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Elijah thought as he looked at Erin, Richard and Beninita’s child.

He, too, wants to see Judah and her own child.

The wind aroused a desire for determination that was different from usual.

As a result, it was the same as giving up reason to the thrill that filled my body.

After gasping for air while hugging his body, we both fell asleep.

The first to rise was Elijah.

“Wow….”

Elijah grumbled and snuggled deeper into his embrace.

Then he hugs you even in your sleep.

The warm temperature of my naked skin under the blanket feels cozy.

Elijah enjoyed the body heat and lingering breath with a hazy mind that had just woken up.

He doesn’t seem to want to sleep anymore and doesn’t seem to wake up.

After waking up from the lingering pain, Elijah slowly opened his eyes.

His face can be seen when he slightly raises his head.

I observed him closely while he was sleeping.

I was curious about what the child born between him and himself would look like.

‘A child who resembles Judah and me…’ .’

I don’t know, but I’m sure it’s lovely.

‘I can’t wait to meet you.’

With happy thoughts, Elijah snuggled into his wide chest.

I want it.

Him and his new family.

I expressed that I wanted it, but this is a kind of metaphor.

She knows that children are not her parents’ property.

She thinks she shouldn’t do that.

Children are people close to their parents, not dependent entities.

It must be an entity that can stand independently.

‘Are they parents…? .’

It may still be a long way off, but I am planning to become a parent.

What are parents?

It is difficult.

Dictionary definitions and common sense evaluations are meaningless.

Since she has to become a parent herself, she must know her parents herself.

‘… I don’t know.’

The time I was loved by Maria was too short.

She hadn’t been around long enough to know what her parents were, although she had strong enough memories to hold on to that time.

Balak is too annoying to think about.

Elijah slowly gathered her thoughts.

‘Parents…. ‘It’s a child’s world.’

People are beings that cannot grow and become complete on their own.

Experience the world through others.

Experiences are internalized and constitute the person.

Through the constructed worldview, people experience the world again, and that experience is also internalized again.

And parents are the first strangers and world that a person experiences after birth.

‘It must be a trustworthy world.’

For a child to grow up properly, the role of parents as the first step is important.

‘What does it mean to be trustworthy?’

Basic human problems directly related to survival.

We need to solve food, clothing, and shelter issues.

Must be able to protect against external threats.

First of all, Elijah and Judah meet two conditions.

Emperor and State Book.

There is no shortage of food, clothing, and shelter.

External threats.

He is the emperor and grand wizard who can control the world.

Judah, a knight who transcended the human realm.

This is also not a problem.

‘With that alone, can you say you are a trustworthy parent?’

I shake my head.

Not enough.

I know absolutely nothing about children, parents, and parenting.

‘I need to study.’

I just conquered the Demon World and have some time left.

In the meantime, Elijah resolved to study parenting.

*

“Study… ?”

Judas woke up and was brought to Elijah before he could even wake up.

The place we arrived at was the study of the imperial palace.

“Wow. We’re not ready to become parents yet. “There is a lot of time between getting pregnant and having a baby, so you have to study during that time.”

“Umm….”

Judah rubbed her sleepy eyes and followed her lead.

‘Study…. ‘Ellie is right.’

She was vague about having children.

He and Elijah are already extremely strong and have a lot of power.

He was also ready to love his descendants.

I thought that was enough for the child to grow up.

‘Well…. ‘That’s not necessarily true.’

It reminded me of the alienated children I saw when I worked at the gym.

‘A proper parent…’ . ‘It’s difficult.’

Judah does not even know her name, let alone what her parents look like.

A life that started with being abandoned in a subway station storage box.

The word parent is very common in the world and he has experienced it many times through others, but it was not present in his life.

I organized my thoughts and woke up mentally.

“Ellie is right. However…. “How do you study your parents?”

“You can’t study the parents, but you can study the child.”

Elijah stopped in the middle of a bookshelf.

The book she wanted was up there.

But, I can’t reach the key.

“… “Take it out.”

Elijah, who was about to tiptoe, timidly asked.

Judah stroked her head and laughed.

“There is a baby here.”

“No….”

