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Xiao Kun never thought that his dreams persisted for so many years will be broken by his wife, because in his heart, his son Xiao Anxu is his heir, he is the heir to music, he is the heir to the piano, the son even He is more powerful and talented than he was when he was young. Otherwise, he would not be able to win the foreign youth piano championship at the age of nineteen. +++ Mobile reading visit m.wuxiahere.com

But such a child who won the award told him that he didn't really like the piano before! This simply makes Xiao Kun can't believe it! Also, his son had almost got depression before, which made Xiao Kun completely unable to figure it out.

Chu Yunhui gave Xiao Kun one night to think about divorce, in fact, she wanted Xiao Kun to promise her.

Because apart from promising a divorce, Xiao Kun had no other choice at all.

When eating at night, neither Chu Yunhui nor Xiao Anrui went downstairs for dinner. The servants brought them up for dinner. Xiao Anxu and Xiao Kun and his son sat at the table with a bitter smile on their faces.

"An Xu, is your mother right? Learning piano is an unhappy thing for you?"

He finally had the opportunity to ask his son this sentence. A long time ago, Xiao Kun never thought about asking this because he was a pianist and his wife was a violinist. In this case, Xiao Kun never thought that his son would be interested in things other than music ...

Even if you know that An Xu is not his own son, but Xiao Kun did not expect that his son's musical career for so many years came from his persecution? This incident made Xiao Kun unacceptable.

"Dad, I don't really know if I like the piano. When I was a kid, I always heard everyone say that you are a great pianist in the world. I heard many people say that mom is a super violinist, so they deserve it. I think I should learn music, whether I play the piano or the violin, as if I have no other choice. "

For more than ten years, Xiao Anxu finally relaxed at this time. Without having to bear the expectations of his father or his father's pursuit of music for so many years, Xiao Anxu had a faint smile on his face.

"I sometimes feel a little envious of Rui Rui. She can do whatever she wants. She doesn't have to think about so many things. Whether it's the honor of her father or the honor of her mother, she doesn't have to carry her shoulders on her shoulders. She can do whatever she wants. thing."

In this family, many people may see the wealth and status of the Xiao family, but for Xiao Anxu, who lives in the Xiao family, this is his most cherished home, but it is also another prisoner who imprisoned him. Although Xiao Anxugan was willing to be finally Imprisonment, but this does not prove that all of this is the best option.

When he was a kid, he learned piano. What he did n’t understand was why he later knew his father ’s expectations and knew that his father wanted to cultivate himself as a world-renowned pianist, so he also worked for this goal, just for his father.

"Ke, but that's different ... your sister, your sister is not talented ..." Xiao Kun heard (speaks) a bitter smile from his son, and then explained that it was sincere for so many years. explanation of.

If Chu Yunhui heard this, I'm afraid I would scold Xiao Kun again. Xiao Kun is an indecisive man, but he is also an exquisite egoist. He ’s caring about Xiao Anxu is his father ’s concern, but many times, Will use his achievements to kidnap Xiao Anxu, hoping that Xiao Anxu will become better.

"Maybe, but that's not important anymore. Dad, I have decided to leave Xiao's family and stop studying piano. I want to do other things."

Shaking his head, Xiao Anxu didn't want to be tangled with this. He knew how to make choices and knew how to do it, which was the best result for his mother.

Maybe this is cruel to the father, but why is it not cruel to treat the mother like that?

He has occupied the nest for so many years, and it is time to leave.

"Leave home? Where are you going to leave home? What are you going to do if you don't study piano? You are only nineteen years old this year, but life is just beginning, even if you have such a thing, An Xu you are still me Son, even if your mother does n’t want you, I want you! You are the best pianist among young people in China. Do you know what kind of honor you will bring to the country in the future? Now it ’s because of your mother Just give up a sentence or two? "

Xiao Kun couldn't help getting excited and raised his voice. He stood up and questioned the son sitting there. He couldn't believe that the glory within his reach was easily put down by the child.

Knowing what his father thought, Xiao Anxu was helpless, but he looked up at his father.

