Self-cultivation of Male Supporting Role

Cheng Changqing didn't think there was anything wrong with what he said, and repeated: "Ayan, can you have children?"

Shi Yan blinked and blinked again, confirming that Cheng Changqing was serious, and looked at him inexplicably.

I really want to remind him: having a child is a matter of a young couple. You come and ask me if this child is inappropriate? It's better to go to the temple to worship your son and goddess than to come to me to find an explanation, right? Are you going to have a baby or which woman do you want to have a baby for you? Doesn't this require the two of you to work together? I can't help an outsider!

Cheng Changqing was lying on the bed, his eyes were burning, the temperature of his hands was still a little high, and he held Shi Yan's wrist tightly: "A Yan, I mean, can I let my father have another child."

Only then did Shi Yan understand what Cheng Changqing wanted to express.

But: "Uncle has already divorced. If you want to have a child, you must first find a woman."

Cheng Changqing let go of Shi Yan's wrist, lay flat again, and placed his hands on his stomach in a regular manner. At first glance, he looked like a well-behaved child, staring at the roof, not knowing what to think, and said softly to Shi Yan: " When I was a child, I heard my father jokingly say that Abbot Yueshan once made a divination for his father, saying that his father was destined to have no children in his life and be alone and widowed.

At that time, I heard people in the palace say that Abbot Yueshan is a rare fortune-telling expert in the world, and the people in Qin Tianjian would be willing to bow down to him when he saw him. My father used that to warn me not to be a person against something or someone. Too much trust, the other party is not a god, but a human being.

Everyone makes mistakes. "

Cheng Changqing's eyes were empty, as if he had remembered something, and there was a slight smile on the corner of his mouth: "I was still young, my father probably thought I didn't remember things, I used to think about the divination technique of Abbot Yueshan. But er.

But then you know what happened.

Feeling uneasy, I went to Abbot Yueshan in private, and he had already confirmed this matter.

My father is now alone, and the marriage has not been settled after many wasted years. He is nearly forty years old, and his knees are desolate. Such a good person should not be like this..."

Speaking of this, Shi Yan was also silent.

Uncle Cheng Lixue said it was really miserable. He was nearly forty years old, his family was gone, his daughter-in-law was gone, and his well-raised son became someone else's. Originally, the matter was handled in private, and everyone still had a decent face, but the second princess took him as his own. Very unseemly way to expose the truth to the public.

Outsiders just want to pretend they don't know, they can't leave Cheng Lixue a decent place. Normal people are afraid that they won't be able to stand this insult, and they can't go out to meet people because they are too embarrassed.

But my uncle is very free and easy in front of everyone, and doesn't care about other people's eyes, but can he really care? Do you really not think about it when you are alone in the dead of night and sleepless?

Shi Yan doesn't think so.

Seeing that Shi Yan was silent, Cheng Changqing turned around and looked at Shi Yan: "Ayan, I know you have a way, and Abbot Yueshan also said that only you can do this."

Shi Yan glanced at him lightly, and he didn't say a word about the purpose of Abbot Yueshan telling Cheng Changqing about this matter, he only told Cheng Changqing: "This matter has to pay a more serious price than you think."

Cheng Changqing's eyes were faintly excited, and his tone was a little hurried: "I am willing, no matter what the price is, I am willing."

Shi Yan: "Even with your splendid future and good health?"

Cheng Changqing's tone was firm: "I do!"

Shi Yan reminded again: "You may have a short lifespan because of this, your body will collapse, and you will not turn your arrows back when you open your bow."

Cheng Changqing nodded solemnly: "I do!"

Shi Yan nodded: "You should rest first, think about it, and talk about it when your body is healed."

Seeing that Shi Yan was about to leave, Cheng Changqing grabbed Shi Yan's wrist, closed his eyes, and suddenly said, "Ayan, you may not understand, every time I go to see my father secretly, he is alone, and what does it feel like to drink alone.

In the past, I was saying that before my father and my mother reconciled, and after my father went to work, he had to go to the Liu family's grandma's pancake stall two blocks away to buy two mutton pancakes. He was waiting for him at the entrance of the Xuji Inn a street away. The two of us ate pancakes secretly outside, gargled with water from the innkeeper, and then went home together. Because my mother didn't let us eat outside food, saying it was not clean.

This has always been the case since I was a child. Ever since my father and my mother reconciled, I thought such a scene would never happen again, but when I lived alone in Zhuangzi, I could receive daily gifts from my father. Pancakes look exactly the same as before, but when I eat them, I always feel that they don't taste that way.

Ah Yan, did you know that once I was so suffocated in my heart that I walked to Grandma Liu's pancake stand by myself, and I happened to see my father standing there. , turned around and left lonely, forgot to take his pancakes, do you know how uncomfortable I felt after seeing that scene?

I want to do something for him, but I can't do anything. My identity is the biggest injury to my father. I can't even walk with him, because my existence is a kind of injury to him.

Ayan, I…”

Seeing Cheng Changqing's emotions, Shi Yan was very excited. He tapped the other person's forehead lightly, and he fell asleep in a daze. He still held Shi Yan's wrist while he fell asleep, showing his persistent attitude.

Shi Yan sighed silently, and easily pulled his wrist out of the opponent's hand.

Quietly exited the room, sat on the futon under the eaves and quietly looked at the sky, feeling a little complicated.

Xiaojia took the initiative to speak: "Team leader, can you really change the fate of Cheng Lixue's lonely life?"

Cheng Lixue's fate is not as simple as being childless, and the relationship between husband and wife is also very weak. No matter who he gets married, he will never live together.