The book I took out was a book on parenting theory.

“It’s about parenting….”

If you know about your child, you will have an idea of what kind of parent you should be.

“That’s right. “There is no theory of parenthood, but there is a theory of childcare.”

“Wow. “It’s not enough to just read one book, so you have to read a lot of different things.”

“Hmm….”

Although she agreed, her head still hurts thinking about reading the book.

“Don’t worry. If it’s difficult, I’ll study and let Yuda know. “You’ve done it once before.”

5 Years ago.

Judah learned to read from Elijah.

“I got scolded a lot….”

Elijah grinned mischievously at those words.

“I’m going to scold you a lot this time too.”

“… !”

For some reason, I wanted to get scolded, Judah thought.

*

There is a concept called parenting theory, but Elijah did not like it.

Some parts were helpful and relatable, but some parts were not.

‘This is a bit….’

For example.

If a child asks for help, she should not blindly follow and should be left to solve the problem on her own.

‘The goal is to improve the child’s independence…’ . Does this make sense? There are definitely areas that a child cannot do. Above all, if you do that, you will build a trusting relationship with your parents….’

Elijah realized that her own thinking was out of sync with this era.

The influence was the memory of Judah.

In the world where he lived, the concept of children’s rights existed.

There is nothing like that here.

‘With the knowledge of this world…. ‘It won’t work.’

Most of the parts that felt objectionable in child-rearing theory were consistent with Balak’s educational policy.

That alone was enough proof that this book cannot be trusted.

Although progress was slower than Elijah, Judah also felt a similar sense of discomfort.

“The contents of this book are a bit strange. When educating children, they must be treated with clear rewards and severe punishments, just like livestock. We must make it clear that parents’ authority and rank are superior in the family… ? Umm… ?”

“That’s my opinion too. “It’s not that there isn’t helpful content, but there’s a lot to filter out.”

Elijah never wanted to raise her child that way.

It was the same with Judah.

She quickly flipped through the book she was reading and then put it aside.

“You don’t want to read it?”

“Huh? Ah. “I read it all.”

“… “That short bird?”

“Wow. Rather than reading thoroughly, you can take only the necessary parts and skip the rest. “You can read something like that quickly.”

Judah shrugged her shoulders in response to her calm response.

It would only hurt her own head to follow her genius.

Elijah took out her new notebook and started writing her down.

Judah, who was slowly losing focus, quietly put away her book and became interested in her.

“What should you write?”

“Judas information in her head.”

It is not surprising that Elijah can open her memories of her past like a dictionary.

“Is there something about parenting education in my head?”

“It’s not like there’s nothing at all, right? “You were quite interested in kids.”

“Ah. But…. “I see.”

The curiosity and doubts she had while taking care of the children at the gym.

It wasn’t long or deep, but it was enough to provide information that Elijah could use at the moment.

“And because information can be collected indirectly. The emotions Judah felt while looking at her children. Perspectives and atmosphere on children throughout society. The way in which incidents involving children are handled, and the public’s attitude and level of interest in them. Things like that.”

Literally, Elijah was gathering as much second-hand information as he could about the entire world he had experienced.

“… ….”

Judas quietly admired her side.

She was a genius. She knew it more than five years ago.

But even after five years, she still encounters her genius anew.

I wrote it down randomly and then organized it.

After scattering it here and there, I gather it again and organize it.

After repeating the action several times, Elijah ended with one word.

“Attachment?”

Those were her last words.

“Wow. This is the most important. “Formation of attachment between parents and children.”

A baby is a being thrown into life.

They cannot achieve anything just by being born.

Therefore, parents must guide them and become a reliable support source.

“People constantly learn and internalize the external world. For example, let’s say you’re cooking. You can make trouble-free dishes only if you use fresh ingredients. But what if you use ingredients that are spoiled or have hygiene issues? “If you eat it, you will end up with a dish that is harmful to your health.”

Life is no different from that.

As people internalize the reactions of others, they gradually form a world view to fit their own lives.

“To use an analogy, parents should be the first ingredient and a healthy dish in themselves. Through that dish, I can have faith in the dishes I will eat in the future. What if the first time I eat the dish, my stomach boils and I even vomit?”