"Dad, I give up the relationship between the piano and my mother. If you are not entangled with me now, you might as well think about how you can restore your mother's heart, and do you really care about your biological son? He left In your nineteen years, have you never thought about how the child lived through these nineteen years? Do you know how much influence a psychiatric patient would have in an ordinary family? "

The more he saw the detailed information, the more guilty Xiao Anxu felt, because of the greed of his biological parents, he occupied the position of Xiao Qingrong, and the other person was an autistic patient, abandoned by his biological parents. Everything made Xiao Anxu feel ashamed and embarrassed. He couldn't stay in the Xiao family anymore. He didn't want to hurt his mother's heart, and he didn't want to make the Xiao family more confused.

"..." Xiao Kun was speechless after being questioned. It was difficult for him to imagine the situation of a patient, even if the other party was his own son, but Xiao Kun had never thought about it before, and heard Xiao Anxu's words , I was only able to sting a bit, and finally stiffened.

"Isn't he picked up by your mother? The days will get better, your mother will definitely look for someone who can take care of him."

He deserved to put everything on Chu Yunhui, without any care for the sick son.

This Xiao Kun made Xiao Anxu feel very uncomfortable and understood why his mother would divorce his father, because at this time, what the father wanted was never the same as his mother.

Mother picked Qing Rong back. That was right. Qing Rong was the mother's biological son.

But what about father? Is it because my father has kept him for nineteen years?

Xiao Anxu suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, and even asked a word abruptly.

"Dad, if I don't have talent on the piano and won't win prizes like I do now, wouldn't you leave me?"

Although I do n’t want to admit it, as a father ’s instrumental person, Xiao Anxu felt that way. From childhood to age, he spent almost 60% of his life with the piano and his father. He I won so many awards, not for the honor of playing the piano, or for the pride of music, but to satisfy my father's vanity.

"What are you talking about? You are my son! I have raised my son for nineteen years!"

Xiao Kun looked at his son unbelievably. He didn't understand how his son thought this way, but behind him came the voice of his wife with a sneer.

"Xiao Kun, you don't have to install it in front of your son. Do you remember the two-year British piano competition? At that time, An Xu had a fever of 39 degrees, and the doctors said that he should take a good rest. What did you do? In order to prevent An Xu from missing the game at that time, you just asked the doctor to prescribe medicines that might hurt the nerves in the brain. Do you know how scared I was when I heard the doctor say this? I have been doing this. I didn't tell Anxu just to protect your good dad's image. "

Before Chu Yunhui, she persuaded herself to understand her husband. Her husband's pursuit of music is more clear than her. Unlike Chu Yunhui, although the violin is very good, but what really makes Chu Yunhui famous in the world is not How good is her violin, but her identity and the things she does.

And Xiao Kun is really great on the piano, relying on the piano to make everyone admire.

Such a person, who started cultivating his son shortly after the birth of the child, invested almost all his energy on his son. He wanted his son to fulfill his dreams that he had never accomplished before. From an early age, Xiao Anxu almost grew up. Among the flowers and applause, the trophies and trophies in the house were placed in several rooms. These are the honor of Xiao Anxu, but rather the honor of Xiao Kun.

Hearing her mother ’s words, Xiao Anxu also froze. Two days ago in the British piano competition, when Xiao Anxu was not yet an adult, it was considered a piano competition for the juvenile group. At that time, he had a fever due to the dissatisfaction of the plane ’s customs His burned head almost exploded. As a result, his father called a doctor, took a medicine, and immediately woke up. In the next day's game, he even won the championship of the time! Xiao Anxu also remembered this clearly. Although he kept having fever for a month after returning home, Xiao Anxu was still in a good mood because he won the championship and felt that he was not delayed by the illness ...

Now I didn't expect that there would be such a thing ...

"Me, I didn't want to let An Xu miss the game? If that youth group missed it, An Xu would be an adult and can no longer participate in the youth group, and the side effects of that medicine are not so big ..."

Xiao Kun's face was pale, and he wanted to explain to himself, but this time Chu Yunhui was unwilling to be considerate of each other. Previously, there were four people in this family. Chu Yunhui, the wife's thoughtful Xiao Kun, Let him pursue the so-called piano dream. Although his son Xiao Anxu was not so crazy about the piano, he was also working for his father's honor.

Xiao Anrui was not talented in music, but was released by Xiao Kun. His feeling to his father was that his father was too harsh on his brother.

Almost the whole family is caring about Xiao Kun.