Shi Yan affirmed: "I can't, maybe only Cheng Changqing can do it in this world, I'm just a tool person without feelings, the person who has the deepest bond with my uncle in this world is Cheng Changqing, others who do this may not necessarily succeed. , and do more damage to yourself.”

Xiaojia was puzzled: "Aren't you worried about this recently, team leader? You said a few days ago that when you saw Cheng Lixue staring at other people's children, he looked like an old man longing for home.

You agreed to Cheng Changqing's request, the matter was just resolved, and both of you could be happy and satisfied. "

Shi Yan shook his head: "You don't understand, when my uncle finds out about this in the future, he will definitely feel uncomfortable. Changqing is willing to sacrifice and wants to do something for uncle, but according to uncle's character, if he knows the truth, he may not Accept this kindness.

A sturdy man might rather shed blood and tears himself than need his beloved junior to make any sacrifices for him. If he wants to, some people are willing to enter his backyard, but he has his own insistence and doesn't want to delay the good girl.

Second, I will be infected with the cause and effect of my uncle and Changqing, and I am not sure about the future. "

Xiaojia said indifferently: "Then don't let him know, if Cheng Changqing doesn't do this, he will feel uneasy and unhappy all his life, and the more he sees Cheng Lixue, the lonely father, the more tortured he will be.

If this move can make him let go of the past, no longer suffer, embrace a new life, face a new future, and live happily for decades. Team leader, you and Cheng Lixue are doing good deeds.

Thinking about the mother-in-law and mother-in-law, have you read too much in the book of dog blood?

Now is the time to consider whether Cheng Lixue can accept this gift? Didn't you see that Cheng Changqing was going to be tortured mad by this guilt? I have a high fever today, and I might die tomorrow! The first problem is to make Cheng Changqing no longer feel guilty!

Let’s go back to the cause and effect. The big deal is to stay in this world for several decades, completely eliminate the cause and effect, and go away. People who have practiced for a few decades are only a blink of an eye, so what are they afraid of.

Anyway, I think the days on the mountain are pretty good. When I'm bored, I go to the front hall to play tricks on the big monks. It's interesting to watch them panic. "

For the first time, Shi Yan felt that Xiao Jia's words were unexpectedly reasonable. In his mind, he vaguely felt as if he had touched an untouched area.

Shi Yan closed his eyes and slowly fell into another world that no one else had ever been to.

Cheng Changqing's illness caused him to lie on the bed for half a month without being able to get up. After communicating with Shi Yan that day, he slept through the night, when Abbot Mingchen gave him a pulse, he couldn't help shaking his head: "I am too worried, my age is too much. Gently, why be too persistent."

Obviously, this person knows Cheng Changqing's family background well, maybe he guessed a little, and tentatively said: "Mingguang Senior Brother thought about it in Bodhidharma Institute, if not, wait for Cheng Shizhu to get better, and then go take a look."

Cheng Changqing lay on the bed weakly, opened his mouth, wanted to say something, but didn't say anything.

He wanted to refuse, but when the words came to his lips, he sighed incomprehensibly, nodded towards Abbot Mingchen, and said softly, "Thank you Abbot for your kindness."

At this time, he can still be polite and not embarrass outsiders, so he has to let Shi Yan, who is on the sidelines, sigh about his good upbringing.

Mingchen knew at a glance that the anxiety in Cheng Changqing's heart was not caused by Mingguang, but as a monk, this is all he can do, and there is nothing else he can do.

Cheng Changqing has been groggy for a while. When he was awake, he told Shi Yan about some childhood events, mostly related to Cheng Lixue, his father. It can be heard that Cheng Changqing really admires Cheng Lixue, and in his life, his mother The frequency of occurrence is not high.

As a mother, the second princess was not careful enough, nor did she focus all her energy on the child.

Cheng Changqing said softly to Shi Yan: "I remember things early when I was a child, maybe they thought I didn't understand anything, but I can remember every key point clearly now.

Perhaps in her opinion, when I was a child, I had two wet nurses, four first-class maids, eight second-class maids, and six little servants to take care of me. If you care about this child, let the following people not dare to neglect it.

This is already considered a dutiful mother in the entire royal family.

But compared to my father's hands-on approach, she seemed very unreal. She looked at me on the face, or in front of outsiders, and cared for me. Whenever I was praised by the gentlemen, she was proud on the face, but she subconsciously , I was unconsciously alienating myself from time to time. "

Cheng Changqing sighed heavily: "Now that I think about it, she has a guilty conscience."

Shi Yan said softly: "Why do you do it? I read these memories over and over to torture myself, and I worry too much. When will you recover from your illness?"

Seeing that Cheng Changqing was unmoved, Shi Yan added: "I don't know what errands my uncle has received recently, I heard He Er say that sometimes it's already numb and bright after work, and there is no time to rest, so I have to hurry up again. to go to court.

That's it, I have to make time to go up the mountain to see you. "

Shi Yan pointed at Grandma Liu's pancakes, which had already cooled down on the table: "Just to give you a bite to eat, saying that you are picky, and you only eat pancakes from this house when you are sick!"

Cheng Changqing fell into silence, closed his eyes, and whispered to Shi Yan, "I will be fine."

Shi Yan was amazed when he saw it, and he had to sigh to Abbot Mingchen: "The mentality of a patient can really affect the recovery of physical health to a large extent.

Look at the days before, I drank the medicine and ate the porridge. I was stunned that the sickness was getting worse every day, and I was about to breathe the last breath.

Looking at it now, I want to understand it, and my mental head is obviously getting better with the naked eye. "

Mingchen said with a smile: "It was originally a heart disease. After I understand it, I will naturally be able to heal itself without medicine."