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I envied their men.

It was heartless to think that my men could have avoided this meaningless dog death if they had met someone who was better than me.

My subordinates would have to prepare for battle according to my order, and they would also die by my order.

And so long as I can’t couldn’t reverse the prince’s orders, I had no choice but to deliver them.

Have you ever felt so helpless in your life?

I felt as if I had been besieged everywhere.

“Your Highness the Prince, please, do you really mean…”

“Shut up. Stiana. Shut that mouth. Eileen says I can do it, but you’ve been going against me to the end. Am I funny to you!”

The prince shouted angrily.


That’s how the story always goes.

“No, Your Highness. I can’t do that?”

“Get out. Get out there and get ready for battle. Bear in mind. You’re my knight. You’ve swore to protect myself all your life. You’d better stay up all night. I’m so glad the moon is bright today. There’s no way we can march.”

I didn’t know what the benefits of night-time work were.

Hiding a deep sigh to myself, I came out before him.

It was only the noise I made that spread through the silent, still place.

I thought these were places that I would never see again, so none of them just passed by.

With all my doubts in mind, I went to the empty room.

Being there for a while, blankly I gazed into the dark void.

It was time to make a decision.

I’ve been putting it off for too long.

At first, he wasn’t like this either.

He listened to me quite a bit and wanted to learn from me.

-You think it’s possible for me to be the strongest king on the continent, since Stiana is my knight? I’ll be as strong as Stiana, so teach me. Don’t give up even if I’m slow. I’ll do it properly till the end.

-You can do the work of your Majesty. No one’s sword will dare to turn towards your Majesty.

Before Eileen had appeared and hooked him, though unhelpful, everything he had done did not put us in such danger.

That was all I wanted him to do.

-Your Prince is Stiana’s subordinate? Why does the Prince listen to Stiana? The Royal Knights apparently belonged to Stiana. At this rate, isn’t the throne going to be taken by Stiana instead of by your Majesty?

Earl Umbert’s foster daughter, Eileen, incessantly stimulated his inferiority complex and he was defenseless against it.

She deftly distorted the truth.

Only small parts of what Eileen would say were true.

As she said though, the knights followed my words and obeyed my orders absolutely.

They always carried out my operations perfectly and we shared the joy of victory together.

At least this was not the case when the prince rejoiced with our victory together.

But from some point on soon, he’s no longer going to see us win and survive.

It occurred to me that I didn’t want that.

When he made an unreasonable demand to march in the name of a tour and drove us into the enemy camp countless times, I lost over twenty or so men.

And right now, I was just about to think that maybe he was trying to exterminate the rest of us left.

Ever since I had become the commander of his knights, rumors have been rife that I might like him.

But I have never once liked him.

He didn’t have any qualities or something else I could admire.

The heart to sacrifice for his subordinates, the courage to make decisions even if he is cursed.

What he could proclaim is his picture-like face and the status as a prince, but unfortunately, those things didn’t have much effect on me.

I was resentful, who had liked it that I had passed the entrance examination of the Royal Knights.

I also felt sorry for myself, who was once delighted to be the commander of the Knights.

Rather, if someone other than me had become the commander of the knights, my men would not have been driven to death so meaninglessly.

My mouth is dry.

I want to drink water, but it didn’t seem like it was too soon.

‘…’

I finished thinking by myself and took off my jacket.

I unwound the bandages around my wounds several times, but the shirt was dry with blood.

The dried-up blood looked like a monster sticking to my body.

Scenes that I didn’t want to think came to my mind.

The appearance of my subordinates who were proud of me, cheering and rejoicing that they reached achievements and finally crossed the wall.

They said they were really happy to meet the leader.

Most of them have been together since the academy.

Their names and faces were about to come to mind, so I shook my head like crazy.

The majority had already died, and all those who were still alive would soon be placed on the list tomorrow morning.

I tried to clench my teeth, tear off the bandage, and wrap my wounds with a new bandage.

Even at dawn, I felt that I wasn’t under pressure properly being alone.

The bandage that was wrapped up fell to the floor and was released without help.

“Ugh!”

As I bent over to pick up the bandage, the pain came on.

It seemed that the wound had opened.

I chewed my lower lip and spit out a short moan.

Rather, I was quite grateful for such pain.

I was glad to be distracted by it.

When I picked up the bandage and wound it up again, the door opened and a stream of cold wind came in and I heard a thud.

