152 Scared of women

***[Bernt, father of the main character]***

A person’s mind is changeable.

I realized that when I first met my wife.

I thought I wouldn’t be moved at all by a woman other than Bianca, but my heart rang at the beauty of my wife.

Maybe that’s what made him even colder to his wife.

It was only now that I came to think that it might have been because I was afraid of moving my heart.

Bernd looked closely at his son Oscar’s face as they talked.

The image of the father and the image of the wife are included in Oscar.

And, of course, your own face.

‘My only child.’

If it’s short, if it’s short, if it’s long, what the hell is left of a long human life?

You can’t go to the grave with money on your back.

The same goes for someone you once loved.

That person will eventually live after another love and value when I die.

There is no complete mine.

There is not even a trace left in this world that I was alive.

When you die, it’s over.

In the meantime, only blood will remain.

My son, my blood, proof that I was once alive.

My only child… Oscar.

“…”

Dennis did nothing wrong.

It was Bianca that was at fault, not Dennis.

know.

I know enough.

I still have the level I’ve raised so far, and I have a desire in my own way that I want the child to live a peaceful life.

‘but….’

lack.

That alone couldn’t fill the empty space in my heart.

The moment he truly recognized that Dennis was not his biological son, his heart raced toward Oscar, who was far away.

my child.

my bloodline.

Proof that I am alive on this earth.

If you say that it was a peaceful time just thinking about that child in this hellish mansion, it’s really funny to yourself.

He was the child I hated until this day came, but he didn’t even look at me, but the moment I thought that bloodline was the same thing, my heart changed like this.

Thinking that way, I felt sorry for seeing Dennis this time.

Because of that, I couldn’t even meet face to face recently.

I know Dennis is hurt by it, but I can’t help it.

In addition to the guilt, I feel anger when I see him, like I’m going to say, “He’s not my son.”

Even with my own mind, I couldn’t help it.

“… Please treat my mother and everyone else kindly.

Hearing Katrin’s voice, Bernd returned his gaze to that direction.

This is not the time to stare blankly at Oscar.

Someday, not now, but in a few years, this cute daughter-in-law will have a grandchild.

Thinking about it made the skin on my face tickle for some reason.

It didn’t go well with Oscar from the beginning.

But grandchildren are different.

No matter what’s inside Oscar, on the outside he treats himself as the father of the head of state, so if he says he wants to meet his grandson, he won’t keep saying no.

Seeing that you came today, you might be able to live in a relationship of your own.

It seems that he was laughing at Katrin without realizing it.

Suddenly, when he came to his senses, everyone was looking at him.

No Oscar, no Bianca and Dennis.

The atmosphere got a little awkward.

“Father, later, I want to show you the monster me and Oscar-sama are raising. He’s looking around the pond now, but he’ll probably be back here by the time the dinner is over. He’s a very cute kid.”

Catherine smiled and spoke to him.

“Yes, yes. Raising a demon is a rare thing.”

Responding to Katrin’s words, Oscar smiled bitterly.

“I must apologize in advance. He may have been bothering the fish in the pond.”

The conversation continued.

Until a little while ago, it was just a formal conversation.

The weather, the weather, the weather.

However, thanks to Katrin’s remarks after seeing the subtle atmosphere, the conversation went a little more personal.

It seems that Oscar, who seems gentle but never allowed his heart at all, has collapsed a little.

Thanks to Catherine.

My eyes narrowed in joy.

Wrinkles formed at the corners of the eyes.

At that moment, a sharp sound broke the atmosphere.

It’s Bianca.

It seems that he deliberately bumped into the tableware while setting the silver cup down.

Some food splattered from the plate in front of her.

There are no examples like this.

“Bianca!”

When Bernd called out softly, Bianca twisted the corners of her lips and smiled.

“Oh, I’m sorry. I’m from a lowly position, so I can’t act like noble people.”

“Be careful what you say!”

