Chapter 80: The World of Rika

The room is quiet with the lights off and Asaba Rika is lying on the bed, as if she can hear her heart beating.

It was only when Shen Yu seemed to have closed the door and gone to bed outside that she breathed a sigh of relief and pulled the little quilt over her feet, her eyes wide open and not sleeping well, thinking.

Rika thinks she’s become so weird lately ……

Always thinking about Shen Yu while drifting off, recalling what he said to him today, recalling his eyes and expressions, guessing what he would be doing now ……

Then when classes started, they weren’t as serious as when they first started, always looking forward to getting out of class quickly so I could go to the library and wait for him, and I couldn’t help but be happy when I saw him walking by from afar.

There is nothing I look forward to more than sitting on the back of his electric car, hugging him around the waist and smelling him with impunity.

And it’s fun to have dinner together, and it’s fun to say goodnight to him, and it’s fun to hang out with him ……

Anyway, with Shen Yu by her side, she somehow felt safe, she could follow him with confidence, she didn’t have to remember the way, she could talk incessantly, she wanted to try to help him with his work, she wanted to hang around in front of him for a while, even if he said ‘how annoying’, she felt happy and felt that she was noticed. She felt noticed.

Shen Yu gave her the panda doll, which she keeps within easy reach, and puts it next to her pillow at bedtime, together with the bear she got with her phone bill.

Rika holds and plays with it for a while every day until the cold ceramic is warmed by her palms and pressed against her chest, just foolishly and quietly thinking about all the things that make a young girl’s heart flutter.

“Shen Yu is a very gentle person”

This is not the first time that such a thought has crossed Asaba Rika’s mind.

For a man like Shen Yu, the most important thing on his mind must be the work at hand, and nothing is more important to him than the project.

But –

He would wake up early in the morning to clean the bathtub, take the trouble to teach her the way with snacks, take her to and from school, help her chase away annoying boys, help her connect the water pipes in the yard, run out in the middle of the night to buy medicine when she had a stomachache, take her to the old town, remember her birthday and prepare gifts early, take her to the grocery store, worry about her over a small wound ……

It was clear that he was actually annoying her, but always there when she needed him.

If it had been another boy doing these things, she might not have felt so much. In fact, since she was a child, there were many boys who had shown her affection and courted her, but she could always sense the purpose in their eyes, that those boys had an agenda to be nice to her.

As Rika said to Shen Yu on the opening day of school, ‘Shen Yu doesn’t look at me like that, so I feel at ease with Shen Yu’.

It wasn’t that he attempted to get something out of her to be nice to her, but that he did these things naturally, even if he was actually ‘annoyed with her’, but he was willing to drop what was important to him at the time of her need.

For Rika, it’s all about feeling safe.

She can stop worrying about whether he will abandon her if she becomes old, ugly or nagging, because he treats her well without intention, and he is an exceptionally decent and secure boy.

It’s just that under his cold exterior, not many girls would have noticed that, right? Including myself when I first arrived, I thought Shen Yu would bully me.

Thinking about this, Rika suddenly felt a sense of joy at having found a treasure.

He always says he doesn’t care about you, but he has never stood by and done nothing.

“Shen Yu is a man of his word”

Asaba Rika holds the panda and strokes its round head, unable to resist a nice smile.

“So, Shen Yu is like me?”

Even though no one else was in the room, Asaba Rika’s eyes visibly fluttered, and a delicate blush appeared on her face.

The more she thought about it, the more her face burned and the more her fingers touched the band-aid on her left hand, the more she thought about him.

But before she could wail and roll under the covers, Asaba Rika reacted to the fact that…

If Shen Yu had done what he did for her, would he have done the same thing for another girl?

“Shen Yu will do it!”

“Even though he looks mean, he would certainly not leave that girl alone, even if it wasn’t me ……”

After thinking about it again, Su Zhifu and Bai Xiaomeng, who are the best friends of Shen Yu, and even myself now, are probably not half as important as Puffs and Xiaomeng in Shen Yu’s mind ……

Oooh ……

Asaba Rika was poured with cold water by herself and soon came to her senses. The chances of Shen Yu liking her were about the same as Mars hitting the Earth, right?

As a devout believer in Mars, Rika is now praying for Mars to crash into the Earth soon.

It’s like two little people are fighting in my heart, with little white Rika frantically citing “Shen Yu likes me”, while little black Rika is not shying away from proving that “Shen Yu doesn’t like me at all” with one hard fact after another.

As the two villains fought and the ground shook, Asaba Rika, who was shivering in the corner, asked timidly, “So, do I like Shen Yu?”

Black and white Rika said in unison, “Stop it, how could you possibly like Shen Yu, haven’t you ever had bad thoughts about him?

“Right.”

“I… I don’t like him, so why should I care if he likes me ……”

“I just think Shen Yu is a nice guy, tall, good looking, decent, super gentle to me, gentle when he’s mean to me, smells good and has warm hands, so I want to be with him all the time, I don’t like him!

Little black and white Rika asked again, “Haven’t you ever been in love, so how can you be sure you’re not in love with him?”

Asaba Rika couldn’t figure out which side the black and white villain was on, so she had to explain, “Of course I know, I like someone because I want to marry them and have children together, but I’m not ready yet.

“Makes sense, ah, we’re dead, ku, so~!”

Black and White Little Rika defeated, Asaba Rika victorious.

Asaba Rika was relieved, she couldn’t help but blush at the thought of marriage and having a baby, it was too humiliating, and with Shen Yu ……

The more I thought about it, the more ashamed I felt, and the more uncomfortable I felt, so I went under the covers and squirmed around like a maggot.

Like it? ……

Asaba Rika covers his head with a pillow and thinks quietly.

She likes grapefruit-flavoured sweets = likes early mornings after heavy rain = likes snow on branches in winter = likes tiny stars in the clear night sky = likes boys called Shen Yu ……

It should be this kind of like, so it’s not that kind of like.

After all, she can’t marry and have children with Candy, Snow and Star.

“Shen Yu can!”

No watermelon tonight, no diarrhea, but a band-aid, Rika has insomnia again