With only the sound of footsteps thumping could tell me who it was.

He opened the door without knocking and took the bandage from my hand.

“Don’t be foolish and call me to help do this. If not me, then there are a lot of other people who will do it gladly!”

It was Ren, an out-of-control Thinking Man of the Knights, who shot out with an angry, blunt voice.

From the moment he first came into view I looked around.

He identified my meaning first and followed orders like my own alter ego.

A bunch of out of control accidents.

It certainly was, but now that word didn’t apply to him.

Even in the dark, his fair features and beautiful eyes did not lose their light.

“Done.”

“That’s enough for me. Just stay still. ‘Cause I’m not here to steal a peek at you.”

There was no time for bickering, no time for shame.

He pressed and wrapped the wound appropriately and tied it to a knot.

And he helped put a shirt on me.

I tried to put my arm in, but I couldn’t raise it properly.

At the moment of pause he would have guessed my current condition.

I pretended to be okay, clenched my teeth and raised my arms.

“While you’re at it, please put on a jacket.”

He buttoned up the shirt.

“You can’t leave in this state. You won’t even be able to lift the sword. Get out this time. You don’t trust us?”

“Give me a jacket.”

“Commander!”

“Then you are complaining? Are you telling me to disobey the king’s orders?”

I glared at him fiercely as he held out the jacket and I put my arm in it.

“Ren. I believe you. Because I taught you myself.”

The first meeting with him came to mind.

If it weren’t for me, the Academy’s top spot would have been his.

He stood up like a huge wall and ran on endlessly saying he didn’t like me, and everytime he challenged me I accepted.

And each time he was beaten to a mess and suffered innumerable sword strikes, yet he did not once give up.

“At that time, you. It was also difficult to watch.”

“Don’t lie.”

“Ren. I trust myself, so I trust you. Come back safely and change my bandages in the evening. Please.”

I tried to pat him on the shoulder pretending to be okay, but it would have been better not to.

I frowned unconsciously because I was so sick from the little movement.

It’s me who’s sick, but his forehead is wrinkled.

“Don’t frown. You’ll get wrinkles on your pretty face.”

His fingers pressed my forehead, and he looked at me.

“I’ll change it in the evening. Buy it. Definitely!”

“Of course. Even if everyone else dies, I will live.”

He laughed playfully and poisoned his arms.

“Yes. Really. Please do so.”

I don’t think I will have any chance to talk about this later, but should I say it now?

I’ve had a lot to thank him for.

However, after some hesitation, I just left the room.

A long sigh followed behind me.

From the moment I entered the Knights after becoming the prince’s chosen, I was destined to receive the sword flying toward him with my body.

It wasn’t scary.

Even if it doesn’t mean anything, it was something that I alone decided.

But Eileen was trying to endlessly endanger them for being my men.

I couldn’t let my men be driven to a cliffedge just because they met me.

Who wants to die?

Had there been another way, I would have found another way.

But no matter how much I thought, there was only one thing I could do.

“The wind is cool.”

Deliberately trying to show courage, I muttered to myself what no one else heard.

After I settled my mind, I felt more comfortable.

The time of fate was approaching silently.

 

*

 

As I headed to the barracks where I had ordered them to convene, I heard Eileen and the prince’s laughter from the building where the prince was resting.

There was also the sound of the guards that Eileen had brought with her were also noisy and drunk.

They were celebrating prematurely.

It occurred to me that perhaps they were celebrating my impending death, because it couldn’t be our victory.

Suddenly, my footsteps became heavier, and I forced myself forward.

I walked cheerfully as if something was pleasing.

This is only my burden to shoulder.

I didn’t mean to share it with others.

 

*

 

My men crowded into the barracks that arrived first at one after another.


I could hardly hear the sound of footsteps as I was running fast.

They moved in groups, but the movements were like one.

It was the result of rigorous training.

‘At first, they were clumsily blushing and screaming at each other.’

Recalling the thought made me smile.

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Now they could move like my own limbs and carry out the operation.

 

 

AHhhhhh WTF is this still!? I need to know…… Is Lint the Father?!? (insert murray meme)

I’m sorry Stiana but could you die already? I have a paradox going on with how the dad… It’s set up like Lint gonna be your daddy but he has 20yo twin sons and at the start of ch1 a little 3yo claimed to be your older brother!? I need to knowwwwwwwwwwwww… plz

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