Bernd was nervous and shouted in a small voice, but Bianca’s mouth did not shut.

“Why? Are you ashamed to be with a woman like this?”

“…you!”

“I’m sorry, but I’m originally a lowly person.”

Bianca lowered her eyes.

On the surface, it seems stagnant, but in reality it is a mockery of Bernd and Oscar Bianca.

They do it on purpose to ruin this place.

Recently, as the relationship has become rough, there have been many booing like this.

“…You! You!”

Anyway, we’ve been together for decades.

Bianca was sure he would never leave her.

So you can do whatever you want.

Because he always thought that Bernd was his.

Even if we don’t get along well, even if we fight, I know that I won’t let go forever.

Of course, in reality, there are circumstances that she doesn’t know, so it has no choice but to do so.

As I thought so, the anger that had barely been suppressed in my heart welled up again.

He knows all of her faults, knowing that Dennis is not my bloodline, knowing her infidelity, but living patiently like this to protect the lives of two people.

Why can’t you be patient! why!

Why don’t you know that being quiet at the meeting with Oscar is for yourself!

Oscar can make himself, Bianca, and Dennis miserable if he wants to, so why doesn’t he know that?

Even if he never cheated on his child with another man as being from the duke’s family, Oscar can kick Bianca as much as he wants.

There is not one or two ways.

Bianca is under the illusion that Bernd is something special because he is Oscar’s father, but in fact, everything can fall apart with Oscar’s words.

It is possible without revealing it to the outside world.

Thinking he couldn’t let Bianca go any longer, Bernd stood up, but Katrin suddenly opened her mouth.

“father.”

“…”

Katrin tilted her head with a smile as if she hadn’t seen the scene from before.

Oscar was looking at her with interest.

“I have a wife who is interested in painting. She is a woman and has a delicate skill to be called a painter, so she has no sponsors yet. I saw today that the garden here is very beautiful, and the wife enjoys painting this kind of landscape. “

Catherine tilted her head slightly and looked at Oscar.

“I’d like to support the lady. Is that all right, Oscar?”

Oscar smiled and narrowed his eyes.

“Of course, Catherine. Do as you please.”

“Thank you. But the wife has recently lost her husband and hates crowded places… I wonder if a place like this can heal her heart, too?”

Catherine looked at Bernd as if in trouble.

Something is strange.

What she is talking about probably means a lover pretending to be a sponsor.

If you sponsor a single wife, that’s usually the case.

Inviting a man to a mansion as a patron meant 100% that.

But those were not the words to come out of such a young, naive-looking woman.

It’s usually a man talking to a woman secretly.

If you become my lover, you will support my life.

Anyway, the head of the family and his wife suggested doing so.

I couldn’t deny it here.

“…uh….”

Bernd opened his mouth a little embarrassed.

“That… That’s… as long as you’re okay with this mansion.”

“Thank you, Father.”

Catherine smiles broadly with an innocent face.

After all, Catherine didn’t seem to know what a woman’s patron was.

Maybe it’s because he’s still young.

Bernd smiled bitterly, but Bianca’s shrill voice rang out.

“dare!”

I jumped up to stop her before she could say anything, but Katrin was faster.

Katrin banged on the table with her fan.

It seems that it was not a common material.

The sound of iron hitting hard wood resonated sharply throughout the banquet hall.

All eyes turned to Catherine.

Bianca seems surprised too.

I opened my eyes and looked at Catherine.

“Did you say Bianca. Shut up!”

huh?

Is that woman the daughter-in-law who smiled innocently just before?

Bernd closed and opened his eyes in a blink of an eye, and Oscar also opened his eyes wide and looked at Catherine.

Even Oscar, who has always been cold-hearted, seems a bit surprised.

Katrin turned her gaze toward Benno, the butler.

“Butler, can you escort this woman outside?”

“What! What in my house now!”

Bianca grabbed the glass.

It must have been intended to pour it on Katrin.

