The Tyrant Gentle Husband

Everything his mother said was right. Nexus was smiling, but he felt anxious in his heart.

Nexus felt nothing was forever. If there is a meeting, there will also be a farewell.​​

Nexus always thought negatively about his family. It was not because he didn't believe in them.

Nexus is very afraid that one day he will have to lose everything he has, just like when his parents died.

Losing his family was the hardest thing for Nexus. Losing his parents in an accident left an unhealed wound in his heart.

Nexus will still cry every time he remembers his late parents. Nexus was guilty because he acted like a sensible child when he wanted to act like a spoiled baby.

His guilt makes him upset when he recalls his memory with them every time.

Nexus really misses them so much all this time. Nexus never forgets to visit Nexus's late parents in the private cemetery.

His new family also follows him to visit his late parents. Nexus knew in his heart that his new family loves him so much, but he can't forget the pain when he lost his parents.

Nexus doesn't want to have these feelings in his heart, but he can't control his heart at all.

Nexus is happy with his new family because he doesn't only have new parents. He also has siblings.

Nexus also has new grandparents and a group of uncles and aunts. Nexus's parents were the only child of his grandparents, so Nexus didn't have any uncles and aunts.

Nexus didn't have grandparents in the past because they left this world before his mother gave birth to him.

Nexus was the only child, so he also didn't have any siblings in his life.

Nexus was happy when he came to this mansion for the first time, and he also felt anxious at the same time.

The old butler used to be his mother & father's servant. The old butler decided to follow him to the Harlexis family mansion, and the Harlexis family didn't mind about it.

Nexus doesn't want to lose his family again, and it is why he built a wall.

He doesn't want to be alone anymore because it is painful. Nexus was crying nonstop after he heard his mother's statement.

Nexus tried hard to stop crying, but he couldn't stop his tears. Nexus felt relieved because his fear & anxiety finally vanished from his heart at this moment.

Morlan and Laxus also tried hard to hold their tears because this moment was really touching. Morlan and Laxus tried to remember that a man couldn't cry at all.

As the family's head & the family's successor, Morlan & Laxus wanted to show their family that they are not whiny.

But Morlan and Laxus still shed tears in silence while Lamina was crying without saying anything.

Everyone wants Nexus to open his heart more to them. Nexus lowered his head, and then he raised his head to see his family's face.

He saw his family's face was full of tears. Nexus opened his mouth first.

"I am sorry, Dad, Mom, older brother. I never expected all of you found out about my anxiety.

I don't want to lose my family anymore for the second time. 

Even though I realize we can't live forever because sooner or later, we also will die.

Human life is short, so we have to make the best use of it. 

I don't know what to do if you don't need me anymore in your life if I do whatever I want.

I always want to act like a baby, not because to get your heart. I felt guilty towards my parents because I never acted like a baby with them.

I was always a sensible child because I knew they worked hard for my future life.

I didn't want to bother them too much. I didn't want my parents to feel tired to face me because I wanted to spend more time with them.

I wanted them to go to work with a happy heart without thinking about me at home.

I tried to be a sensible child because I love them, but it also made me feel lonely day by day.

I acted like a baby with Dad and Mom because I could do it with my parents.

I feel guilty about it. I feel like I make use of you to erase the guilt in my heart for my late parents.

I also acted like a baby so that you can't throw me away if I made a mistake.

I am jealous of big brother & Alex because they are biological sons while I don't have any parents anymore.

I was so angry at them because they never wanted to act like a baby towards Dad and Mom.

It was why I filled their position to act like a baby so that Dad and Mom wouldn't ask them to do something they didn't want.

I didn't want to accept the family business shares because I felt an adoptive child needed to remember his position.

I didn't want everyone to think of me as an ungrateful adoptive son if I accepted the shares.

Everyone would think I only want your money. Everyone would think I wished to fight as the successor with the older brother.

I didn't want them to think like that about me. 

I refused to use our family's name when I stepped into the entertainment circle because I didn't want them to think I am so arrogant even though I am just an adoptive child, not the biological one.

They would think an adoptive child didn't have the right to be arrogant like the biological one.

It would make me upset because all this time, I consider myself as the biological one even though I am only an adoptive child of you," Nexus said with a sobbing voice.

"I really wanted to erase this anxiety a long time ago. 

I know big brother would always fight with Alex in front of me so that they wouldn't hurt each other.

I also know Alex would always listen to my advice over big brother's words because I have a calm manner.

The big brother always liked to use anger when he gave Alex a piece of advice.

It was why Alex refused to hear the first brother's advice. Alex doesn't like to hear someone's advice when they use anger in their words.

I love my new family, and I also feel anxious at the same time. I always wonder if they also feel the same thing as me because we barely talk about this matter in a family gathering," Nexus added.

Morlan, Lamina, and Laxus were sobbing in silence when they heard Nexus's confession about what he felt all this time.

Nexus barely talked about his feelings to them, and they always felt Nexus was hiding his true feelings deep within his heart.

Morlan and Laxus were trying hard to hold their tears, but they couldn't do it any longer.

Everyone felt they would wake up in the morning with red eyes because they cried too much.

Nexus is jealous of Laxus and Alex because they are the biological sons of his adoptive parents. But it doesn't make him have a malicious heart.

Nexus understands why he feels unbearable jealousy towards them. It is because of his status as the adoptive son.

He gets jealous easier than any other biological siblings in another family. 

When you have siblings, you will also feel jealous if your older siblings get more attention from your parents.

Someone said jealousy in the family is not abnormal because no one doesn't like to get more attention from their parents.

You can get jealous, but you can't hurt your siblings because of jealousy.

Don't use jealousy as an excuse to badmouth someone or to hurt someone.

No evil can win over good. No lie can win over honesty.

No matter how good you lie to make someone get a bad name in society, it will not last long.

No lie can last long because sooner or later, the truth will get revealed.

Everyone who initially believed in you, one by one, would stay away from you because you have a malicious heart.

No matter how hard you tried to explain everything to them, they won't believe in a liar like you for a second time.

His adoptive parents never favoritism one of them. His Dad and Mom will still treat them equally, even though Alex always makes them get a headache, they never treat him differently.

Morlan and Lamina are good parents who never differentiate between the biological one and the adoptive one.

Small Teather:

Nexus: *Crying nonstop.

Violet: You need to stop crying at this moment. Your eyes will get red.

Nexus: au...au...au...au..au.aa.uuu.aauu...au..auu...u..uuaa. *Nexus can't speak because he talked while crying.

Violet: I know you feel touched because all of your family members love you.

Nexus: aaauu.. awa awu awu... awa..awuu..wuuuwuu..

Violet: It is natural for them to say you are their precious son and sibling. No family will think otherwise. They never think of you as an adoptive one since the beginning.

Violet: I also feel anxious when my grandparents from the maternal side bring me back home for the first time.

Nexus: aauu. awawawa. awuwuwuwu awuuwuwu awawaaauuu. *Unclear noises

Violet: Even though I am their biological granddaughter, I never met them before. My mother got married to my father without my grandparent's permission. 

Violet: It is normal to feel strange because we have never met each other before. You are luckier than me. You met up with your godparents even before your parents died.

Violet: I had to experience hell before I met up with my grandparents.

Nexus: Awuwuu. *Unclear sentences.

Violet: I accept your apologies.

Morlan, Lamina, Laxus, and Alex: "..."

Morlan, Lamina, Laxus, and Alex didn't know why Violet could understand what Nexus was saying all the time.