Secrets we should keep

The lamps were off but the light of moon that came through the window was enough to show the blood and wound. He shook his hand and pulled it back" it just small cut... "I lost my control and shout at him" shut your f*cking mouth, @sshole. I'm not donkey, as you can see I have this kind of small cuts myself which lead me to hospital for days. "

I grabbed his wrist and forced him to stand up with me, with no talk or argue he followed me to the bathroom "sit on chair" I ordered him.

I took the box of emergency and knelt on floor, I took his wrist and saw the wound. What make him to do this stupid thing ?! Is he really disappointed in life to do something like this? But the wound isn't deep that mean something made him stop.

I breath deeply to calm my anger. while I got his wrist in my hand I tried to remember what he did that day before putting bandaid on my wound.

"are you angry?!" he asked me while he leand on back of chair. "I was. What made you angry?" I asked him. He didn't respond to my question so I said "I don't care what it was.... Do you feel better after throwing dishes?!" "no..." "does it have worth to breaking expensive dishes and waste my cook."

I asked him and pulled up my eyebrow, he grinned and said "of course not, do we have...." I cut his words and continued my talking "does that problem fixed by breaking dishes??" after getting no respond i continue "will it be solve by getting your life?" I looked at him, he was staring at me in that strange way. I tied bandage around his wrist and said "the next time you want to do this be sure no one get in trouble by your suicide.... or at least be sure no one will cry over your dead body"

I tapped on his shoulder slowly and said "do you know something, I committed suicide when I was eleven. that time I was sure no one will cry over my dead body so I had no fear in commenting suicide hundred times but during time things change... And know I think how stupid I was... by my death my enemies become happy so I kick there @sses by staying alive.. I hope you could do that, too." I smiled at him and put emergency box in its place.

" and please don't touch anything I will come back to clean that mess..... "I go toward the door, as I remembered something I turned back in hurry and I hit something hard with my head..... I thrown back a few steps and glided on wet floor.... I closed my eyes and ready myself to fall on floor with loud sound...

I wait but nothing happened, is the time stopped?!

I opened my eyes and see a pair of blue eyes in front of my eyes I looked down his face and see one side of his lips pulled up.

I ignore him and look at floor where broken dishes were. If I had fallen my back would have gone to hell. I looked back at him, why his face is too close?I pushed him away and before I fall again, I took my balance, "er... thank you" I said and left room in hurry.... Oh, no I forgot again.

I put my head on wall near his room and sighed, and said to myself "it doesn't matter if he won't eat food one night." I left those thoughts and headed to kitchen.