“I won’t want to eat food from then on.”

“That’s right.”

Therefore, parents must provide trust as a first experience and be a pillar on which children can return and lean on at any time.

Elijah summarized the relationship between parents and children with the word ‘attachment.’

“You need to form an attachment relationship. It’s not difficult. “Parents just need to prove that they can give it to their child at any time.”

“I need to develop independence and reverse the neglectful behavior.”

“That’s right. However, that affection cannot be excessive.”

Excessive love makes people arrogant.

Elijah had experienced such nobles countless times.

A representative example is Sarah.

She loved even Narsisi and Balak as much as her youngest child, Sarah.

As a result of pouring love on her recklessly, she grew up to be an extremely arrogant person.

“Does this mean we have to stick to the middle path? .”

“That’s right. In the end, everything in the world is a matter of degree.”

“It’s the most difficult.”

An appropriate level that is neither too much nor too little.

The standard of appropriateness is different for each person, so it is very difficult to know the appropriate line.

“Wow. “But I still have to do it.”

Judas also agreed with that.

Elijah used the word ‘attachment’ as a standard.

I thought of and organized the things that came to mind about what I should do to become a good parent.

In the meantime, Judah finished reading the book.

I remembered the helpful parts and appropriately filtered out the parts that were not.

Meanwhile.

“… Ellie?”

Elijah suddenly shook her shoulders and began to cry.

“What’s wrong? Huh?”

She wiped her face and shook her head.

“Well…. I do not know…. Just….”

The content organized in the notebook was about the formation of attachment relationships between parents and children.

The more I organized it, the more I realized how important love and trust are.

And in her role, she was reminded of her own childhood.

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She had to become dignified early on, and had to work hard every day without worrying about what others thought.

A young day when I was miserably ignored and bullied.

She has never thought of it that way.

Elijah felt sorry for herself at this moment.

Judah hugged her and patted her as she could not continue speaking.

“It’s okay, it’s okay.”

What he said as he hugged himself after crawling into her bed when she was young.

It’s okay.

When he says that, it really becomes okay.

Even in those pitiful times, there was light.

The light that shines ahead and protects your side.

Elijah leaned into his arms.

“Everything is okay now.”

Judah grabbed her by the waist and lifted her up and placed her on his knees.

Elijah was not only not loved enough by her parents, but was also treated harshly.

For her, having a child had a special meaning to her.

Judah wanted to comfort her and help her cheer up.

“Would you like me to kiss you?”

“Ugh….”

Elijah enjoyed the feel of his lips all over her face.

I was crying just now, but now I started laughing.

“What about me? Should I go back to the afterlife and scold them?”

“That’s not possible. Don’t go.”

“Okay. I won’t go. “I’m not going anywhere.”

In that patting hand.

At the sound of her reassuring voice, Elijah quickly regained her peace.

“Should we stop here today?”

“No…. “I can continue.”

“Okay, okay. “You can’t overdo it.”

“Hung.”

Elijah had to be strong in order to prevent a case like hers from being passed down to the next generation.

She relies on Judah, and she is willing to do so.

Elijah hugged her tightly to her chest and kissed her.

“I love you. Judah.”

“I love you too, Ellie.”

Even if she sometimes fell, if she was with him, she could get up as much as she wanted.

*

She decided to have a child and she tried every day.

In front of a book during the day, on the bed at night.

And about three weeks passed.

May, who diagnosed Elijah, said with a smile.

“Your Majesty. Congratulations.”

“That means….”

“It has been confirmed that you are pregnant.”

“… !”

Judah, who was also listening to the story, was surprised.

Soon Elijah and Judah’s widened eyes met in surprise.

The two reflexively hugged each other.

May quietly moved out of her way.

Before I knew it, Elijah was sobbing.

“Oh my gosh, I’ve become a crybaby.”

“No….”

His voice was choked, and for some reason tears kept flowing from his eyes.

Judas patted her on the back.

“It’s okay. “It will go well in the future.”

His words were miraculous, so Elijah believed that it would indeed happen.

“Ugh….”

There was still a lot to study and prepare to welcome a new family member.