"The side effects are not big. Why do n’t you eat it? I wasn't in the UK at the time. If I was there, I would never let An Xu participate in that competition! And sometimes I don't want to disassemble you. Piano, can't you see it from a young age? You will force An Xu to study with your previous grades. Not long after your daughter was born, you also want to train your daughter, but you find that Rui Rui is not as good as this. An Xu gave up Rui Rui, don't you think it's clear to me? "

Whose five-year-old is forced to practice piano for six hours a day? In the upward direction, the ten-year-old Xiao Anxu practiced the piano almost ten hours a day, and his hands became conditioned.

Therefore, at that time, as long as Chu Yunhui went home, she would take Xiao Anxu out to play, and she did not learn music at all. She did not want her child to be forced.

"... No, it's not like that."

Xiao Kun shook his head. Although his face was not good-looking, he still did not acknowledge the news at this time, and Xiao Anxu did not want his parents to quarrel because of this.

"Dad, mom, do n’t quarrel anymore. I have decided not to continue to study piano. I have always been interested in photography and video before, so I may learn these later. Dad, this is my own decision. (Guanguan) Yes, I'm sorry for you. I didn't insist on the road of piano. "

Xiao Anxu will always be so ingenious and intimate, let Chu Yunhui look at the child, sigh in her heart, do not know what to say, but just feel that this world is impermanent, and there is never any time for the best of both worlds.

Xiao Kun didn't say anything. He couldn't accept the heir he had cultivated. He even gave up the piano so easily. For Xiao Kun, the piano was his life, and his son was the best heir he had cultivated!

Eventually, Chu Yunhui went upstairs, and Xiao Anxu also left. Xiao Kun drank a drink downstairs all night, but unfortunately, everything had to come to an end.

Chu Yunhui's lawyer came again early in the morning. Xiao Kun was pretended to be drunk, but Chu Yunhui was drank with sober soup. In the end, she could only irritate her teeth, and then signed a divorce agreement.

"We're going to divorce tomorrow."

Seeing her husband's compromise, Chu Yunhui nodded. When she left, it was Chu Yunhui sent by Xiao Anxu.

"I will take care of my dad at home for a few days. After I take care of myself, I will leave. Mom, you will take good care of yourself in the future."

Xiao Anxu was sitting in the car with some emotions. He was actually very reluctant to know Chu Yunhui.

"Well, you also take care of yourself. Call Uncle Zheng for something. The card I gave you before can be used."

Chu Yunhui stretched her face and seemed to look very unhappy, but what she said was still intimate. She knew that An Xu was innocent in this change, but she had already made a choice. It is impossible to bear the future of two children at the same time.

However, Chu Yunhui was somewhat surprised that An Xu left her husband and did not intend to continue her studies.

When approaching home, Chu Yunhui suddenly turned to look at Xiao Anxu.

"Why don't you go on to study abroad? According to your current situation, the future in the music industry is extremely promising."

Although he was forced to learn by her husband, Chu Yunhui still admitted that this child is a gifted child. His talent in music is good. Over time, he will definitely become a good musician.

Xiao Anxu, who heard this, shook his head, he said.

"No, I have forced myself to play the piano for so many years. This time, I want to do something I like."

He laughed, with a little youth innocence, making it difficult for Chu Yunhui to say anything, and then the car went to the place, the mother and the child separated, and this difference may be missing in this life.

Xiao Anxu stood there, watching the back of his mother's departure. He thought that he would regret returning his mother to Qingrong, because the mother is not his now.

On the following day, Xiao Kun and Chu Yunhui got the divorce certificate. Xiao Kun wanted to talk to Chu Yunhui, but Chu Yunhui ignored them and turned away.

Today, there are some special guests in the Chu family in Beijing. This guest is from the Meng family.

In order to thank Xiao Qingrong for this visit to Shanghai, Meng Chao took a vacation and brought Meng Tian and An Tianlang An Yuanyuan, and Dr. Liu who had to come together to visit the Chu family in Shangjing.

Dr. Fang was also there, so they sat together first.

"So this is the song. After listening, let the autistic person start talking?"

After listening to the tune released in the mobile phone, Dr. Fang was a little surprised. The tune was very good to him, but he could n’t hear the tune. What good is it for autistic patients ...