Doing so would cause an uproar.

It just doesn’t end.

But almost as soon as Bianca took the glass, the attendants around her grabbed her arm.

“Let go! What are you doing! Bernt-sama!”

Bianca struggled and looked at him.

But Bernd couldn’t say anything.

Although they are servants who work in this house, they are always servants of the Duke’s family.

Of course, the words of the head of the household and the hostess took precedence.

Bianca’s words are useless.

Bernd’s words, of course.

Dennis panicked and tried to get up, but the attendants were standing behind him.

Dennis stopped moving.

Meanwhile, Benno approached Bianca and held out his hand.

“I’ll take you outside. Please.”

Bianca, trembling, tried to open her mouth again, but Benno continued.

“If you continue to stay here, ignoring your wife’s words, we will have no choice but to bring you out by force. Of course, you will also be silenced.”

“…”

Butler Benno’s atmosphere is frightening.

Although he was smiling, his eyes were very cold, and he contained hatred that made his spine tremble just by looking at him.

Without saying anything, Bianca turned her head and glared at Catherine.

But Katrin had already turned her attention to Bianca.

“I think my father will be very pleased when he meets her. She is a very elegant and beautiful person. I met her when I was young.”

As if she had forgotten that Bianca was even here, Katrin let out a lovely voice like a bird of prey.

“… uh, yeah. I’m really looking forward to it too.”

Anyway, I have no choice but to follow what Katrin does.

When no one has a voice in her work, Bianca is forced to leave the dinner table, led by Benno.

Bernd glanced at Bianca’s furious back and returned his gaze to Catherine.

“…”

Catherine’s figure is still bright.

He told a funny story about his wife who likes art and is probably looking for a lover.

If you just listen to her story, she seems to be a very witty and strong woman.

Wouldn’t she be the exact opposite of Annette, who is quiet and chaste?

As I listened to Katrin’s words, I suddenly thought that what had just happened was a dream.

It seems like nothing happened.

I’m not joking, just looking at Katrin made me feel like nothing had really happened.

It doesn’t look like right after he forcibly pulled out his father-in-law’s lover.

“…”

For some reason, the incongruity made me very afraid.

No matter how short a banquet in aristocratic society is, three or four hours are standard.

Because of that, I usually take a break or two in the middle.

Everyone should eat cheaply, and women need time to fix or check their appearance.

Bernt also called in musicians for that purpose.

After some time passed and the musicians played music, Catherine quietly rose from her seat.

Watching Catherine walk away with the lady-in-waiting, Bernd spoke to Oscar.

“You are a good wife.”

“…yes. She’s doing very well.”

“I was surprised when I kicked Bianca out earlier.”

“…”

I think it was the same with Oscar.

Thinking about it, I laughed quietly.

The atmosphere flowing between the two in the middle of the music sound is somehow cozy.

Bernd stayed still and said in a low voice.

“Maybe I should have done that right away.”

I’m talking about Bianca’s work.

Had she done that, Bianca might not have strayed that far.

If his father had reacted a little more forcefully, if he had been wiser, if Annette had a strong and hard heart, Bianca would not have been a soloist.

It’s because it’s not the status and position that can be like that in the first place.

A father who hesitated thinking of his children, Annette who killed herself for the sake of her husband’s face and family, and herself who just wondered about her lover.

Of course, you are the one who is wrong.

I made others suffer because I was not straight.

‘I understand now.’

I don’t know if Bianca’s situation would have been better if she had been a little stronger and straighter.

Maybe she never thought of having children with another man.

Oscar was silent.

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It’s not friendly, but it doesn’t seem like you hate it too much.

I felt like the father and son of an ordinary aristocrat.

When I saw that, the words came out of nowhere.

“I’m sorry, Oscar. It’s all my fault.”

“…”

While having such a conversation with Oscar, Dennis, who seemed to have something to say throughout the dinner, slipped away.

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