The Academy’s Health Teacher Wants to Take a Break

Episode 117. Where did you find out?

“If that’s really wrong, your father will most likely be executed.”

Yes, accepting the end of my family must be very difficult for this girl.

“Are you really willing to admit it, knowing it?”

I want to understand that kind of feeling, but ironically, it was me who even prepared the opportunity.

The moment I worry that what I say will hurt this child.

“I don’t know.”

But if left alone, this child will choose to cut off from her world, alone and hurt.

“Because he was a good father to me.”

“Yes, he must have been kind to his family.”

If I end it like that, I won’t be the same person as my father.

It would be more unfortunate to turn a sense of betrayal towards the world into a sense of self-torture by preventing that.

“And, everyone standing there must have been someone’s precious person. Someone’s son, husband, friend and neighbor…….”

The reason I can’t leave such a child alone…….

No, there’s no need to look for a reason now.

I left the door of the health room open for these children, and even if I couldn’t be their guardian, I promised to do everything I could as a teacher if they asked for help.

“Because it was a scene where people who belonged to such a situation were hostile to each other for no reason. Some will even see your father, who fueled such a trend, as the culprit of the tragedy.”

A hand with such feelings reached his head, but Beans did not reject it.

Is it because they accepted me, or because they didn’t even have the energy to beat me?

“But even a person so hated wouldn’t have chosen the beginning himself.”

Whatever it is, I just tell you.

As I watch the sunset, I do my best to tell you what I can.

“Because your father was born in a harsher era than me.”

At least I can figure it out.

A story about the life of a man named Gilbert Jugre.

“I was born right after the war broke out, and from my family’s point of view, I was forced to stand on the battlefield. He would have insisted on that path as he had no other options in life, so it would be a stretch to tell him to adapt to peace now.”

Even if all of that is unforgivable, wouldn’t it be unreasonable to say that even the beginning, when you couldn’t even make a choice, was wrong?

The only thing people who lived through those days can do is break the chain of hatred.

In order to bring that period forward, he became more cruel, and he hoped that that period would not come any more, so he must have maintained that policy even now.

“Because he is that kind of person, he must be hoping that all of you are not different from what he said.”

If only he was in a different position and position, and was the same as other people on the battlefield.

Still, he must be hoping for the traces he left in this world to grow up properly.

“Then, should I give up everything?”

In order to prevent such a vicious cycle, should we abandon all previous teachings?

I answered the girl who asked for an answer.

“Well, it’s a bit like giving up everything now.”

That’s impossible.

No matter how much you say it’s an era of peace and wrap it that way.

The world we live in is, after all, a place marked by someone’s sacrifice.

Everything that exists is inherited by the people who lived in those days, so wouldn’t it be obvious that if you forget everything, it will collapse without losing its foundation?

“Don’t give up, sir, didn’t you think my father was wrong?”

“Yes, no matter who sees it, it’s the wrong way. But if you can’t help it, I’d like to compromise a little……. I thought about it.”

“Compromise, huh?”

“Still, what if I had said a good word or two to my subordinates? Still, if I had been considerate of those people’s grievances and cared for their circumstances, I wondered if the results would have been different from now… ….”

I might not have hated him so much if I had the time to show off that even if I was pushed out of my circumstances.

Of course, it is difficult to assume what-ifs in the past, but in the near future.

If there is a possibility that such a thing will happen again, it cannot be said that the story that assumes such a case is very meaningless.

“… If he could be kind to those around him like Dale, more people might have followed him.”

A body that shudders and shrinks.

It must be because they took my story so sensitively.

“Why is he coming out now?”

Oops, it looks like he’s flustered.

Seeing the girl still not raising her head, I started feeling playful.

“That’s because you envy him.”

“Don’t say anything nonsense about being envious. I, why…….”

“Because I felt envious when I saw children who were living in a completely different environment and got along without hesitation, didn’t I feel ashamed of myself for not being able to join them?”

A startled bean.

As expected, it seemed that he was not very used to hiding his true feelings.

“Yes, in those scenes where you can laugh and chat without thinking, without rules or plans, you must have realized what peace you have been emphasizing.”

But isn’t it better this way?

How can a person who does not know peace talk about peace……. No matter how seriously you say it, it’s the words of a 14-year-old child after all.

In the end, it’s just learning without experience, so the weight of being young will account for a greater share of imagination toward a future you haven’t experienced than memories from your life so far.

“…… I don’t know, something like that.”

So he must have felt the difference in the scene in front of me.

The substance of peace that has been defended with all its might is so insignificant and simple…….

That’s why it’s comfortable and warm.

“If you don’t know, find out now.”

Of course, the feeling of envy awakened by him would feel embarrassing to the tender heart of adolescence, but that was a period that I, an adult, also went through.

I hope that you will become a more mature adult than me, whose time of enlightenment has been delayed.

“The feelings you feel for those children will give you great strength in the future.”

The heart that dwells in the current advice was by no means a lie.

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“What, that means. That… ….”

“Because those who envy others can be that kind to others.”

It is only when the time comes that he gradually raises his head.

The sun had gone down, but I could see right through the darkness that this girl’s face was turned toward me.

Yes, he must be looking into my eyes.

“Beans.”

I put my hand on the girl’s head and continued talking while keeping her at eye level.

“People sometimes make mistakes because they can’t control their emotions. Deceiving someone, coveting someone else’s property, being jealous again……. If you can’t rationally suppress those negative emotions, you’ll end up doing something irreversible without even realizing it.”

