again.

I went crazy looking for him everywhere, but there was no reply to his pager. I called his unit and even went to his office in person. The result was the same. He asked for leave, and it was still a long leave.

I was angry and anxious. In the next three months, the only thing I did except work was to find him. I searched almost all the places and friends' homes I could think of, but Li Rui seemed to disappear from this world.

The light at home is broken and the gas is used up. No one will replace it for me.

Because the utilities were not paid on time, the water and electricity were cut off at home, and even the telephone contact with the outside world was cut off because of arrears.

It's not that I don't have money. Li Rui left all the money to me when he left. Even if I don't work for several years, it's enough for me to live. But originally, these payment things were done by Li Rui. Looking at all kinds of payment cards neatly placed in the drawer, I don't even know where to pay!

If my brother hadn't contacted me for a few days, I wouldn't know how long I could live in this home without electricity, water and telephone.

That day, my eldest brother was very angry. He opened all the doors and windows at home to breathe. He lost his temper with me. Finally, he was patient and taught me how to do housework. He also took me personally to pay all kinds of fees, reopened the water and electricity telephone here, and went to the gas station to change the gas. Finally, I used the electricity and drank hot water.

Nevertheless, I'm still angry with my eldest brother. He preaches to me that I have no problem, but why does he compare me with Wang Xiuying? Wang Xiuying is so good. Why doesn't my eldest brother marry someone home and have to marry someone who can't lay eggs?!

However, I didn't dare to say such words in the end. I'm not afraid of big brother's anger, but I'm afraid that such words will reach the ears of the man Wang Xiuying. I'll suffer a loss again. That man is really frightening.

At that time, I just liked him. In addition, I wanted to get the opportunity to stay in the capital through him. I used some small means with my mother, but I didn't expect that not only my eldest brother had to go away to Tibet, but I was almost recorded by the school for a minor matter.

Although I have no evidence to prove that the demerit I almost recorded was written by Li Longyue, the time is too coincidental. I don't doubt it. If my brother didn't immediately make a decision to ask for help, the record of this demerit would be properly left in my file bag.

Think of these I hate!

I hate that Li youyue doesn't understand the amorous feelings and doesn't give a trace of affection, but I hate Wang Xiuying more.

In those days, I was better than her, but she fought with me everywhere. Wang Xiuying, why should she? But a little orphan without her parents, she was so lonely that she thought she could make a few money and regarded herself as a nine day Xuannv!

Those people on the stage were really dazzling. I took back my eyes, picked up the wine glass on the table and drank it in one gulp. My misty eyes swept through the hall. Suddenly, several figures passing in front of the hall deeply attracted my eyes.

Who is not Li Rui who is talking and laughing with others?

I stood up and ran out, but the old woman sitting next to me reached out and grabbed my clothes: "where are you going? Don't look for trouble, be careful your big brother turns his face!"

As I pulled my clothes out of my mother's hand, I said, "who said I wanted to find something? Suddenly I think of something and need to do it quickly. I won't come back. You'll go back later."

But because of such a delay, when I got out of the hall, I couldn't see the familiar figure. I pulled a waiter standing outside the hall and finally asked the whereabouts of Li Rui and his party.

It turned out that he had dinner on the third floor of the hotel tonight. Now he was finished and ready to leave.

I hurried downstairs and just saw his back ready to get into the taxi. In my heart, I stepped empty and rolled down the stairs. Fortunately, the stairs only saved the last few steps, otherwise I had to break my head and bleed.

When I was picked up from the ground, Li Rui was nowhere to be found outside the hotel. Even the people who walked with Li Rui disappeared.

I thought about it. Although I haven't been in touch with those people who had dinner with Li Rui for many years, I know them all, because they are my old classmates from primary school, junior middle school to senior high school.

I know they all have their own cars. Since they didn't take a taxi, they must have come in their own cars. As long as I catch up in time, I can stop them in the parking lot.

As long as I stop any one of them, I hope to get Li Rui's phone number. Even if they don't tell me Li Rui's phone number, I can find out some information about Li Rui through innuendo, and then find out the hotel where Li Rui lives.

I know Li Rui now has a family, a wife and a son, but why does he have a wife and a son and live so happy, but I can only die alone?!

If Li Rui hadn't been able to control his lower body, could I lose my ability to be a mother again and again?

Li Ruiren is in the capital. I can't take him. Now he can't help him in H city!

I got rid of the nagging hotel attendant who helped me up and limped to the parking lot in high heels.

Although the pain from my foot tells me that my foot should be sprained, I can't care so much. It seems that a mysterious voice has been reminding me that if I can't meet Li Rui today, I may really miss him forever in my life. I'm not reconciled!

But before I limped to the parking lot, I saw several cars roaring out of the parking lot.

I looked at these roaring cars with tears. I knew in my heart that these cars belonged to my old classmates, because I knew all the people driving!

At this time, I knew that if I missed it, I would miss it. There was no chance between me and Li Rui.

I squatted in the shadow, covered my face and cried. It was useless for anyone to come and persuade me. I cried for nearly half an hour and finally managed to calm myself down.

Stand up, dry your tears, turn back and quietly look at the still brightly lit hotel. There are cheers on the second floor. I know that the wedding around the square should be going to the most lively link.

It seems that people all over the world are laughing. I am alone in this darkness. This seems to be my future life, dark and hopeless.

Shaking my already heavy head, I stumbled to the dimly lit parking lot, but suddenly remembered that I hadn't driven at all today.

I couldn't help laughing at myself. Even if I drove, I couldn't drive again after drinking so much wine.

I am still afraid of death. Even if I know that the lonely days are hard, I still want to live.

Don't they all say that tomorrow will be better? Only living can have tomorrow and see better scenery!

When my mother was sent back to my home by my big brother, I had taken a bath and was leaning on the sofa with a glass of red wine in my pajamas, watching TV comfortably.

I didn't see anything unusual about me, so I talked a lot. Naturally, that means complaining that I left too early, so my brother had to run this trip more. I didn't go back impatiently as usual, but just glanced at my mother.

I think I've covered it up very well. Unfortunately, I can't escape my brother's eyes in the end.

When I went back to my room to rest, my brother frowned and stared at me, but he didn't speak.

At the beginning, I could stand it and let him look at it. In the end, I couldn't resist his sharp eyes. I couldn't help being angry. Brother looked down and said in a low voice: "I'm more than 50 people. Don't always treat me as a child, OK?"

The elder brother nodded and said, "OK, I hope you will only do what you should do at your age!"

I can't speak for a long time with my mouth open. My good brother, aren't you so keen that you don't realize that I've figured it out?

No, brother must have seen it. Otherwise, how should he understand this?

I stood up and sent my eldest brother out. My eldest brother rarely reached out and patted me on the shoulder. Sure enough, my eldest brother was the one who knew me best.

It's not easy to be a new man. I still want to try hard!