"Yes, with the exception of An Yuanyuan, more than sixty of my autistic patients involved in the treatment have learned to shout because of this song, and they seem to have begun to touch the outside world for the first time, but these autistic Most of the patients with this disease are children under ten years old, and they are more sensitive to music. Some children over ten years old are still listening, and I do n’t know if there are any results. This is the data I brought over, and Dr. Fang can take a look.

Dr. Liu gave his own data and some information about autism patients to Dr. Fang. He had already asked the patient's family before coming. In order to know or find better treatment methods, patient data is also an important research. means.

Dr. Fang took the data and started to look at it. The above records are very detailed. Most of them started speaking after listening to the music, and then they used the language and some chain effects afterwards.

Maybe for ordinary people, it may seem strange to learn to call mom and dad in the past two months, but for autistic patients, it is a very progressive thing, because it represents autism Patients are stepping out of their small world, step by step into the real world.

This is a hopeful beginning. As long as the impact of this music can be found and whether there is still music that has a unique impact on autistic patients, once this topic is established, it will change the number of autistic patients. fate.

After that, the two talked about medical terms about mental illness. On the one hand, Meng Chao and others did not understand, but they were also listening hard. Instead, Mrs. Chen came over and saw the lovely An Yuanyuan, thinking that Qing Rong was preparing. Playing the song, called Meng Tian to take An Yuanyuan over to listen.

It is still the flower room. After the Chu family found that Xiao Qingrong likes the flower room, they put the piano in the flower room. Today is the day when Xiao Qingrong played the piano, or the days when the teachers came to teach the piano. Today, teachers' favorite is to teach Xiao Qingrong piano.

When Mrs. Chen brought Meng Tian, ​​Meng Chao and An Yuanyuan, the teacher was playing the song that Xiao Qingrong wanted to play today, an international famous song "To Alice", this song is a song expressing love , The melody is melodious and beautiful, giving a sweet feeling.

Of course, there are flowers blooming everywhere in this flower room, all kinds of flowers are in front of you, and even a glass on the north side is wrapped with wisteria flowers, which looks extremely beautiful.

Mrs. Chen made a banned gesture, and Meng Chao and Meng Tian also looked at the person sitting there quietly. Xiao Qingrong was completely different from when he first met.

Today Xiao Qingrong wore a white (color) shirt, and his hair was tied high above his head. Looking at it a little more gentleman and elegant, let Meng Chao involuntarily think of what he looked like when he first saw Xiao Qingrong, that When the other party was still Acai, he was still a strange child.

When the teacher finished the song, he stood up, and then Xiao Qingrong's hands were placed on the piano. Meng Chao's eyes widened. He remembered that day he saw Xiao Qingrong holding the leaves. The child's hands are long and beautiful, and at first glance, he knows that he is a pair of piano players.

With the white and beautiful hands dancing on the keys, the melodious and dreamy piano sounded again. This time, although it is the same piece, it always sounds different, which makes people feel more It's beautiful.

In such a beautiful and warm flower room, as Xiao Qingrong ’s piano sounds drifted further and further, there were actually a few butterflies from the window. They floated on the flowers to stir up the wings. As Mrs. Chen said, Xiao Qingrong Has always been more like these animals and like.

What everyone didn't expect was that while the piano was playing, An Yuanyuan suddenly struggled to open her mother's hand, and then went to a small bouquet, which turned out to be a purple (color) flower. Then came to Xiao Qingrong's side. After the tune finally came to an end, the lovely little girl stood there, holding the delicate purple (color) flowers in her hands, her eyes were shining, and she presented the flowers to the piano player who played the piano. juvenile.

This scene surprised Meng Tian, ​​because Yuan Yuan would never have done this kind of behavior in the past, and Mrs. Chen watched the little girl ’s movements, but she felt that the girl ’s autism must be If you can do it, you know that picking flowers is a gift ...

Xiao Qingrong retracted his hand on the piano, and then looked at the little girl.

"... Huahua!"

The soft and sweet voice of the little girl sounded. An Yuanyuan looked up at her small head, and her eyes were slick and glaring. She looked completely without the previous apathy. At this time, she looked at Xiao Qingrong happily. Take the initiative to reach out and took over the little flower in the girl's hand.

"thank you."

He spoke for the first time, but it was not as hoarse or insensitive as others, so the voice like Qingquan sounded like he felt the ears were a bit comfortable, which made Xiao Qingrong's teachers startled, more Besides, it is Mrs. Chen! !! !!