Beans feel envy (jealousy) among the seven sins commonly referred to in religion, among the desires called the seven deadly sins.

If you don’t see her heart clearly, this child will always go on a confusing journey between reason and emotion.

If you even have hatred for the world, then you should be wary of even going astray.

If this child had nothing to feel while looking at them.

“However, if you are envious of someone but know how to look back on yourself, the moment you are honest with your heart, you will become a person who can understand other people’s circumstances more than anyone else.”

Bean Juggret.

Because he pursued a higher place than anyone else, he saw many things.

A child who learned the pain of falling from that place.

If such a child were to stand up again, he would surely be able to sympathize with the pain of the person in front of him, even while seeing more broadly than anyone else.

“So please cherish the feelings you feel right now. Unlike your father, who was forced to walk that way…”

And adults like me.

In the end, I ended up with only admiration.

“I aim to become a leader who can love people more than anyone else.”

I hope this little girl will be reborn as such.

“… ….”

“… It’s getting late, shall we go home now?”

Of course, even if I were to give advice, it wouldn’t come to me right away.

It will be fine though.

Someday this child will leave me too, but it won’t be right away.

So I hope you will remember this moment and chew it over and over again.

“Teacher.”

As I was about to move ahead, promising the future, I heard a dangerous voice calling me from behind.

“Hand… ….”

Before I even looked back at him, a small hand gripped my sleeve.

“Can you hold my hand?”

“…… Hand, you mean?”

“Yes, right now… I can’t see it well… ….”

A voice that gets smaller as if crawling in.

It was dark, but the trembling of the body could be felt through the hand holding the sleeve.

… Yes, he is a grown child.

I’m sure you’ll ponder and think a lot about this trivial piece of advice.

“Follow me carefully.”

I hope that the conclusion that will be reached at the end will come as a light to this child’s future.

I held the hand of the child following me and opened the way for her.

***

The night air is gradually cooling down.

In the middle of the night, when the light of the downtown street was fading, the hand that had been holding Beans off to the front door of the newly prepared inn quietly relaxed.

“Then, since I took you all the way here, I will excuse you.”

“Excuse me, didn’t we decide to stay in the same place?”

“Ah well, that’s true, but… …. I have some work to do tonight.”

“But… ….”

Is there something missing?

Or are you afraid of returning to the arms of the children you once left?

“Don’t worry. I’m sure you’ll be fine.”

But since they are all good kids, it should be fine.

Showing such confidence, I quietly waved to Beans and turned my back.

“Then see you tomorrow.”

Because today is not the only opportunity to have a conversation.

I have to leave today because of something I couldn’t avoid, but if I have something to say, I’ll put it off until tomorrow.

“Yes, then tomorrow… ….”

After saying goodbye quietly like that, I turned my back on the inn.

I lit a cigarette in my mouth as I looked back at the street lit up by the street lamp late at night.

“You guys don’t want to be found out, do you?”

And he said.

“Follow me quietly. I also want to do it as quietly as possible.”

-Chijik.

A fire bursting out on the road at night.

Those who aimed at that child must be seeing the eyes forged by such heat.

– Patter!

As if that prediction was true, as soon as I entered the deserted alleyway, men in black began to block the entrance and exit.

You don’t make a sound until you reveal it, and seeing that you assimilate into the darkness even at this moment…….

Anyway, you’re skilled enough to do tricks in this city.

“Heh heh, what are the high-ranking people of our academy doing? To have assailants come in to a place like this, targeting women that even men don’t know yet, are you afraid of this so you can walk properly at night?”

The sound of laughter leaking out with sarcasm.

A few of them trembled as if the reaction was annoying, but even that died down as soon as I took the cigarette out of my mouth.

“…… It doesn’t make any sense to look into the issue. Looking at what you’re doing, it seems like you’ve decided to come.”

Yes, you must be feeling it.

Because Mana, guided by her will, will be savagely piercing their flesh even at this moment.

They must be aware that I’m considering killing everyone here.

“Isn’t it embarrassing to come around like this to catch a child?”

Isn’t that just a child?

No matter how mature he is, he is only 14 years old.

Unlike adults with fidelity, she is a weak girl who is easily distorted if the environment changes even slightly, and who is overcome with self-torture at the slightest difference.

How can I, as a teacher, look favorably on the fact that they are rushing around aiming for such a child?

“Let’s say it’s half the answer.”

“…… Half?”

“That girl will be of great help to the revolutionaries. I will not deny that she is targeting him.”

“… Huh, I did something.”

The Revolutionary Corps and the Jugret Family…….

I can guess. Why are these guys aiming for that child?

“I must have looked pretty funny. They even openly expose their identities on the subject of terrorists.”

If you say rebels, aren’t they the ones the child’s father was so eager for?

Since there has always been friction, it would be easy for them to get them imprisoned by false accusations of colluding with them.

Of course, that alone won’t be enough, so you’ll need a means to deny yourself a crime you didn’t commit.

But the unlucky thing is, I’m sworn to protect even that damn bastard’s son.

“Do you look at me funny? At all.”

Remembering that point, around the time I collected mana in my hand, the man in the lead spoke quietly to me.

“There is no way we would look down on you, who inherited the imperial sword blood, right?”

– Boom.

The moment the mana gathered in her hands disappeared in an instant.

No, to be precise, her will to gather her mana was gone.

It would be more accurate to say that thoughts have stopped.

“…… Where did you find out?”

What came out of their mouths just now.

Because it was a word I could never overlook.