But this is just this moment. After just three words, Xiao Qingrong is silent, and An Yuanyuan's eyes have lost the previous light, as if everything that appeared before is like an illusion.

But Mrs. Chen was really happy. She couldn't be happier. She hurried to find Chu Yunhui and the doctors, so Dr. Liu and Dr. Fang hurried over, and then learned from Mrs. Chen's and Meng's population that the two had a 'communication 'It's something that makes Dr. Fang more sure.

Xiao Qingrong's condition is not ordinary autism at all, but a genius disease. He does not speak or not because he cannot speak, but he does not want to speak.

This research can be considered to have made great progress. Dr. Fang specifically asked for a recorder over the flower room. Because Xiao Qingrong often studied music here, in order to leave traces of his son, Chu Yunhui put a recording system here early. , Are the best things, so the recordings are all excellent sound quality, the two doctors plan to study Xiao Qingrong's music.

Just as they worked hard for autistic patients, the media side became crazy!

News broke that the goddess Chu Yunhui had divorced her husband Xiao Kun! !! !!

You know, Chu Yunhui is the goddess of the country. In addition to her violin and her kindness, it is also because Chu Yunhui has a perfect family. She and her husband were in love at first sight. Both were playing music. Later they got married. The eldest son Xiao Anxu is even better. The younger daughter is also exquisite and lovely. It can be regarded as a winner in life. Many people think that being a woman like Chu Yunhui has reached its peak, but she did not expect that. A woman turned out to be divorced from Xiao Kun!

Although it has not been revealed why Chu Yunhui divorced Xiao Kun, many people have speculated whether Xiao Kun is derailed. After all, the goddess is busy working every day, and there is no time to derail ... Besides, the two are military marriages. If the divorce, it must be the goddess to promise ...

This matter quickly became a hot search. It can be said that it quickly attracted the attention of the public. Chu Yunhui already had a way to deal with it, but Xiao Kun didn't say a word, it seemed that he had been hit recently.

Xiao Anxu left the Xiao family to pursue his dream. Xiao Kun had not gone out for several days, and Xiao Anrui was with him.

After seeing the news, Mr. Chu asked his daughter to deal with the matter quickly. In order to keep the news from spreading, Chu Yunhui held a press conference.

On this day, many media people are on the scene, not just some entertainment media, but more mainstream media. As a mainstream star, Chu Yunhui is backed by the central government, and she is excellent in all aspects. This is also regarded as Chu Yunhui's first one.

"Ms. Chu, is the news about your divorce from Mr. Xiao Kun true?"

Journalists are always concerned about what they want to know most. They never think about whether these things will hurt other people.

"It's true." Chu Yunhui nodded, and there were people sitting beside her, but not others, but the director of the police station on the side of Mingyuan City, Wang Chang'an, who came here this time for clarification.

"So why did you get divorced? Was the relationship broken by the Internet or your husband cheated?"

Chu Yunhui just laughed when she heard this, but shook her head.

"None, it's because of a special reason. The one next to me is Mr. Wang Changan, the director of Mingyuan Municipal Police Bureau. He will tell you a case next."

People in the media were a little aggressive, but they looked at the so-called police chief.

Wang Changan didn't expect that Chu Yunhui had such courage and planned to make the matter public, which really surprised him, but at the same time he was somewhat understanding of the woman's behavior. After all, for a mother, there is nothing more It is more important than the son.

"Hello everyone, everyone in the media, my name is Wang Chang'an, director of the Mingyuan Municipal Police Bureau. Today I was invited by Miss Chu Yunhui to explain the following. Just two months ago, Miss Chu Yunhui arrived. At the Mingyuan Police Station, we called the police. Nineteen years ago, Ms. Chu Yunhui gave birth at our Ren'ai Hospital on the side of Mingyuan City, but the child around Ms. Chu Yunhui was not her biological son. After reporting the case, I investigated all the pregnant women who were born in the hospital at the first time. It took two days to help Ms. Chu Yunhui to find her biological son ... This case involved the theft of children, and the prisoner Chen Moumou and Wang Moumou had fallen into law. With a sentence of ten years in prison, Miss Chu Yunhui has also been with her biological son. "

Speaking of this matter, the reporters present were aggressive and speculated about the possibility of various divorces. However, what they heard was a change of doubt 19 years ago, which is a hundred times more exciting than the novel. !!

So, like today's musician Xiao Anxu, isn't it the son of the sinner?

All of a sudden, all the media people got excited and thought that this matter was simply too shocking. If it was released, it would be surprisingly terrifying.

"As Director Wang said, I found my biological son. He is an autistic patient. This incident has affected me a lot. My daughter had undergone surgery for leukemia just a few days ago. Xiao Kunmingming Knowing that we have a biological son, it is indifferent. As a mother, I naturally cannot accept it. In the end, I chose to separate from him. This is our own choice. I hope everyone can respect our decision. "

Chu Yunhui bowed to everyone. Sometimes people are like this, they will anger others because of some things, and Chu Yunhui is not trying to make the media angry with her husband, but she is not at ease.

Xiao Kun has his own dream, and it would be great if he could not realize it. Why should he add his thoughts to others?

In the end, this press conference was successfully concluded, but when the news was released again, everyone was shocked. Everyone did not expect that such a thing would happen to the goddess Chu Yunhui. Thanks to that ( The people who have committed the crime of Fan have been in jail, but the goddess' children have not been around for nineteen years, and they are still autistic, which is really pitiful.

There are also people who curse Xiao Kun, and feel that Xiao Kun is a vanity person. He often looks down on domestic musicians, holding the smelly feet of foreign competitions, and took Xiao Anxu to go to the competition from childhood. Some netizens came to Xiao Kun. Looking in Weibo, the results were unbelievable. I found that Xiao Kun's Weibo was really strange.

This Weibo does not often mention his wife and daughter, the most mentioned is his son Xiao Anxu, of course, do you think it is a photo or something else? Do not! Certificates and trophies!

Some netizens did an incomplete statistic. In Xiao Kun's Weibo, in the past ten years, there have been more than 1,000 news about Xiao Anxu winning! It can be said that these trophies and trophies can fill up a room when they go home?

However, Xiao Kun's Weibo always said that he hoped his son would work harder and get better results. He mentioned that his daughter and wife were not more than two hundred in total ...

Therefore, the last hot search was # 萧 坤 sunshine son #, but it was full of ridicule.

I used to envy Xiao Kun for having such a good son, but now I have sympathy for Xiao Anxu, because Xiao Kun's Weibo has a certificate of merit, but not how hard his son is.

Xiao Anxu, who was far away in another city, saw these news. He wanted to call his father, but chose silence. He should have another life.

Looking at the netizens' information about him, Xiao Kun was so angry that he suffocated at home, but he could n’t bear it, so he rushed to Chu Yunhui ’s house. He wanted to ask his wife why the two were apart. And hurt him!

But when he arrived at the Chu family, he saw the old man Chu, and Xiao Kun turned into a tortoise, and he dared not speak.

"I haven't seen you in such a long time. You've saved a lot."

Mr. Chu seemed to smile, but Xiao Kun's face was ugly.

"Okay, I know you're not looking for me, but now that you're here, go and see the kid. He's in the flower room."

Xiao Kun knew who Master Chu was talking about. He thought of the child who was being scolded by everyone, and he felt a bit resentful, especially after knowing that the other person had autism, and he didn't like the child, let alone Chu Yunhui. In order for him to divorce himself, he forced An Xu to leave himself! !!

Recently, Xiao Kun feels that he's been very aggrieved!

Nodded, Xiao Kun turned his head and walked towards the flower room. He had been here before, of course, he knew where the flowers were, so when he came to the flower room, he saw the long-haired boy sitting on the chair. Alas.

Xiao Qingrong is wearing a black (color) shirt, all of which is black, with a low-key gorgeousness, and his skin is more white. The face looks just like a teenager. It looks like 19 years old.

Xiao Kun came to the child and had no reaction to the last emotionless face, and after seeing him, his eyes narrowed.

He couldn't help waving his hand, and the child didn't know he blinked.

"You ... you ..." Xiao Kun wanted to say something, but he couldn't tell, and finally sat aside in disappointment. He remembered the autism he was searching for, took out a cigarette, squeezed it, but did not light it.

The thought of the child next to him was his own son, and the thought that the other side had not spoken for nineteen years, Xiao Kun was not in the taste, an unprecedented sense of failure enveloped him ...